Eyes of the Heart
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Naro/inu'simoto: You see where this is going eh? Maybe I should throw a curve ball in there for you, to throw you off. Who knows
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Everyone: It makes me very happy to know that ppl like my story and even if you don't like it let me know what you think so I can improve it. I take my fans suggestions seriously and who knows how it may be incorporated into the story if it is a good one. Also I am adding a Japanese section, I am starting school in a few weeks and I'm going to be taking Japanese so this will be good practice. Oh and I am a stickler for time, so I try to keep everything in the right time frame so I had to change something said in the last chapter in this chapter, other than that enjoy.
Disclaimer: I do not own Hana Yori Dango or any of its characters; I am just a single writer showing her appreciation of the time and effort it took to create such a wonderful series.
Japanese: onegai shimasu – "please" (polite way of asking)
Chapter 7: Memory lane
"No, this can't be true. I don't believe you Yuki."
"You have to Tsukushi, just meet me at my house before you go see him, I have pictures as proof. You know I have to look after my best friend, and that man is up to no good I tell you. I've seen him come into the Dango shop with lots of different girls and I also think he is involved with a gang. He is trying to play you girl. I wouldn't make something like this up."
"But he told me he loved me. I can't believe it was all a lie."
"He's a lying, sick, worm and he doesn't love you. Just meet me first before you go over there."
"...Uh, okay." (dial tone)
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"Come on Tsukushi, I know you love me and like you said you would do anything for me. Forget what you heard from that friend of yours she's a tramp. She only said those things to get with me."
"But Junpei I saw the pictures and you were in them all."
"They were all fakes, come on hun, I know those virgin eyes of yours would fall out if it was really me. Why would I do anything like that to my baby? You know I love you, and all I ask is that you make a few memories with me. We haven't even kissed yet and I have been patently waiting for you to come around. What do you say babe, meet me tomorrow night and I'm sure we can make wonderful memories."
"But..."
"No buts, you are my world. I would gladly give my heart to you. But how can I do that if you don't trust me. Isn't our relationship supposed to be one built on trust? If you don't trust me than you don't really love me."
"But I do love you."
"So than why don't you trust me, whom will you believe, me or that friend of yours who is just jealous that I choose you over her?
"...You..."
"Good girl, now meet me at the corner of --- after school and I'll come and pick you up. I want to get some great pictures of my baby in her school uniform before she graduates."
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"Him this is the corner of ---. What's taking him so long? Um excuse me sir have you seen a guy around here he is a few years older than me."
"I'm a young guy no need for the sir."
"Oh, I'm so sorry hehe. You see I'm a little nervous, I'm waiting for my fiancé and its getting dark, and soon the only light will be this streetlamp I'm under."
"No need to be nervous, little girl my friend and I will take good care of you."
"Uh...on second thought I think I see him right there. Hey JUNPEI over here."
"Nice trick but there is nobody here but us."
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"No stop please...why are you doing this to me, Junpei where are you please come and help me..."
"Nothing against you girly, we are just photographers. Make sure you grab her hands, tie them up and put on that blindfold...hehe these will make some great pictures."
"Stop, onegai shimasu...oneg- mmph..."
"Yeah, gag her she doesn't need to be heard."
"When we finish the boss told us we could have a little fun with her."
"But only until we are done with the pictures. Hey, lift up her skirt so I can get a few pictures. Yeah just like that and take her shirt off."
"How bout I just rip it a little, adds more drama and grab that a-..."
"No, we can't take any pictures of us touching her."
"Who said we would give him those pics? We can keep them for ourselves."
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"Man the possess he had us put her in were sick. But I'm sure they'll fetch us a good price."
"Junpei is one nasty guy to even want pictures of his fiancé like this."
"Shut Up man, no names. Anyway untie her feet and take the blindfold and gag off. I want to enjoy myself now."
"Aww she looks so defiant with her red tear stained face. It makes my pleasuring giving all the better, I like 'em feisty. Hah- ow she bit me. Grab her Saski before she runs out."
"Ok, oomph s-s-he, k-k-kicked, m-me, in my h-hhppy s-spot r-r-Ryu..." (Groaning)
"No, she just ran out the door, get up off the floor and go after her."
