Here with me,
AS long as it makes you happy
"Walter look at me."
She said her voice with an icy tone now.
"Integra look! Alucard's next report!"
Seras shouted as it started to print itself off of the printer. Integra was distracted for a second but kept her focus. She asked Walter once more to show himself to her. But he still denied it. She stepped foreword, she reached out and grabbed his shoulder turned him so he looked right at her.
"Bloody hell."
Integra said plainly as she looked into Walter's eyes. They were the same crimson red of Alucard's. She took a step back. Panic raced over her but she steadied it. She kept her cool and took a deep breath in.
"Who turned you?"
She asked. Walter looked like he had done something wrong. He looked like a dog that just got caught for chewing on the master's slipper. He looked back up at her then looked at Seras. Seras looked away from him and Integra. Integra fallowed his gaze at Seras. She thought for a moment. Seras hated drinking blood would she actually do it? Especially to Walter who was like an uncle or family to her.
"I did it Sir, he wanted me to. I would have never done it if he never begged me."
Seras said, her accent was a slow and low tone. She looked at Integra with pleading eyes. She looked like she was going to cry. Integra looked at Walter for the truth. Walter nodded. She sighed. If Walter did it willingly then there was no hope in even fighting about it. What is done is done.
Integra walked passed them and sat at the computer. She reached for Alucard's next report. She slowly read it. She gave a soft smile and then it returned to normal. The report stated that Alucard loved her and some how thought she'd be the first to read it. Afterward it stated that the criminal, whoever it was, was destroying the evidence. The baking factory was set a flame. He'd be returning home.
Integra couldn't help but smile again. Home. This was his home, her home. The Hellsing property was their home. She put the paper down and began to type away at the computer. There was one name that popped into her head when she thought about financial funds for the Round; Montgomery Way. (a/n: sorry I don't know the names of the people from the round so I am improvising.)
She looked up his file and decided to have Walter hack into it. She brought up some files he had recently placed in. Most of them were to cover the damage done to London, she then crossed another. It was a medical issue. Blood packs. She raised a brow to this and printed it out. She began a new search. She knew of many kinds of vampires and there was one she was interested in talking to.
Integra finally gathered everything she needed. Walter and Seras had left and began their chores for the evening. She placed everything in a neat stack and placed them under her arm. She started for the door when she was swept into an embrace. She stopped herself from elbowing back and stomping on the grabber. She knew who it was.
"Alucard I can't...not right now. There is something I have to attend to."
Integra said. She held herself upright when she felt him plant a hot kiss on her cheek. She was opened eyed as his hand gripped around her tighter and he kissed the part of the neck he could get at that had no collar. He could still see the mark, the scar. His blood tightened when he saw it. Oh he hated that woman. That stupid vampire. Integra's blood was his and his alone! She was an idiot if she thought she could take it and live.
"That damned whore made you leave a scar."
Alucard almost cooed into his master's ear. Integra felt the chills run up her spine as she took in a breath. He kissed the scar again and slowly ran his hands up her sides. She held onto the pile of books closed to her chest, both arms wrapped tightly around them. She felt him move the collar down. His red coat began to wrap around her as he brought her to the table. He sat himself upon it and turned her around. His shadows stole away the books from her.
Alucard stared at her. Even when sitting on a table he was taller then her. He brought her into another warm embrace as he ran his hands up her back. Integra snuggled against his neck and couldn't help but close her eyes in pure pleasure. She opened them wide and pulled out of his reach,'
"This is wrong."
She said. She looked for her books.
"This is terribly wrong."
"So why does it feel so right?"
Alucard said. Integra stopped. She stared at him. For a moment, she was that same little girl who stood waiting at his wall at night, waiting for him to walk threw and pick her up in his arms and take her into his coffin were she'd be safe. But that look didn't last. Integra snapped back to herself. Her hard look already back on her face.
"Alucard where are my books?"
She said. He smiled and placed a hand out to her where he held them. Like an idiot she reached for it and he pulled her back to him. This time it wasn't for a hug but a kiss. A kiss that he brought her so close their chests pushed against one another. He had her directly under him so he had to arch to kiss her. He ran his tongue over her lips and into her mouth. Integra couldn't stand it. She hated it. He was right. The feelings she held, god she loved it all but it was wrong. She felt it was right yet it was wrong.
Integra wrapped her arms around his neck. So what if it was wrong, a woman deserved to be happy at least once in her life. Kissing him back for one long moment wouldn't kill her would it? And if it did oh well so she would die. No matter how hard she tried she was going to any ways. She pulled away slightly and looked at Alucard. He controlled the kiss. She frowned at that. She ran her hand threw his hair tore his hat from his hair and ripped his glasses off his face throwing them both aside. She drew herself into him for one last kiss. Her kiss. The one she ruled. She was the master and he was the pet.
