My Hidden Feelings
A/N: Well first of all I'm just a bit into writing new stories at the moment so you might notice that this is the third story that I've put up this week! Which is pretty amazing for me! Now another reminder this is Hitomi POV meaning it's like she tells the story of her life so yeah it's okay this story I think...just read if you're interested. Oh and one more thing is that Ryu is Hitomi's stepbrother again for some reason.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story apart from some of them like my character Jasper who might pop up sometimes and a few others too.
Chapter 1
I was sitting on my bed, multi-tasking. I was watching TV, talking to my best friend Hayate on the phone, eating dinner and doing her history homework all at the same time. I giggled as Hayate told me about Leifang and Jann Lee getting hooked up today. Jann Lee and Leifang were some of my friends that I hung out with. But today I didn't know anything since I had a bad headache so I hadn't gone to school today and Hayate was now filling me in on everything that had happened. My stepbrother Ryu would've usually told me what happened at school, but he was out having dinner with his girlfriend Melanie Janson. Melanie was my worst enemy at school. She always picked on me and when I told Ryu he never believed me. He thinks I'm jealous just cause Melanie is his new girlfriend and he tells me I should find someone else to focus my attention on. Can you believe that?! What kind of brother tells you to find someone to pay attention to and doesn't believe you at all?!
"Oh my god!" I screamed with excitement. "Congratulations!" Hayate had just told me that he passed the BIG maths exam we had this year. I shivered with fear. I would be doing that test tomorrow and I just knew I wouldn't pass. "Oh, hang on. Someone on the other line."
"Okay but don't forget me okay." Hayate laughed. He was talking about the last time we chatted on the phone. I forgot about him and was talking to my friend Helena Douglas on the phone. I completely hung up on him after the call and he called back telling me that I should never be mean to my best friend because or else I'll lose that friend, but he was only joking. I remember the pang of guilt that hit me that night. But when I found out that he was joking I just laughed along with him.
"I won't." I answered as I clicked the phone line button on the phone. "Hello?"
"What's up?" I heard my stepbrother's voice on the other line. I didn't know what to say to Ryu. Our brother/sister relationship was pretty rocky at the moment and we weren't talking much since he got hooked with Melanie.
"Oh, hi." I said almost silently.
"Are you okay?" Ryu asked me in concern.
"What?! How can you ask that? You know that I'm not happy with you at the moment. I still don't know why you bothered to call me!" I shouted angrily through the phone. All I heard were silent breaths through the phone. "What's going on?" I asked wondering what all the heavy breathing was.
"Uh, nothing!" Ryu answered as I heard someone trip over or hurt him or herself in the background of the call.
"Tell me!" I demanded instantly.
"Okay. But you can't tell dad okay? Promise?" Ryu replied. I was reluctant as to why Ryu wouldn't want me to tell dad anything. Why would I? My dad and me didn't click very well either and things were only getting worse since Melanie came along.
"I promise. Just as long as you don't tell dad that I was talking to Hayate again." I heard Ryu laugh at the fact that my father didn't know anything about me. My life felt like a double one! I had to pretend I had no guy friends cause my dad thought that I was too young (whatever!) and he doesn't know that my best friend is Hayate! He thinks that Ryu and Hayate are best friends, but Hayate sneaks into my room to play video games and have heaps of fun (especially when I beat him at a game)!
"Well let me put this in a simple way...I lost my virginity..." I gasped. I couldn't believe it. "With Melanie." That made me mad! So mad that I just hung up and started crying. I didn't take a minute to think about how Ryu felt about Melanie. I stopped crying and remembered about Hayate. He was such a good friend to me and I kept forgetting that he was on the other line. Usually I would call him back and tell him how sorry I was but at that moment I didn't want to. I was too miserable and I felt like if I called him and told him everything it would make me feel worse for now anyway. I cried myself to sleep that night thinking about everything that had happened. My night was going so well, actually my whole day was going great until the recent news of Ryu, the brother I used to follow everywhere when I was a little toddler and now I'm older I don't think I've changed that much. Ryu was the brother I thought I could always trust to be there for me, but I was wrong. Well only sort of wrong. My brother was still trustworthy, but I knew that Melanie was the only person stopping him from protecting me or even seeing me. I hated her so much!