"I ccaann'tt move."
"Crap she's getting away........."
Tsukushi thrashed about in her sleep, whimpering and crying. Tsukasa temporarily disoriented, wondered where he was and who this person next to him, who was obviously having a nightmare, was. All of the night before came upon him in a rush. He held her tighter and rubbed her head and back trying to offer what little comfort he could from the physical contact. She relaxed and returned back to her normal breathing pattern.
He looked down and marveled at how frail and beautiful she seemed as she slept. But looks can be very deceiving he concluded, because this girl who put up a frail mask had a will made of steel. He pulled her back ever so slightly to watch her sleep.
I take it my sight comes in after I sleep; to wake up to her every morning would be a wonderful thing. Funny that this is the first time I ever really paid attention to this little detail in myself. I guess I was too caught up in my misery to even notice or care. Now I wonder who's responsible for this change in me? In just a few days she has changed me so much. I no longer feel as useless or hopeless as I did before. I don't feel as if I'm just viewing life, I feel as if I'm living it.
He gazed at the way her eye lashes dusted her cheeks, which held a faint blush. He took note of her soft breaths, the swell of her breast on his chest, her delicate eyebrows, smooth shoulders and the small pout on her lips glazed with droplets of sweat. He wanted to burn this image into his mind so the next time he lost his sight he would still be able to see her clearly. He caressed her face and was amazed of the softness of her skin.
Why does such a simple thing as watching her sleep cause an ach in me? I want to do more than just touch her face. But it wouldn't be right. 'She wouldn't know if you steal a kiss.' Steal a kiss? But that would mean my first kiss is stolen. 'So, it's just a little peck so it won't count. Plus who else would you rather your first time be with.' I guess it won't hurt.
Tsukasa gently tilted her, closed his eyes and leaned in to give her a feather like kiss.
A LITTLE EARLIER
Oh man what happened last night. Oh yeah I saw Junpei, ran out into the rain, was found by Tsukasa, and feel asleep in the limo. Now how did I get here in the incredibly soft bed? Eh, who cares as long as I get to stay here and next to this warm body.................. BODY!? What the-? Who is this holding me, I'm almost afraid to ask. Why would I be in his bed...unless I had a little too much to drink and I acted so desperate for company that he decided to...no, no, no he wouldn't do that. 'Or would he?' I know I must be blushing but I can't help it. My first time was with a beautiful stranger. Well maybe not a stranger, but a guy I hardly know. Oh mother, please forgive your loose daughter. She has shamed you and tossed aside all that training you gave her. She has now become a woman. I don't even remember it, oh woe is me, woe is me.
He's awake now too I can feel him moving around. I don't want him to know I'm awake. I probably fell asleep snoring loudly. Maybe if I just lay here pretending to be sleep he'll get up and go to the bathroom. Than I'll sneak into my room while he's doing his business, yeah that's a good idea. It'll save me the embarrassment of seeing him when I get- Ack he just touched my face or was that a caress? So I was right we did... maybe he wants more?? I hope he doesn't try anything especially while I'm sleep. No he wouldn't he's not like tha- What the heck!? He tilted my head ohmygodohmygodohmygod he is going to kiss me. No it isn't right even if we did... 'Yes it is let him.' No he doesn't have the right to. 'But you want him to.' He can't just take liberties like this. 'True.' If we kiss it won't be like this.
Tsukushi threw he eyes open and watched Tsukasa move in closer and closer.
"Just what do you think you're doing you pervert?" She said with calm anger.
Startled and embarrassed Tsukasa's eyes snapped open, to look at two beautiful and angry eyes. Before he even had time to think he received a sharp right hook to the face. Tsukushi jumped out the bed and assumed her battle stance, feet spread hands on hips.
"How DARE you try to take advantage of me. Even if we...if we... you know. Yes I'm grateful that you came looking for me last night and ..." she felt a blush creeping up her face. me. But that doesn't give you the right to touch me in anyway you feel, regardless of what we did." She began pacing back and forth.
"How would you like to be felt up while unconscious? I doubt very seriously that you would like it. I mean what kind of man are you to take advantage of a poor defenseless girl?"
