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A/N: Hey everyone, sorry it took me a little longer to update. This time I actually was really busy but you can bet on more chapters cause I'm grounded for the weekend!! * Shakes fist angrily at parents * and it's fair weekend too! ARGGGG! Ok sorry, I need to rant. Anyway oh yes I almost forgot! JK how could I forget! The Reviewer of the Chapter is…*drum roll* DarklingChild! YAY *wild applause* Thanks for reviewing! Thanks to everyone else too! All your reviews mean a lot to me! Ok well on with the story. Oh wait since I did what Draco was feeling for the last chappy here's what I think Hermione's thinking. Yes it's another song, yes it's written by me.
~I looked at you and saw a sparkle flicker my way, only to be covered by that old familiar haze. Don't tell me you can't see through, I saw it in your eyes. I saw you look this way I know I saw you try.
You close your eyes but they're still open, still speaking all the words unspoken. I'm drowning in the endless pools of gray. But still I know that deep inside, there are feelings that you just can't hide. I'm sitting here still waiting for the day when I can turn back the hands of time just to feel your heart race as fast as mine. I'd take my whole life and put it on the line, if only to rediscover that I'm trapped for an eternity inside your eyes. ~ Finis
Ok that was my song, hoped you liked it now here's the story.
Whisper~Mad~Crazy Chapter 13-What It's Like to Feel
Draco entered the Great Hall and sauntered over to the Slytherin Table. He sighed as he scooped some scrambled eggs onto his plate.
"Hey Draco." Pansy said scooting over next to him.
"Hey Pansy." He said picking at his plate.
"Something wrong?" She asked pouring herself some orange juice. Draco looked to the girl sitting next to him. Her dark brown hair was half up in a ponytail and the early morning light bounced off her blonde highlights. Sure she wasn't the skinniest girl around but she was pretty.
"No, it's no concern of yours." He replied. Not rudely but firmly so that she knew he wanted to end the conversation there.
"Ok." She said simply turning to talk to one of her friends.
Draco stared dumbly at his plate. Suddenly he felt a great weight around his neck and a wave of sadness washed over him. He reached up to his necklace and tried to unclasp it but it sent a slight shock through his hands.
"Bugger!" He muttered quickly pulling his hands away.
'It must be Granger. What does she have to be sad about? She's with Wonder Boy. Probably doing some snogging.' He thought annoyed. 'But why is she sad.' He pondered for a few seconds before he saw someone enter the hall and walk over to the Gryffindor table. "Potter." He mumbled. He watched as the dark haired boy went and sat down next to his red headed friend. They appeared to be conversing when suddenly a bright grin broke out on the Weasley's face. The two hugged, you know one of those guy hugs and then continued on with their meals. Draco sneered as he looked back down to his own plate. Suddenly the weight from around his neck was gone and he felt like a cool breeze had blown past him.
'What is that, relief?' He thought furrowing his brows. He stood up suddenly knocking over some first year's milk.
"Sorry." He muttered but quickly stalked out of the Great Hall. He couldn't take this. He couldn't take knowing her emotions and not know why she was feeling them. He stopped at the Entrance Hall and spun around.
"But where should I look?" He said out loud. He spotted a group of sixth years walking towards the Great Hall, among them was Ginny Weasley. He jogged over to them.
"Hey, you! Um Weasley! Ginny!" He called trying to get her attention. She turned around and raised an eyebrow at Draco as he approached them.
"What do you want Malfoy?" She asked annoyance apparent in her voice.
"I um, I'm looking for Hermione. Do you know where she is?" He asked.
She gave him a questioning look.
"Why do you want to know?" She asked.
"Um Head Boy and Girl stuff." He said trying to make it sound viable. Ginny chewed on her bottom lip obviously trying to decide whether she should tell him or not.
"Well I heard her say she was going on a walk with Harry." She stated finally. Draco looked at her puzzled. Now he was even more confused. Hermione could be anywhere. He rubbed the back of his neck this was really stressing him out.
