Chapter 47
As Lily sat in my lap with her arms around my neck and her head buried into my shoulder, I was remembering. Remembering the things that had happened just days ago and trying to figure out what would happen today. We were in Professor Dumbledore's office waiting for Dumbledore to give us the okay and give us the Portkey that would bring us to Lily's parents funeral.
Lily had been a total wreck the last few days, but then again so would have I. I had only lost my father, not both of my parents. I was lucky to still have my mum and that my sister loved me so very much. Petunia of course blamed Lily for their parents death and that tore Lily apart even more.
The night that Moody told us to come back because Dumbledore wanted us back immediately was the hardest night of Lily's life. I thought Christmas was suppose to be a joyous time? I mean of course it is, but with Lord Voldemort going and killing anyone in his path of course it wouldn't be a normal Christmas.
When we got to Dumbledore's office Lily was almost all cried out, and I could tell her eyes were sore from all the crying she'd been doing. Dumbledore asked us to sit down but that's when Lily got irrational.
"Sit down! You want me to BLOODY sit down! My parents have been brutally murdered! I want to kill that son of a…"
"Lily!" I said looking at her, I'd never heard her use such horrible language and I tried to pull her into my arms.
"No!" She screamed backing away from me, "Leave me the hell alone!"
"Miss Evans please…"
"Shut up old man!" That's it Lily had gone off her rocker, but of course I couldn't blame her. Lily loved her parents more than life itself and now we were back her at Hogwarts and she was now…"
"I'm a bloody orphan now! I have no family!"
"What about your sister?" Dumbledore asked trying to calm Lily down and bringing up Petunia wouldn't do it.
"My sister! My bloody sister! She hates my guts!" Lily was right of course and the next morning Lily would get a howler from Lily blaming Lily for her parents death.
"Miss Evans you need to calm down."
"How can I!" She sobbed and it was breaking my heart that she wouldn't let me near her.
"I'm an orphan, I have no where to go! My parents are dead! My sister already disowned me when I was eleven years old! All of my grandparents are dead and I have no uncles or aunts! I'm a bloody orphan! Do you hear me! AN ORPHAN!"
I remembered how bad Lily was with grief, this took me back to Smith's funeral. It had only been two months since he died, this was too soon.
"They were suppose to see me get married! Mum was suppose to help me pick out everything and daddy was suppose to walk me down the aisle! And now I have no one!"
"You have me," I said trying to walk up to her again.
"Get back from me Potter." Oh boy, we're back to last names again.
"I love you."
"No!" She screamed throwing her hands over her ears and running out of the office.
"That went better than I expected," Dumbledore said sitting behind his desk.
"Better? Are you kidding me?"
"Afraid not Mr. Potter," he said shaking his head at me. "I figured we'd both be stuck to the wall or something."
"I need to go after her."
He shook his head at me, "Not yet Mr. Potter. She needs some air at the moment, she needs to clear her head."
"But we don't know where she's at!"
"Actually we do."
"Huh?"
Dumbledore tapped something on his desk, that looked a lot like the Marauder's map and I got a bit nervous. Instead it wasn't on spare parchment instead it was the calendar on his desk.
"Come look Mr. Potter."
I followed his order and watched as Lily ran down the hallways and up to the Astronomy tower.
"She's going look at the stars."
Dumbledore nodded his head, "The stars tend to cool a lot of us down. Give her a little while and then go chase after her. She just really upset about losing both of her parents, you remember how hard it was to lose Harold don't you?"
I blinked, it was still too soon to talk about my father. "Yes," I said but I kind of choked at saying it. "I just hope she won't go as drastic as I was."
"No I don't think she will Mr. Potter."
I sat with Dumbledore for another thirty minutes and as we saw Lily coming down from the Astronomy tower I left so I could meet up with her. I returned to our Common Room to see it empty and I frowned, I wondered where she might be.
