Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha-wah! Nor do I own the song 'Behind these Hazel Eyes' Kelly Clarkson does!

A/N: I don't know exactly how long this story is going to be but at some point in time I need to work on my other fics so if any of you are wondering 'Dreams of a Home probably won't have many more chapters added on to it b/c it pretty much has summed it all up…if any of my faithful reviewers have any ideas I would be happy to read them….thanx! D this is written in reference to the song 'Behind These Hazel Eyes' from Kelly Clarkson, its for Inuyasha and the way he feels about Kikyo now that everything is out in the open.

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Okay on to the story!

Chapter 11

Behind These Hazel Eyes….

Seems like just yesterday/

You were a part of me/

I used to stand so tall/

I used to be so strong./

Your arms around me tight/

Everything just felt so right/

Unbreakable like nothing could go wrong./

With Inuyasha…

'Oh Kagome, I just don't know what I am going to do next.' Inuyasha was talking in his sleep, he was dreaming about Kagome. 'I need you here with me and right now, well you're just so far away from me, I can't hold you in my arms, my voice can't reach you, I can't see you.' Tears began to fall down his cheeks.

'I can't live here without you, Kagome. I need you to help me, I can't do anything when you're not here…..please….'

Now I can't breathe/

Now I can't sleep/

I'm barely hanging on./

Tears fell down his pale cheeks, he was awake now. Sango and Miroku stood just outside the dojo to give the hanyou some privacy. He wept openly now, not caring who saw him or what people might think about him, the only person he cared about; was Kagome.

With Sesshomaro…(as he comes into the dojo)

All of the demons thoughts were focused on Kagome….he was worried that if she didn't break the curse, he would never be able to have Kikyo back again, and he couldn't deal with that. He walked into the dojo where his younger brother was weeping.

"Get up"

Sesshomaros' tone was sharp, but not harsh. He knew his brother had a lot of thinking to do.

Especially after he was finished with him. Sesshomaro had many questions for Inuyasha, most of them focused on Kikyo and the relationship that Inuyasha had had with the miko. He knew his brother well enough that he could get the answers that he wanted from him easily. This was going to be simple.

Inuyasha and Sesshomaro

"Why do you want to know so much, what Kikyo and I had was nothing….but a mistake." Inuyashas' words were calm and honest, though he was know thinking of Kikyo instead of Kagome. He thought back to the time when Kikyo had told him that she would quit being a miko just for him and that she would use the Shikon No Tama to turn him completely into a human.

'It was all lies.' he thought. 'She never truly loved me, it was only a fling.' Kikyo had broken Inuyashas' fragile heart and forced him to put the barriers around it, the same barriers that had kept him from telling Kagome his true feeling for her. 'She broke my heart….'

Here I am/

Once again/

I'm torn into pieces/

Can't deny it/

Can't pretend/

Just thought you were the one./

Broken up deep inside/

But you won't get to see the tears I cry…/

Behind these hazel eyes./

Inuyasha continued to think about the things Kikyo had told him, and the trust he had put in her. 'It was all destroyed, everything I told her she used against me in the end.'

I told you everything/

Opened up and let you in/

You made me feel alright/

For once in my life./

Now all that's left of me/

Is what I pretend to be./

So together but so broken up inside./

Cause I can't breathe/

No I can't sleep/

I'm barely hanging on…./

It was Kikyo who had hurt him, it was her who made him so afraid to love again. Because of Kikyo, Inuyasha was afraid to show Kagome his true feelings of love for her. 'Kikyo did this to me. But I don't believe she would do it to Sesshomaro, I really think she loves him….'

Here I am/

Once again/

I'm torn into pieces/

Can't deny it/

Can't pretend/

Just thought you were the one./

Broken up deep inside/

'No why am I thinking about Kikyo, its Kagome that I love, I don't need a dead woman to make me happy, no not when I could have Kagome, she is the one whom I love and from this point on Kikyo is forever in my past….a forgotten memory…' He was happy.

Swallow me then spit me out/

For hating you I blame myself/

Seeing you it kills me now/

Though I don't cry on the outside anymore…../

Inuyasha stood up and smiled at his older brother.

"Kikyo loves you, don't lose her." Sesshomaro returned his little brothers kindness and added: "Kagome loves you, Inuyasha, please don't let her go."

Inuyasha smiled. "I don't plan to."

Here I am/

Once again/

I'm torn into pieces/

Can't deny it/

Can't pretend/

Just thought you were the one./

Broken up deep inside/

A/N: sorry if this is a little confusing, I had the idea and I just needed to get this out of my system, well review and tell me what you think. I shall be waiting D

Ja Ne