Title: Just waiting

Chapter 4: Wondering.

Summary: I'm just beginning with this story and I really don't know which way it will go, I only know that is sometime between the arrival of Jess to Stars' Hollow, and the break up of Rory and Dean, so enjoy what I have and Review!!

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters of Gilmore Girls, they are all property of the WB, except the characters that I create and that don't have to be anything to do with the original history, so please don't sue me!

A/N: Hey! I'm sorry it took me so long, I had been busy with school, I already had it wrote but I had to pass it to Word, so please forgive me, and here is the next chapter, I want to say thanks for your reviews, I love them!!!, they make me so happy, I'm glad that all you guys are interested on this!! =D and please be patient with the grammar mistakes, I tried to do my best, and the mistakes in the previous chapters had been corrected, thanks to Elizabeth, but here I tried to do it by myself so please let me know how it was, if you like it or if you don't, I wasn't sure if it was to be present or past tense, but I think it was fine, well I'm blabbing, sorry, so please forgive me, read, enjoy and review!!!! Miriam =)

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After a while they just sat there looking occasionally at each other. Rory had taken off a book of her collection, one that remembered her pretty much of him. She had rested her back on the arm of the couch with her legs curled in front of her, she could say that they were sitting there making company to each other and enjoining the calm; Rory could see the pacific expression that Jess had in his face, almost like if he was thinking for the perfect words to write in the book. She liked to think that he was trying to write down a secret message for her and that he was waiting for her to find out the meaning of his words; it was a nice thought.

Rory unconsciously looked at the spot where he was sitting, and a little smile appeared in her face when she saw that he was still submerged writing in the book; feeling her gaze he looked up and smirked when he saw her looking at him with a sweet and amused smile, she really looked nice.

"What looks so funny?" asked Jess returning his gaze to the words that was finishing to write.

"You," answered Rory smiling and closing her book "You should see how cute you look when you have a book with you."

"Cute?" he asked raising an eyebrow, looking curiously at her.

"Yeah," said Rory with a smile "Give the guy a book and you'll make him; you know books are really your thing."

"Oh, yeah?" and yours not?" asked with a smirk.

"Well, of course it is, but I can't see my face when I read, so there is no way that I could make fun of me, but for my relief I have you here and until I can see my face I will see your."

"Huh, glad to help you." Said, looking at her and then returning his gaze at the book. "You know, you look cute too, when you are reading, so concentrated on the words."

Rory looked up at him for any sign of a smirk, but she couldn't find one, all she could see was his face looking determinately at the words in front of him; suddenly she felt how a smile began to draw in her lips.

"Thanks." she said still looking at him.

"Anytime." he said turning his head and smiling with an authentically smile.

After that she was trying too hard to kept him out of her mind, she was feeling the necessity of been closer to him. She mentally regretted the fact that she had decided to sit the most far away that she could, in an attempt to stop her of doing something stupid. She didn't want to have any troubles with her feelings and with Dean; but actually she was having problems.

Sighing she sat straight and waited for him to react, seeing that he was doing the same, she got up and began to walked toward the kitchen; Jess noticed that and he followed her with his gaze, he stood up and walked behind her, but when he arrived the kitchen he was surprised when he didn't see her in there, but when he turned to leave he saw her in her room, apparently she was searching something in her bag.

He stared at her with curiosity no saying a word, he wanted to know what she was going to do next, and when she turned to leave she was surprised of saw him in the doorframe; she couldn't help but give a small jump while she walked toward the kitchen.

"Jess, you scared me!" Said, trying to calm her down.

"Sorry for that, I didn't mean to," he said with a smirk and amused in his eyes. "I supposed that you were going to the kitchen."

"It's okay, you just surprised me." Said, walking towards the table and smiling sweetly at him. "Do you want another drink?"

"No, I'm fine," said Jess, sitting by the table. "I just want to give you this."

Jess was holding a book and immediately a smile lit up her face. He finished! It was logical since the book only had 80 or 90 pages, and they had been in her house about an hour and a half, she was glad that he could give her the opportunity of swam in his thoughts.

