Harry's Pain

Rating; R, angst/romance

Summary; Harry is abused by the Dursleys in the summer after his fifth year. What will happen to him, and will anyone save him?

Spoilers; all books but especially Ootf

Disclaimer; own none, except people who you have never heard of in the
book.

Warning: abuse, rape, some sex (later in story), if you don't like don't read.

Pairing: Harry/Ginny Ron/Hermione, ???/??? ( Not Telling Yet :P)

A/N: Dream, flash back, (") "..." -Quote from the book. I quoted it you can't kill me :) Sorry it took so long to update I hope this Ch. makes up for it. It's 17 pgs much longer then the other Ch.. and thanks to those who reviewed.

Last Time:

In the Hospital wing Harry had just started to toss and turn. As Madam Pomfrey came rushing in the room Harry opened his eyes.

" Oh I'm glade to see you're awake Mr. Potter." she said.

It took Harry a little while to know where he was the white bright room looked so familiar to him. It was the Hospital wing. " My body hurts like hell." he whispered but low enough.

" Know, know Mr. Potter watch your language." Madam Pomfrey said.

" I'm sorry." he said a little afraid he would get hit.

" I'm not going to hurt you Mr. Potter. I'll be right back I'm going to get a pain reliever potion." When she returned she gave him the potion, and gave him a dreamless sleep potion. " I better go call Dumbledore," she said to her self when Harry was asleep.

Now On With the story:

Surprise visitor

" Professor Dumbledore?" Madam Promfrey called into the fireplace in her office.

" Yes Poppy." Dumbledores' head said as it appeared in the fireplace.

" Sir, Mr. Potter has just woken, and I've given him a pain relieving and a dreamless sleep potion. So right now he's sleeping." Poppy said..

" Thank you Poppy, tell me when he wakes up. I've already told the Order. I gave them orders not to tell the kids about Harry until he is ready to see people and is much better." Albus said.

" Al'right. I don't want him to have any visitors unless it's you Albus." she said and left to cheek up on Harry. Harry was sleeping peacefully, so she went back to her office to work on some papers.

12 Grimmauld Place

" Lunch is ready dears." Molly said when she opened the door to Ginny's and Hermione's room.

" Ok mum, will be down in a minute." Ginny said.

" Will you tell Ron for me?"

" Sure." they said in unison and with that Mrs. Weasley closed the door.

" When do you think Harry will be able to come over?" Ginny said.

" I don't know Gin. I don't know but hopefully soon." Hermione said.

" Come on Herm. we better go tell my stupid brother lunch is ready." Ginny said.

" He's not stupid." Hermione said blushing.

" That's a first, to hear you stand up for my brother and yes he is stupid." Ginny said giving Hermione a smirk and Hermione didn't say anything. At last they reached Ron's room. " Ron it's time for lunch."

" Alright hold on." came the answer from Ron. About two minutes later Ron came out of his room.

" What took you so long Ron?" Ginny asked.

" I had to change." Ron said.

" What was wrong with what you were wearing before? On secret thought I don't want to know." Ginny said. " Come on or the food is going to be cold."

" Cold food! I hate cold food Come on!" Ron yelled over his shoulder at the girls. The girls rolled their eyes at him and then they broke out laughing, laughing at him.

" Come on before he eats all of the food." Ginny said.

" Ok," Hermione said and followed her down stairs to the kitchen.

Hospital Wing

Harry had just awake with a start. It was late he could tell that much, but the room was all blurry. He felt around for his glasses, but as soon as he rolled onto his side he felt a sharp pain. It felt like some one was poking him in his side with a knife.

" I would advise you to not move much Mr. Potter, " said some one with a very soft voice. " Here you go." she said handing him his glasses.

" Thanks you," he said to her. " Who are you?" he asked her when he could see she her.

" Me, my name is Meghenn."

" Have we ever meet before, because your voice sounds familiar?" he asked.

" No but I did save you from your Aunt and Uncles house." she said.

" You did. How did you know I was there?" he asked.

" I... well... I can't tell really say." she said.

" Why?"

" I just can't say. You should now soon or later. I'm sure."

"Well thanks." she said.

" For what?"

" For saving me from them."

" You don't have to say thanks. It's my job." she said Harry looked at her with a questionable look on his face. " Oh! Never mind." she said.

