(I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
So much more)
I can't believe it. I wont believe it! But how can I not believe something that is as real as the sun in the sky. He doesn't love me at least he doesn't anymore. No, Seto Kiaba can't love me, the mutt, the over-grown monkey, the dumb blonde, or my favorite name 'hey kid move', (The writer's of Boy meets world owns that).
But no matter hoe hard I try to tell myself it was only an argument, he'll come back don't worry, It doesn't kill any of the pain that is growing inside me.
(I lay dieing
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal)
And now I'm on the kitchen floor in plain sight of my soon-to-be death. I wish someone would come in and see me. I starve for any human contact, whether it be pity or for attention. I just don't care anymore, just send someone. Send Seto, please?
How could you Seto? How could you say such hurtful and dreadful things? You're useless Wheeler! I can't believe I could have fallen in love with such a pest! I know I'm useless, but did you have to remind me. You know sometimes…..sometimes your such a bother! Did I really bother you that much? Oh well soon you won't be bothered by me anymore. Wheeler, I wish you would just leave me alone! Would that make you happy? Well this is why I'm doing this, to make you happy.
I hope you become happy, that's all I ever wanted. I wanted everyone to be happy, though it seems I only bring pain to everyone I meet. Mai, she was happy, until I came and ruined it for her. Yug' seemed happy once we became friends, but then Yami came and well, there was no room for me anymore. Tea never really liked me, she thought I was a bully so she never wanted me around Yug'. Yami all he thinks about is Yug' and while I'm happy for him and Yugi, I wish I could be there.
(I'm dying
Praying
Bleeding
And screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?)
It's weird. Dying feels nice. I know, I know its sounds weird huh? Well it feels like, It feels like every little mistake I ever made is going away. Like the things I hate the most will disappear and I'll wake up and see Seto's smiling face and everything will be okay. No more arguments, no more pain, no more.
It feels weird though, knowing I wont be there anymore. With the good of no more, comes the bad, no more laughing, no more smiling, no more love, no more joy.
(My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My god, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation)
I guess the salvation of pain, comes with a price. I can pay it, but I'd be in debt and I don't think I can afford that.
Now that I think about it, I guess pain is better then not feeling anything at all. Without out pain we wouldn't know what pleasure was. Without bad days we wouldn't know what good days were. Without sadness we wouldn't know what happiness was. And most importantly, if we didn't have hate, we wouldn't know what love was.
And with this I finally realized I've made a mistake I can't take back.
(Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?)
Guys, all of you, I hope you don't forget me.
Seto, will you forget me? Will you put me in the back of your mind and keep my memory locked away forever, in the dark. I think I'm starting to get what Yami said about being locked way in the puzzle.
It is cold. It is dark. It is scary. But I guess when I conquer fear I conquer death and thus, whoa wait a sec did I just say "thus" wow never thought I would thought that in a million years. Cool, oh yeah like I was saying, I wont die after all, I just won't be on planet earth and I guess that's alright.
(Chorus)
Bye guys hope to see yah later, I hope…….
(My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ?
Tourniquet, my suicide)
A/N: Loved it? Hated it? Don't really care? Alright I guess I'll see you guys later
