- Author's Notes -
PinaygrrlYeah! Here na po yung continuation! Hehe!
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Everyone, thank you for the reviews you guys had given out.
Thank you so much.
Here's the seventh chapter.
Chapter 7
- Sakura's POV -
Before I knew it, the second semester had started already. I'm now back in my university and again living in the apartment with Tomoyo, Chiharu, Naoko and Rika.
"Sakura…" Tomoyo whispered at me in History Class.
I didn't say anything; I just looked up to her in response.
"Is something that matter?" she asked. I can sense her worries in her amethyst eyes.
I just slightly shook my head in response.
"We'll talk, ok?" She told me full of concern in her tone.
I nodded my head a bit, and then went back to my former position.
I admit, I'm not my common self anymore. Even my friends notice that. Since that fateful day, I haven't talked much and all my cheerfulness have slowly decreased. I admit that I'm not my usual self lately.
I was kinda hesitant to tell you
should I let you know
I was never really like this before
Need I say more
I sure have changed. All my talkativeness has disappeared. I don't act like energetic Sakura Kinomoto anymore; especially when he is around. I still see Syaoran during break time. He is still so handsome and still surrounded by women all the time. He still has this same smirk whenever girls are squealing over him. It seems that nothing has changed with him. I dunno if what I'm reckoning is proper.. but it doesn't seem that he was not affected by what happened between us.
But whenever I meet up his stare, I kinda sense this glint of indifference in him. I dunno. I was not sure. But I'm sure that whenever I notice that, I feel sad and slightly guilty. And I still do like him.
Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh I need a cure,
just a little bit of you
And I will fall
At lunch break, Tomoyo was giving me slight concerned glances. We are now walking beside the café where I commonly see Syaoran. But I don't think that I'll see him now. I just felt that whenever you want something to happen, and you're desperate, fate would be so unkindly take that away from you and what you are waiting for to happen won't be showing up. Or maybe,
I could be wrong.
Sigh. I looked up at Tomoyo who is walking beside me. I took a deep breath and began,
"To-"
"Sakura, I know there's something bothering you, please tell me what it is. I could help you." She stated just before I was starting to tell her what I had to say.
I sighed. "Tomoyo, I'm ok!" I flashed a fake cheerful smile.
"No Sakura," she shook her head, and then added, "you're not…"
"I'm not?"
"You're not."
"I'm not…" I said then looked down to the ground while walking.
"Saku-" Tomoyo stopped in the middle of her statement.
OWW! It seems that I had bumped into someone because I wasn't looking at where I am going.
Rudely, I didn't say my apologies, I just continued walking while looking down.
After for a few seconds, I lifted my head a bit while looking sideways at my back.
Emerald met Amber.
I gasped, Syaoran..!
As I continued walking, now looking at where I am going, I looked behind; hoping to have a little glance at him.
Unfortunately, he is probably too far now that I can't see him anymore.
I'm always on the run to see you
Would you allow me to
It wasn't my intention to hurt you
This feeling is true
He was just there… Just there… Just near me… Just moments ago… He was there. Oh Sakura! Why didn't you strike up a conversation when you had the chance? He wasn't surrounded with all the girls that time; he was available! Available to be talked to by Sakura! But… haah… Again, I let my chance slip by.
Or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
I don't know what to do or I should be
There's only one thing in my mind
That's you and me
Oh Syaoran. What will I ever gonna do?
I'm just a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
Oh I need a cure,
just a little bit of you
And I will fall
- Syaoran's POV -
Weeks have passed and I've been totally down and wasted over her. Sometimes, when I can't take the confusion along with the loneliness I feel, I call up my buddy Eriol who is always gripping on a bottle of liquor. Eriol have always been a beer man and a wine whiner winner. He always asks me and the other guys to have a drink. "C'mon Xiao Lang! Let's drink until the morning dawn comes up! Then we'll all be drunk and stupid!" That's what he always tells me for like every other night. I would, gradually, refuse. It's not that I'm scared to get drunk ..which I am totally not.. I just don't wanna drink when I'm not in the mood. My throat would refuse to take the liquor. But when I feel like it, my throat will just welcome the liquor like it was heaven.
So… This time, I called up Eriol, hoping that he'd invite me into one of his liquor drowning plans. I don't wanna bring up the topic to him because I don't want him to notice that out of nowhere, I suddenly wanna drink; that I had a problem in my mind. Fortunately, Eriol is an easy instrument to use.
Yeah, you got it… There are nights that I end up diminished; like a wasted effigy crawling on the floor. Sometimes I think that it is friggin' crappy why I act like this over a girl. I mean, you know? Is it worth it? To make her the center of your universe but all the while, you have nothing.
