My apologies for misleading the readers for prefacing the story by writing that this was a M/A pairing. When I wrote this I was new to the whole fanfiction lingo so by saying that it was M/A I just meant that they are the two characters in the story that interact. I didn't have any intention of having it end in a romantic way for Max and Alec nor did I even give any thought of writing about the aftermath. But I'm in the mood for a challenge so I'm giving it another go. As for the pairing, I have no idea of what it will be or if there will even be one. Maybe, you guys can be the judge.

Anyway, here goes…

The texture of the rain was fitting, he thought. It wasn't a refreshing drizzle. It wasn't a down pour to completely wash away his sins. It was cold and it stung as it pelted him mercilessly in the face as he ran.

It hurt.

But he deserved so much more pain. His mind wouldn't stop replaying his actions of mere moments ago.

Her eyes so full of hurt. Her anguished cries for him to stop. How could he do that? It was like he had no control at all. Like Ben.

No! He was sicker than Ben. Ben killed. So had he. It's what they were all trained to do. But no one trained him to do what he had done to Max. That came from inside him. It was beyond sick. He was beyond sick. Psych ops had been wrong to clear him. He was disgusting and all he did was ruin Max's life.

Max.

ALEC STOP PLEASE! DON'T!

God Max. Why did you let me out! This is all your fault! Why couldn't you just let my head explode when you had the chance!

Alec choked and then spat out the rain that had soothed his aching throat. It was then that he realized he had been shouting his thoughts out loud. Lucky for him nobody was around.

He was alone.

I know this was short, but the next chapter will be longer. Suggestions?

Should Alec completely bug out and spiral further into darkness?

Should Max forgive him?

Should Max kill him?

P.S. And for all those reviewers who were pissy because this dealt with rape, god chill out, it's just a story. All characters and situations are FICTIONAL and if that's something you can't grasp then maybe that's what you should be focusing more on instead.