Jess was amused by her reaction, he didn't know that she cared so much about what he could write on a book; that made him felt like if he had a chance to be with her or like if she really cared about what he thought, and that made him smile.

"Thank you so much!" said Rory excited. "I really appreciate it."

"You're welcome," said, at the same time that he saw her passing her fingertips for the sheets of the book. "We can go to the bookstore if you want."

"Yes, please," said with a big smile. "I almost forget it; I want to give you something."

"You don't have to." said, amused by her words.

"I know, but I want to. Besides I was planning this since days ago." Said, standing up and walking to reach the pot of coffee, while she tried to hide a smile.

"Really?" asked Jess smirking, and thinking about something, he said waiting for her reaction. "Well, I didn't know that you have a crush for me."

"I don't have a crush for you!" she said, embarrassed and trying to defend herself, but didn't help the fact that her cheeks began to turn in a very brightening red.

Jess chuckled when he saw her face; she could feel ashamed for things like this; that made her seen so innocent.

"Relax, just kidding." Said, while he tried to met her eyes. "So, do you wanna go to the bookstore?"

"Sure, let's go," said, leaving the pot of coffee in the counter and trying to avoid his eyes. "But don't expect that I give you something, not after what you said."

"Your words are hurting me!" said with a smirk and putting his left hand on her chest.

"You are annoying, you know?" said rolling her eyes.

"I wasn't sure until you said it to me." He said, walking behind her while they approached the living room. "Do you wanna help for clean it?"

"No, I'm doing it later."

"Ok." said Jess taking his jacket and beginning to walk towards the door. "So..."

"Give me a minute." Said, leaving the room and giving a small smile to Jess.

Jess waited in the living room and after a moment, she was there again; she went to take another sweater, a blue one, it looked nice on her, it kind of adjust more to her body, and combined softly with her eyes.

"I'm ready, let's go." Said Rory walking cheerfully towards the door and opened it for Jess; when he walked out, she closed it behind of her.

They were walking in silence, Jess with his hands in his pockets and Rory with her hands in front of her. Suddenly Rory broke the silence when she remembered the dance that they were going to have the next day; she was wondering if Jess had planned to assist, so she asked him:

"Are you going to the party tomorrow night?" her voice sounded anxious.

Jess hadn't consider the idea, he thought that with Lorelai there, it was very improbable that she wanted him to go to the party, and then he didn't have anybody to go with, so he said:

"I don't know, you know that I'm not the kind of person that go to festivals and that stuffs."

"But, you have to go!" said almost begging, she wanted Jess to be there. "All Stars Hollow is going to be there."

"So...?" said Jess confused by her tone of voice.

"So, it is a party, people go to the parties." said Rory trying to explain herself becoming excited.

"Well, this man not." Said Jess, wanting to saw what more she would say.

"Oh, c'mon Jess! You have to go, I want you to go" said beginning to walk faster and turning more desperate.

"But why?" he asked now more confused by the way things are turning. "It's a party, it's not a big deal, and anybody is going to miss me."

"Don't say that, of course we're going to miss you, it's a party, the party needs you!" said Rory desperately, why was she acting like this? "You have to go; I'm asking you to go."

"Why I have to go, if you are going to be with Dean? All the people there are going to look at me like if I was planning to burn something." Said, trying to find the logical side of the situation. "Besides I'm sure Lorelai will be happy if she don't see me there."

"Jess, of course she wants you to be there, she wants all Stars Hollow to be there, please I'm asking you, we could make you some company, you don't have to be alone." Said Rory in an attempt to convince him, she didn't know what more she could say, she wanted him to go.

"But you are going to be with Dean,"

"I know."

"And Dean is your boyfriend."

"I know."

"So, please explain me, you know that Dean and me are not the best friends."

"I know!" said more desperately, how could she let him know, that she wanted him to go, to be there?!

"So, why I have to be there if I can take advantage and go to the liquor store and steal some vines?"

"Because I want you to go, don't you understand that I wanna be with you?!"

Rory was shocked for what she said; she didn't want to say that, the words just slip out of her mouth before she could think about what she was saying. She began to fell embarrassed, thanks God that they were outside of the bookstore.

