Overture
Hi guys!
How are ya? SyS is finally back to life! I had some problems with my
pc, unfortunately Windows is really a crap… Internet Explorer is
even worse… But after installing Mozilla Firefox and swearing and
cursing to every thing around me, here I am with a new fic! A friend
of mine saved it… and also my mental health… but let's go
on…
As you can see, this fic is around a human thing called
"hate"… This is the first fic I really love, because it took me
an eternity and because it's a sequel to one of my fav songs,
"Honor Thy Father". Now, I've listened to many songs during the
creation of my last work. Too many songs. So, I've posted here a
few lines. When there is a cut, there is a quote from a song I've
listened. Maybe the lines are not very connected with the story…
but if you can get (who said download?) the song, the harmony of each
song will help ya to understand the atmosphere of this story. Trust
me, it's a good way to read this story. This fic is dedicated to a
couple of friends: StarryRavenFire, eMOTIV and Mirko. One of
them saved my ass, to one of them I wish a speedy recovery, to one of
them I say: "I've ruined a song. YOU should write Master of
Puppets…"
That's all. Read…
Something Wicked This World Leaves
He saw her leaving very slowly, as if she was very reluctant to leave her best friends. Beast Boy was seeing her crying; he was crying, too. He'd never want to part from her. He'd never want his father to come and take her away from him. He'd want…
Didn't matter what he'd want. Now, she was walking towards her father very slowly, a wicked demon called Trigon. They were walking through a strange pale-blue mist. Beast Boy tried to use his last strength to scream, to yell her to run away, to run away from her father. But she said him that she was very scared. She feared to attack the Titans, to hurt them even without wanting it. He tried to explain her that she would never attack her own friends… She looked at him with iced eyes, saying "are you sure?". Those words stabbed his hearth. She kissed him on the forehead and now she was crossing that damn mist with her damn father. They crossed the mist and they disappeared. Vanished in the air, probably teleported to Azarath, her birthplace, where his father wanted to "free" her from her powers. She said that she would return, but Beast Boy was very doubtful, especially because of her father, the demon Trigon.
He gazed one more time to the empty place where Raven and Trigon were just two minutes ago. A deadly sorrow filled his hearth and tears were falling from his eyes. He lost conscience crying hot tears.
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Then they summoned me
over to join in with them, to the dance of the death…
Into the
circle of fire I followed them, into the middle I was led…
(Dance of Death)
Days After
Beast Boy opened his eyes with effort, looking around himself. A hot sun entered from the window of an extraneous room. He turned his sight towards a table, where he saw an empty box of tofu-sandwich. Was he so idiot to the point that wasn't able to recognize his own room? He shook his head, remembering what had happen. Raven had decided to go with Trigon because of her powers. He had decided to give her powers to the father because she didn't wanted to hurt her friends. He had to find her. He couldn't leave her in the hands of Trigon.
He tried to lift his torso, but a sharp pain hit him in his right shoulder and expanded in his whole body. The pain broke through his brain; he tried to hold back his tears. That was a devastating pain. More slowly, he turned his sight again, trying to understand where his friends were. Praying God of having enough strength to shout, he called different times the names of his friends. Nobody answered, the birds on the windowsill flew away. He started to get himself nervous. Where they were? Were they… still alive? He was becoming paranoid, but reason comforted him. If he was laying in his bed in the Tower probably somebody brought him here. But where the hell were everybody? The thought of being the only Titan in this world terrorized him. He had to find his friends. Unluckily, his body was rejecting the idea. He tried to move very slowly and carefully, but more painful stabs made him stop. Move a muscle and your body will be filled with endless pain, his brain was screaming. He wanted to cry, but he started to think about this absurd situation.
He was inside the Tower. Somebody brought him here, probably the Titans. Raven was in Azarath with his dangerous father and he had to do something for her. His body was out of order. What to do?
He had to heal the scars. The torso was the problem. Maybe, if he slept a couple of hour, then the pain would be gone. And when he would be alright, he would search for the Titans and then for Raven. Right now, he needed some sleep…
Looking the birds setting again on the windowsill, Beast Boy slipped into dreams.
TTTTTTTT
In the silence of the
darkness when all are fast asleep…
I live inside a dream calling
to your spirit as a sail calls the wind, hear the angels sing…
Far
beyond the sun across the western sky, reach into the blackness…
Find
a silver line…
(Master Of The Winds)
Hours Later
It was pitch-dark. The sun had finally faded and left space to a wonderful but formidable full moon. The eyes, stuck by tears and weakness, were toiling to open. After a minute of agony, Beast Boy was able to open his eyes and take a look around. The room looked still the same, everything was the same, probably during his sleep nobody has entered there… His eyes laid on the windowsill where hours ago two birds were keeping him company. Now, naturally, the birds weren't there but he saw that the window was closed. It was open, he was absolutely sure. So somebody entered while he was sleeping and closed the window… but who? The same persons that brought him to the Tower. Maybe… maybe his friends had returned.