I checked the bathroom but it was empty, and then my bedroom but it was empty too. I opened her bedroom door and she'd cried herself to sleep in her Christmas gown. I picked up her limp body and tucked her into her blankets. I kissed her forehead and was about to leave when I felt a frail hand grab my wrist and I turned around and was surprised to see her eyes open. But they weren't the normal sparkling green eyes that I loved so much…they were dull and hard.
"Please don't leave me."
"I thought you were angry with me?"
She shook her head, "I'm angry at myself."
I sat on the bed and gave her a questioning look, "Why?"
"I shouldn't have fallen in love with you."
"What!" I blinked I didn't hear that right.
"I shouldn't have fallen in love with you."
"You love me?"
She smiled at me, "Yes." She blushed and she looked more adorable than usual.
"I love you too and I was going to tell you last night when I was going to leave, before…"
"Before we found my parents murdered." Lily said sniffling.
I nodded.
"I just don't understand why they didn't tell me."
"Same reason my mum didn't tell me."
"The reason Sarah and Grace are hiding," Lily sighed after a few moments she looked up at me with tears in her eyes. "James I love you so much."
I chuckled at her, "I love you too. I always have, always will."
"I don't think we should be together anymore."
"What!" My heart was breaking, "Why!"
"I'm the reason my parents are dead, our relationship is the reason your mum and sister are hiding."
"But they wanted us together!" I said a bit louder than I intended, "Do you want your parents to die in vain?"
"No," she whispered.
"They wanted us together! They knew we had something special, Lily they wanted you happy. They died so you could be happy. Are you happy with me?"
"How could you even ask that?"
"Answer me Lily."
"Of course James, I love you."
"Your parents loved you too Lily," I put my hand to her cheek and she welcomed it. "They saw what we have together, they knew our love is one of those special once in a life time loves. Like your parents and my parents. Our folks never told us because they see how much we love each other, they knew we belonged together. Honestly do you want to end what we have?"
"No," she said with silent tears streaming down as I brushed them away.
"Then don't walk away. I'll never walk away from you Lily. Please tell me you won't walk away."
She shook her head, "I promise you James I won't."
I nodded kissing her forehead and beginning to leave the room, "You said you wouldn't walk away!" She choked back a sob.
"Huh?"
"Don't leave me!"
"I won't Lily," I said coming back and kissing her soft, beautiful lips. "But I need to change into my pajamas and I'm sure you don't want to go to sleep in that dress."
"You'll join me tonight?"
I chuckled softly at her, "When do I ever turn the offer down?" Lily blushed a little and I walked out of the room to change my wardrobe.
When I finally got back into Lily's room, she'd fallen asleep already and I stood at the door for what was probably an hour just watching her sleep. I finally crawled into bed with her and cradled her body to mine. She rolled over and looked into my eyes smiling a sleepy smile, "Hi."
"Hello beautiful."
"You came back to me," she said smiling at me and kissing my lips once again.
"Of course silly," I said smiling at her. "I'll always come back to you, I'd never leave your side. When will you ever learn?"
She put her head on bare chest and cuddled up, to feel Lily so close to my bare skin started to stir up my teenage hormones. Lily kissed my chest and I felt butterflies all over. "I love you James."
"Love you to Lily."
She looked up into my eyes and began to kiss my lips. Her soft lips upon my I must say was the best thing. Lily began to deepen the kiss and this surprised me, we'd never really gotten very far. We never really had the time to tell you to truth. First, there was the funerals. Second, we were always busy with our Head student priorities that we had to do everyday. Third, there was the rape. Now, with her parents death.
Lily began to pull herself closer to me and I felt our breaths getting shorter and I was being a total gentlemen. Lily pulled my hands up to her breast and I opened my eyes wide at her but her eyes were still closed. She looked determined and I pulled away.
Lily lunged at me again and then I realized what was going on.
I pulled away, "No. No Lily."
"Why not?"
"We're not ready."
"I am," she said going to grab my family jewels.
"No your not Lily," I said sitting up and she groaned.
