Here with me

Loving the Prey

Integra grabbed at her chest as she fell to her side and lied there. She curled into a tiny ball and allowed the tears to fall down her face. How could she go on now? How could she not go on now? There were so many things she wanted to do, but even now she may never get the chance. What about Alucard...about what he said. He was infatuated with her. He liked her, he loved her. NO! NO! NO ONE COULD LOVE HER!

I die alone...no one deserves to fall with me to hell. Father how I have failed you. Integra cried. She allowed stress and her tears to get the better of her. She allowed her now tangled hair to cover her face as she tried to sink low into her office floor. She ended up crying herself to sleep.

"Master what seems to be the matter?"

Seras asked as she stepped out onto the balcony where Alucard sat. He sat on the railing staring up at the moon. He loved the moon. The moon reminded him of so many great things that had happened in his life. He looked over his shoulder at Seras.

"I'm sorry."

He said. Seras was a little taken a back. She looked at him.

"For what master?"

Seras stood there. Alucard took his gaze from her and returned to the moon. He already hurt someone tonight how could he bring himself to hurt another. He sighed.

"What is the point of being a Vampire if you have to spend eternity alone?"

Alucard laughed.

"I can't be the master you want so Seras. Keep Pip with you forever. I am sure he'll be the one to keep you company."

Seras felt a certain ting of relief but then she also felt a pain. He was freeing her from being his servant. His pet. She looked at him. She placed her hand over her heart thinking of Pip. She smiled at that thought. She looked up at Alucard who held kind eyes. They were soft, gentle and cold. They seemed hurt. She had never seen his eyes like that before. She knew they weren't for her either. She knew they were for Integra.

"I'm sure she'll tell you yes one day...Alucard. Then neither of you will spend eternity alone."

Alucard smiled at that thought. His black mess of a hair covered one eyes as he leaned his head against the wall which the railing was connected to. He thanked Seras. He knew she could tell way before that he had feelings for Integra, and now she could tell he told her of those feeling and didn't get the response he wanted. He jumped off the railing and went for a walk.

Integra awoke in her bed. She was in her pajama's and her glasses were neatly placed on the nightstand. It had gotten dark since when she fell asleep. She looked out her window. She expected to see the giant moon there but instead she saw a shadow. She rolled over trying to pretend she was asleep. She couldn't bare the thought that she had yelled at Alucard like that. She pulled the cover over her. She wanted to sink so far into the bed; she never had to see anyone again.

Alucard turned to feel his master stir. He gave a small smile as he began toward her. Immediately Integra felt herself tense as she heard his footsteps. Was he the one who had dressed her and placed her in her bed? Was he still that kind to her after she was so cruel to him?

Alucard stopped at the side of her bed. He looked down at the lump. Her hair was the anything showing from it. He sat himself down beside her. She didn't move or do anything. She lied there trying to tell herself it was all a dream. He hadn't confessed his feelings; she hadn't been so cruel to turn him away. Nothing happened. He was still just her servant, her pet vampire and that was all...that was not all.

"Integra..."

Alucard said as he lied himself down now. Integra if not already frozen would have become Antarctica. She all of a sudden felt her entire building melt under him. She couldn't help it. It just rushed over her body. Alucard wrapped his arm around her and brought her close. Her back was pressed firmly against his chest. She felt his grasp on her. Should she yell at him? No she couldn't risk that. Should she just allow him to hold her the way he did? She didn't enjoy it...did he?

Get a hold of yourself Integra! You're a Hellsing and he's a vampire! Don't fall for it now! This is no Romeo and Juliet; he only wants to turn you! Her head yelled at her. Shut up! He's the only man besides Walter to ever show me kindness. He is the reason I go on. He gives me my strength he...What on Earth was she saying. He gave her, her strength? Had she truly gone mad? She couldn't take it any longer. She yelled to herself in her head. She grabbed a pillow from under her hitting Alucard in the head with it.

"Oof!" PLOP! There go the sheets. Integra sat up. She couldn't see but she knew very well what happened. So unlike Integra she smiled and laughed. She didn't give the 'you're gonna die now' laugh or smile, but a true smile and laugh. One of those that she could only share with Alucard. When she hit him in the head with the pillow it caught him on surprise and since he was so close to the edge he fell over it taking of course a few more pillows and the sheet that covered her.

Integra looked over the side at the bed while reaching for her glasses. She placed them on her nose as she looked at Alucard. He lied on the floor on his back still stunned on what just happened. Integra laughed. Alucard now back in reality realized the event. He smiled and flung a pillow at her. Integra saw this and ducked. She went back over the edge with a bigger pillow.

