Disclaimer: I don't own anything except Natalia Torres and Chantal Abermua.

A/N: Sorry I have written in so long. Anyway I want to say something to everybody:

!HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

This chapter is dedicated to everybody who didn't get a real valentine this year -so friends being your valentines doesn't count LOL- and to all of those who did get a valentine this year you all suck! I'm kidding. You know I'm curious to find out how many people did get a valentine so if you want while your reviewing this chapter -which you will LOL- tell me if you got a REAL valentine this year. I wonder if I'm the only one who got a friend as a valentine!

Ok now on to the story…Enjoy!

Natalie III

That night had to be the best night of my life. Not because, well you know I had sex, but because I was with Natalia for the first time. Of course I had been with Natalia many times before, but not like that. Natalia made me the happiest man in the world. I was happy before, but this is like an official way of saying I love you. I don't ever want to lose her and that's why this day, this saddening day was the second worst day of my life…

Oh God Natalie I love you so much.

Natalie made me the happiest man in the world last night. She has got to be the most beautiful women who ever lived. I can't get enough of her. She is as important to me as breathing is to me.

Right now there is no reason why I should lose her. Her and me are perfect right now. She loves me and I love her more than imaginably.

Somehow last night seemed familiar. I don't know why though. I mean it wasn't exactly alike but it seems familiar…

Oh shit! Chantal!

How could I forget something like that? That night seemed so distant.

As I look down at her sleeping I can't bare the thought of losing her. That thought is so absurd that I don't even want to think about it.

She seems so calm and relaxed when she's asleep. When I see her angelic face it makes all my worries go away. I want to tell her what I did, but then again I know very well that if I tell her what I did she will definitely leave me. I know her to well and she has to much pride and self-dignity to stay with me after I cheated on her.

If I could turn time back I would have definitely not done what I did. I hate myself for doing what I did and I also hate myself for keeping one big secret from her that will probably change everything if I told her: That I am a wizard.

I know I have to tell her some day and that day has to be today.

"Harry?"

I look down at her. She definitely looks like if she just woke up because she's yawning like crazy and rubbing her eyes.

"Yes?"

"You early awake"

"You say 'your awake early' not 'you early awake' love"

"Well excuse me!"

"I'm going to take shower, okay?"

"a shower, love, a shower"

Natalie raised her eyebrow at me and threw a pillow at my face then ran out of the room.

"Hey Natalie!"

I heard Natalie's footsteps coming towards the room.

"Yes Mr. Potter?"

"Can I join you in the shower Ms. Torres?"

Natalia stared at me and thought about it for a second then said,

"Sure, if you must"

I got out of bed and once I got near Natalia I picked her up bridal style and carried her to the bathroom. I let her down as soon as we got to the bathroom.

Natalie started to take off her clothes -because yes after we did what we did last night, Natalie didn't feel comfortable for us being naked the whole night so we both put our clothes on- and then she went into the shower, me following her.

Once we were in the shower, with our bodies all wet and about to begin scrubbing Natalie said,

"Harry thanks"

I turned to look at her. It's not that I'm not grateful for the 'thank you' she gave me it's just that it came really randomly. Everything was so light even though inside I was dieing because of that stupid Chantal and Natalie said that so seriously.

"For what?"

Immediately after I said that Natalie came closer to me and tip-toed to give me a peck on the lips. When she pulled away there was tears in her eyes.

"Oh Natalie, what's wrong?"

I pulled Natalie in for a hug. Even though we were completely nude I didn't care.

"Harry it just that you done so much for me! You came my life to soft my heart and you comfort yesterday when I was my worst, and I have no way to pay you back!"

Even though Natalie's English was a little off I understood what she meant. The only thing I didn't understand was the 'soften the heart' part.

"Natalie all you have to do to thank me for all of it is stay with me for the rest of our lives and never leave me"

Throughout this whole conversation I never let Natalie go and I don't plan to anytime soon.

"I love you Harry, and I promise I will never leave you side"

"I doubt you'll keep that promise when I tell you what I did"

"I love you to Natalie and I'll never leave your side. Even if we are not together I'll always be with you"

I couldn't say that I promised to be faithful and I was about to say that. I knew that I wouldn't be able to keep that promise because I already broke it.

