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Thank you thank you thank you! If you enjoy this story, please inform others of it b/c I want to see as much feedback as possible.. I want to learn to improve:D

:ONE MORE ITTY BITTY THING: There are scenes in here from HP&PoA (CHAPTER 5 : THE DEMENTOR) I tried to follow the book as well as possible. (I even put in the part where he snorts during Malfoy's visit )

: JUST SO YOU KNOW : if you already read this chapter, it's now edited and the memory remus got when the dementor appeared has been extended! (I like it much better this time…a little more dramatics…I just feel bad for writing in how much pain he was going through at that moment…poor remus (…please r&r and tell me if you like it better this way!)

Now here's chapter 3…;)

It had been two months since he had accepted Dumbledore's offer.

Time had flown by…more pain, more memories…after awhile it had all just become a blur. But Remus had grown accustomed to long periods of time sitting alone during the longest 12 years of his life. He had contemplated life, death, even rebirth while walking alone through darkness. The minute James had … disappeared, his life had fallen apart. And no one had come to pick up the pieces.

Remus had lost his job at the Order a few years after the incident, because not only were Death Eaters the only ones left to fight, but Remus's heart just wasn't in it anymore. If everything he had been fighting for was gone, what was the use anymore?

All of his principles, all his beliefs had disappeared.

And so had Moony.

Remus remembered nothing but pure anguish…pure hatred and a hunger for sweet revenge…but over time he had noticed that that could not fill the deep whole etched in his heart and soul where the marauders used to lie.

Nothing ever would.

Squaring back in on the ancient house in which he lied, he noticed how deadly the silence was, and Remus found himself losing track of days, weeks, even months.

But when September came along, it was almost like a red flag flew up in his mind and woke him up from his eternal sleep.

He was going back to Hogwarts…to teach.

Trying to avoid more thought on the matter, he quickly distracted himself with packing his belongings and quizzically looking through old spell books. Once he had finished, afraid of any silent pauses to return him to that dark place, he immediately apparated to platform 9¾.

As he walked through the brick wall and approached the train, he could sense rather than see the disgusted looks being given to him by Slytherin parents. However, these were made up for by all the warm welcomings given from fellow Gryffindors, Ravenclaws, and Hufflepuffs whom he had not seen for several years.

While entering the train, he looked not for a compartment for teachers, but for the old compartment. As he walked down the train, he saw it and entered slowly, as to make sure no one else had occupied it. Of course, that had never stopped him and his friends from taking it before. At the beginning of their third year they had made sure no one ever would by making their mark… and as Remus searched hopefully, he found it was still etched there to this day.

This here compartment is reserved for the four infamous Marauders :

Moony Padfoot Prongs Wormtail

A grim smile formed on Remus's face – the closest thing to a smile he had had in 12 long years – and as he wearily sat down in the compartment and closed his eyes a memory once again consumed him…

"Peter! Get your fat arse over here! We're gonna miss the train!" urged Sirius as Peter waddled behind him.

"Moony, come on," cried James.

Moony followed. "Which compartment are we going to, Prongs?"

"Same as always," answered James as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

As they walked down the train and found their usual compartment, they also unpleasantly found a group of Slytherins sitting there.

"What are you doing here, Snivelly!" confronted Sirius.

"It's a free country," remarked his cousin, Narcissa Black.

"Pardon, but I was talking to your little boyfriend over here, 'Cissa," shot back Sirius.

Narcissa turned a bright red - a mix of both rage and embarrassment. She hated it when he called her "'Cissa".

"What do you want, you filthy traitor?" snapped Severus Snape.

As Sirius went to curse him, James stopped him. "He's not worth it, Padfoot,"

Sirius calmed down. Everyone knew the only person he would have done this for was James.

"That's right, 'Padfoot'," remarked Snape. "Listen to your master. Stay on your leash and follow the blood traitor's order. He's been taught well by those stupid gits he calls parents."

James let go of Sirius and lunged at him.

Peter gasped dramatically, almost looking amused.

Remus jumped in to pull them apart.

"Shut up about my family, Snivelly or I'll-" shot James, still trying to curse him in any way.

Sirius interrupted. "Or I'll give you a good kick up your filthy arse-"

Lupin snorted as he pictured Sirius kicking Snivelly's "filthy arse".