"Ungrateful mutt! How dare you throw a pillow at...OoF!" Pillow to the face. Alucard jumped back on the bed and got her right in the mouth with a pillow. He guided her down and stared at her. She looked up at him and smiled. She pulled the pillow away and smacked him with it once more. It was either the pillow, or the butt of the gun. The gun was too far so she stuck with the pillow.

"About earlier, it was uncalled for."

Integra said. Alucard looked at her. It was quiet now.

"No need master, it's alright."

"And about right now! How dare you touch me without my consent!"

Integra was back. If the gun hadn't been so far and Alucard sitting on her dagger under her pillow she could have killed him by now. Alucard stared at his outraged master who was waiting for a replay. He stared at her eyes. How deeply blue they were and seemed like ice. He could imagine her now, as a vampire. Her eyes would be red, fangs bared and her body burning. She wouldn't be a frozen ice dragon anymore. She never really was that. A dragon maybe but not of ice. She seemed more on fire when she was cold hearted, when she yelled. Yes her burning blue pits of fire and ice. That's what he saw now.

Her eyes held everything. Alucard saw clear as day the burning fire for Hellsing. Her passion for her household no matter how much it weighed her down. He saw she would marry to make the queen happy and give birth to a child, because that was her duty as a Hellsing. It didn't matter how hard she was pushed, no matter how unfair it was. It was her duty and she was to fill it out at all costs. Alucard loved it all. She was so brave, so courageous, proud and ready to do anything for her duty. She was perfect. She would be beyond perfection as a vampire. She would have the world at her grasp. Why did she not take the offer?

Proud Hellsing blood. She would never allow Alucard to taint her with his blood. How he wished she did but then again, her often 'no's and 'shut up Alucard I have no time for this' were what made him want her more. They drove him mad and made him persistent.

"Is it a crime to take my chances?"

He asked.

"So if you had your chance to drink my blood you would?"

He saw he was adding fuel to the fire.

"Not without your consent."

"SO HOW IS TOUCHING ANY BETTER! YOU SWINE!"

Pillow to the head once more. Alucard only laughed. She saw this. Oh he was the best at getting her angry even in a sentimental moment. She lunged forward to grab the dagger and stab the shit out of him. (Purified dagger of course) Alucard grabbed her. She was taken a back and then it happened.

Alucard placed her below him. He was on top now. He stared at her, red burning eyes to blue burning eyes. Integra regained her thoughts and yelled at him to get off. He disobeyed and came closer. Their noses were now touched. He stared down at her. He could take her now. She would never have to worry about the stupid things humans worried about. She would be immortal, she would be perfect. It was no longer for the Hellsing blood. Fuck the Hellsing blood. All he wanted was her, her being, her soul, her love.

"Alucard what in the flaming pits of hell do you think you are doing? Get off!'

Integra thrashed below him. Alucard stopped her though. He spoke in a whisper almost, a clear thought whisper that seemed like water; smooth and cool.

"Integra, you are perfection at its highest. You are the proud and by far the best Hellsing ever had, even if you don't think so. I have lived through almost three generations of Hellsing, and so far you are the best. Your father should be proud. I am proud. I have watched you since you were a little girl and you still are that little girl to me. Full of wonder and pride. You would make a perfect vampire. WAIT! Don't take that wrong. Don't deny my offer without knowing why I have asked of if."

"Blood lust."

Integra's one word caused a chill up his spine. Oh...how he would kill to experience that with her, his master. Ohh...the feelings, not only for him but her. But no! If he was to clam her he would clam her with love, not blood hungry need to mate. He would not allow it he would fight it back. Even if he never got a chance to be with her, he could still dream.

"No. I want for us to be together forever. You deny yourself simple pleasure for the sake of that dammed queen. You deny yourself for her. You sacrifice it all for what? To be commanded that you marry and produce and heir whether you love the father or not? I know you'll do it no matter what. For Hellsing. But think about this. If I were to mix my blood with yours...if we were to become one...you would not need to marry someone you don't want to, you would not need to produce if you don't want to. You could forever rule over Hellsing..."

"And what of you? You would be free. That proud Hellsing blood I had would all up and leave me. The bond would break and you could go forever on to manipulate humanity as you see fit."

Integra tried not to look at him but she couldn't help it. He always asked it. No matter what he asked her to become a vampire. Did he want his freedom that badly or was she just not listening correctly? Alucard resisted the urge. He could take her now. His little girl who he loved. She would not only be the No Life Queen, not only a child that he created, she'd be his lover. His equal. His blood turned at their closeness. Just one kiss upon those lips. Just one chance to prove his love. He knew Integra. If he were to take his chance now and kiss her it would be over. She would push him off and chase him out of her room with so many blessed silverware that he would need to sleep a week to recover.

