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Summary: Set after "The Berrisford Agenda". Alec said goodbye to his first love and that changed him forever. Can he open his heart to someone else? Or will it stay closed forever? What will Max think about him from now on? He is a changed man now... A/M

To Onthedl – I know you don't like Logan and I hope this will be more to your taste.

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Chapter 9 – Do the right thing

Alec leaned against the wall trying to regain his peace. He needed to hear what Max was saying, but all he wanted to do was to run away. Run away from everything. But, he stood there and listened. His enhanced hearing helped with that a lot.

"What do you mean you know how Rachel's letter got into your apartment? Max?" – Logan asked trying to remain as calm as possible. And he wasn't good at that, because his words sounded very harsh.

Max ignored the tone of his voice oher mind only focused on how the letter must've fallen from Rachel's diary. She was too preoccupied to read it and to hide the diary, she must've missed the letter.

"That's a long story..." – she started. – "You know how you told me I should get more interested in Alec's life and whatever was going on with him? Well, I did exactly that..."

"So this is my fault?" – Logan shrieked not even letting her finish. – "I can't believe you're blaming me..."

Max tried to remain cool, but his interruption pushed her over the edge.

"Shut up, Logan and let me finish! God! As I was saying. I did exactly that, ONLY..." – she said emphasizing the word "only" and than sighed – "I went too far. I went back to the Berrisford mansion, trying to find something that will help me understand what happened there two years ago or what was happening still, actually. So, I went there and got up to Rachel's room." – she stopped as she took the time to watch Logan's face change. His eyes were widened and his mouth slightly opened. But, he hasn't said a word. So she continued.

"So, I looked around trying to find something that can help me understand Alec's behavior. You know, what was exactly his assignment and what went wrong."

She suddenly stopped feeling someones eyes on her , but when she turned around there was no one there. She shook her head and continued.

"So, that's the whole story." – she tried to end this conversation thinking how Alec will come back soon, and she wasn't in the mood to explain to Logan how she stole Rachel's journal.

"Max?" – Logan started.

"Yeah?"

"I still don't understand one thing."

"What's that?" – she asked thinking how many questions Logan have. He was always the nosy one. But he had only one question. And that was the most important to him right now.

"Why all the trouble?"

She just glanced at him and than she lowered her stare to her hands. She needed to tell the truth...

Alec was still leaning against the wall, his mind racing. He was getting angrier by the minute. At Max, Logan and at himself as well. He was tricked once again.

"I was right the first time. She had to know everything, so she did her little investigation. Good one, Maxie. Didn't think you have it in you. What am I saying? Of course you have it in you. You were always thinking how you're the smartest one, only cause you're longer in this world. I hate this world. Who needs to act normal when all that brings you is pain... I can't do this anymore." – he thought and decided he heard enough.

He got back to the bathroom, closed the door, forcing every sound to stay outside. He looked around, but he didn't have the energy to walk around like a cat. His strength left his body, so he just slided to the floor, his head hitting the wall. His pain was great, and he didn't know how to deal with it.He decided to wait for a couple of minutes before getting out. He needed to get his strength back. But he knew that would take a lot longer than just a few minutes...

Max kept staring at her hands, while Logan was trying to read her face. And he could do that. It was easy. Every person who could see Max's face could read her emotions right now. And she wasn't even trying to hide them.

"I see..." – Logan started.

Max looked up at him, seeing pain in his eyes. She knew he understood.

"Look, Logan...I'm sorry. It's just, everything that happened... I realize now that we don't have anything in common any more. I mean, look at us. We can't even touch! We can't hold hands. We can't kiss. I think that is the way someone telling us that we don't belong together. And I don't mean just you and I. I mean us in general. I am a transgenic, Logan, and as much as I'm trying to act like a normal, I will always be a girl with a barcode on her neck. And I can't escape from that." – she stopped for a second. – "And I don't want to escape from that. That is what I am." - she said accepting her existence.

Logan couldn't find arguments to dispute her. She was right and he knew it. As much as he's heart was telling him they belong together, him reason told him otherwise. He couldn't fight for her. She wasn't his to be in the first place. So, there was only one thing he could do...

He sighed.

"I know... You're right. I don't like it, but I know you're right."

Max was looking at him, bewildered. She expected a fight. She expected him to beg her like he did before. But, she saw he understands now. Her eyes were thanking him for that.

"But, I want you to know that I will always love you, Max." – Logan said.

"I know. And I will always love you in a way. You were my first true love." – she could feel her heart break. She was losing her first love and that was hard for her because that was something she was used to. Her life was changing rapidly and her heart needed to catch up.

"Well, before I go I have to do only one thing." – Logan said deciding it was time for him to go. He didn't have the strength to look in Alec's eyes right now.

"What's that?" – she asked confused and than she saw him holding up the letter. Her eyes were fixated on it, like she can bring it closer with her mental powers. Her entire future depended on that letter. Alec's past and her future. But, she didn't have to do anything.

Logan put the letter on the bar just leaving it there.

"I don't want to be the bad guy, Max. I don't want you with him, but, that's not my call. Only thing I want to say is that he needs to know the truth. You need to tell him everything. He deserves that much. Do the right thing, Max."

With that he turned around and headed toward the door not turning back until he reached the door. Two ex lovers looked at each other, both feeling pain. Pain that was always there, because they were ready to say goodbye long before. There were no longer "them". Logan opened the door, took a last glance at Max and than left into the night.

When the door was finally closed, Max reached for the letter. She read the words written on it once again, thinking about the words written with that same handwriting in the diary in her apartment. And than her thoughts went to the person they were addressed to. When she wanted to turn around to see if Alec was coming, his hand hold her by her shoulder making her drop the letter. She abruptly turned around meeting Alec's cold eyes once again.

"Is that for me?" – he asked calmly.

Well, that was it. My new chapter. Little short but still I hope you will tell me how you liked it!!! I know most of you don't like Logan, but I haven't had the heart to make him a true bad guy. He had it bad enough...

There's more coming soon!