Am I Too Late?
He didn't know how he survived the hour and half flight to get to her. It all seemed to be a blur up until he got to the hospital, thankfully Jason had been composed enough to think of having a car waiting for him. The driver got out of the car and ran leading him up to the operating floor.
He didn't know how to speak anymore, he didn't know how to form those words...his voice could not make a sound to utter them...those horrible questions he didn't want to know the answer to. He stood back as the driver ran towards a nurse, he couldn't hear the words being spoken. He blanked them out of his mind afraid of what they would say. Other words filled his thoughts
"I try not to, but I gotta tell you something, I can't help but think of what she went through that night. Was there a moment where she realized she was going to die? I told you I'd die seeing Brenda's face. I just wonder if she died seeing mine"
"Oh. I never even considered that. That you might be scared. I sat and watched you get a bullet removed from your chest and you didn't even flinch and I watched you stand up to Rivera's men, and I was really scared, but you were so strong and so brave and I knew that I was going to be ok because you were there. Sonny, you're so...courageous. Are you scared of us, Sonny?"
"He thinks about her all the time...Her safety, how she feels, how he can make her his and no one else's and then when she's away from him all he cares about is getting her back. And sometimes he sees clearly, he knows he should walk away, because she could cost him everything. But he doesn't because he...he wants her so bad she's become the center of his life. He can't get rid of her even to save himself."
"I'm scared of us. I am. But when I'm with you and you have your arms around me I forget to be scared. If I didn't love you, it wouldn't hurt me so much."
"You're just going to have to stay calm and trust that I will take care of you"
"I can't sleep. Every time I close my eyes I see your face. I hear your voice. I feel your mouth."
"I love you. End of story."
He could hear his breath deep and ragged as he was assailed by memories of them, words he shouldn't be able to remember, yet they were as vivid as they were when they happened, they took him away from this place, to a time..
No no, he couldn't think that, she was going to be okay. She's fine..
"Mr. Corinthos"
"What?" his eyes shot open and he saw the driver standing in front of him.
"Miss Barrett is still in surgery."
"It's been hours.." his voice quivered, what did he say?
"Just three and half hours since the accident, they tried to stabilize her first."
"Tried?"
"She has severe internal injuries, it doesn't look good."
His eyes closed, he had been expecting those words, but he didn't know how to respond to them. Should he ask about the accident? He didn't really care, all he knew was it was trying to take her away from him and he wouldn't let that happen.