To make her the center of my universe.
. . . I was ready.
After all those condemning nights, the school break has finally met to a stop. Second semester has begun and I finally have something to take my mind off her.
Again, girls at KSUJ would come to me. And whenever those girls surround me and giggle over me, there are a couple of times that I thought that somehow I wish that she could be one of them.
But she's not.
Because I reckon that she doesn't like me.
Because she refused me.
But there are splitting moments that luckily our paths would cross then I get to stare at her beautiful forbidden emerald eyes. Right, best things are for free. Screw that. I hate that. It doesn't look so positive to me anymore. Why? I had tons of money. If only I could just buy her. Still, I'd be the richest guy in the world. Just to have her only for me, even if I lost all my money just to get her, I'd still be the richest. But no. She's not something to be bought. She's something to gain and earn. And I hated that. Because she won't let me. She won't let me earn her love. I wanted to court her, she refused.
The first few days of the second semester were fine. Girls, like sick puppies, follow me around. I still somehow get annoyed. But I can't be annoyed. I needed it. I needed it to regain my energy; my ego. It doesn't get any more embarrassing than to put out your hand and ready to give all you have, and then suddenly get rejected. You were sincere, but they find you joking. It was a big downfall for me. But I didn't dislike her for that. I can't. I don't blame her for taking something from me without even noticing it. No, I don't accuse her of stealing. Because I, I gave it away.
It's just like giving a present. She finds the wrapping very beautiful but hesitated to open the gift. That's because she knew, she thought, that the object inside is something that is not good for her. But she was wrong, definitely wrong. The wrapper was not made pretty to be a deceiver for her to think that inside the present was something shiny and beautiful. But.., the wrapper was specially made for her because she deserves a splendid one. It wasn't a deceiver, no, not at all.
And she, Sakura, mistook it.
The days after 'the first few days I meant' were almost half way towards hell. Why? I made a stupid volition.
I told the women following me to stop bothering me.
- Flashback -
Same as always, girls once again surrounded me, "Li! Do you have a girlfriend?" one of them said. I wasn't sure who exactly the speaker is… But I didn't care.
I shook my head in response.
With that, all of them ..and I mean all.. squealed.
"Li! Do you have someone in mind, right now?" a question followed. Haah… Do I really have to tell them? Ok, if they want the answer..!
"Yeah, I do!" I stated with pride.
All of them squealed. I started to get annoyed.
"Maybe it's me!" One exclaimed.
"No, it might be me!" the other followed.
"Girls.." I began. I know I need this commotion to keep my mind off Sakura, but… Can I have a little honesty to my self? I'm not enjoying this.
"Yeah?" they chorused.
"Can you please hear me out?"
"Sure Li!" They said.
"You see, I'm only 17, all of you know that, and I'm only a freshman in college. So, I kinda still need my privacy. I guess you all know what I mean."
There was a complete silence until one of them breaks it.
"I understand." She said. Good girl!
"I do too." Another spoke up. Good! Then the others followed. Good girls! They understood me. I felt relieved.
"Thank you everyone. And please tell the others who are not present at the moment what I just said."
Happily, they all agreed. I hope this would help me.
- End of flashback -
But I think now that it didn't help me. Why? I had no crowd to annoy me or to bother me anymore. And that would just let my mind fly and be filled with thoughts of her.
In the next week, things started to get worse.
I see her with other guys.
Tomoyo, that's her best friend's name, is with Sakura, but sometimes, not only Tomoyo is with her.
One time, during lunch break, it was a boring Monday in the café with Eriol who is yapping about cars, I saw Tomoyo and Sakura together thru the window. I always sit near the window. I'm used to it. Anyway, they were just at the table near one pizza parlor near the cafeteria. Nothing special; they were just chatting about something. But of course, I didn't know what they were talking about, I was too far ..obviously far.. and I couldn't read their lips. It was just common scenery.
Until the common scene shifted into a shocking one; Sakura smiled. N-no, it's not her smile that made the view unusual, but she was smiling at someone. She wasn't smiling at Tomoyo, no, she was at the opposite direction.
It was a guy.
A guy who I don't know. But I can't deny the fact that he is good looking, but of course, no other guy looks better than Syaoran Li. He is sort of tall. From that distance, he was awfully far from me. So I couldn't estimate how tall he was. When Sakura stood up, her height only reached his bottom lip. It was direly similar to mine. So I reckon he is as tall as I am, but I knew I was taller, even just a little taller, but still, I am taller.
She had found someone else? Great! Just great! Just when I thought I found her, and then here she was, found someone else. Haah… But still…
Sill Syaoran, you're not sure, are you?