Crossing the fingers, Beast Boy called the name of… he was saying "Robin", but his tongue made different words.
'Raven!'
Some footsteps out of his room. He turned himself (the painful stabs were over) towards the door. Robin entered first. Then Cyborg and Starfire. A large bandage was covering Cyborg's head and a bad scar disfigured Star's beautiful face. Robin looked better than his friends. Starfire got closer with a big smile.
'Oh, friend Beast Boy! How are you? Are you more hurt?'
While saying those words, Starfire embraced him for a long time. He blushed a little. He wasn't very used to it.
'I'm… okay Starfire, thank you… Where…?'
He tried to finish the phrase but Cyborg stopped him.
'Bb, for God's sake! Man, you've been sleeping for days!'
'Well, not really but…'
Once again he was stopped, this time by Robin.
'Can you move the shoulder? You should not move it too much and…'
'Won't you please shut up!' irately claimed Beast Boy. He was very pissed. He knew that he never had much consideration from his friends… but this was just too much.
Starfire started with fear. Cyborg tried to calm him.
'Calm down, man… we just wanted to know…'
'… if I'm alright. Perfectly, I've never been so healthy, I am able to move that damn shoulder, I haven't slept for a whole day but I woke up some hours ago… Now…'
Robin raised a hand, as if he wanted to ask leave to speak. Beast Boy gave him a withering look.
'I just wanted to say that we were searching for Raven. When we woke up, you were unconscious and Raven was missing. We've search everywhere in the city…'
'… and you've find a fucking nothing because Raven was taken by her father!' He didn't wanted to use those words, but the fact that nobody allowed him to speak in such a critical moment hurt him. Was he so neglected? Why?
'I can understand your anger and frustration but not this language…'
He was treating him like a little child! Did he understood his words!
'Robin, forget the language! Have you realized that Raven is with Trigon?'
Robin peacefully looked him 'I've perfectly understand. How do you know it?'
He told them of how he got up, of how he heard Raven talking with her father, of how she decided to leave them because she feared to hurt them… He told them every thing. The others heard him in silence. When he had finished, Starfire spoke.
'No… this can't be… Friend Raven would never do such a terrible thing!'
'That's what I've tried to make her understand… she didn't listen to me. But now we have to find her and…'
Cyborg sit on the bed 'Wait a minute, B. I've got a question… are you sure that she's not really a danger for us?'
Beast Boy had always considered Cyborg a friend to trust. A friend with whom you can talk knowing that he's listening to your words. A true friend. After those words, Beast Boy hated him to the point of no return. If only he could be able to move, he'd probably punched him.
'Don't be mad at me, I was just supposing…'
He wasn't looking at him. He was perforating him with a sight 'You… how can you dare…?'
'Beast Boy, control yourself and do not say something that you will regret after…' said Robin.
The anger, the fury, the frustration, the worry for Raven that Beast Boy felt inside himself just broke out and hit the Titans' leader.
'Have you heard him! He just said that Raven can be a danger for us! How can he say such a stupid thing! I always thought that she was his friend… if he knows what this word means…'
Cyborg looked at him like a hurt animal looks his slaughter. He didn't expect that reaction.
'I… I didn't want to say that… I know that she's a friend; I was just worried about our selves'
Beast Boy was still ferociously looking him. Robin talked again.
'Calm down, you two. Raven is still our friend, Bb' he said watching his green friend. Then his sight laid on Cyborg 'But we also have to know if Raven can be a danger for us…'
'Are you thinking…! I can't believe it! You would…?'
'I just know that if Raven could be dangerous, I would take all the precautions…'
'Stop talking this way! You would kick her out of the Titans, wont ya? After that she had battled her own father to protect all of us? She saved your ass… I mean, your face!'
'And I thank her for that. And, speaking of Raven, I would never let her go. Now you have to rest some more time…'
Beast Boy tried to counter, but a sudden thought blocked him. He looked down.
'Okay. Cy… I'm sorry for all that yelling…'
Cyborg did a smile, fake as a three-dollar bill 'It's all right, friend…'
Starfire, which had stayed for all the time gazing at them in fear, spoke in a low voice 'Now that calmness is finally restored, shall we eat something? I suggest…'
'Just a minute' interrupted Robin 'Beast Boy, do you want something?'
'No, I'm not hungry' he answered with a thoughtful expression 'Just leave me alone. I need to think about… a thing'
Robin shrugged his shoulder. Probably Beast Boy suffered the blow; he probably wanted to find a way to help Raven. He could help him to find her and not sooth his pain.
'Let's go' he said to the other Titans 'Good night, Beast Boy'
One by one, everybody left the room: Starfire, looking at nothing; Cyborg, looking down with evident embarrassment; Robin, his sight hidden by the black mask. Beast Boy slipped down his warm blankets. He stared at the ceiling, thinking about the past minutes.
