Staring into Despair
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A/n: I'm sorry guys. I was lazy, became obsessed, was stupid, got all my stuff erased to. But now I'm back...I WONT TAKE SO LONG TO UPDATE!!!! Enjoy, I hope.
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Aika groaned, lifting her hair from her pillow to look at the wall. It was dark, and Vyse and Fina had gone out a few hours ago. Aika hadn't seen them since when she ran back into her room. She had acted like a total idiot.

'I should be happy...' Aika told herself. 'If Vyse and Fina like each other, then they can be together, and be happy.' She looked at the roof. 'He's my best friend, and even If I love her...if they are happy, I should be too...right?'
She sat up quickly, frantically. 'Right!?'

Her brown eyes scanned the room, searching for the answer, and she heard nor saw one.

She could hear the crickets outside chirping their melody, and her brows furrowed. She wrapped her arms around herself into a hug. She didn't want to be like this. Rolling onto her side she held herself, curling into fetal position.

If they are happy, you should be happy. That's what ran through her head.
"Then why am I so miserable?" she muttered, closing her eyes, holding back bitter tears of anger.

She lay like that for awhile. Holding her knees to her chest, eyes watery. Eventually her head began to swim and she sat up, wishing she could see throughout the dark room. She clumsily stood, and used the desk to brace herself.

The blood rushing to her head had made her feel woozy, and she stumbled outside. She leaned against the railing beside her room, and looked up at the sky, it was beautiful.
The red moon illuminated the sky, and ground, with a very slight red hue.
The stars twinkled happily in the sky, majestically. 'how romantic..' Aika thought to herself, almost bitterly. She sighed wistfully, what she wouldn't give to have Fina with her right now, holding her, and looking at the sky with her.

Fina reminded her of the moons. Her eyes and blue as the Blue Moon, her soul as pure as the silver. Fina was a goddess. Aika sighed in frustration, balling her fists. Fina was a Goddess. An untouchable angel from a beautiful silver place.

Why would a Goddess like Fina want a normal person like her? That's who they were.
Fina a Goddess, Vyse a Hero, and she was just a normal person. She was ordinary. The Goddess would naturally choose the Hero. Just like the Prince and Princess in the old fairytales that Aika would beg Vyse's mother to read over and over again.
"You love those stories don't you?" Vyse's mom would laugh, putting a hand on her hip and smiling at her. Aika would nod.
"Yeah! It's only right for the handsome prince to get the Beautiful princess!" She would say enthusiastically, believing that as the truth.

"What a lie..." Aika murmured. Because that's what it was. A lie. She didn't like those stories anymore. Because they weren't a lie. She wished it was. But it was truth.

Vyse was going to get his princess Fina.

Because they were special.

'Why? Why can't I be special?' Aika proceeded to think, hugging herself again. She wasn't very cold on the outside, but the inside was a different matter. 'Why can't I be brilliant and heroic? Why can't I be the one Fina sees and loves? why!? Why is life so unfair!?'

She needed to take a walk. She couldn't stand watching the sky and thinking about this, it was depressing. 'God, I need a life.' she thought, trudging down from the headquarters to walk around the grounds. The slightly cooling air would soothe her, and she could think clearer. She hated being so jealous.

Aika yawned. It was rather silly wasn't it? I mean, to think all that? Vyse and Fina we're just like her. They were all special. All three of them. Vyse didn't necessarily have to get Fina! Maybe, just maybe...Fina...

Aika giggled to herself, her thoughts leaving their dark train to a more optimistic one. It was something Vyse had grow on her. He was always so happy, and never would go down. Aika grinned, she did actually have something she learned from him!

She walked in the direction of the flagpole, which held the Dolphin sign Fina made. She could look out far from there, and enjoy the night.
'And I can think of how to tell Fina I like her! Perfect!'

She stopped then, seeing someone at the pole. 'Wow...who's up at this hour?' She wondered, her thoughts leaving their "Fina-fied" path. She squinted, trying to see in the darkness. She could make two people out. She gasped, it was Vyse and Fina!

'They must have gotten back awhile ago...' Aika said. She was frozen. What should she do? Should she go and pretend she didn't see them? Should she go back to bed?
'Wait wait wait....' She thought to herself, mentally punching herself.
'I just thought to myself, we are ALL special! We're all always gonna be friends, and stuff...jeeze, I need to get over my "deer in headlights" faze!'

Aika grinned and began to walk toward them, intending to ask how the date went. She opened her mouth to call out to them, when Vyse took Fina into his arms and kissed her.
Aika froze, mouth wide in shock. She then turned and ran to her room in shock, bitter, angry tears flowing down her cheeks.

She was angry at Vyse for not guessing,
She was angry at Fina for now knowing,
She hated herself. Deeply hated herself, for not being someone special.