Tsukasa just stared at her in complete shock, he was speechless. Actually he didn't really hear anything she said because his attention was captivated not on her words but her actions. Every movement she made caused his face to grow a deeper shade of crimson, until a single drop of blood fell from his nose. He quickly turned his head.
"I wasn't trying to molest you; I was only trying to wake you. But I will if you continue to walk around my room like that."
What is he-...
Suddenly Tsukushi backed onto a soggy lump on the floor the same color as her dress. A warm afternoon breeze drifted in through the window. It chilled her as if she had been on the top of Mount Fuji. That was when she looked down to take note of her attire or lack of.
Now the first phase of her reaction was the paling of her skin as she was paralyzed by shock. The second phase went from pale to flaming red as she was not just embarrassed she was mortified. She ran out the room with the speed of a gazelle and the laugher of a certain Doumyoji Tsukasa trailing in her ears, only to enter and see a Ran over by her desk fixing her papers.
Ran looked at her with both embarrassment and something more.
"I, uh, we got in late you see...and, um..."
"No need to explain madam, I understand completely."
"No you don't understand it's not what you think."
"I'm very sure it's exactly what I think, but the young master will do what he sees fit. I am just a humble servant in this house. Trust me I won't tell a soul."
"Oh thank you Ran, I really appreciate it."
"Not a problem." She walked out the room and closed the door with a little more force than necessary. That detail escaped Tsukushi's notice as she went into the bathroom and took a long shower. Once the steamy water hit her she gave way to a flood of tears. Tears, she though she had shed yesterday.
I can't handle this. My emotions aren't stable enough to continue working here. How am I to help this man if I can not even help myself? He does crazy things to my senses every time he is around. I find myself drawn to him, and unable to stop myself from feeling this way. Mother what am I suppose to do? Am I beginning to like this man? An employee should never get involved with her employer.
Tsukushi stayed in the shower until her skin began to get wrinkled. Upon exiting the bathroom wrapped in a towel she walked out into her room and was greeted by the dark tone of music coming from outside her room in the garden. The garden musician had returned, at least that was what she called him.
She sat on the balcony as she did the first time she heard him play. She listened to the haunting tune allowing it to seep into her conscious, enjoying the way the music matched her mood. When the music finished she let out a loud sigh and remained in her position, over looking the garden in silence.
"You're not going to tell me to keep playing? No cheering or yells for an encore?"
"No, not today I have too much on my mind at the moment."
"Too much..."don't ask her, just leave it, it's not your place to get involved. "... I'm sure my music complemented your mood. So what pray tell is on your mind?"
"How observant of you to be able to read me so well and yet I do not know you so why should I tell?" she said with mild sarcasm.
"I have been known to be quite the observer. You can call me a watcher of sorts. I watch but never participate. And you are avoiding the question young lady."
"I'll answer your question if you answer mine."
"...hmmm...I can see that you are being difficult today, but since I think you're interesting I'll humor you. I promise to answer any question as long as it has nothing to do with my past."
"Deal and I'll answer yours but first if you are such an observer why do you play?"
"Ah, that is a good question. Even though I am only an observer my music is my other self, the one who participates in the world around him. It can do things I in my physical body can not."
"You say it is your other self, but without you it would not exist."
"Very true, but this is how I want to distinguish myself. Now you answer my question."
"But I'm not fin-"
"Ah, ah, ah, I answered your question maybe I'll answer more later who knows. But enough about me, what about you?" Didn't I tell you to leave it?
"...I don't know how much longer I can stay here. Last night I found out that I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I relied on another person to support me, yet I am the one that is supposed to be helping him."
"True strength comes from relying on others when you need help the most. What could have caused you to relay on this person? Did something traumatizing happen to put you in such a situation?" 'I give up do what you want, but remember I warned you about getting involved with her.' I won't have any regrets as to what may or may not happen.
"I would rather much tell this to your face, maybe I should come down and talk."
"No, not knowing is all the better I may be deformed and don't want you to see me."
"Oh, I understand..."
"Now continue."
"Well last night I ran into my ex-fiancé..."