"Come one James."
"You're only doing this because you are trying to get away from your problems. Trust me Lily," I chuckled trying to get a hold of myself. "I want this as much as you do, but not now. I want this moment, our first time to be special. You are distraught right now and if we do this now…you'll never forgive me. Please, let's just go to sleep."
"James…"
"No," I said shaking my head at her. "Not yet. Not now, we'll know when we're ready."
"You'll still stay with me now, tonight, won't you?"
"Of course," I said pulling her close to me. "Now you shut those beautiful eyes and let's get some shut eyes."
The next morning I was woken up to those beautiful big brilliant green eyes looking into my hazel ones.
"Good morning sleepy head," she mumbled to me and I chuckled at her. She was always so beautiful, especially in the morning.
"Hi beautiful," I said leaning down to give her a small peck because I knew we both had horrible morning breath. "Are you ready to go down to breakfast?"
She shook her head at me, "No not just yet. Can we wait a little while?"
I nodded and she put her head back down on my bare chest, and it was quiet for a while. "Do you want to take a shower with me?"
I about choked on my saliva and I looked at her with wide eyes, "Huh?"
"You heard me?" She purred at me and I thought I was dreaming.
"No," I said shaking my head.
"Why not?"
"I need a cold shower," I got up and left the room before she could say anything.
When I finally got out of the shower I turned my head to the giant sized bathtub, Lily had just gotten out of it and she hadn't grabbed her towel yet. Yes everyone, I James Harry Potter saw Lily Evans naked. Time to take another cold shower.
After my second cold shower and once I was dressed, Lily and I headed down to the Great Hall for breakfast. Mostly everyone had gone home for the holidays and I wasn't surprised to see people surprised to see Lily and me back so soon. Everyone knew how close I was to my family and how close Lily was to hers.
We ate breakfast alone, together and when the owls flew in about a hundred went to Lily and me.
Lots of 'Sorry about your loss' lots of letters of that sort to Lily and of course this mad her even more upset.
Three owls came to me, from Sirius, Remus, and mum.
James,
Cassidy and I heard what has happened to her parents. Tell her we feel so sorry for her and Cassidy wanted to return to Hogwarts immedatly but I assured Cassidy that you would take great care of us. That Lily would also be upset if she ruined our Honeymoon. See you guys soon.
Sirius and Cassidy Black
P.S. Doesn't that just sound wonderful?
I couldn't help but laugh, was totally Sirius.
Dear James,
Gabriella Flooed over to my house earlier and was crying her eyes out. She said that she'd gotten word from Alice as Alice's mother works for the Ministry. Gabriella won't leave my side now, not that I'm complaining. Give Lily our love and tell her we feel for her and if she needs anything let us know.
Remus and Gabriella
Dear James,
Sarah and I are okay. Dumbledore has found us a good hiding place, and Sarah will return back to school when it's time. Your things should show up in your room by tonight. Tell Lily we love her and are so sorry for her loss. If she needs anyone to talk to, let her know I'm here. I love you guys and miss you two.
Love always,
Mum
P.S. Sarah says hi to Lily
James smiled and handed the letters over to Lily after she red those three, she picked up the one she had been reading. "The only four that matter." Alice had owled her too.
But now all of this was behind us and we were waiting for Dumbledore to let us go to Lily's parents funeral. I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she looked.
Of course Lily had been crying her eyes out every night and a lot out of the day. Her eyes had turned black from all the crying but she still looked beautiful.
December twenty-sixth had been the hardest of all, Petunia actually sent a letter by owl. Too bad it was a letter blaming Lily for her parents death, the first thought that Lily had come to. Took me all day to convince her that it wasn't her fault.
Lily had done her hair, straight and curled only at the ends. The makeup on her face made her glow and she was amazing with charms. Lily was so embarrassed about her puffy black eyes that she'd put the best concealment charm I'd ever seen. Although I told her she didn't need it, but you know how women are. They think if they don't look one hundred percent amazing then they are just horrible looking. Women, I shook my head at this but Lily didn't notice.