Alucard placed his hand at her waist and picked her up onto him. She stopped then. She peeled herself from him even if it hurt to. She felt her heart cry out as if he'd been sent to another country. She stood there in plane view of him. His eyes glistened with want. He wanted her here and now but he knew she would not allow it. She barely allowed herself the kiss to be taken by him now would be going suicidal.
"I want my stack now."
She said her icy tone once more. Alucard smiled and leaned back on one arm while in the other holding her paper work. She growled at him. He saw it now. What he loved about of her. Her flame. He saw it rise as he taunted her with the reports. She lunged at him grabbing the reports and in doing so he snuck one more kiss on her lips. She pulled away as quick as she had came.
"We can't keep doing this Alucard. I know you feel for me what I you, but it isn't right. You're a..."
"A monster?"
Alucard said. His expression was blank. He felt the rising sensation within him. He wouldn't be able to look at her the same if she had said yes. The word monster seemed harsh if she described him as that. But he could still remember the horror in her eyes when she was young and he had killed off those men. He remembered how without words they cried out 'monster!' 'Vampire!' and of course, how could he forget the words she told him. Those words that made his blood boil. 'I'll never give up! I would die before giving up!' how he fell for her then and was continuing to fall.
"No. you're a vampire. You're not a monster Alucard...I...I have to leave. And don't fallow me. If I need you I will call upon you. Just because I am going through rough times does not make me any much less of your master than I am! DO YOU HEAR ME!"
Good old Integra was back. She was yelling her head off at Alucard. He smiled. He loved it. Every moment of being yelled out. He sighed with great comfort as she turned and began to walk away. How could he ever dream of making her his equal? She had no equal. Even he had to admit to that.
Integra stormed out of the library. She stalked to her office throwing everything in it and then returning to her room. She walked straight to her closet. She pulled out a beautiful blue suit. It was her knight's of the round table suit that she got for being a noble member. She was the youngest, but probably the brightest. It was her weak point yet her advantage. They would always rub it in her face but she new they envied her.
After showering Integra placed the outfit on. She tied her sliver pin on her dust ruffle and examined herself in the mirror. She would meet with the queen and the queen only. She slowly grabbed her stuff. She spoke into the intercom calling into Walter's room. He answered. She asked him if the car was ready. He said yes. Sighing once more Integra made her way out the door.
Alucard sat in his room taking apart and then resembling his gun. His hat and glasses were on the table in front of him. He placed the last part into his gun then turned it and fired it at the wall. He smiled as he shot a spider. He stood up starting to take off his jacket. It was boring but he didn't want to leave. If anything he only wanted to leave to go pay a visit to Integra who he knew left. He sighed. Would he ever get her? Of course he was Alucard the no life king...yet she was Integra Hellsing. She was on a higher level then he was. She was the highest level possible and still climbing.
Of course being a man (or close enough), listening to her bark orders at him, keeping him under her control made his...to be frank, loins crawl with delight. He felt it every time she yelled, every time she gave an order, he'd prefer to be yelled at by her then be placed in the heat of battle. Oh the heat of battle. There was one battle he would give anything to experience. The battle between them. As there bodies would collide he'd give anything to be in that. But of course even after fighting so long, he'd retreat like the good pet he was and obey his master's orders.
His master's orders. He loved to say it, and he loved to hear her remind him. He was her pet whether he liked it or not. In this case he enjoyed it very much so. He stood up out of the chair he was sitting in. All this thinking about Integra made him hungry. He started walking toward the door and turned walking into the wall and disappearing.
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(A/N: THE W'S R MY LIE BREAK SIGN I GUESS)
Integra walked into the building, her hair neatly pulled up and back with her bangs still in her face. She sighed as she walked in. With a white gloved hand she rubbed the bridge of her forehead. She rolled her eyes as she moved the rubbing to her temple. Seras came running down the steps and stopped in front of Integra.
"How'd it go?"
She asked like a hyper little girl. Integra smiled and placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Let's just say you are lucky the queen thinks you dress too much like a girl."
And with that Integra began for her office. Seras watched her as she walked up the steps. She took in the queen made her dress, or at least look like a girl for once in her life. Seras shook her head. She didn't see why Sir Integra never dressed feminine; she was really, really pretty. Seras blushed when she thought about Integra in a skin tight ruffled dress. She shook her head.
"I'll leave thoughts like those to Alucard,"
Seras sighed.
"And you can leave thoughts of you to me."