She was engaged at one point? I wonder if she still loves him.
"...and I ran away from him once I saw him. I was terrified of him because of what we went through before. So I eventually came to a park and was found by the one who I am to take care of, the young master here. We left and eventually came home. But I made a complete fool of myself the other night." No need to tell him about the other parts.
"So you were saved and yet you are upset, I wouldn't worry about that. That seems all so trivial, maybe the young master has feelings for you to go out and look for you."
"I highly doubt that."
"Believe what you wish but the young master is a cruel person, he would not lift a finger to help anyone less it was his sister or himself. Count yourself fortunate that he came after you."
No he is wrong what does he know anyway.
"But what I really want to know is what could have been so frightening about your ex that you would run away at the mire sight of him."
"......well...he was actually a terrible person..."
"We are anonymous here I don't know you and you don't know me." Well that is actually a lie, I know you but you don't know me.
"True, it's in the past so what harm can it do. It all started when I received a phone call from my best friend. We both liked a guy we saw everyday walking from school. We thought he was so cool so it really surprised us when he approached us one day coming from school."
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"Hey girls, how are you doing? My name is Junpei and I couldn't help but notice the two of you fine looking young ladies. What say we go out to the video arcade or something?"
"Wow Yuki he is talking to us not only that but he is asking us out on a date."
"I know, but we really don't know him that well."
"Oh come on lets live dangerously he is cute too. If love was a murderer and he was its tool, than I'll say 'oh slay me'. This will be fun I'm sure.
"Well, I guess so lets do it."
"Ok young man we're in, you're paying right since you did ask us out?"
"Well of course how could I make the two of you pay."
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"After that he would take us out everyday to the arcade, and everything was fun and games until he asked me out. Both my friend and I really liked him but he chose me. Why I don't really know, but after that my friend became more withdrawn. I tried to act like I didn't care but I knew it really hurt her. Even though I knew this I continued to date him saying that she would get over it. In the end she was the one that helped me."
"She called me one night, actually the night before our 6month anniversary; the night Junpei asked me to marry him. He said that I wouldn't have to worry about college because he would pay for me. Even though we were young he wanted me as his wife because he loved me."
"He asked me to meet him at a street that for the life of me I can't remember. My friend tried to warn me about him saying that he was sleeping around and he was involved in gang activity. She said she had proof and that she would show me before I went out with him on a date we had scheduled for that very night."
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(Knock, Knock, knock)
"Kushi, I'm glad you came, I know it may seem sudden but I just wanted to tell you that you will be making a big mistake if you marry this man. I had him tailed the past few months."
"You were spying on him!? How could you do such a thing? You had no right to pry in our business."
"I know, but I was worried he may have been up to no good."
"You mean you were so jealous that you want to find some kind of dirt on him, which would make me break up with him."
"You know I wouldn't do that, we have been friends since grade school. You know me better than that, just take a look at the pictures and make your decision."
"Oh alright...what the heck are these...this can't be right...oh my...who are these people?"
"I know I said the same thing but it appears that Junpei is some sort of gang leader with lots of guys and lots of women at his beck and call. I know it seems unbelievable but the proof is here. I wanted to show you earlier but I didn't know how to break it to you."
"Earlier? How long have you know about this?"
"A couple of months now, and I must admit that at first I was going to let you keep going out with him and realize what kind of man he was. I was so jealous when you told me you were getting married. But-"
"So you admit that you did this because of envy. As my friend I would expect you to be happy for me, but instead you just try to hurt me. Not only that but you kept something like this a secret from me for so long and than on one of the happiest days of my life you ruin it but bringing this up. It would have been better had I not know. Starting today I no longer know you."
"Kushi no, don't be like that. No I was only thinking about you stop don't leave, you're my only fri-"
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"I never heard what she said as I slammed the door on her and ran out the house to meet my ex. I was so upset when I got to him. And of course he could tell something was bothering me. I told him everything and he assured me that they were all lies and fake picture. He also told me that my friend was just jealous. And of course I wanted to believe him because I thought my friend was jealous too. But I still couldn't quench the feelings of guiltiness over what I said to my friend."
