Chapter 4: Dancing Around Secrets
I totally forgot to put a poem or something at the end of Chappie three so I'm putting two in this one. Lol.
Waking the heart
After Death so long,
Brought such anguished realities.
That One perceived she might be hiding
A love so strong and pure.
Would she ever learn to uncloak her heart,
That single pure white
Flight.
Would she ever see with him in her arms,
She was no Raven,
But a dove?
Raven's eyes bored into Beast Boy's heart and he shivered. Brushing off any fears of approaching the dark girl he started towards her and he saw, with saddened eyes, she shrunk back from him.
"Robin told us to leave you alone… unless you asked for help. But, I mean, you asked me for help and I know this isn't where or when you said to meet… I just wanted to make sure you were… ok… and I was wondering if you could tell me, what's going on…" He spoke haltingly as if afraid she might do something to him. Raven managed to give him a steady stare the whole time as it seemed Pain had heeded her warning. Raven stood to here feet, earning a sideways glance from Beast Boy. She paid no attention to the boy and instead she deliberately brushed off her cloak.
"If we walk back to the Tower, maybe… I can explain. A little." She said hesitantly. Both fell into an awkward silence and then Beast Boy nodded. Raven sighed and they began to walk towards home. Home, was that what it really had become? Raven pondered the thought for a moment before returning her attention to the fidgeting changeling by her side. In her mind Affection was cooing with delight… he looked so cute… Raven's eyes shot wide and she frowned.
"Well," she said breaking the silence. "I guess all there is to say, really, is that I decided I needed to banish Trigon once and for all because he was slowly taking over. I couldn't risk him taking full control of me so I set a curse in motion. It will align the four royal planets in four months. I needed to go to… planet three… in three months but, I can't now. So, in three months… I might have four, if I'm lucky, I will… die. By Trigon's hand." Raven looked at Beast Boy and noticed he looked rather pale. He also looked as if he wanted to drop down dead. "But, you know, it's not so bad, I mean, Trigon… will die too. I, I think…" she added hastily. Beast Boy looked up, a sudden anger filling his eyes.
"Right. So that's it? You were just going to not tell anyone you were dying and in three months, oh right, maybe four if your lucky, you'll just die all alone in your room and leave us to find you, wondering if we ever could have helped?!" he spat angrily at her. Raven continued to walk stiffly towards the Tower.
"I called you so you could help, ok? I just don't want people… I don't know. I just… wanted to figure things out on my own. But I need your help. If we can retrieve my memory of the third royal planet, the name, that is, I might still be able to make this work. And not die. The only problem would be you having to come into my mind again." She said quietly, calmly. Beast Boy stared at her and ended up running into a man (they had reached the city now) who yelled angrily.
"Oh," he said. She sighed and continued to move towards the Tower. BB ran to catch up to her. "s-so, there's a chance you'll live?" he asked hopefully. She nodded.
"Yeah, but I need you to help me," she spoke confidently but she was truly scared out of her mind on the inside. What would she do if they failed? What would she do if Beast Boy learned about her true feelings? That alone seemed enough to kill her. They were at the doors of the Tower and BB reached forward to punch in the code. She grabbed his hand away from the key pad and he was aware how soft her skin felt… it also felt terribly cold. Beast Boy looked at her in confusion. Taking a deep breath she muttered Azerath, Metrion, Zynthos and the two were teleported to her room.
She went to her chest of drawers and took an elaborately decorated mirror from the top. Beast Boy suppressed a small shriek when he saw the mirror; it had not been his fondest memory.
"You want to help, right?" she asked. She needed to make sure he really wanted to help her.
"Of course…" he said softly and Raven thought she almost heard a hint of something more in his voice.
"Ok, then we go to my mind together. Now," she said. She sucked in a deep breath, ready to confront Love. The mirror began to swirl and seethe and then a black light consumed them… ready to take them back into Raven's mind… or her memories, really.
Beauty captures your lips
So ruby red.
And shows you there is more.
Shows you that what you knew,
But didn't want to,
Can be such a wonderful gift.
Beauty sings a song
So soft and sweet.
And tells you of true love.
Of inner beauty that yields,
An unfathomable cry
For sweet affections.
Author's Notes: Ok, there's chapter 4. I know this story is taking me forever and I feel really bad about it but I'm writing Wish Upon a Star at the same time and this is sort of taking back seat along with novel. Ugh. Now, don't look for Wish Upon a Star for a while, though. I'm not posting it until I have five chappies done and I can just post like one a day or something. WingsofaRaven, hopefully this chappie wasn't so boring but I'm kind of stick until they get to her mind and have to deal with Love... and an over zelous Passion. So please r&r!