"Oh Natalie, your killing me here! I can't stand it anymore. You have no idea how much I hate myself for doing what I did for you!"

"Natalie, what did you mean by 'to soften your heart' "

There was a moments silence and then she said,

"Well Harry, before you came I was pretty much cold. I mean I was not mean to anybody, I just did not let a lot of people in my heart that easily. It is very hard for somebody to earn my trust and you did it so easily. I mean after a week of not see each other I wanted to see you so bad. It wasn't normal and that's why when you kissed me I hit you because I was like the kiss and I did not want you to get close to me so soon, but you did it anyway"

"Oh no, no, NO! She has got to be kidding me! I want to suicide now. She gave me her trust and I let her down."

"But Harry I'm glad that I let you in"

That just broke my heart.

"Natalie I love you so much, please promise me you'll never leave me because I never want to leave your side!"

I was holding Natalie like if my life depended on it. It did. I knew that this was something to big to ask for. I had already sealed my fate with Natalie that night with Chantal.

"Of course I promise never to leave your side, but I won't have a forever if you keep choking me like this"

I let her go against my own will. I wasn't embarrassed because that feeling is long gone from my conscious. The only thing left in my poor conscious is guilt. Pure utter guilt and hate not only for my self but for Chantal. I was drunk but Chantal wasn't and she could have stopped that night easily but she always gets what she wants as many people have told me.

After a while we started to shower and wash our hair and all of that stuff , all the while I was thinking of a way to tell Natalie or of way to completely avoid telling her.

There was no way to avoid telling her unless I want to keep quiet for the rest of my life and keep yet another secret from her.

"Natalie I want to tell you something"

It was time to tell her. You have no idea what I was feeling.

The emotion that stuck out the most was fright. I was scared to lose Natalie forever.

No I can't do it. I can't afford to lose Natalie forever. I don't want to lose her forever. I know I'm being selfish but Natalie is so important to me that if I don't have her I'm probably going to stop breathing.

"What is it Harry?"

No I can't do it.

"I love you"

Oh God. No I have to tell her. I can't be selfish and let her stay with me after what I did to her. I love her to much to do that to her.

"Actually Natalie that wasn't what I had to tell you"

"I imagined it wasn't"

We had gotten out of the shower not to long ago and Natalie's hair was dripping wet in curls. She was wearing black pajama shorts and a black wife beater. She looked so natural, so beautiful.

"So then what did you have to tell me?"

Be strong Harry you have to tell her even if it kills you.

"Before I tell you, can you answer me one question?"

"Sure"

"Do you love me?"

"Of course I love you Harry, I've told you hundreds of times and I'll tell you again, I Love You Harry Potter!"

"I love you to Natalie Torres de Potter"

I smiled weakly at her as she laughed at what I said. I want to hear her laugh more like that for so much longer.

"Natalie what I want to tell you is going to be hard to listen to and I'm so sorry for what I did"

"Stop scaring me Harry what you do?"

"Natalie-"

"Harry, would you please talk and stop scaring me!"

"Natalie, I love you so much remember that…"

"What did you do Harry!"

Natalie sounded so desperate. I still didn't want to tell her, but it was to late to back down now. I've said to much already to not say the whole truth.

"Natalie, while I was at school I-… I-…"

"You what Harry!"

"I cheated on you"

I said that in barely a whisper. I bet she didn't hear me at all. Oh God why did I do it, why?

"What did you do Harry?"

"I-…, I-…"

"Say it Harry!"

"I Cheated on you okay, I cheated on you and I'm sorry!"

There was a moments silence. I can't take it anymore. If this silence continued my ear were going to start bleeding.

I think Natalie really got the picture a few minutes after because a few minutes after I said that she quickly left the room that she gave me and went running into her room.

"Natalie wait!"

I heard Natalie's door shut and lock.

"Natalie open the door please!"

Silence.

"Please open the door Natalie!"

Silence.

"Open it up please!"

