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Chapter 6
Give Me A Chance
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Sonny didn't gasp as he saw her; he didn't see the bruised face, the busted lip, or the tiny cuts all over her face from the glass. The broken arm, the elevated leg, all the machines didn't affect him because they meant one thing…
She was still here and that was the one thing that had always mattered.
He sat down next to her and placed his hands over her free one, he didn't dare risk lifting it to clasp it between his own. "Jason told me the stupidest thing as I was coming here. He said that you didn't believe I loved you as much as you loved me."
He took a moment and composed his thoughts, caught his breath and gave a little laugh then continued on, "I always thought you were so smart Brenda, a little dense at times, but always brilliant. Couldn't you see my world revolved around you? My world still does revolve around you, despite how I fight it.
"Maybe it was because our love for each other knew no limits, it was infinity and how could you believe that existed elsewhere because it still seems so impossible, but it's real."
He shook his head and wiped away his tears "I don't want to be telling you this as you sleep, I always used to do that. I used to tell you everything when you were asleep, I'd tell you how I wanted to marry you, I wanted us to have children, I never wanted to live in a world that didn't have you by my side, but I was never strong enough to really say it all when you were awake. I didn't know if I had the strength to live up to those words, those promises to be with you forever, no matter what the consequences."
He grimaces as he continues on "I think the universe is trying to tell me something because I keep letting you go and I pushing away to supposedly keep you safe and somehow you always end up getting screwed over."
"Jason told me I've to stop living your life, I've got to stop trying to manipulate you into situations that I think will make you happy and keep you safe, I think the universe agrees with him. I don't think we're meant to be on our own."
"There's never be a time in my life where I've been anywhere near as happy or alive as I am when I'm with you. We are every cheesy line about being two halves of one whole. Every time we kiss all I can think about is dropping to the floor and ravishing/adoring you for hours; anywhere we are; every kiss. I have to stop myself at just a kiss; I'm a perpetual 15 year old boy with you."
He smiles and laughs "I think that means something, people always talk about feeling young, there was a constant thrill when we were younger because things were new, it's always going to be new with you. Or maybe not, but you've got to wake up so we can find out."
"Anywhere you wanna run baby I'll go. We can find a way to be together because life just doesn't seem to work right when you're not there. Just please wake up baby. I love you so much; give me a chance to make you sick of hearing those words."
He thought he saw her eyelids flicker, "Brenda?" he stood and leaned over her to see her face better."
Her eyelids opened a crack and hoarsely, she whispered "Not a chance" and fell back asleep.