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Death
is the first dance, eternal…
(…)
Deceit is the second
without end…
(…)
Love is the Dance of Eternity…
(Metropolis
– Part I "The Miracle And the Sleeper")
Some Time After
Beast Boy was still staring at the ceiling. The thoughts inside his mind were still the same. When Robin said "I would never let her go", Beast Boy was going to counter but that thought blocked him. He made his excuse to Cyborg and told the others to leave him alone because he needed time to think.
He needed to think, because Robin words hit him. Maybe not the words, but the tone. The tone used during that moment. That tone… was very… like if…
The door opened slowly. The red-haired alien entered in the room and silently closed the door.
'I'm sorry Beast Boy if I didn't knock, but…'
She looked… broken-hearted. Sorry. Disconsolate. Worried. Anxious. Could those eyes lead you so down within her soul? Could those eyes express more than a thousand words?
'Don't worry about it… what's wrong? You look…'
What to say? Too many emotions those pupils were showing.
'Well, I have a problem… Maybe it's not a problem, but I need to talk with somebody… You see, I would talk with Raven, but she's not… well…'
She was standing in front of him, walking nervously. He decided to help her.
'Calm down, Star… Are you okay? Do you have something to say to me?'
'Yes… the fact is…'
'You're too anxious; take a deep breath and start. I won't talk, don't worry'
She smiled sitting on the bed 'Thank you, Beast Boy… Now, maybe it could be stupid… maybe you haven't realized it… but me… Robin…'
'Do you love him?'
It was like if she was bitten by a snake. She literally jumped, gazing at him with great surprise.
'How do you know it! Can you read inside my hearth? Please, teach me how to do it!'
The fact is that I'm not reading your hearth. To be honest, I'm not reading a damn thing. Your eyes are screaming your emotions.
'I'm not reading you hearth, Star… that's just impossible. It's just that some moves… some looks… some "empty words"… I just tried to guess…'
'That's incredible…' She was still gazing at him, mouth wide-opened.
'So… you were saying…?'
She nodded 'Oh, yes… As you know, I love Robin… unfortunately, I'd never told him what I feel for him, but I love him from the first moment… Anyways, what I wanted to say… is… Today we were looking for Raven. Robin acted very strangely… I mean, I know that she's a friend… but he was… terrified by the fact that Raven was missing. And some time ago, when he was talking about her… his tone was… again, very strange… It took me some time, but I think to know what Robin has… And I'm scared, Beast Boy… I think that…'
He knew the final. He had found the answer moments ago. Starfire words were just more clues. He already knew what Robin felt.
'… Robin loves Raven. I… feel very hurt… as a strange weight is on my hearth… It's a strange sensation, Raven told me once…'
'It's called jealousy, Star. The fact that he loves someone else and not you is hurting you…'
He didn't realize that the green-eyed girl was crying.
'That's it! That's the name! I love him, and right now I'm feeling something for Raven too…'
The shock was deleting from her mind all the terms she learned during those years.
'Hate. Now you hate Raven because she's the one who's loved by Robin, not you…'
Starfire sank her face on the blankets. She was desperately crying, and he too was starting to feel hurt. He felt emotions too, he was not a piece of ice.
'I…' was saying Starfire 'can't feel such a horrible emotion towards my best friend… Raven! What can I do, Beast Boy? I feel sick, can you understand me?'
He understood her. He too felt sick. He was feeling something very similar to hate, too… but towards Robin. How could he hurt somebody so gentle and sweet? And how the hell couldn't he realize what Starfire felt for him? Could he be such an idiot?
Beast Boy couldn't say a thing. He was not very helpful. He just stretched his arms and hugged the crying girl. The wonderful smell that came from Starfire's hair hit him like a punch. He could feel her desperation and pain, and he was feeling the same things too. Starfire, with that embrace, felt a little bit better.
'Thank you, Beast Boy'
'For what? You're my friend…'
'For everything. I feel a little better…'
'Look: I'll try to do something, okay?'
She looked at him with hope 'Really?'
'I'll try. I swear'
She smiled, drying the tears off her face. Then, surprising Bb, she kissed him on his left cheek. Beast Boy became a stone (the smell was closer… inside his belly, a little fire started to dance, warming his whole body…)
She closed the door behind her shoulders. She started to move towards her room. Time to sleep, Starfire. She didn't realize that, semi-hidden by shadows, a figure was standing near Beast Boy's door. The figure wore a black mask and had seen the scene.
Finale
Hey, who was the black
masked guy? Cyborg…
I'm kidding. Yes, it was Robin. A
question: where is Raven? Will they save her? What are feeling our
Titans? This is my aim: I want to explore human soul. In this case,
superheroes souls… And this is the first chap. I'll publish the
second ASAP. Review and I'll love you all (well, maybe only the
females… ;-). Flame and I'll consider your opinion… And then,
some flamers said me "you're a pervert bastard, but you're a
good writer"… is it a compliment?
Till next, Bye!
Symphonies in Sorrow