Jess didn't believe what she had said, did he heard it right? Did she said that she wanna be with him? He didn't know what to say, she had taken him completely by surprise, and when he tried to say something she was already opening the door of the bookstore and leaving him alone in the street.

Rory promptly began to walked towards the last shelves of books, trying to hide her from Jess, she felt embarrassed, why did she had to open her big mouth? She still was with Dean! How could she say that?! She was giving him false hopes, or she really meant it? She didn't have the answers but she was feeling more and more confused, she had to think about Dean, How will he feel, if he knows what she said to Jess?! Suddenly she began to panicked, what did Jess would think about her? Oh, man! Why did she have to be so stupid?

Jess was still confused by her words and when he entered the bookstore he could see Rory walking towards the back of the store, he could see that she looked nervous and almost desperately; suddenly the thought that maybe she didn't mean it began to appear in the front of his mind, maybe she just said that because she didn't know what more to say, and then she was still with Dean, he didn't have to overreacted, and seeing her like that, made him thought that maybe he was right, and that she didn't mean it, they were just friends, probably she needed someone to be with her in case that something happened, but something like what? It's a party, friends want to be with their friends in a party, it is common between people, isn't it?

Seeing her closer he saw that she was trying to act normal, so he did that too; he didn't want her to feel uncomfortable around him, so he walked the most casually that he could and standing behind her, he said:

"Hey, did you found something you like?" said now standing by her side, and beginning to walk at the books in front of him. "Because I think I saw some interesting things over there."

Rory jumped at the sound of his voice, she was expecting that he could leave her alone, Damn bookcases!

"Not yet, I was just seeing." Was her short answer, she tried to calm her down and act the most normal possible. "I think I will go to see."

"Do you want some company?" asked Jess waiting for her approval; if she wanted to be alone he will respect that, maybe she had something to think about.

"You don't have to; if you want you could check over here." She tried to sound the most casually that she could, but Jess still notice that.

Jess nodded and said. "Ok, good luck." And waiting for her to leave, he began to pass his hands by the covers of the books that he had been looking.

"Where are the books you said?" asked Rory timidly.

Jess smile at her question, she still care about his opinions in books, he looked at her and saw that she was blushing, that made him smirked.

"They are in the front shelf, in the first one on the left corner." He answered.

"Thanks." Was her shyly answer.

When she was almost gone he quickly asked:

"Are you ok?"

Rory looked up at him and in his eyes she could see worry and a bit of hurt, bur this last was almost vanished.

"Yeah, I'm fine," said meeting his eyes for a second, and smiling sweetly at him. "I'll be right back."

Jess nodded and Rory began to walk towards the front shelves.

Rory was walking between the aisles and when she approach the spot that Jess had indicated her, she began to check out the books.

After like twenty minutes Rory had checked almost all the books that were in her sight, she was trying so hard to keep Jess out of her mind, but she couldn't, she felt so nervous and she didn't know what Jess was thinking about her. Maybe if she tells him that she really cares about him and that she wanna be with him but only like a friend, he'll understand, because he knew that she's still with Dean, and he knew that she loved him, at least that was what she wanted to believe.

Suddenly she remembered the book that she wanted him to have, it was one that remembered her pretty much of him, also it was a nice story full of all kind of feelings, it was a very intense story, you could find of all in it, love, anger, revenge, and she thought that one of the characters seems much like him. She liked to think that was kind of their situation, their love story, well they didn't have any love story, but still it was nice and maybe if he was enough smart, he could figure out what she really was trying to say, he would have to wait until the end of the book, when the two characters that remind her of them, were together and maybe he could realize.

Determinately she began to search the book, although she still was a little embarrassed she wanted to give him the book, she had told him that she was going to give him something and that was what she was going to do.

Jess was sitting in the floor reading a book, he was waiting for Rory, he didn't want to bother her right now, so he gave her time to think about what she wanted and waited for her to come back to him. Suddenly he heard footsteps and when he looked up, he saw that it was Rory, immediately a smile appeared in his face, a small one, just for let her know that he saw her. He waited for her to walk towards him and waited for her to say the first word.