Hehe..?
Are you?
No.. Hehehe!
Ok, screw that thought. But still… Why is this spiky haired bozo is hemming Sakura? It's not that I'm saying that I own her because I have my eyes on her or anything. But waaaaaaaa! I don't like seeing her with other guys aside from me- Selfish… I know.
- Sakura's POV -
"I'm sure happy that we are having a picnic now, Tomoyo!" I exclaimed at my pretty best friend. "I thought you are busy this weekend?"
"I told you Sakura, I'm gonna make it up to you! And today is Saturday; I don't have any important thing to do today… Just tomorrow!" she replied to me.
I warmly smiled at her. This is the first time in weeks that I actually smiled a real smile.
My best friend and I are having a good time here beside the huge tree- still the same spot where I first decided to have a picnic.. and got hit.. -
ANYWAYZ, after for a few hours of laughing and eating the food Tomoyo made, we are now finished but still relaxing on the blanket.
"Tomoyo…" I stared at her while warmly smiling.
She gaped up to me then raised her eyebrows for response.
"Thanks..!"
She gazed up to me with those innocent eyes, "You're welcome Sakura! But… I'll be off now, bye!" she said, and then grabbed her picnic basket then skipped off.
I sweat dropped. I scratched my head as I watch her figure disappear.
"What just happened?" I mumbled, and then I grabbed my buddy bag then placed it on top of my tummy then lied on the blanket. And then I looked up to the sky.
WAH!
I quickly sat up.
"Syaoran?" I mentioned his name.
"Hey Sakura…" he sadly said then he sat beside me.
"…H-how long were you standing there?" I asked him while watching his eyes that are staring at the lake across us.
"Just a few minutes before your friend had left." He told me without removing his gape from the body of water. Ok, so that's why Tomoyo left. I knew she knew that I have something going on with Syaoran.
"..I see…" I replied as I gazed down. I found my bag still lying there. I grabbed it.
"So… What are you up to lately?" he asked me. He doesn't seem to be happy with his tone. He sounded like he was sort of nonchalant.
"N-nothin much…" I said.
"Really?" he said. Really? Why really? Is it supposedly that I have always something interesting to do? This time, I'm sure he was indifferent. I'm not accurately sure why, but I knew it is definitely because of me. I sort of feel guilty. So I just played the key chain attached to my bag.
He looked at me, and then he watched me play the fluffy key chain I have in my hands. "What's that?" he asked me.
"Uhh… A key chain?" I responded plainly but sarcastically.
"You like it? You like nekos?" he told me. A/N: Neko, Japanese of cat.
"Not exactly.. but yeah!" I exclaimed.
"Really? Who gave it to you?" He asked me. Hey? How come he knows that this was given to me? Doesn't it look like that I bought it?
"How'd you know that it was given to me?" I asked him.
He watched me in the eyes, then answered, "there's something sown in its tummy. 'For you, Sakura.'"
"Oh… Right! Ehe ehehe ehe!" I giggled at my silliness.
"So… Who gave it to you?" he said, but he didn't smile. His face was very plain and phlegmatic.
"…I'm not sure if you know him… His name is Kenju!" I answered.
"…Kenju?" he stated my friend's name that had the same amber eyes as his.
"Yeah, Kenju! You know him?"
"…No, I haven't heard of him."
"Oh… I see." I responded. I really don't have anything else better to say.
"What does he look like?" he asked me. Why does he wanna know? Weird. -
"Well… I dunno if I'm right but I think he has the same height as yours; or a tiny bit shorter." I started.
"Spiky black hair and amber red eyes…" he muttered.
"Y-yeah! H-how did you know? I thought you dunno him?" I asked in confusion.
He removed his stare at me then answered, "just a slight feeling."
"Really?"
"I sort of saw you two together…"
You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
how his kisses taste sweet like wine
And he always makes sure that your hearts skip a beat
every time he walks by
Huh? Did I hear right? Saw us? Does that mean he was watching me in school?
"Hey!" Syaoran blurted out. That's because Eriol quietly sneaked up behind him then quickly landed his whole right arm on Syaoran's shoulders and Eriol's chin landed on top of Syaoran's left shoulder.
"Hoe!" Eriol exclaimed with a huge excitement in his face while showing me a 'peace' sign. A/N: you all know that 'peace' sign- the pointer finger and the ring finger rising up.
"Arg Eriol!" Syaoran complained while taking off his arm on his shoulder like it was an annoying log; then added, "I don't get you! You seem hyper these past few weeks!"
"I'll be answering that!" a familiar female voice spoke.
