Here with me

Love letter,

I am so proud. I have made it through to yet another chapter and I am getting reviews, ;-), bout the only thing getting me through this too. But there is also the undying urge to finish it because I just love Alucard and I think his old married couple relationship with Integra is so cute! Sometimes its bad being a girl. Oh well. Hope you enjoy!

The sun was raising over head and the room filled with light. Integra rolled over moving her arm around a lump. She smiled to herself thinking what it was but when she opened her eyes, it was just a pillow. She sat up quick. She had to stop herself from calling out Alucard's name. She looked around, the window was opened wide and the cool summer air blew in. She smiled to herself. For some reason, she wanted to smile.

Integra was about to get out of bed when the sound of paper grabbed her attention. She looked under her pillow to see an envelope. She slowly reached toward her, her fingers feeling the soft yet rough texture of parchment. She pulled it to her. The front was blank. She flipped it over to see the binding mark of alchemy that was on Alucard's glove in wax holding the envelope closed. She looked around. She thought it would best be fitted if she read it within the privacy and safety of her office.

Integra sat herself at her desk. There was a slowly knock on the door. She told Walter he could come in. thinking that it was Walter, but it wasn't. The door opened and Seras walked in. She smiled as she brought in the silver tray with Integra's morning tea on it. She placed it down.

"Where is Walter?"

Integra asked. Seras brought the tea onto her desk, then the sugar and spoon. She looked up at her.

"He has to go to the doctors to get an examine. They had been every cautious after his accident when Incognito attacked. "

"You mean the explosion?"

Integra added as Seras finished. Seras nodded as she picked the tray up.

"Alucard asked me if I would take care of some of Walter's jobs while he took him. Yes Alucard took Walter, only because there was a vampire rampaging around. Here are his reports so far."

Seras pulled the reports from under the tray and handed them to Integra. Integra couldn't help but smile. It was odd really how Seras knew what she would think. Or was it Seras who knew. Did Alucard tell Seras what he expected her to do? She shook the thoughts from her head, but the smile was still there.

Seras saw the smile. She knew what it meant. Seras bade Integra farewell and left. After closing the door behind her Seras walked down to her quarters in the sub-levels. She opened the door quietly and walked in. There on her bed was Walter curled under the blankets asleep. Seras placed a blood bag on the table then slowly walked out.

Integra looked at the letter. Carefully she opened it. Within it was another piece of parchment that seemed thicker. She reached for it and pilled it out. There was so much writing on it she was unsure if this was from Alucard or the queen. Most of Alucard's little notes were simple, a paragraph at the most. But with, this was a letter, letter.

She slowly opened it up. It was two papers written in pure English which she could read thankfully. Alucard thought it was funny once to write out his report in Romanian. Oh she got him back for that. He was not allowed a blood packet for two days. She laughed at it. Two days seemed like she re found him for how badly he over reacted.

: My dearest Integra, right now I am off in the heart of London killing off demons known as Vampire's. Forgive me if I left your side and you awoke alone. Against my wishes, Walter thought it would be best to take care of it now, than wait till you awoke. So I fallowed out my duty, as I know you will.

My heart cries for you, scoff at it if you choose but a Vampire can love, and this one does. For years and years the only one who had ever stolen my heart was my wife, but even then she was not quite...how can I put this...fitting of a king. She showed emotion, she showed pity, she despised me. But you Integra Hellsing. You strike fear into anyone's heart, you are perfection at its best vampire or not. You have made it so, that even when you die, if you die, Your god forbid, but you will live on. You name, Integra Windgates Hellsing, will forever leave a mark in history. Whether it be for my idiocy in destroying the tower, or because of how well you serve your country, you will live on. Now I know you are thinking about burning this, I can see you reaching for your lighter but hear me out, please.

Last night, I heard you say something in your dreams, and you were crying. You said you failed your father, but you have not. He should be proud of you Integra. You lost your father, then you killed your uncle and you still managed to grow up sane. You managed to grab this corporation by its loins and hold onto it with all you might, and you still are holding on to it. Vampires everywhere fear you Integra. And those fools at the Round table, who detest, loath you, loath you for they envy you. Remember that. They want to be you, to be as stunning, as cold hearted, as ruthless as you and still live on

I ask of you this, Integra, with all my heart that now beats, with all the words that a man could describe to his true love, will you return my love? Will you give to me your soul, you body, you heart? I have given you everything I have. My loyalty, my heart, my body everything belongs to you and you alone Integra...Do I deserve to get the same from you? I am a vampire. Your sworn enemy I know that, but I am also your pet, your vampire, your friend...I know you, you're duty you must fulfill, I know you will go to that ball and I know you will marry the man the queen chooses, but before at least give me your love. At least allow me to shower you with my love until you can no longer stand me! At least then, when you walk down that isle, you won't be sad. You will know, you know the meaning of true love.

I asked Seras to help me find a perfect poem, and we found one. As I wrote, we...believe me or not but loving you Integra has driven me over the edge and now I am floating there on the brink of insanity waiting for you, holding out my hand for you so together we can fall and love one another forever. Because I am floating there I am driven to do so many things to get you to return your love that I am no longer the no life king Alucard, I am just plan ol' Alucard.

(a/n: for those who don't know this is the chorus to the song by Dido and redone by Sarah Brightman Here with me.)