I started to bang hard on the door and then after a while I heard the door unlock and open and there was Natalie with tears in her eyes.

"What did you say you did, Harry?"

"Natalie I love you!"

"I don't care, just tell me what you did again!"

"I-…"

"Say it!"

"I cheated on you!"

Natalie took in a deep breath when I said that. New and fresh tears were going into her eyes but they never fell. She just stood there looking at me with a death glare.

"Why Harry, why? What I do to deserve this?"

"Natalie you didn't do anything, it was my mistake, it was a big mistake, because I was drunk and I didn't know what I was doing!"

"Being drunk isn't a good reason!"

Natalie screamed when she said that but then she noticed how loud she was and took a big breath.

"Tell me what happened Harry"

"Natalie I promised I didn't mean it!"

"I don't care if you meant it or not you did it already, and now I want you tell me what happened and I don't any lies"

"I had won a game, a pretty big game and then my friends and I had a party. There was this girl who always wanted every guy. I met her the first day of school. I didn't like her at all, but that day I was drunk and she came up to me and then we started to kiss and then that led up to having sex"

"What was her name?"

"Chantal Abermua"

"And what you decide tell me all of this after I give you my virginity!"

"I'm sorry Natalie, I didn't mean it, I was drunk and if I could turn back time to stop it I promise I would but I can't and I love you"

"Well it's to late for all that bullshit and you cant turn time and love isn't what you've done to me"

"Natalie please, I love you"

"And I loved you, but you had to do this to me! I gave you my trust my love, something that I never give other guy and you do this to me and then you decide tell me after I give you my pureness"

"I'm sorry Natalie"

"Well 'sorry' can't fix everything and it certainly cannot fix this!"

"Natalie please!"

I went to go and hug her but she took a step backward as I took a step toward her. She obviously didn't want to be near me.

"Harry don't ever touch me or say you love me again because what you did is worst than whatever anybody ever did to me"

"You comfort me say you love me and have sex with me and you don't even dare to stop me when you know that we would break up after this and you call that love?"

"I never want to see you again"

I wanted Voldemort to just come and kill me right then and there. I didn't want to breath if Natalie didn't ever want to see me ever again. I want to cut my veins, to feel pain.

Natalie went into her room and shut the door and soon I heard her lock the door.

"Natalie I don't care what you think about me, but I love you no matter what! I said I would be by your side even if were apart physically and now emotionally, but I'm never going to leave you and I will always protect you!"

"Harry shut up! Just shut up and leave me alone! I never want to here your voice, I never want to be protected by you and I don't care if you love me or not because it all a lie!"

I have now officially lost Natalie and the worst part of all is that it's all my fault.

Later that Night

After all that happened night came and I still can't get over my heartache. My heart feels like if it was cut in a blender and I caused this for the both of us. It's all my fault. I want to die.

I've been packing all night. Even though Natalie never told me to leave the house now I want to leave and I know she wants me to leave too. She hates me right now and will always hate me and that hurts so bad, but before I go I have to talk to her.

I know she might be sleeping now because it's pretty late at night, but I have to talk to her.

I was walking to her room and I was about to knock when I thought better.

'She's never going to let me in'

So I just opened the door myself. She was sleeping when I opened the door. It was dark and the only light was coming from a little night light on the outlet. The light was very dim so the room wasn't very bright. I could see her figure and she was sleeping but she kept twisting and turning and she was talking in her sleep, of course she was talking in Spanish,

"Porque me hicistes esto, Porque cono!"

She wasn't talking very clearly but that was what I heard. I went up to her bed and knelt down in front of her. She stayed still when I knelt down at the bed. Her face was my way. I could see her angelic face with tear stains all over it. Her hair was dry already those curls at the bottom bouncier than ever. I gently touched her face. I didn't want to wake her. I wasn't ready to say what I wanted to say, but against my will I started to touch her hair and then I leaned in a lightly pecked her lips. I couldn't help it and I started to kiss her. I felt her kissing back, but when I pulled away she was still asleep. I kept looking at her and then a few minutes later her eyes opened revealing the color red in the iris from crying.

