1Break My Heart Again

Disclaimer- Well...since all this is mine...I own nothing anyways.

Foreword- Just a REALLY short little fic I wrote about Emma and Hiei. Once again, trying to work on my descriptive writing. I hope you enjoy!

I don't know how I can stand it.

I told myself that it wouldn't matter to me weather or not you could return my feelings or not. I was lying to myself. I can't stand it. I don't know how long I can be content to follow after you, to watch you from a distance. To hide the inner pain with laughter and smiles.

Every time you act like you love me, only to turn around and hurt me, I don't know what to do. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to be mad at you, I want to hate you.

But I can't.

I should have listened to my mother. I should've left you when my heart wasn't bound to you. She said I could do so much better then you, that you'd only bring me pain and suffering.

It hurts. It does. To know, that you know my feelings, but you never say anything. You act completly oblivious.

You jerk me around, like a puppet. I try not to cry, try not to let it hurt, Try to shake it off. Try to tell myself that you don't mean it.

I have trouble doing it now.

I have no doubt that I love you. I have no doubt I'll continue to love you, untill I breath my last. But, I don't know how long I can be with you, as constant and faithful as a puppy.

Being around you rips my heart to shreds. It hurts to watch you, shielding yourself from everything, everyone, refusing to let anyone through the walls you've built.

I want nothing more then to break the walls, to go and help you. I want to be there for you when you're sad, when you're angry, when you're scared.

But you push me away.

You don't have to be alone. Why can't you just see? It breaks my heart time and time again to see you try to carry the burden on your own.

I just want to help. I want you to let me love you. My own heart can take so much more, this abuse has only made it numb. It still hurts, but I look through it, keeping my eyes on you.

I can't leave you. You may call me worthless, stupid, ignorant, but I still stay. I follow when you tell me to leave.

And I still follow you, and you break my heart again.