"Hey." said Rory, apparently a little uncomfortable.

"Hey," answered Jess. "Did you find something good?"

Jess could see that she looked nervous, and then he saw that she had a book in her hands.

"Actually I have something for you." Said, sitting by his side and showing him the book in her hands. "It is Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte; it's a nice story, had you heard something about it?"

"Kind of, but I never read it." He was trying to meet her eyes.

"Well, now you can read it." Said, giving him a small smile and meeting briefly his eyes.

She could see that he was confused; at least that was what she thought she saw, because the next moment she looked away.

"Well, thanks, you didn't have to, but thanks anyway." Said, smiling a little and taking the book of her hands.

He could see the title and a nice picture of a wood and a lady walking by it. Jess saw that her face began to relax and that she seemed more comfortable, so instead of mention their last conversation, he kept talking with a subject safer; books.

"Hey, that remembers me that you have to see this, I found some really good books in first edition."

"Really?" She asked, forgetting her worries as she saw Jess standing up and waiting for her to do the same.

"Yep, I think you'll like it." Said, smiling for the fact that Rory was smiling again.

Like 30 minutes later, both of them were walking out of the bookstore, both with a paper bag and some books inside. Rory had recovered her good mood, she felt good and was a little gratefull that Jess seemed to ignore their last talk, and for a moment she appreciate it, she had to think about what she was going to tell him, but still very inside of her heart, she didn't regret it, it was like if she didn't could wait for let him know that she want to be with him, that she enjoy his company; she looked at him and saw that he was acting like if nothing had happened, suddenly she wanted to explain him, but she wasn't sure of how he was going to take it.

Jess saw her expression and decided to ask:

"What's the matter?"

"Eh... nothing." Said, trying to avoid his eyes.

"Really?" asked, raising an eyebrow and knowing that she was lying.

"Yeah." Was her weak attempt; seeing that he didn't buy it, she let escape a sigh and say. "Listen Jess, a while when I told you that I want you to go to the party, it was true, because I like hanging out with you, I like your company, and I really want you to go, because we are friends and friends...

"Rory, it's ok." Jess interrupted her when he realized what she was trying to say.

"But I don't want you to think that I don't care about you, because I do care about you and..." Rory was flustered.

"You care about me?" was his surprised question; he had been trying to figure out that, and she just said it.

"Well, of course I do care about you..." she began to feel uncomfortable, she didn't want him to think something different. "You don't?"

"Care about me?" was his avoiding answer, he was smirking.

"Jess, you know what I mean..." said Rory, and when she saw that he was smirking and that he wasn't going to answer her question, she said. "Oh, forget what I said."

Jess was amused of her, she looked annoyed and before she could get angry, he answered with a sigh:

"Yes, of course I do care about you, but don't tell anybody because it could harm my reputation."

Rory smiled at his answer and she began to feel her cheeks, change of color; she had begun to think that maybe she wouldn't have asked him that question, but she was glad to heard from his mouth that he cares about her, and that makes her happy; looking at him and trying to meet his eyes, she said:

"Okay."

Jess smirked at her answer and at her faintly blush.

"So do you wanna something to eat?"

"Now?" asked Rory.

"Yeah, why not?"

"Well, we already had breakfast at the dinner."

"Correction, you had breakfast at the dinner, I didn't eat something, and it's like 3 o'clock."

"Okay, what do you wanna eat?" asked Rory confused when she saw that they weren't walking to the dinner.

"I was thinking about pizza, what do you think?" asked looking at her, he could see her confused face.

"Sounds good to me." Was her answer, she liked the idea also she was beginning to starve.

"Ok, pizza is."

Jess was walking cheerfully a little faster than her, he seemed happy and a smirk was playing on his lips. Rory was trying to reach him; he noted that and waited for her to walks by his side.

"You walk too fast," complained Rory. "I think I lost my left feet over there."

Jess smirked at her words. "Don't worry, I could live with that."

Rory laugh softly and after a second she said. "You know, I like you, you make me laugh."

And with that she began to walk a little faster than him, leaving a smirking Jess behind her while she smiled sweetly at him.

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