"The next night I went to the street I was to meet my fiancé I waited so long but he never showed. I asked 2 guys on the same street a question and they, had apparently been waiting for a chance to engage me in conversation."
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"Come on girly we an show you a really good time just follow us around the corner."
"Uh no, my fiancé will be worried about me if I'm not here when he arrives."
"I seriously doubt that. Now be a good girl and come with us."
"No, I'm leaving."
"Hey where do you think you're going, we just want to spend sometime with you?"
"Don't you dare touch me, stop let go of me I'm warning you, you better not start something you can't finish."
"I have a knife here that says we will finish whatever we start. Now you can come quietly or we can drag you knocked out if you start to scream."
"I'm not going to sit here and be dragged anywhere."
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"I put up a fight as they tried to pull me into a run down apartment building. I got in a few kicks and punches but blacked out once I was hit from behind in the head. Needless to say they did everything to me but rape me.........sigh I was photographed in all kinds of nasty positions hands tied, blindfolded or gagged, I was shamed. They spoke about their boss wanting these picture, I had a feeling I knew who their 'boss' was but I kept telling myself that it wasn't him. Than one of the guys slipped and mentioned his name. Junpei."
"Once they had finished with the pictures they were going to...take advantage of me." Tsukushi began to cry as she was revealing her past to the garden musician.
"It's ok if you want to stop there." He said with concern.
"No, I want to finally get this all out. They never got their chance. They apparently thought that once I was worn out I wouldn't struggle anymore so they took my blindfold off and untied my legs. I bit the first guy and kicked the other in his jewels at the first chance I got and ran out of the building with my hands still tied. I loosed the bonds on my hands by chewing on the knot and than I was free."
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"Somebody PLEASE HELP ME!! PLEASE!! I AM BEING CHASED BY TWO PERVERTS! ANYBODY, SOMBODY PLEASE HELP ME!"
"Miss are you ok?"
"Please you must help me before they come back for me, please I beg of you."
"Sure I'll help you..."
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"A nice man in his early 30's took me to the police box. And I told them the whole story. They told me that there had been a lot of such crimes happening to young school girls. They also said that I was fortunate to have gotten away with just a few bruises, most girls never return or were so badly banged up they end up going to the hospital."
"I went to my friend's house first and cried my heart out and apologized for all the things I said to her. She listened to me and said she knew I didn't mean any of those things I said. I am so grateful to her down to this day for all her support. I have never seen Junpei since then and now seeing him gain with his cocky attitude brought so many emotions forth."
"I see you went through a lot. So now that you got all that out why do you feel like it was shameful to be saved by the Tsuka--- I mean the young master?"
"It's just that, I feel unstable around him and I seem to lose my senses when he is near."
"Sounds like you are starting to like him."
Tsukushi let out a rude snort.
"Ha, not on your life, he is such a arrogant brat. Even though sometimes I pity him, he just likes to pick on me like today when I woke up he saw me in the nu-...in the new light of the dawn with my mouth open and I think I was snoring too. It's just embarrassing." I am such a liar, but I'd rather die than have anyone find out about us...sleeping together.
"That my dear is another trivial matter. You really shouldn't get so upset; if I were you I would take a picture him in all his morning glory." Wish I could see her face when she finds out he sleeps in his birthday suit.
"Hmmm...that might not be such a bad idea. I think I'll take that into consideration, thanx for listening my garden musician."
"Your, garden musician?"
"Yes, you're in my garden and you play, so you are mine. I hope you come again."
"I make no promises, but perhaps I shall return and listen to the woes of one such as you."
"Hopefully I'll learn a little more about you." She said with a hopeful hint in her voice but she received no reply.
Oh well I feel so much better now, getting all that out was just what I needed. Now to get to work.
Tsukushi put on a t-shirt and some shorts and went to work writing down her report of what she observed about Tsukasa the other night. She was so wrapped up in her work that she didn't here the knock coming from the adjacent bedroom. Nor did she notice the figure that come out of the room and cover her eyes until it was too late. She let out a short lived scream before the figure spoke.
"Quiet woman, it's me Tsukasa."
"Oh, it's you, what do you want and why are you sneaking up behind me."