"Well thanks I guess." He said turning away.
"Hey Malfoy." Ginny called behind him. He turned slowly to face her. "Try the lake." With that she and her friends turned and entered the Great Hall.
Draco jogged down the front steps out onto the school grounds heading towards the lake. He looked around but he couldn't see any one or any living thing for that matter. He walked to the path by the shoreline and started following it, hoping to find her. Finally after about half an hour of searching he stopped. He gazed out across the lake and rested one hand on his waist while he massaged the back of his neck with the other.
'Why did I even do this?' He thought to himself. 'It's not like she would have wanted to talk to me anyways.' But then he remembered the intense feeling of worry that rushed through him when he felt Hermione's sadness. He turned back towards the castle with one thought on his mind.
'I have to find her.'
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Hermione sat staring out across the lake. She shivered as a slight breeze blew across the pebble beach. She wrapped her arms around herself trying to gather some warmth but it was no use. She stood and swept the dirt off her jeans. With one last look at the rippling lake she headed back towards the castle. She pushed open the big wooden doors and slipped though into the Entrance Hall. She was about to make her way up to the Head Common room when she heard voices behind her. She turned and spotted Ginny and some of her friends walking towards the Great Hall. She was about to go say hello when she saw someone walk up to them.
'Draco?' She thought to herself. 'Why would he be talking to Ginny?' Quickly she ducked into the shadows and tried to hear the conversation.
"What do you want Malfoy?" Hermione heard Ginny say, obviously annoyed.
"I um, I'm looking for Hermione. Do you know where she is?" Hermione's breath caught in her throat.
'He's looking for me.' She thought. There was a slight pause in the conversation.
"Why do you want to know?" Ginny asked.
"Um Head Boy and Girl stuff." Hermione had to stifle a snort.
'Ha, that was a lie.' She thought to herself. There was another pause. Ginny was obviously trying to decide what she should tell him.
"Well I heard her say she was going on a walk with Harry."
Hermione was startled when she suddenly felt a very heavy weight on her hand. She lifted it to look at it. It was the hand Draco's ring was on.
'Why am I feeling disappointed?' She thought. 'It must have something to do with the ring. But does that mean that this is what Draco's feeling?' She looked back up just in time to see Draco rush through the front doors down towards the lake. Suddenly the weight was lifted from her hand but not before one last wave of emotion washed through her.
"Worry. He's worried about me." She said softly. She stood debating whether or not she should follow him or continue on to their common room. Finally her conscience got the better of her and she hurried through the doors down towards the lake. She didn't see Draco anywhere.
"Well he has to come back up this way sooner or later." She said to herself sitting down on the stone steps leading up to the castle. She watched as the giant squid surfaced and swam around the lake for a bit, but there was still no sign of Draco. Finally just when she was about to give up and go back inside she saw a lone figure standing on the shore looking out across the lake. She saw his light blond hair shimmer in the sunlight.
"Draco." She said softly to herself. She stood and started down towards where he was. She watched as he rested one hand on his waist and rubbed the back of his neck with the other. She was about ten feet away from him when he turned around. Her breath caught in her throat. The look that was in his eyes was indescribable. But it wasn't unfamiliar to her; she had seen it a lot while they were on the trip. They stood silently watching each other for a few moments.
"Hey." She said softly, breaking the silence.
"Uh…hey." Draco replied his voice soft. She walked towards him. A small smile crept across her face as she approached him. She reached up and softly took hold of his necklace. She turned it so that the clasp wasn't showing.
"Hermione what are you doing?" He asked softly.
"I'm fixing your necklace." She replied dropping her hands but not stepping away from him. They were so close she could smell his cologne.
'Mm, Old Spice.' She thought to herself.
Draco took a deep breath, intoxicated by her scent of Vanilla. A small smile graced his face before suddenly being replaced by a frown.
"Why were you sad?" He asked. Hermione smiled up at him.