" Oh hi L.. Meghenn I thought I would find you here. Well look who's awake. Nice to meet you Mister Potter." Nick said walking in the room.

" Hi call me Harry and who are you?" he asked. ' His voice sounds familiar too.' he thought.

" My name is Nick and I'm the new Defense against the Dark arts teacher." he said smiling.

" Cool. Nice to meet you Nick. Oh and I must worn you that we all think that that job is cursed."

" Thanks for the worning." he said.

" Well I have to go." Meghenn said.

" Why?" Harry asked.

"Because I'm going to eat at the Order Headquarters."

" Oh, please don't tell my friends I'm here." he said.

" I won't don't worry." with that said she left the wing.

" Hey wait for me, I'm coming too." Nick said and left to go catch up with Meghenn. Harry laid back down and fell asleep thinking that only Dumbledore, Nick, Meghenn, and Promfrey, knew he was there. Oh how wrong he was.

12 Grimmauld Place

When Ginny and Hermione got downstairs to the kitchen Ron was there sitting down waiting for the food. When he saw them he pointed to two seats next to him that were free, Ginny and Hermione sat down next to him. Across from him sat Remus Lupin, and two people they didn't know. They thought that they knew every one from the Order, but they guesses they were wrong.

" Excuse me Remus but who are they?" Ginny asked looking at the people next to him.

" This is Meghenn, and this is Nick."

" Nice to meet you Miss Meghenn and Mister Nick." they said in unison each one shacking there hands.

" Please just Meghenn and call Nick just Nick. Ok?" Meghenn asked.

" Ok." the three teens said in unison again.

" Remus are those Harry's friends?" Meghenn asked in a whisper.

" Yes."

" So that must Ginny and Ron Weasley, and that must be Hermione Granger. And those two must be the Weasley twins, Fred and George." Meghenn said in a low whisper. Where she was the only one that could hear what she had said.

"What.. What did you say?" Remus asked, he had heard what she had said.

"Nothing." she said.

"But you just said there names, have you ever meet them?" he asked.

" Oh a... No but I heard about them from some one." she said trying to eat some of her food.

" Who?"

" Who? Well from a..." she wondered if she should tell him who but decided she would. " ... from Sirius." she said still feeling a little uneasy.

" What! You knew Sirius."

" Yea, I did. Is it me or are they whispering more then they are eating." she said trying to change the subject from her to the teens sitting across from then, who were whispering intently.

" Yea I'll be right back." he said.

" Ok." Meghenn said with a little sigh of relief. Remus got up and walked over to the three teens. He didn't want the whole table in on what they were talking about so he decided to go over and talk to them.

"Hey guys what are you whispering about over here?" He asked scaring them and making them all jump.

" We were talking about... Quidditch." Ron said after quick thinking.

"But I thought Hermione didn't like Quidditch talk." He said not believing that Hermione would be that interested in Quidditch.

" Well I ..." Hermione was a lost for words she knew what Remus said was right, she didn't like Quidditch talk.

" Well she asked me a question and we started talking about this years team." Ron said trying to sound convincing.

" Ok but stay out of trouble." he said and with on last I-don't- believe-you look he went back to his seat to finish eating.

" You know we should have told him, he will probably find out anyways. " Hermione said, feeling guilty for lying to Remus.

" Yea, but we're not supposed to know, remember?" He said.

" We should tell him, Remus isn't stupid." Ginny said.

" Yea I'm not saying he is, but no one knows that we know, that Harry's at Hogwarts." Ron said.

" Fine we won't tell anyone. I guess we'll let them tell us when they want us to know." Ginny said not feeling like agreeing with her brother. Though out the argument Hermione stayed out of it. She had her own idea but she wasn't going to tell Ron, because she didn't want to get in an argument with him. The remaining of dinner was eaten in silence at least between the three teens.

After dinner Ginny went up to her room well Hermione went to Rons' room. When Ron opened the door she went in and sat down on the bed, Ron sat down next to her. Ron leaned in to kiss her, but Hermione stopped him.

" Ron I think we should tell someone." Hermione said.

" Look Her. I don't think we should." he said knowing what she was talking about.

" Why, just because the fact we're not suppose to know."

" I just don't want anyone to know that we know." he said.