"I just wanted to surprise you." No that's not it, I wanted to apologize to you.
"Well you can surprise me later. And what do you mean surprise me; I had enough of a surprise this morning. I think you are lying actually, I think you had something else you wanted to say to me. Well it will just have to wait until I finish this report I'm sending to your mother." 'Yeah, you must be forceful, let him think you're mad at his behavior this morning. We deserve an apology.'
"Actually I came to say...uh..." Just spit it out already."...well you see...last night...when you...uh..."
"Hold it, if its about last night I just want to say we're both adults and even though it was my (blush) first time, I rather we didn't speak about it."
"What do we being adults have to do with last night?" What is she talking about? "And what do you mean it's your first time, you seemed to be use to it." She cried her heart out I'm sure she's done that before over that Junpei guy.
"Use to it!? What do you take me for a lose woman? I know I was distraught about Junpei and I guess I must have seemed desperate, but trust me if my emotions hadn't been so mixed up I would never have agreed. I don't even remember much."
"You seemed pretty loose to me, the way you let them fall. Not only that but you asked me to hold you and you clung to me. But I must admit I didn't mind at all." Her tears were more like pouring down her face.
"Ahhh, don't say such things in the presence of a lady. I let them fall and I clung to you? I must have been drunk to do such a thing to you."
"And what exactly is wrong with you coming to me?"
"Well, you are my employer and we aren't exactly friends yet."
"Humph, after last night I would hope you could consider me more than just your employer. And a little more than just a friend, you can come to me anytime I would be more than willing to lis-."
"Ack there you go again speaking of inappropriate things."
"What are you talking about? You're really confusing me weirdo girl?"
"You're the one talking about what we did last night. I wish I had never done such a thing with you. It must have been because you were the only one there. I must have been pissy drunk or something to ever come to you."
"You know I came to apologize to you and here you go insulting me. Well next time you need a shoulder to cry on go find someone else. I can't believe I carried you home, blind at that, when you passed out in the limo. I didn't want you getting sick so I let you sleep next to me for your warmth. I barely got any sleep with you next to me last night. And than after all that you hit me when you wake up, which is understandable given what you went through last night. You're unbelievable."
"I don't know what I ever thought I saw in you."
What is he talking about its not computing. I was asleep the whole time? He was trying to care for me when I was tired.
"So you mean to tell me that all I did was sleep?"
"Of course don't tell me you though...you though we had sex!? "What did you think I was talking about this whole time? I hope you didn't think I would actually lower myself to make love to an unconscious girl?" 'No but you would kiss her.' She doesn't know that.
"Oh, well I thought we had (blush even more)... uh...did the deed because I was naked when I woke up..." Tsukushi fidgeted in her seat refusing to look at Tsukasa."
"HAHAHAHAHA that is rich." Tsukasa stood a good five minutes laughing in the door way.
"What I wouldn't give to see your blushing face right now."
"I'm sorry my imagination has a tendency to run away with itself."
Tsukasa laughter died down to a chuckle as he walked over to her and leaned over to whisper into her ear, his breath warm against her skin tickled her neck and his presence stirred her senses. But what he did next and said set her body aflame.
"When the time comes, I can a sure you that you will be wide awake." And he kissed her very tenderly on the nape of her neck and walked back to the doorway of his room.
Tsukushi was at a lost for words from what he said and what those words implied. Tsukasa left the dazed girl staring at his back as he exited into his room.
That should give her some food for thought. Maybe she will see how I am starting to feel about her without me spelling it out.
When Tsukushi finally snapped out of her stupor, she was more confused than ever before and ignoring the feelings he caused in her.
What does he mean, 'When the time comes'? Does he mean he is trying to get me in his bed?? He must truly think that I'm a loose woman. Well this is one girl he won't add to his list of conquests. From now on I'll be sure to keep a very professional distance from Mister Don Juan De Marco over there. (She doesn't get it at all)
You know Tsukushi is such a dense person. I hate having to keep her in character but I'll make sure she admits her feelings sooner than she did in the manga. Sometimes I really wanted to slap some sense into her, because she kept lying to herself. Anyway stay tuned and plz R & R let me know what you think.