The next morning I woke up too tired to move, my alarm clock ringing in my ears. I mumbled pulling my pillow and placing it on my head to block the noise. But to no avail the alarm clock won against me again just like every morning I never won. I pushed my pillow off my bed and hopped off my fluffy bed and onto the flat ground. I heard the sound of laughing and giggling coming from the kitchen. I decided to change into a crimson red halter-neck and a white pleated mini-skirt. I finally completed my outfit with my light blue trainers. Perfect! I brushed my hair and grabbed two hair ties from my little ballerina box. The box my mother gave me before she died. I saw my mother die when she went into war with some ninja clan (her mother is going to be a shinobi in this story) and was killed in it. She gave me the box saying it was from her childhood and wanted me to have it. I tied my hair in two low pigtails and sat them perfectly with hair spray and then placed on my lips some strawberry lip-gloss. I then headed downstairs to see...Melanie Janson and Ryu eating breakfast together.
"Good morning Hitomi." Melanie said as she smiled her sweet and fake smile. "How are you this morning? Oh my god you look gorgeous!" I just snorted and made my way to the bench. "Oh I'm so sorry, but Ryu gave me your breakfast since you woke up so late. I hope you don't mind?" Of course I do I wanted to say, but why would I talk to her anyway? I just sighed and grabbed a muesli bar from the pantry. "Why aren't you smiling Hitomi? Your outfit always looks better when you're smiling!" Will she ever shut up? Hasn't she got the point yet? I don't want to speak to her!
"Good morning sweet pea!" I looked behind the pantry to see my father with a happy smile rising on his face. That face haunted me every morning. He only acted nice to me when Ryu was at home and last night he was out watching Rugby at a bar so I was happily alone. I heard Melanie giggle ever so lightly and I could see an evil glint in her eye. I knew she would tell everyone at school about my father and the 'sweet pea' she would never let me hear the end of it. Today would be one of the worst days of my life. I glared at her as she just gave me that dumb founded look like she didn't know why, but I knew that she did. I heard a sudden knock at the door. I picked up my bag, ready to head out as I opened the door to reveal my best friend Hayate.
"Hey! Am I late?" He whispered as I giggled lightly. "Should we go before your dad sees me?"
"Yep." I answered as I just waved to Ryu and my dad and headed out the door. Finally away from Melanie I wanted to tell Hayate everything about last night and this morning, but I just couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to tell him what Ryu had told me or how Melanie took my breakfast. She said that Ryu gave it to her, but I beg to differ, Ryu probably told her it was mine and then she begged him or said that she would sleep with him again if he gave her my food. Whatever the point was I knew something was wrong with me. I usually felt comfortable telling Hayate all my feelings and all my problems and he always gave me great advice. So why was I so scared?
A/N: Please review! Thanks! Luv ya Minty12.
A/N: Well first of all I'm just a bit into writing new stories at the moment so you might notice that this is the third story that I've put up this week! Which is pretty amazing for me! Now another reminder this is Hitomi POV meaning it's like she tells the story of her life so yeah it's okay this story I think...just read if you're interested. Oh and one more thing is that Ryu is Hitomi's stepbrother again for some reason.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters in this story apart from some of them like my character Jasper who might pop up sometimes and a few others too.
Chapter 1
I was sitting on my bed, multi-tasking. I was watching TV, talking to my best friend Hayate on the phone, eating dinner and doing her history homework all at the same time. I giggled as Hayate told me about Leifang and Jann Lee getting hooked up today. Jann Lee and Leifang were some of my friends that I hung out with. But today I didn't know anything since I had a bad headache so I hadn't gone to school today and Hayate was now filling me in on everything that had happened. My stepbrother Ryu would've usually told me what happened at school, but he was out having dinner with his girlfriend Melanie Janson. Melanie was my worst enemy at school. She always picked on me and when I told Ryu he never believed me. He thinks I'm jealous just cause Melanie is his new girlfriend and he tells me I should find someone else to focus my attention on. Can you believe that?! What kind of brother tells you to find someone to pay attention to and doesn't believe you at all?!
"Oh my god!" I screamed with excitement. "Congratulations!" Hayate had just told me that he passed the BIG maths exam we had this year. I shivered with fear. I would be doing that test tomorrow and I just knew I wouldn't pass. "Oh, hang on. Someone on the other line."
"Okay but don't forget me okay." Hayate laughed. He was talking about the last time we chatted on the phone. I forgot about him and was talking to my friend Helena Douglas on the phone. I completely hung up on him after the call and he called back telling me that I should never be mean to my best friend because or else I'll lose that friend, but he was only joking. I remember the pang of guilt that hit me that night. But when I found out that he was joking I just laughed along with him.
"I won't." I answered as I clicked the phone line button on the phone. "Hello?"
"What's up?" I heard my stepbrother's voice on the other line. I didn't know what to say to Ryu. Our brother/sister relationship was pretty rocky at the moment and we weren't talking much since he got hooked with Melanie.
"Oh, hi." I said almost silently.
"Are you okay?" Ryu asked me in concern.
