Still Here
Written by Hunter Eagle (Aka PaladinX)
Author: Hunter Eagle (Aka PaladinX)
Contact: Birds of Prey
Pairing: Dinah/Gabby, Barbara/Helena implied
Genre: Romance
Rating: PG
Archive/Feedback: Sure, but if you want it tell me where it's going.
Disclaimer: Dinah, Gabby, and BOP aren't mine. Just taking them for a spin.
Summary: "Despite everything, she's still here. And that's right where I need her to be."
Dinah's POV.
Author's Notes: Just a quick fic I wrote on a whim. Next up: A futurefic featuring a surprise Buffy femslash coupling (there's like—NO ficcage for these two. No, it's NOT Buffy/Dawn—that's just kinda nasty.)
Still Here
I never knew love was like this.
Sure, a lot of people like to write, sing, and talk about love—there are many forms it takes, you see, and everyone has a different one. Except for one person.
Me.
"But, Dinah", you say, "What about Helena and Barbara?"
Yeah, they were there.
But they didn't love me.
Not in the way I wanted to be loved. Not with the kind of all consuming passion they reserved only for each other, during the nighttime hours when the clocktower stood dark and silent except for their impassioned moans.
Heh, they thought I didn't know.
They were wrong.
Still, I can't be bitter. We all have our little secrets, things we can't or won't tell anyone. I know I've got mine. Some of the dreams I used to have featured her quite a lot. Almost all of them featured her to varying degrees, some with us happy together...and one other. One where everything falls apart, and she leaves. I hope to god that never happens. She completes me, you see. Completes me in ways I never thought were possible. Soulmates, I believe it's called. I never used to believe in soulmates, until that day when she reached out to me, gave me a friend. It was what I needed the most. Zipper girl, I was called. Shunned by everyone except her. She was the only one who cared, the only one who liked me. And then I found out she was gay, and met Gina..the girl she was in love with.
That hurt.
Sure, I acted like it didn't bother me...but secretly, it was one of the worst days of my life.
I loved her, and she loved someone else.
Too slow, Dinah.
As usual.
I watched her with Gina, watched how Gina treated her...and I resolved to be happy for her.
Even though she should have been mine.
So I stepped back a little, and let her be with her girlfriend more, while I threw myself into training and the sweeps I was now going on with Helena. Who by the way was fighting with Barbara over Wade and Reese. Apparently she thought it was okay for her to flirt with Reese but it wasn't okay for Barbara to get closer to Wade.
Wow.
Hypocrite much?
Anyways, I became a workaholic, dedicating myself to school, sweeps, and training, in that order.
I started hanging with Gabby less and less, and looking back I realize now how much that hurt both of us.
At the time, I thought it was for the best, for both of us.
Wrong again.
When Gina left, I knew she needed me, so I went.
I stayed there, the whole night with her. Comforting her, telling her I was sorry I was so distant, that it was going to change. I was going to change.
She begged me to never leave her, said that she needed me, that I was her best friend.
Then she kissed me.
Looking back, I know now that in that moment, it all changed. We became more.. more than friends, more than lovers.
We became destiny.
The kiss was amazing, and I kissed back with everything I felt for her. Pretty soon we were on her bed, still clothed, kissing and caressing.
'I love you...' I whispered, caressing her face.
'Dinah..I love you too.' She replied, raising up to capture my lips again.
And that's when my life became perfect.
I have her now.
Despite everything, she's still here. And that's right where I need her to be.
Finis-
A/N: So..that's it. Watch for my Buffy fic soon.