"You were worried, weren't you?" She asked still smiling. Draco mentally slapped himself. He had forgotten the spell worked both ways.
"You didn't answer my question, why were you sad?"
"I will answer your question when you answer mine." Hermione stated sternly but still kind. "Were you worried about me?" Draco looked up to the sky and sighed before dropping his head muttering a soft, "Yes."
"Draco," She said softly lifting his chin so he would look into her eyes. "That is nothing to be ashamed of."
"Where I come from it is." He replied sounding slightly angry.
"You mean your father?" She asked. "He made you like this didn't he? He made you cold and cruel. He didn't let you show any kind of feeling."
Draco nodded his head. Suddenly Hermione wrapped her arms around him.
"I'm so sorry Draco." She said squeezing him tightly. Draco was stunned for a few seconds but slowly wrapped his arms around her. They stayed like that for a few minutes.
"So why were you sad?" He asked again.
"Oh I broke up with Harry." She said casually.
"What?" He said suddenly pulling apart and looking her in the eyes. Suddenly he remembered Harry in the Great Hall that morning. He didn't seem at all sad then. "Well then why wasn't he upset?" He asked her, concern evident in his eyes.
"It was a mutual thing." Hermione said, smiling at how worked up he was getting. "Don't worry Draco. I'm fine."
"Ok," He said quietly. "But if he hurt you…"
"You'll what Draco?" Hermione said laughing. "You do realize how…odd your acting don't you? Not that it's bad I just don't think that anyone would take you seriously."
He frowned.
"So you like me better when I was an 'insufferable prick'?"
"No, Draco, no. I just…I don't know what to think. I can't make sense out of all these thoughts that are swirling around in my head right now."
He nodded, hurt still present on his face.
"Come on Draco." Hermione said linking her arm through his. "Let's head back up to the Common Room and on the way can we stop by the kitchens? I'm starved." Draco smiled a little as they started back up to the castle. They dropped arms as they entered the Entrance Hall. They were about to head for the kitchens when Harry and Ron came running up to them.
"Hermes we've been looking all over for you." Harry said breathing heavily.
"Yeah where've you been?" Ron said casting a sideways glance at Draco.
"Oh um Draco and I were just discussing some Head Boy and Girl stuff." Hermione said looking to Draco who nodded.
"Oh." Harry said still glaring at Draco. "Well come on."
"Where?" Hermione asked.
"We're going down to see Hagrid come on." Ron answered.
"Oh um…" She looked to Draco, who gave her a small smile before speaking.
"We can finish this later." He said. Hermione nodded and slowly started walking, with Harry and Ron flanking her. Before she went through the doors she glanced back and saw Draco trudging up the stairs towards the Head Common room. She tried to ignore the feeling of disappointment that washed over her as her hand started to feel heavy again.
"Anything wrong Hermes?" Harry asked.
"No, no it's nothing." She replied. She continued down towards Hagrid's all the while feeling Draco's disappointment, hoping with all her might that he could feel her regret.
A/N: Well what did everyone think? I just wanted to say that Pansy is not going to be a sluty bitch in my story, at least not yet…I think. Ok well review and tell me so that maybe next time you could be the Reviewer of the Chapter! Oh and someone wanted to know if I had another fic, and I do. It's called Staring Into the Unknown, it's another Draco/Hermione. I had 9 chapters but I recently took it down and started reposting the chapters so it's not very long just yet but if you like Draco/Hermione fics it's worth a read. I warn you though, it's kind of one of those where Draco has changed really suddenly. But still read it. OK I'm rambling but I have more! MWAH HAHAHA!! Ok um thanks to Valysis who made me realize I had accidentally typed Draco's name instead of Eric's earlier in the story. Um sorry to spoil the surprise early but that has been fixed. Thanks for the heads up! Ok um I think that's it thanks to everyone who reviewed. One last shout out to the current Reviewer of the Chapter DarklingChild your reviews are great and they always make me laugh! Love to all! Read and Review!