He smiled at that thought. She feared nothing. Not even him. No matter how evil he seemed since she was a little girl she showed him that power that she would not back down, especially from a vampire, tall handsome and scary who just slaughtered a group of men or not. She would now back down. He loved that spark of fire. He couldn't deny himself could he? Or would he do the same as Integra and lock himself into a shallow shell.

"Even with the Hellsing blood no longer coursing through your veins I would be bound to you. The only reason I want to do this is to be bound to you. No masters. No chains, just a bond that we share, that we've shared for as long as I can remember. For us to be together as Equals. To live eternity out forever and together."

Before Integra could protest against it he kissed her. His soft smooth lips lay upon hers. For a few second it caught Integra off guard. She was short in breath and closed her eyes allowing it. But now she was aware of what he was doing. She felt his arms snake around her as he deepen the kiss. His tongue sliding deeply into her mouth tickling the roof of her mouth. She shuttered beneath him. What was he doing? He had some nerve. Oh when he stopped she would surely stab him. She would rip out his heart and make him re eat it. And knowing Alucard he would do it.

Integra regained her arms back as she placed her hands on his chest. She allowed them to roam until she found a good spot. With a thrust she pushed him off of her but not far away. She was about to yell at him to get out as she reached for the dagger but he was upon her once more. He threw the dagger to the wall allowing it to slice into it and get stuck. He stared down at her. Integra was about to yell at him but he pulled away. He rolled over onto his back and stared at the ceiling.

"I could never break a promise, my loving prey."

Integra stared at him. What did he mean break a promise? Was he talking about the seal to the Hellsing family? No it was something between the two. It was nothing having to do with the family. Just the two.

It was quiet that day. Nothing new and no one special to hunt down. Walter had gone out to a private met that he refused to allowed Integra to know about. She lied on her bed, arms stretched out and legs wide open. She had just thrown herself onto the bed. She didn't really care. The sun was at sunset and it was beautiful. She stared at it as she sighed. She was nineteen turning twenty soon. There was nothing to do anymore. The vampires troubling the country side were taken out thanks to Alucard and herself. She had gone through at least two weeks paper work she wasn't to sure. She knew she would be bored for a while until Walter returned with more papers.

It was to tiresome any ways. She felt hot and she still couldn't figure out how to work the air. She sighed and got up. She walked toward the bathroom and turned on the bath water plugging up the bath. She turned and locked the door then walked back to the water. Slowly she began to take off her articles of clothing throwing them to the "waste' basket. She slowly slipped into the water turning off the faucet. She allowed the cool water to brush against her skin. She sat up and covered her breast with her hair. Reaching over Integra grabbed her book and a gun. The gun she placed by the bar of soap. The book she opened to begin to read. She was thankful the water was not hot unless her glasses would steam and she would fight to keep them from doing so.

Integra felt the familiar cold presence. She grabbed her gun and looked at the wall while crossing her legs. A black shadow appeared as Alucard popped his head threw the wall. He had a stupid grin on his face as he did so.

"Hello master are you bu...WOAW!"

Alucard ducked. The gunshot was fired right at his head. He realized she was naked and decided to leave her. Actually he knew he just was playing games with her. She was used to it by now. There where a lot of things a person would have to get used to when Alucard was around, and with that fact that she was a woman, there were a lot more things.

Integra growled as she stalked up the stars to her office. She carried with her, her gun still. She was in her regular suit trying to relax and think of other things but Alucard would not leave her alone. He barked at her, he toyed with her. She was going to blow his brains out the next time she saw him. The next time she did see him he grabbed her threw the gun away from her and placed her over his shoulder. She growled at him as he did so.

"PUT ME DOWN THIS INSTANT ALCARD!"

She yelled. He only laughed. He made his way to her room. Once he was within it he threw her on the bed. She stared up at him angrily but Alucard was not paying any attention to her. He was watching something outside. He turned back and threw the gun at Integra. He wasn't sure if that was a smart thing to do.

"We have a visitor."

He said. Integra rose from her bed and stood beside him. Three vampires ran threw the courtyard with neither great speed yet being detected by guards or the security system. Alucard looked at Integra and raised a brow. She stared at them. Her eyes glowing. How dare they come to her home to destroy her? How dare they? She growled to herself.

"Shall we bid them good night?"

Integra looked at him,

"Permanently. I want to see if a vampire can rise from the dead twice!"

Alucard felt something in him. He loved this side of her. Evil sadistic blood hungry Integra who's only mission was to seek and destroy all vampires. Gladly Alucard took her into his shadow and they were outside. She loaded her gun with the silver coated bullets. She pulled the safety off and stood beside Alucard. A vampire swooped beside them. She laughed.

"So who dares to step foot upon Hellsing Property?"