Natalie just stared back at me her eyes full of sadness and confusion. It was complete silence as I stared into her eyes and she stared back at mine until Natalie broke the silence saying in a voice below a whisper,

"Why?"

She wasn't like before that she was mad. She said it very sad and was calm.

"I didn't mean to Natalie, I'm sorry and whether you believe me or not I still love you"

"Harry please don't say that anymore"

Natalie was still laying down in her bed looking at me and was still talking in her calm voice.

"Natalie I'm leaving now, but before I go I wanted to talk to you and explain to you that I didn't mean to do what I did and that if I could turn back time I wouldn't do what I did and that no matter what happens to me no matter who I'm with I will always love you, I'm sure of that"

"Harry, please stop"

"I trusted you Harry, I really did and I wish I made a right decision in trusting you, but I did not and now I'm suffering the consequences because-…"

Before Natalie said another word, she got up and walked to her closed door and stood there her back facing me her hand on the doorknob and continued speaking,

"-because now I'm suffering the consequences. Because now I'm suffering having to get you out of my life because even though I don't want to show you any emotion right now, I still love you and I hopefully will get over you soon because I don't want to go on loving you like I do now"

"Natalie, please I don't want you to forget me-"

"But I do! I want to forget you!"

I got up and went to were she was on the door. I went up behind her and started talking to her again,

"I know I won't ever forget you and it hurts me to have to leave you so much but I knew it wasn't fair having you stay with me even though I cheated on you and that's why I told you the truth"

Natalie turned around and was obviously surprised by me being there so close to her because she turned around and had a shocked look on her face, which quickly turned into sadness again.

"Harry I don't want to live loving you like I do now, I want to forget about you as soon as possible because I need to live my life again, I'm to young to waste my life on one failed love"

Natalie was looking at me straight in the eye and she was saying this clearly from the heart although I don't think she really meant what she said, or I just don't want to believe what she said was what she really felt.

"Natalie this isn't a failed love, it's a love that was supposed to go on forever if it wasn't for one of the person's stupidity. We will always love each other I'm sure of that even if we are with other people"

Natalie looked at me straight in the eye and had tears in her eyes before she let any tears out she turned around and opened her door and said,

"Harry I want to forget about you, and I will because I'm not going to waste my life on something that can't happen, now please get out of my room and out of my life. As much as it might hurt me I need you out of my life right now. You don't have to leave the house until it's time for you to go back to school, I'll go somewhere else to sleep because I need for you to be out of my life as soon as possible even if it hurts, even if it kills me because Harry I still love you"

She was holding the door open for me and had tears in her eyes. I just kept looking at her straight in the eye and she was looking at the floor. I had tears in my eyes. It hurt so bad. I didn't want Natalie to forget about me and I know I'll never forget about her. This has got to be the worst holidays I've ever experienced.

I walked out the door, the tears ready to fall until Natalie said,

"Harry wait!"

I turned around and there was Natalie coming towards me and she tip-toed to my face and kissed me. This is what could be called our last kiss. It tasted so good and it was full of love and sadness and it was desperate.

Natalie let go first and she stared me straight in the eye,

"Goodbye Harry, forever"

She ran back into her room and shut the door.

"What were you thinking Harry, when you did this to her, what were you thinking?"

Something I didn't know was that somebody on the other side of a door had different thoughts then what came out of her mouth,

"Harry, what were you thinking when you did this?"

"I still love you and I know I'll never forget you even if I'm with somebody else!"

I was walking back into my room tears falling down my face when Natalie's door swung open really fast and Natalie ran for the bathroom slamming the door open and going in there and throwing up,

"Natalie, Natalie? Are you okay?"

I went into the bathroom holding her hair out of her face. She was throwing up and hard too. Something was wrong with her, terribly wrong.

Natalie stopped throwing up long enough to say,

"Let me go Harry, I don't need your help, I don't want you to touch me anymore, I don't want you to ever help me again!"

The kiss that happened between us a few minutes ago was definitely our last kiss ever… Why does it have to be this way, why?

Okay I'm done. This chapter was extra long. I'm making up for not writing in a long time. And again Happy Valentines Day and in honor of Valentines Day you should review!

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