Seras blushed as she heard Pip talk to her. She continued toward her room trying to ignore the images that started to come to her mind.
Integra opened her office door. She shut it and began to take off the jacket. Her white shirt beneath it was even more feminine then she wanted. She hated it. The queen gave her something more to put on then just her regular shirt. She felt it. It was really soft and nice. She sat on her desk as she reached for a cup of tea. She guessed someone had left it there for her because it was still warm.
Integra brought the cup to her lips half way but put it down. She grabbed a report she brought in with her. She opened it and looked over some things she wrote down. She used the ball and marriage conversation to get what she wanted about Montgomery Way and in turn got a little more about Sir Isaac Burlington. She sighed as she ran her hand over a picture of the palace with the two men in front of it. She noticed something. If the men had been vampires why had she not seen the eyes? Walter's eyes, Seras's eyes, and even Alucard's eyes were red, so why weren't any of the member's eyes red.
Integra sighed. Now she really needed the drink. She placed the reports back down and leaned back on one hand while using the other to bring the cup up once more. She placed the rum of the cup against her lip but before she could drink a hand cupped hers. She opened her eyes wide but panic and anger left her as she saw the gloved hand and black arm. She felt his other arm snake around her waist and pull her closer to him.
"Who said the tea was yours? I brought it in for myself."
Alucard whispered into her ear. Integra closed her eyes. She smiled as she raised a brow and looked back over her shoulder at him.
"Well isn't that very selfish of you Alucard?"
She said. Alucard laughed and brought the cup up to her lips. He slowly purred it into her mouth and then pulled it away. Before she could swallow he spun her around and kissed her. She passed some remains of the tea to him. He pulled away a bit and stared at her. She looked at him with seductive eyes.
"Remove your hand from my arse Alucard...and I won't decide to shoot it off."
Alucard laughed as he glared lovingly at her. He had his hand on her butt but as he did that she pulled out her gun and pointed it at his crotch. They were even. Alucard let go but Integra didn't give up the gun. She had it under his chin. She smiled at him, leaned forward and kissed him.
"Sit."
She said. Alucard looked at her as if she was crazy but still did it. He didn't exactly get what he was aiming at. She threw the report in front of him and told him to read it. He sighed wishing she would have at least taken the kissing a bit further but it was Integra not much to expect from her but getting your crotch shot off.
Alucard read threw her research. He placed the paper down and nodded his head. She pointed out clearly non of them had red eyes and the try had been going on for a while. Alucard was like herself puzzled. That was when Integra told him about a friend she met on the way over to visit the king. His name was James Nicholas Nefente. He was not from around London. He had crossed from France. It was odd though because he was a vampire.
Alucard laughed now. He remembered Nicholas; he called him a fool once or twice. Nicholas was no real vampire in Alucard's eyes. He did not feed on blood but the energy from humans. The humans give off a wave of spirit energy which allowed them to move eat and do everything and anything it is that a human does. But what Nicholas did was feed off of it. It could kill humans just as if he where drinking their blood but he rarely did that.
"He thinks it's a puppeteer who is the one responsible for it. He said a spiritual vampire could posses his victim and cause him to do things if he willing."
Integra said.
"It would make sense because their eyes are regular, but come on, you believe that fool?"
"He is not a fool Alucard. I think Nicholas is right and you can believe him or not but you will not harm a head on any of the Round table's Knights! No matter what!
Integra growled at him. She stood beside him staring down at the paper at the picture of the two. All of a sudden she was lying with her back against Alucard's lap. He leaned over her, his lips barely touching hers, his nose snuggling against hers.
"And what about you miss Hellsing, my master. What if I were to run my hands threw this beautiful hair."
Alucard cooed to her. Integra rolled her eyes. Although she enjoyed it there was something amiss and he had no reason to be all over her. He needed to be talking it over with Nicholas to figure out how to stop the mad man who ever was responsible. She told him to let her up. He did not. She growled this time. She pushed herself up but Alucard held her arm and pulled her back down. She stared into his eyes now. They were so kind and playful.
"Bad. Let go."
She said coldly. Alucard did just as she said even if it kind of hurt the way she talked to him as if he was a bad dog. He kind of liked it too. He watched her as she stood up and brushed off her pants. She reached for the cup of tea once more. She looked at Alucard as she did so.
"What are you looking at?"
She asked.
"And angel."
Was Alucard's response with a wide grin. He looked slyly at her. She placed the cup down and turned to him. She was getting irritated with him.
"Look here, I think you should have at least been born a fox since you're such the 'sly devil' and all, but Alucard we have something in our hands now and we must deal with it above all things. Our little problem is going to have to wait. We need to..."