" Fine whatever, Ron. Look I'm tired I'm going back to my room." with that said she got up and crossed the room to the door and left.

Meghenns' Room

Meghenn was sitting on her bed reading a magazine. The magazine was called The Quibbler. She was reading an article about Rita Skeeter. The article was very interesting and she was almost done when there come a knock on the door. She got up and walked to the door.

" Oh, hi Remus. What's up?" Meghenn asked.

" Hi Meghenn. I was wondering if I could ask you how you knew Sirius." Remus asked. Meghenn had a feeling he was going to ask that. This time she knew she had to answer him.

" Well..." Meghenn hesitated for a moment but then thought, ' well I just better tell him.' " Ok if I tell you, you have to promise not to tell anyone until we're ready to tell the others." she said saying the 'we're' with feeling.

" Yea I promise. So what is it?" Remus asked.

" Well...." (A/N: I'm not telling yet. =P)

" WHAT!" Remus yelled, Meghenn nodded. " That's scary." Remus said, " So you're here to watch out for Harry?"

" Yea." Meghenn said. They talked awhile before there was a knock on the door. Meghenn go up and walked to the door and opened it.

" Why hello Hermione. What's wrong?"

" Well I was wondering if I could talk to you." Hermione looked over Meghenns' shoulder and add, " alone."

" Ok, I get the hint. Talk to you later?"

" Yea." she said and closed the door behind him. " So what's wrong?"

" I know that I'm not suppose to know but.. is Harry in the Hospital wing at Hogwarts?" Hermione blurted out.

" Yes, but how did you find out?"

" Umm.. Will I get that person into trouble?" she asked.

" Well I promise I won't tell the others. Ok?" she said.

" Ok, Ron he told me. Ron read the letter after the others left the kitchen and told me when I went and said Hi." Hermione said. " So what happened to him?"

" I think it might have been the Dursleys. You do know who they are right?"

" Yes there he's relatives. Is he alright?"

" He should be..."

" Do you think we can see him?" Hermione butted in.

" I don't think he's ready to she any of his friends."

" Alright, but you won't tell anyone I know right?"

" I promise."

"Thanks and can you tell Harry when you see him to get better soon."

" Of course Hermione."

"Thanks." Hermione said leaving the room.

" He has some true friends." Meghenn said to herself going back to her magazine.

Remus Room

Remus was lying on his bed thinking about what Meghenn had just told him. He couldn't believe she... knock knock (A/N: I'm being such. a brat. Aren't I. =P you'll find out later.) Remus jumped about a foot off his bed. Once he had recovered he said " Come in."

Ginny walked into the room and asked, " Mmm.. Remus, do you think I could ...mmm... ask you something?"

" Sure what is it?"

" Well I was wondering do you think I could visit Harry?"

" No I don't. How much do you know?" He asked knowing that something was up at dinner with Ron, Hermione and, Ginny.

" I now that he's at Hogwarts cause his Aunt and Uncle and cousin beat him up cause he's a wizard." Ginny said in a small voice.

"I don't want to know how you found out but he's not ready for any visitors yet, and we don't know if it was his Aunt and Uncle yet."

" Ok but please don't tell anyone I now."

" Ok I want but you better. And I'll tell Harry you said hi when I visit him."

" Thanks." she said and gave him a hug and left the room.

Ginny and Hermione's Room

" Hi 'Mione." Ginny said when she walked into her room.

" Hi Gin. So where have you been?" Hermione asked Ginny when she sat down on her bed.

"I was talking to Remus about Harry."

" That's funny I was talking to Meghenn about Harry." Both girls giggled. " Don't tell Ron he'll kill us." Hermione said.

" Yea same here."

" Sure."

" Man I wish I could see Harry." Ginny said with a little sigh.

" Gin do you have a crush on Harry?" Hermione asked.

" No but do you have a crush on my brother?" Ginny asked.

" Maybe I'm not telling." she said throwing a pillow at Ginny and Ginny throw one at Hermione. In a little bit pillows were being thrown across the room. After about an half and hour Mrs. Weasley came in and told the girls it was time to go to bed.

" Ok mum let us clean this mess up first."

" All right dear." So they started to clean the room and then they got changed into there P.Js.

" Night Gin."

" Night 'Mione."

