Disclaimer: I do not own CSI and make no profit from writing this.
A/N- Hey, sorry this update took so long. I really did mean to have this chapter up a while ago, but I wrote it and then didn't like that, so I erased it and started over. I've been a little busy lately, too, with schoolwork and all. Well, hope you like this chapter. As always, thanks for your reviews! D
She got back to her apartment and flopped on her bed, trying to figure out whether she was tired enough to sleep or if she was awake enough to watch tv or read a book. She yawned and positioned some pillows up against the wooden headboard to make herself more comfortable. After a while she decided to watch some tv.
She flicked through the channels "And in sports…" … "Stop by McDonald's for or limited time two for one deal…" … "We'll be right back to ET after this quick break…" Nothing seemed interesting, so she turned the tv off and headed over to her book shelf.
Her read through the rows, reading the titles. She looked through the rows of forensics journals she kept for reference and then moved on to the fiction crime novels. And then she came upon the book that Grissom got her for Christmas a year or two ago. She decided to read that one and so she took it off the shelf and sat back on her bed, knees up against her chest and the book in front of them.
Opening up the first page, she read and reread the note that Grissom wrote to her in it, "Sara, I thought you might like this. It reminds me of you. Merry Christmas. –Grissom."'
She thought about how she knew Grissom felt something for her, but she knew nothing would ever come from it. It was a useless thing to hope Grissom would wake up and take a chance. She knew that, even if she didn't want to. Maybe she'd just have to live in her memories, trying to think of all the things he ever said to her or did for her or gave to her. Would that be enough? Would that be enough for her to live with, memories, dreams that will never come true?
After a while the book slipped out of her hands and onto the bed. She closed her eyes and let herself drift off to sleep. Though even in her dreams she could not escape from anything.
There she was, standing there alone in the hallway. She was at the lab. It was dark and deathly quiet. Confused, she started walking around. Every room she came to, she would check inside to see if anyone was there, but there was no one… that is, until she came to Grissom's office. She stood in the doorway, afraid of what might happen if she went inside, though after a while she walked in slowly.
Grissom just sat there, reading the newspaper and filling in the answers to the crossword puzzle. He didn't even look up until she called his name.
"Grissom?" She asked.
He looked up and stared at her, a frown upon his face, then he just got up and left. She followed him down the hallway, but whenever she got closer, he started to fade away until, eventually, he was finally gone. Sara stopped and slid down against the wall, wondering what to do.
In the distance she heard an annoying noise; her phone. She wasn't expecting anyone to call, so when it woke her up, she was a little suspicious.
"Hello?" she picked up the phone.
"Hey, it's Greg."
She yawned, "Hi Greg."
"Well, I was going to ask you if you'd want to hang out or do something, but I guess you're tired."
"Oh, no. I just woke up, fully rejuvenated and actually, doing something sounds a lot more fun than sitting here. What's up?"
"I talked to my mom earlier, kind of weird. I never thought she'd call; you could say I moved out here to get away from my family."
"Yeah, I know what you mean."
"Well, do you want to go somewhere or do something? I haven't been out of my apartment in a while, well not to do something that doesn't include work."
"Yeah, what'd you want to do?"
"Well, I know a pretty good place for food in New York, New York. I don't know, this is going to sound stupid, but I usually go there when I'm bored and there's nobody to talk to, you know, sit there, think, watch the tourists."
"Well, that's better than what I do…stay here, daydream, read, cry… What a very interesting life I have, huh? I'll meet you at your place, then?"
"Uh, sure, I guess. I'll talk to you soon, then?"
"Uhm-hmm."
She hung up the phone and smiled; she just realized that there was at least one person who could brighten her day. She pulled on a light sweater and grabbed her keys and handbag and then was on her way to Greg's apartment.
She knocked on the green door, as she opened it up, she said, "Hey, you ready to go?"
"Yeah," he locked the door and started down the hallway, walking next to Sara. "You sure you're not tired? You look like you could fall asleep at any second."
"I'm fine and well, actually, I probably couldn't even if I wanted to."
"Nightmares?" he asked curiously.
"Hard to believe, but yeah. I've got way too much on my mind, so thanks for asking me to hang out. It can help me get my mind off of stuff."
"No problem, I hope it helps me forget about everything, too."
Not much later, they arrive at New York, New York and after parking the car, the got out and walked around. Eventually, they got to place Greg was talking about.
"Do you want food, or do you just want to sit and talk or something?" he asked her.
"I guess I'll go get a soda or something, you want anything? I'll go get it; you can find an empty table."
"Uh, just a Pepsi is good, I guess. Thanks." He walked around and found a table off in a corner and took a seat before someone else did. A few moments later Sara spotted him and found her way over there.
"Hey, nice table." She smiled.
"Yeah, tried to get one away from all the people; so, how is everything?"
"If you're talking about Grissom, he's never going to change. He told me that the other day. He said he loves me, but he can never be with me; he's too afraid to hurt me or to get hurt by me. I can't do anything about it, I suppose its time I started to stop dreaming about what will never come true."
"Hey, cheer up. He's not the only guy out there. There are plenty of guys out there who would be dying to be with you, who would give anything for the chance to be there for you and say they love you. Don't let one guy ruin your outlook on love forever."
She looked at him and thought for a moment. Inside she was wondering if he was right, if she would ever love anyone else like she did Grissom. She was also wondering if he said those things because he felt that about her. It was a strange thought. She knew Greg had a crush on her, but that was a while ago, there was no way he could still have feelings for her. But what if he did? What would she say to him?
"I can dream, but I doubt there's a guy out there for me."
He looked at her and wondered what he was supposed to say. Inside he wanted to say, "I would give anything to be there for you and say I love you." But he knew Sara would never give him a chance; she was in love with Grissom. Grissom was much smarter than he was and much older than he was and at times, much more mature than he was. "I'm sure there is. I'm sure there's a guy out there right now, thinking about you and wishing you knew how he feels."
"It certainly isn't Grissom," she replied.
Sighing, he said, "Yeah, but the guy is out there, you'll figure it out."
The rest of the time they talked about many different things. Greg tried to cheer her up by doing impressions of different tourists that walked by them. It seemed to be working and by the time they decided to leave, she was smiling and laughing. They got in his car and headed back to the parking lot of his apartment complex.
Before Sara got in her car, she asked him, "You told me there was a guy out there that thinks about me and wishes I know how he feels… well, if I know who the guy is, and I think I do… I'm starting to feel something for him, too."
Greg stood there and said nothing, just watched as she got into her car and drove out of the parking lot. He wondered if she was actually saying that about him.
A/N Well, I'll end this chapter here. Next chapter should be up soon and it's probably going to be the last chapter as well. Once I'm finished this fic I might write a Grissom/Sara fic, but I', sure I'll be writing Greg/Sara in the future as well because its fun to write. Well, hope you enjoyed this chapter, please review! D ) D