Oh I am what I am

I'll do what I want

But I can't hide

I won't go

I won't sleep

I can't breathe

Until you're resting

Here with me

I won't leave

I can't hide

I cannot be

Until you're resting

Here with me.

There are boundaries we pass in spite of the war

But our own we can't seem to cross,

There are things we can change

If we just choose to fight

But the walls of injustice are high

(a/n: changed the lines a bit)When you pass me by you're a ray of light

Like the first drop of sun from the sky

And I know you're a queen who deserves a queen

Someone other than me

So different from me

And you can't be with me.

And you can't be with me.

(a/n: and for those who don't know this is a few lines from He Doesn't See Me, sung by Sarah.)

I know you're clutching the lighter in your hand, wanted, thinking if you should burn it, but at least acknowledge what I am doing, all for you.

Love always and forever,

Vlad Dracula, Alucard.

(a/n: okay my friend begged and begged for me to add his name Vlad Dracula, but I don't' really know if that's who Alucard is supposed to be, so don't be mad if that's not really his name. Sorry!) :

Integra sat there speechless. She really was holding onto the lighter, but she let it fall. She just stared at the paper. Why her? So many things were being pilled onto her and she had no idea what to do with it all. Her mind was jumbled into a jigsaw puzzle and Alucard has eaten all the pieces. She had no clue what to do. Her heart cried for Alucard, her soul wanted to be forever trapped in a bind with him. Damn the Hellsing blood! She just wanted to be with him! But...then there was her duty; her duty as a woman to the Hellsing organization, her duty to her country and her duty to her queen. If she fell with Alucard, she could forever reign in the Hellsing name. She would protect her queen for as long as needed, but who would protect her from the queen. She knew very well the queen wanted all Vampires dead, if she became a vampire her, Seras and Alucard would be targets in the end.

Integra placed the paper down. She would need an heir, she could become pregnant and give the child to Alucard, have him raise it. She new she could trust him with her very life even he if toyed with the string that held it, he would never break it. She sighed. She had no idea. She leaned back reaching into her draw.

'Damn it,"

She cursed. She pulled her hand out. Alucard had taken all her cigars. She had nothing better to do then to turn to the liquor as she read his reports. She looked at the first page. He wrote that the building he was going to invade had reports about obscure sights be seen on the property. So he decided to investigate. He wrote next that when he just went for a fallow through he saw something off. It was, or seemed to be a body from one of the Knights of the Round. He didn't bother to go anywhere near it cause someone was coming.

The second report said he went back and it was gone. He could smell blood in the air, and the body still. He had a theory that there might be a vampire in one of the Round and that he would look further into it. There was also a comment added by Walter saying he felt the same as Alucard to the crime scene.

The last one was the most up to date that said Alucard went further in, he found traces of a ripped to shreds jacket form the Round. He examined it further to find out that there truly was a vampire lurking within the Round. He said he thought so because he found the financial funds that where going into rebuilding the tower and the parts of the city that were still destroyed by his recklessness. She looked at the photos that were sent in with the updates. There was a picture of the queen on a lower wall by a cot. All the pictures and information was taken from the sublevels of the building because the building itself was a baking factory.

Integra gathered up all the reports a few reports she still had not looked at and rose form her desk. She also grabbed a folder with the weapons fund from the cabinet and headed toward the library. She used her cane to climb up the steps and stopped as she neared the top. She opened the door and walked in. She stopped dead in her tracks from what she saw. Sitting at the computer was Walter in the dark looking at something. He took a glance at her stood up keeping his back to her.

Seras sat on the table across from the desk with a few books in her possession. She didn't notice until now that Integra was there. She dropped everything and jumped off the table. She looked a little suspicious. Both of them did.

"Why are you here Miss Integra?"

Seras stuttered. Integra jerked her head back a bit and raised a thin blonde brow. She eyed the two as the stood there. Walter stood in an odd way. He looked like he gave her his attention but his head faced away form her.

"I feel as though I should be asking you the same question. Especially you Walter. I thought you were out with Alucard getting your examines."

Her voice was cool and calm like a small stream. It flowed from her lips and to the air floating like a feather and then reaching their ears. Seras stopped herself from jumping back. Walter sighed a bit but did not seem to take in any air. He looked different. His hair seemed to have lost is wonderful shine and looked like a dark abyss. His hair reminded her of someone. She stared at him then it hit her. His hair was like Alucard's.

She wanted to see something now. She felt it inside her she just knew something had happened. She knew it deep inside why he was not with Alucard, why he was there, why he would not show his face and why his hair was dull. The answers resided in her but she would not believe them She stopped herself from believing.

"Walter look at me."

She said her voice with an icy tone now.

"Integra look! Alucard's next report!"

Seras shouted as it started to print itself off of the printer. Integra was distracted for a second but kept her focus. She asked Walter once more to show himself to her. But he still denied it. She stepped foreword, she reached out and grabbed his shoulder turned him so he looked right at her.

"Bloody hell."

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh can you guess what is up with Walter and his little...problem? Sorry bout the authors note in the letter. I just had some things to say that I couldn't wait to put in cause it would probably make no sense, or at least to me it didn't. I had a slight problem in the first chapters about the way her office looked. I don't quiet remember because I only watched it Sunday of last week (03/13/05) and I don't have the sires because it was my friend Zoƫ who made us watch it! N-e-ways so I found a picture of her office and yea now I know how it looks so I am thinking of fixing that chapter were I described it wrong. Alrighty then bye! Hope you enjoyed.