Happy Go Lucky

Love- all my love was yours

Of this I was so sure

I guess I never saw it coming baby

But now I'm over the surprise

I'm wearing this disguise

So everyone can think I'm having fun baby

The world only sees me smiling

My pillow knows the truth at night

'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow

After Ron said those fateful words, I was in shock. Me- Hermione Granger- know it all, hadn't seen this coming. At all. After confidently telling him he was going to want me back I walked up to my room calm and composed. Being head girl had one major perk. I had my own room! I quickly decided that I had to act like it didn't bother me as soon as I was over

the shock. I mean, I'd thought we were perfect for each other. Thought still going around in my head I eventually fell asleep.

The next day I sat with Blaise Zabini, a friend of mine from Slytherin. We'd become friends after being paired together for Ancient Runes. After telling him what happened he happily agreed to let me sit with him. Malfoy didn't give me any trouble either surprisingly. He just sat there with the occasional, "Stop it, Parkinson."

After going all day with no tears or sad faces I finally made it back to my room where I cried myself to sleep. I have, after all, determined that my pillow will be the only thing that knows how sad I am.

And they call me happy go lucky

They don't know my heart is dying inside

A smile's a frown turned upside down

I do my happy go lucky so well

I'm even fooling myself

Everyone is so amazed at how I'm so happy. They haven't got the slightest clue how sad I am that Ron is gone. I guess I've been doing so well, smiling all the time, acting like I did before Ron. I'm getting so good at this act, I'm almost starting to believe it myself.

But now I've put it to the test

I know it's for the best

In fact it's good you walked out on me baby

I- I've learned how to survive

Without you in my life

So why am I still talking 'bout you baby

The world only sees me smiling

My pillow knows the truth every night

'Cause that's where I hide my sorrow

I have now determined that it is a good thing that I'm putting on this act, that it's a good thing Ron left me. I�ve learned how to be myself again. So, what I want to know, is why do I keep writing letters to Ron and Ginny, but not sending them? They all say how much I want Ron back. I don't understand. So now I've decided that I'm going to leave. I told Professor Dumbledore today. I am transferring to Tiger Eye, a school in the states where no one will know me. Or Ron. Or Harry. I get to be me. I get to move on. I may come back to England after graduation. Who knows...

Until I get over him though, my pillow is still going to be the only one to know how much I wish we were still together.

And they call me happy go lucky

They don't know my heart is dying inside

A smile's a frown turned upside down

I do my happy go lucky so well

I'm even fooling myself

A girl from Ravenclaw came up to me today and asked me how I moved on so quickly. Apparently she had just broken up with her boyfriend. I simply told her, you put up an act for so long and you start to believe it yourself. She looked at me incredibly confused but I just kept going. I didn't feel like dealing with her, or anyone, right then. So people still think that I'm happy. Funny, I keep getting closer to believing it myself.

Anyway, I leave tonight. I'm going to leave Ron a note telling him not to come after me. I doubt he'll listen but it's worth a try.

All my love was yours

I guess I was so sure

When I see the morning light

I put on this facade

It's all I have to protect my pride

It's all I've got this smile is all I've got

It's time for me to leave. I have to put up my mask just in case Ron does follow me. I hope he doesn't wake up until I"m gone. I know I still love him, that's why it is so hard to leave.

Just as I was getting ready to shut the compartment door to the train Ron and Harry came running up to me. I sighed and smiled sadly. I have to do this one last time. I have to protect my pride just until I'm out of here.

And they call me happy go lucky

They don't know my heart is dying inside

A smile's a frown turned upside down

I do my happy go lucky so well

I'm even fooling myself

A few women, apparently gossipers, pointed at me as I walked towards the muggle world where my mom would be to take care of me, even if I don't think I need it anymore. The women said that I was the Happy-Go-Lucky girl who'd just been dumped by Ron Weasley; Ron who came running up to me begging me to come back. To take him back. I told him once more that I couldn't do that and with that I left platform 9 3/4.