She asked. There was a small laugh as a vampire emerged. She was tall and very beautiful. She smiled and approached Integra. Alucard hid in the background trying to see how well his master did. The woman laughed an evil hissing laugh as she bared her fangs, her jaw dropped very low.

"You're the great killer Integra Hellsing? Ha! I could break you in two right now! Or should I wait. Yes I should. I should torture you, drink you dry and make you my ghoul. Oh I would be the envy of so many. Then we could rule over London!"

"You talk to much."

Integra said. She raised her gun and shot the vampire in the head. It fell to the ground gave a great cry and became dust into the wind. Integra not even watching fired to her side. A vampire jumped out of no where at her. But as that one died one came from behind her and took her down. Alucard stepped in now. He kicked the vampire off her. He turned to Integra. She was getting up her eyes on fire. She loaded the gun. Alucard moved and gripped the male vampire by his balls. He cried out no. Alucard laughed as he pulled. Blood spurted from the vampires as Alucard broke his legs.

Integra came up behind Alucard her gun readied. She stared down at the handicap demon. Her eyes were just as much on fire as Alucard's. She pointed her gun straight at the vampire's head and shot four times. The vampire cried out and became dust once more. Alucard stood beside hi master. He smiled as he looked at her. He was proud to be her pet.

"Alucard you pull a stunt like that again and I will personally full you with silver coated bullets to the point you'll have so many holes it'll take months to regenerate you! You hear me!"

Integra yelled at him. Alucard watched her. He had grown so much before him.

"I promise to stick by your side for eternity blood or not." Alucard started. "I'll always be by your side." Integra was shocked for a moment. Did those words just come out his mouth? She stood there a bit dumbstruck. She then nodded and told him he better be to it too. He laughed then raised a brow again and looked at her devilishly.

'So did my ripping that guys balls off excite you?"

"WHAT! ALUCARD! YOU INSOLET LITTLE PUP! I AM GOING TO MAKE YOU WISH YOU NEVER TANGOED WITH THE HELLSIGN FAMILY! GET BACK HER!"

Integra fired rounds off at Alucard as he went dashing down the courtyard again. Yup he was back. Even if for a moment he seemed completely different then his every day self, he was back once more. And Integra was glad...

"To stick by my side for eternity, blood or no blood."

Integra placed a finger to her lip as she spoke. She thought about what Alucard had said. Did he really mean everything? Everything since when she was just a child, or had he been plotting something from the very beginning. She knew he had been infatuated once before with his former wife that much was all she knew about his infatuations. There was nothing more for her to ponder on. Could a monster really love? The only thing that made her think about her answer was that if she did take his offer, did become a vampire she could forever reign over Hellsing. She would ensure that the queen and her decedents forever live. She decided she was tired with living.

Human emotions. She would loose those wouldn't she? Seras didn't seem to be low on that, she clung to them. And then there was Alucard. Alucard confessed affections for her. If he did that from his cold dead heart then that meant he still had emotions. It had been two days since she visited the queen on Monday, tomorrow she would be down to less them a week to decide. What would the Round do if she where to walk in saying she found her husband and tell them she married a vampire? It could by a chance, that it would be a lot easier to get them to side with humans and destroy their kind...but what about after they are done?

Vampires. Alucard, Seras...they were vampires. Her trusted company and they were that which walked the dead. What would she do? Was there anything she could do? They would die after the vampire race was wiped out. And then if she did take his offer, if she chose to total eternity would she end up dieing. No...she wouldn't die. She would be hated. Hated for what she was, what she would be. Integra shook the thoughts from her head and stared at Alucard. He had his eyes closed now. He just lied there. She had to admit he was handsome. But...he was a monster. He could not die, and he would not die.

"I want time."

Integra said. It was the only thing she could think of doing. Asking for time to clear her head, to think without him beside her...but she wanted him beside her. No! Get a hold of yourself! You know who you are, you place and your duty! Say you need time to think about it then never get back to it. Just marry whoever the queen sees fit, bare the damned child. Die! Die Integra. Die and old aged woman.

"I will give you as much time as you may need, but time is not likewise."

And with that Alucard sat up. He placed one more kissed upon her lips and disappeared. Integra shoved her face into her hands and began to sob. What was she to do? Defy her heart, or her country and god... God she did not want to meet him. Not yet. Not ever. She had done so much in the name of god and in so she still sinned. She still knew there was no hope for the likes of her in heaven. She lied down and rolled over onto her stomach thinking. Even if she did tell Alucard no, denied his love, and married produced an heir...Hellsing would be lost. She would die no sooner after giving birth, and her husband would take Hellsing. Hellsing's blood would vanish and...

sorry I just thought it was a good spot to end. I feel like I am losing it. Maybe I should just type these ever night instead of when I feel like typing cause the ones from the night come out better. N-e-ways hope you liked. Good day

Damien.