"Wait? Integra you are talking about a life changing matter how can you let something like that wait? So let me guess at this one. You are going to have me wait out until you get married, until you have your 'heir' and then on your death bed you'll confess you love to me? No you wont even then will you? You will forever deny it wont you?"
Alucard sat. He felt his anger in him but he would not show, not in front of Integra no matter how mad she got him. She laughed and threw her hands up in the air turning from him. She turned back and slammed her palms down hard on the table spilling the tea onto the floor. She grabbed the papers and began to laugh as she yelled at Alucard.
"You see these Alucard? This is my sworn duty as a Hellsing. You might say fuck the name what it is in a name? Recite Shakespeare for all I give a damn but bloody hell Alucard this is what I have given my life into. If I can not love the one I want to love then I wont if it is for the sake of my country and queen. You might say damn that queen to hell but so are you Alucard. You are forever damned. You want to hear it! Fine listen as I say it Alucard. I LOVE YOU! Happy now? I swear you are a bloody child ALCUARD!"
Integra yelled at him. She was so close to him. Her face was centimeters from his. Her eyes were burning with that fire that gave Alucard so many delighted feelings. He growled in his throat. His hunger twisted his stomach. He wanted her now. He waned to grab her, to fulfill her every wish, to take her away where she could live how she wanted to, not the queen or her father no one else but her. The way life intended it. He would leave her to do what ever she wanted, as long as it made her happy.
As long as it made her happy. Alucard looked down from her. He felt a lump in his throat. He choked on it but didn't show it. AS long as it made her happy he would do what ever. AS long as she was happy, so was he. He enjoyed their little fights and quarrels but this...this one was different. He reached up and placed his hand on her face. She was crying now. He took it she didn't notice but he could see it. It wanted to fall but it lingered.
"Fine." Alucard started. He took in what would be a deep breath. Integra waited. She felt her chest heave. "If you want me to pay attention to my work, my duty I will. If you want me to stop chasing you around like a lost puppy dog I will. If you want to live your life out fulfilling your duty then do as you please. I won't stop you. AS long as you are happy, then so am I. Does this make you happy Integra? Being cooped up behind your desk, working constantly sacrificing everything for them and never you? Does this make you happy!"
Alucard was nearly yelling now but he held it in the best he could.
"Yes Alucard! Other wise...I...It's my duty whether it makes me happy or not! Yes I love being cooped up behind my desk. Yes I love risking me life your life, my men's life for that bitch. Yes ALUCARD I DO!"
The tear fell. Alucard wiped it away and stood up. Integra felt hurt. She felt Alucard's pain. She saw in his eyes the disappointment she was to him. He'd been willing to sacrifice everything for her, yet she would not even give up a few seconds for him. She felt more tears fallow after that. But Alucard was not there to whip them away. He was walking away from her. His red coat was not there to sway behind him like his shadow.
"Alucard!"
She called out to him quietly. She clenched her fist as she closed her eyes. The tears were falling hard now. They hit her glass lens and trailed down. She heard Alucard mutter something.
"As long as you're happy I wont invade you life any more."
Integra opened her eyes wide and turned. She reached out for Alucard as her tears flew from her face. Her hair swung up with her but Alucard seemed so far. He seemed so out of reach to her. No matter how many times she cried out his name, or how loud it seemed he was to far to hear.
"Wait! Alucard!"
"I've already heard what you wanted me to hear Integra. I understand now. I guess I was wrong. Maybe you didn't love me. Maybe it was just a 'family' drawn affection."
"Alucard!"
But it was to late. He had already walked threw the wall. She dropped herself in her chair. What had she done? It was over now. How could he ever forgive her? She toyed with his emotions like he did her life, but she toyed like a careless child and she watched in horror as the string slowly broke and fell. She had watched if fall form the beginning but all she did was stand there. She dug her head into her arms and sobbed.
Why did she persist on it? Her duties, her blood the queen. She could have given it all up. She would live long enough to watch her kids grow, she would see so many things and so many places, with him. With Alucard. But she wondered if he could even look at her now. How could she drive him away. It was true. She did love him...she just wouldn't allow herself to even think it was true.
"Father...what do I do?"
Integra cried.
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Poor Integra. She doesn't get a break. I feel so evil now. I was hoping it would be more tragic and tearful but it wasn't I cried when I wrote it though, not something to be proud of but I saw it exactly as it was happening like if I was watching it. One of the good things about being the authors. I hope you guys could see it too,
Damien.
p.s. out of no where on the radio right now the Reason by Hoobastank is playing. Ha-ha I find hat hilarious. Sorry me and my stupidity. ;-P