"What?! How can you ask that? You know that I'm not happy with you at the moment. I still don't know why you bothered to call me!" I shouted angrily through the phone. All I heard were silent breaths through the phone. "What's going on?" I asked wondering what all the heavy breathing was.
"Uh, nothing!" Ryu answered as I heard someone trip over or hurt him or herself in the background of the call.
"Tell me!" I demanded instantly.
"Okay. But you can't tell dad okay? Promise?" Ryu replied. I was reluctant as to why Ryu wouldn't want me to tell dad anything. Why would I? My dad and me didn't click very well either and things were only getting worse since Melanie came along.
"I promise. Just as long as you don't tell dad that I was talking to Hayate again." I heard Ryu laugh at the fact that my father didn't know anything about me. My life felt like a double one! I had to pretend I had no guy friends cause my dad thought that I was too young (whatever!) and he doesn't know that my best friend is Hayate! He thinks that Ryu and Hayate are best friends, but Hayate sneaks into my room to play video games and have heaps of fun (especially when I beat him at a game)!
"Well let me put this in a simple way...I lost my virginity..." I gasped. I couldn't believe it. "With Melanie." That made me mad! So mad that I just hung up and started crying. I didn't take a minute to think about how Ryu felt about Melanie. I stopped crying and remembered about Hayate. He was such a good friend to me and I kept forgetting that he was on the other line. Usually I would call him back and tell him how sorry I was but at that moment I didn't want to. I was too miserable and I felt like if I called him and told him everything it would make me feel worse for now anyway. I cried myself to sleep that night thinking about everything that had happened. My night was going so well, actually my whole day was going great until the recent news of Ryu, the brother I used to follow everywhere when I was a little toddler and now I'm older I don't think I've changed that much. Ryu was the brother I thought I could always trust to be there for me, but I was wrong. Well only sort of wrong. My brother was still trustworthy, but I knew that Melanie was the only person stopping him from protecting me or even seeing me. I hated her so much!
The next morning I woke up too tired to move, my alarm clock ringing in my ears. I mumbled pulling my pillow and placing it on my head to block the noise. But to no avail the alarm clock won against me again just like every morning I never won. I pushed my pillow off my bed and hopped off my fluffy bed and onto the flat ground. I heard the sound of laughing and giggling coming from the kitchen. I decided to change into a crimson red halter-neck and a white pleated mini-skirt. I finally completed my outfit with my light blue trainers. Perfect! I brushed my hair and grabbed two hair ties from my little ballerina box. The box my mother gave me before she died. I saw my mother die when she went into war with some ninja clan (her mother is going to be a shinobi in this story) and was killed in it. She gave me the box saying it was from her childhood and wanted me to have it. I tied my hair in two low pigtails and sat them perfectly with hair spray and then placed on my lips some strawberry lip-gloss. I then headed downstairs to see...Melanie Janson and Ryu eating breakfast together.
"Good morning Hitomi." Melanie said as she smiled her sweet and fake smile. "How are you this morning? Oh my god you look gorgeous!" I just snorted and made my way to the bench. "Oh I'm so sorry, but Ryu gave me your breakfast since you woke up so late. I hope you don't mind?" Of course I do I wanted to say, but why would I talk to her anyway? I just sighed and grabbed a muesli bar from the pantry. "Why aren't you smiling Hitomi? Your outfit always looks better when you're smiling!" Will she ever shut up? Hasn't she got the point yet? I don't want to speak to her!
"Good morning sweet pea!" I looked behind the pantry to see my father with a happy smile rising on his face. That face haunted me every morning. He only acted nice to me when Ryu was at home and last night he was out watching Rugby at a bar so I was happily alone. I heard Melanie giggle ever so lightly and I could see an evil glint in her eye. I knew she would tell everyone at school about my father and the 'sweet pea' she would never let me hear the end of it. Today would be one of the worst days of my life. I glared at her as she just gave me that dumb founded look like she didn't know why, but I knew that she did. I heard a sudden knock at the door. I picked up my bag, ready to head out as I opened the door to reveal my best friend Hayate.
"Hey! Am I late?" He whispered as I giggled lightly. "Should we go before your dad sees me?"
"Yep." I answered as I just waved to Ryu and my dad and headed out the door. Finally away from Melanie I wanted to tell Hayate everything about last night and this morning, but I just couldn't. I couldn't bring myself to tell him what Ryu had told me or how Melanie took my breakfast. She said that Ryu gave it to her, but I beg to differ, Ryu probably told her it was mine and then she begged him or said that she would sleep with him again if he gave her my food. Whatever the point was I knew something was wrong with me. I usually felt comfortable telling Hayate all my feelings and all my problems and he always gave me great advice. So why was I so scared?
A/N: Please review! Thanks! Luv ya Minty12.