I looked at her to see who she is. Gasp.
"Oh my dear Tomoyo!" Eriol suddenly kneeled in front of her then kissed her left hand.
"Y-you, y-you, y-you.. ! ..!" Syaoran stuttered. What's going on?
"Yeah Xiao Lang! We reconciled just half a month ago!" Tomoyo cheerfully responded.
"R-really?" Syaoran uttered in disbelief.
Eriol stood up beside Tomoyo then said, "How bout you?"
- Syaoran's POV -
"Hey!" ARGGGG! I grunted. Dammit! An arm just landed on my shoulders! And it's Eriol's filthy arm! …But that wasn't the problem. Not the arm; or neither it was Eriol's! …It's because I was totally serious here with Sakura and… grrrr! Eriol just had to ruin it all! Wah-
"Hoe!" Eriol uttered. Tss? Girly Eriol- Plan destroyer!
"Arg Eriol!" I angrily told him then took off his arm off my shoulders. I don't get why Eriol started to get hyper. He was usually serious most of the time. But he can be humorous too, but even with that state, he still looks serious. "I don't get you! You seem hyper these past few weeks!"
"I'll be answering that!" Tomoyo spoke up who happens to be just behind me.
I looked at my back, faced Tomoyo, "Oh my dear Tomoyo!" Eriol exclaimed while kneeling.
W-what! What's going on here! I knew they hated each other! What's up? "Y-you, y-you, y-you.. ! ..!" I said while pointing my pointer finger at her.
"Yeah Xiao Lang! We reconciled just half a month ago!" she told me. Oh ok… So that's why Eriol had been hyper and all giddy up recently. Sigh. Makes perfect sense.
"R-really?" I said, still disbelieved.
Tomoyo's left side had been occupied by Eriol, and then said, "How bout you?"
Tssh.. We all know what that 'how bout you?' means… It's about me and Sakura… I started to talk,
"…W-well a-"
"HOW COME I DIDN'T KNOW THAT?" Sakura suddenly blurted out.
"Hehe?" Tomoyo giggled densely.
Before we knew it, we are now calm and happily chatting on the blanket. I'm sure happy that I didn't have to answer that question. Hihi! I really didn't know what to say.
"Yeah he was great!" Sakura stated. W-what? Who's great? M-me? Oh thank you!
"I think I saw him just walking in front of you just the other day…" Tomoyo muttered to Sakura.
"Uh huh! Uh huh! He grinned at me then tossed me the neko doll key chain!" she replied. W-what? Who's great? M-me? Oh thank you! …Yeah right, thanks for nothing! I thought it was me.. but nooOoOo, it's that guy person thingy..!
I wish you'd look at me that way
your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby to you, all I am is the invisible man
That Kenju guy…
END
- Author's Notes -
Wah!
Lame chappie!
Definitely lame!
Gome…
Sorry…
It's hard to get inspiration nowadays… -
Sigh.
Syaoran: What's up with you?
Tammi: What are you blabbing about now, Xiao Lang?
Syaoran: W-well.. Ah..
Tammi: What is it?
Syaoran: Ehem..! Ah..
Sakura: Oh Syaoran! Can't you see Tammi is having a hard time here?
Syaoran: Is she? Well that's totally different from what I see! I say she prefers that Kenju guy rather than me!
Tammi: (laughs out loud)
Sakura: What if she is?
Syaoran: That's only unfair on my part!
Sakura: … Is it?
Tammi: (laughs out loud again)
Syaoran: Look! (points finger at Tammi) She's not having a hard time! She is laughing out one of her evil laughs again! She's evil!
Tammi: (laughs louder)
Sakura: Syaoran! How could you say such a thing!
Tammi: C'mon Sakura! (sticks tongue out at Syaoran)
Sakura: Would you mind tellin' me what's going on?
Tammi: Nothin' important, Sakura. Wolf boy is just a huge whiner.
Syaoran: (eyes widens) I'm not!
Tammi: Is too!
Syaoran: Am not!
Tammi: Is too!
Syaoran: Am not!
Tammi: Is too!
Syaoran: Am not!
Tammi: Is too! Stop yapping or I'll do something nasty!
Syaoran: Y-you c-can't stop m-me!
Tammi: Oh… You know I can. (grins evilly)
Sakura: I'm bored… Let's look for Kenju!
Syaoran: Kenju! Kenju! Kenju! When will it be Syaoran? Syaoran! Handsome Syaoran!
Tammi: (raises hand) Oh! Can I answer that?
Sakura: C'mon Tammi! (grabs Tammi's hand, and then runs off)
Syaoran: Hey! Wait up!