"Mr. Potter? Miss Evans?" Dumbledore walked into his office briskly, "Sorry about the delay we had a bit of a problem today."
"Problem?" Lily asked and I heard her voice quiver.
Dumbledore nodded, "With a first year today."
"Oh, okay." Lily said and I felt her start to breath again.
"Now since the funeral will be at your estate in Bristol, I have set up for the two of you to Floo to your bedroom Miss Evans. After the funeral and visiting the burial plot, the lawyers will be by to speak about the will."
"Tonight?" Lily said sighing.
"Yes, the lawyers were told by your parents you go to a private boarding school and that you can't be away for too long." Lily nodded, her parents had always been so thoughtful in the case of their youngest daughter.
December twenty-eighth was the date and I knew it would be the worst day for Lily until her dying day.
Petunia had decided not to cancel her Wedding, she told Vernon that her parents would still want the wedding to go on. Of course I knew it was because if they canceled anything in the wedding the money went down the drain and Petunia and Vernon loved to spend other peoples money. Petunia had informed Lily by owl that she wasn't invited to the wedding anymore since she was the reason that their parents were dead. Lily's 'freakish' ways had killed their parents.
"I'll see the two of you back tonight at about nine this evening."
The funeral was exactly how I expected it to be. Met extended family members of Lily's, family friends, and her parents co-workers. Lily cried as much as I expected and Petunia had been very nice because she had to show off. She was strutting her new name around, I mean seriously…who wants to flaunt the name Mrs. Vernon Albert Dursley? Horrible name.
The funeral had been a very nice service, but I'd come to hate funerals. Now in the last year Lily and I had been to four funerals for the deaths of five people who'd been close to one of us.
I had honestly loved Lily's parents, they were very nice and had welcomed me in as a part of the family. Hell, they sacrificed their lives for the happiness of their daughter. So Lily and I could get to know each other and fall in love.
Wow that still sounds amazing, Lily Marie Evans loves me. Never thought I'd hear that or say it. Of course I've loved Lily for as long as I can remember putting my eyes at her but to hear her say that she loves me.
"James?" Lily's voice brought me back to reality.
"Yeah?"
"We're all going to the burial plot and then we come back here to talk to the lawyers about their will."
"Alright, let's go."
Everything had been nice and friendly, and I was shocked how nice Vernon and Petunia were being to Lily and me.
But after the will was announced and the lawyers left was when all hell broke lose.
Lily had inherited all of Grandma Rose's belongings that was left to her mother, half of her mother's jewelry, the estate in Bristol, the business in London, and half of the money in the account.
What did Petunia inherit? Half the money out of the account, and half of her mother's jewelry. Was Petunia happy? Oh boy was she ever mad. She began calling Lily ever name in the book and as Lily began to break down I stepped in front of her with my wand ready.
"D…don't you dare p…p…point that at my wife," Vernon stuttered stepping in front of Petunia.
"You keep your horse of a wife's mouth shut," I growled. "The only reason Lily got practically everything is because they loved her more."
"You can't do magic outside of school," Petunia said quivering.
"Wrong," I laughed at her. "I'm of age and if you threaten my girlfriend one more time you will become frogspawn."
Was so funny to see the Dursleys scurry out of the room. I turned around to see Lily and she threw her arms around me and hugged me tightly.
"Thank you James."
"Of course, I love you and no one will ever threaten you again." I looked down at my watch, seven o'clock. "We've got two hours before we need to be back at Hogwarts. Do you want to get some dinner?"
"I don't have an Muggle money on me."
"I do."
"You do?" She asked me surprised.
"Yeah," I nodded.
"Why do you have Muggle money on you?"
"Needed some on Christmas to pay for the carriage ride." She nodded, "Do you know where a close restaurant is?"
"Yeah, Leo's Italian restaurant is three blocks down."