The next morning at Hogwarts

" Mr. Potter wake up." Madam Pomfrey said trying to wake Harry up. Harry jumped as she shook him. When Harry finally wake fully he curled into a ball. " It's ok Harry." she said in the sweatiest voice and hugged him. " It's ok," she said over and over again. Harry finally realized where he was and that she wasn't going to hurt him.

" What time is it?" he asked.

" It's 7:30. I had to wake you, you were having a nightmare." she said.

" Oh yea." he said.

" What was it about Mr. Potter?"

" Just a bad dream." he said, " nothing important."

" Ok well would you like some breakfast, know that you're awake."

" Sure," he said. She waved her wand and a tray appeared in front of him. It was oatmeal and milk the same as the day before.

"Now eat up. I'll be in my office." she said. When she returned to her office Dumbledores' head was in the fireplace.

" Morning Poppy." he said cheery.

" Morning Albus. So what may I ask to your visit.

" Well Remus Lupin would like to come see Harry. I was wondering if you could clean Harry up some."

" He's not ready for visitors yet, Albus."

"Poppy, Remus is like family to the boy and he needs family right now."

" Fine only for a little while."

" Thanks." Dumbledore said and disappeared out of the fireplace. Poppy went back out and saw Harry picking at his oatmeal.

" Harry you need to eat something, you need your strength because you'll have a visitor today." She said not sounding the least bit happy.

" What?"

" Yes Mr. Potter Remus Lupin is coming to visit you."

" When is he coming?"

" Later so you better clean up," she said.

" Ok. " Harry said he went to the bathroom. He took a long hot shower and put on one of the T-shirts that was two times to big and a pair of blue jeans. He looked into the mirror and he saw that he still had a faint out line around his eye from the black eye. His ankle was better Pomfrey had fixed that and his ribs still hurt but not as bad.

" Mr. Potter."

" Coming." Harry said and opened the bathroom door and saw Remus sitting down in a chair next to his bed. " Remus." Harry said making his way over to the bed. When he got there he gave Remus a big hug." How are you and what are you doing here?"

" I came to see how you were, so how are you?"

" Ok I guess. I'm doing better then I have been. So how are you?"

" Fine lets see, Ginny says Hi and I think Ron, Hermione and Ginny are all up to something." Remus said and Harry couldn't help but laugh. As he laughed he felt a sharp pain in his chest, as if he was being stabbed again.

" Are you ok?" Remus asked.

" Yea, but my chest started to hurt as soon as I started to laugh." he said.

" So Harry what happened to you? I mean how did you get all these injuries?" Remus asked. Harry had been dreading when he would be asked that. He didn't want to tell him or anyone for that mater, he didn't want anyone knowing what had happened to him. He didn't want anyone feeling sorry for him; he was sick and tiered of that. " Well Harry?" Remus asked when Harry didn't say anything.

" I... um... I... a... really don't want to tell you," he said not looking up at his fathers friend. He didn't want to lie to him, but then again he didn't want to tell him the truth. He didn't want Remus thinking he couldn't take care of himself.

" Harry you know we, as in the Order, just wants to help you. But if you don't want to tell me then, that's your choice but just remember, Harry, I'll always be here for you no matter what." he, Remus said. He wanted Harry to tell him, but if the boy didn't want to tell him, he knew he couldn't do anything. He just hoped he would tell him.

" Yeah I know, Remus. I'm just not ready to tell anyone. You understand don't you?" Harry asked looking up at him.

" Yes of course I understand Harry," he said with a small smile. It wasn't a happy smile it was a sad kinda smile. " So Harry can you wait till school starts?" Remus asked trying to change the subject into a happier one. He didn't want to push Harry into telling him he, Harry, didn't want too.

" No I can't Hogwarts is like a second home to me. The first one is 12Grimmauld Place." He said with a hint of sadness. He hadn't been there since Sirius had passed away.

" You miss him a lot don't you?" he, Remus, asked.

" Yea I do, I miss him a whole lot," he said his voice cracking.

" I miss him to Harry, probably as much as you." he, Remus said.

" Yea I know, but Remus, do you have dreams about him dying over and over again." Harry asked not looking up at Remus's face.

" No." Remus said hugging the now crying boy. Harry didn't want to cry in fort of Remus but he knew Remus missed Sirius as much as he did and probably missed him, Sirius, more then him. " It's ok Harry." Remus whispered to Harry. " It's ok."