As Snape went to attack Sirius, all the Slytherins in the compartment stopped him and convinced him to leave the compartment.

"Its just a stupid compartment, Severus," remarked Lucius Malfoy. "And Potter's bodyguard won't always be there to save the day."

As the Slytherins left and the four were left laughing, James decided to carve their names in the wall to make sure no filthy Slytherin ever set foot in there again.

Remus felt the train come to a stop.

Unsure if he was still dreaming, he kept his eyes closed and listened to the conversation going on around him.

"Not here!" said a voice…but it couldn't be…"I'm here!"

"Ouch!" said a squeaky male voice.

Lupin opened his eyes. It was dark and the train seemed to have stopped early.

"Quiet!" he said, his hoarse voice echoing through the now silent room. They must've known he was a teacher. It was a peculiar feeling having the children listen to his orders, when he was a child not too long ago.

He continued, "Stay where you are."

After brightening his wand, he got up to inspect what had caused the train to stop. As he traveled toward the door which was now opening, an intense cold beyond anything he'd ever felt before entered the room. It sunk into his skin and ripped out every joy he'd ever had.

Remus knew immediately what it was.

"Remus, I'm sorry but...Lily and James..." spoke Dumbledore weakly.

"It can't be…Lily! James! NO!"

He looked into the straight face of Dumbledore.

For once in his life, he looked like the old man he was.

The twinkle behind those half-moon spectacles had disappeared.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! IT CAN'T BE! SIRIUS WAS LIKE A BROTHER TO HIM! HE WOULD HAVE GIVEN UP HIS LIFE RATHER THAN KILL THEM! AND JAMES CAN'T…HE'S NOT…AND LILY…SHE CAN'T. THEY'RE TOO STRONG FOR THAT! NO. NO!"

Dumbledore stood there helplessly as he watched the man before him fall apart.

A pain shot through Moony's heart as if someone had just ripped it out of his soul.

Tears erupted from his eyes...

There was no strength left in his feeble body…

Voices spun around his head of memories from what seemed like someone else's life…

"Come on, Moony!"

"Same as always."

"I know that somewhere, deep down, that is Remus…"

"I'm a bloody deer!"

"So we won't get caught."

"Moony, promise we'll always stay friends…even after Hogwarts is over…the Marauders will live forever, alright?"

"Padfoot, would you be my best man...?"

"Moony, this is Harry…Harry James Potter…"

A blood-curdling scream echoed throughout the town…

Everyone who had heard its ring immediately felt pity strike their heart for whoever was suffering so much.

"JAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMEEESSSSSSSSS!"

And Moony knew no more.

Remus tried to fight it. 'Find a happy memory,' he thought to himself over and over.

He thought of the first adventure they had all had as Animagi. When they had nicknamed themselves "Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, and Prongs." He saw them running through the Forbidden Forest, exploring and seeing more of Hogwarts than anyone ever before.

When he suddenly heard James screaming…James?

He wasn't gone! He was back! He was back!

"Expecto Patronum!" he cried. A white bolt shot out of his wand and at the dementor.

As the dementor left the room and the white fog disappeared, Remus frantically searched for James.

He saw him – the black hair, the glasses… JAMES!

Remus smiled for the first time in twelve years.

He strode towards James…but - but two other children were running to him instead. The girl was moving the hair out of his face frantically.

That's when Remus saw it.

A scar.

The boy opened his eyes.

They were not James's eyes.

They were green.

An emerald green.

It wasn't James.

James was gone.

No – no he wasn't. He had heard him! He had heard James! And just a few minutes ago he had been there –

'No,' said the sane part of his mind. 'That was Harry. You heard Harry. You saw Harry."

The realization came – hard.

As the children spoke to their friend it reminded him of the four of them when they were younger. Harry now had that friendship with these two children.

Lupin did the only thing he could think of. He took a chocolate bar out of his pocket.

"Here," he said, handing it to Ja–Harry. "Eat it. It'll help."

As the children asked him about the dementor all Lupin could think of was getting out.

"Eat," he repeated. "It'll help. I need to speak to the driver, excuse me…"

Remus left the room as quickly as possible

That was Harry.

Not James.

James was gone.

You know he's gone.

And he can't come back.

A tear found its way down Remus's cheek.

He can't come back.