" No it's not, it's not ok. It's all my fault that he's dead. It's because of me, if it wasn't for me he would still be here, and be alive. " Harry said crying into Remus's chest.

" Harry it's not your fault, if it wasn't for you he would have died 3 years earlier. He died in battle, that's how he would have wanted to die. He didn't like staying inside 24/7. No one could have stopped him, no one." He, Remus said.

" Yes it's my fault. It's my fault my parents are dead and it's my fault that Sirius is dead. It's my fault that Voldemort is back, my fault that Pettigrew (A/N: is that how you spell it?) escaped, the second time. It's my fault for everything." Harry said through his tears.

" Harry none of those things are your fault. No one could have stopped Voldemort from rising again, or Peter (A/N: That spelled right?) escaping again. It's not your fault your parents are dead. Voldemort wanted to them, before you were born. It's because they were in the Order. Harry you can't blame yourself for everything that happens. You are not at fault other people are at fault, but not you." He said. He never knew the boy fault like this, he knew he thought it was his fault for Sirius death but didn't know he, Harry, blamed himself for the deaths of almost everyone. Everyone that died for trying to save him. What really made him, Remus, mad was that he couldn't do anything to help the boy. He wanted to take all the pain and suffering away from him. He didn't want Harry suffering, especially like this. He, Harry, was to young to see people die that you love, to young for all this. Even though he wasn't too young he, Remus, didn't think it was right. The boy was in pain, too much pain Remus thought, he should have never gone though all this pain. " Harry nothing's you fault." he whispered to him.

After a few minutes Harry slowly stopped crying. His eyes were puffy and red his face wet from the tears. Remus was rubbing Harrys back; he also had tears on his face not only because of Sirius but also because of Harry. Harry finally stopped crying all together. When he did they both sat in silence. About two minutes had passed and Harry finally asked about Hermione, Ron, and Ginny. Remus was glade to tell him about his friends. They sat there for another hour or two talking about Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Meghenn, Nick and of course Quidditch.

When Madam Pomfrey finally came in the wing she looked livid. She yelled at Remus that he had been there three hours to long. He should have left two hours ago. She said Harry needed his rest and talking wasn't helping him get rest.

Remus looked terrified he was paler then Malfoy, if that was passable. He was slowly backing away from her looking at her as if he was about to get Avada Kedavra by her.

Harry was trying really hard not to laugh at the look on Remus face he hardly noticed the yelling Madam Pomfrey was doing. He had his had up covering his mouth so he would brake out laughing. He was also trying not to laugh because he knew if he did his chest would start hurting and he didn't want that.

" Ok I'm leaving." Remus said.

" Good now get going," she said as Remus was heading over towards Harry's bed.

" I am, I'm just going to say bye to Harry. If you don't mind." he said and it looked like she did mind.

" Fine but make it quick," she said, tapping her foot, and her arms crossed over her chest.

" Ok. Well bye Harry." he said giving a hug. " I'll see you later," he added in a whisper to him. He didn't feel like anymore yelling and he was scared of getting Avada Kedavra by her. " Bye Harry." with that said he left the ward (A/N: Is that right?).

"Good now Mr. Potter get some rest. I'll bring you some food later."

" Alright." he said and laid down on his back. He fell asleep about a minute later.

In One of the Halls

A young man in his mid-20 was waling towards the headmasters office, wanting to ask him something. He came to the gargoyle and said the password.

TBC

A/N: Ok let's c I have a few a/n notes:

1: if anyone out there wishes to be a beta-reader for this story please e- mail me at moonfreakaol.com. I really need help on spelling, punctuation and all that stuff. This story needs some help on that.

2: I'm not going to be able to update for a while since I'm going to be gone for the next week and still have ALOT to write for the next Ch. It's going to be either the same # of pgs or longer or maybe shorter but not by much. I only have 2 pg done and it's going to take a while for me to write it.

3: If anyone has any ideas for the next Ch. or future Ch. please give ideas I need a few and if I use ur idea I'll give you create for that idea.

4: again sorry for the long wait i hope u all like this Ch. I enjoyed writing this it was funny on some parts i hope u all enjoy reading it. Thanks to ppl that reviewed.