m: 'Make Up Your Mind' belongs to Theory of a Deadman.

shadow0015: There actually was an incident where Sarr woke up with a pink Iroquois crest now that I think of it…

MagicmanSmokegirl: Viconia and Saronax. I'm beginning to think that they're more screwed than Talexia and Anomen. ;)

naradrith: Saronax is an ass. And if Tymo is smarter than him that must give Saronax the IQ of a small rodent. ;)

Chapter Ten

A day had passed since the incident with the yochlol. Viconia had been avoiding Saronax, uneager to share words with him. The drow felt the fighter's worried blue gaze upon her and her temper flared. He started walking towards her and she snarled, "Back away from me, you pathetic fool! Do not cast your eyes upon me! I told you to let me be, iblith! Are you so insipid and moronic that you cannot understand such simple instruction?"

Saronax's own temper flared. "I said nothing to you, Viconia! What brings this on?"

"You...you are an affront to me...I wish this had never come to be!" She cast her eyes to the ground, unable to look at him. Saronax glared at her. "Why do you turn your head? Those are tears in your eyes! Why are you saying these things to me? Why?"

"I...I...just...leave me be, Saronax! Just leave me be!" Viconia shouted before storming off, her grey eyes swimming with tears.

The rest of the group was staring at Saronax. He glared at them. "Keep moving."

"Saronax-" Aerie began.

"I SAID KEEP MOVING, WENCH!" Saronax roared.

Aerie's eyes widened in fright and she retreated out of Saronax's line of vision. Steaming mad, Saronax turned around and continued forward. "What the hell is wrong with Viconia?" He muttered under his breath.

"Maybe it's PMS?" Zake suggested, hearing Saronax.

"Zake."

"Yeah?"

"Shut up."

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Viconia sighed. I must do this. There is no other way. She knocked on the door. Saronax soon appeared in the entranceway and gestured for her to come in. The fighter closed the door and placed himself in front of his beloved. Her eyes were clouded and she wrung her hands in a sign of uncharacteristic nervousness. "We...we must talk. This...is not working...between us. It will never work, and I think you know this.There can be only one outcome. It can only end poorly."

Saronax gaped at her in open horror. "Why do you say this?"

"Sooner or later I will fail you, or you will fail me, or Lolth will capture me, or I will cause your death. I am Drow and you are not...there is no happy ending here. We must poison our hearts, my ssinssrigg...we must do what is necessary and cleave us apart before it is too late. And I cannot stay."

He shook his head. "You're wrong, Viconia. We can make this work. It won't end poorly. I won't allow it to."

"But why? Why would you wish to have me stay when you know this is doomed!Doomed as my own black heart is doomed! Do not do this to yourself, Saronax!"

He reached out and grabbed her hands. "I want you to stay because you're the only thing that can make me face the hell that my life as become. I need you Viconia. If you leave, I'll die. I love you."

Pure shock raced through Viconia's veins. He does care. He does love me. "...I love you, too, Saronax...in my fashion. I... I regret I am not a creature who can feel things as you do. The capacity...is just not within. I almost wish it was, but darkness and loss are my callings...Shar knows only too well."

"That's not true Viconia. I've seen the true inside of you, the capacity to love." He titled her chin towards him. "Look at me. I'm a suspicious, moody bastard but you still found it in your heart to love me. It's not as black as you believe. Both of our hearts aren't as hardened as people may think. I promised to protect you. And now, I must protect you from yourself. Do not do this."

"Saronax…please don't make me do this. You've given me so much…but I'm not ready." Her eyes were shadowed with grief as she spoke.

Saronax heaved a sigh. "But I need you here in the party, even if we are not together... I cannot succeed without your strength."

Viconia ran her fingers through her hair. "I... I suppose I am being selfish.You are on a quest of great importance to you, and my leaving would be more than an inconvenience, perhaps. Very well, Saronax. It shall be... difficult to stay by your side, but I will. But there is nothing further between us... and we part once your task is complete. This is the way it must be, if I am to help you. I... am sorry, Saronax. In my own way, I do... love you."

Hesitant at first, Viconia reached up and pressed one last kiss to Saronax's lips. The kiss was sweet but sorrowful, and both their eyes filled with tears as it progressed. After several minutes, Viconia broke away. "I am sorry." She admitted regretfully and briefly stroked his cheek before turning to leave.

"I love you." Saronax said quietly.

"That won't solve our conflicts." Viconia told him before leaving.

Saronax fought back his tears and clenched his fist. Damn her. Damn her to the pits of hell for making me love her so damn much.

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When she reached her room, Viconia closed the door and sank to the ground. She buried her face in her hands, allowing all the emotions that came with a broken heart to finally break through.

Make up your mind and I'll make up mine
Don't worry about me I'll be fine
Those words that you said to me why wasn't I listening
I wish I hadn't met you at all. I started thinking
I'll sit back and relax and wait for the morning
We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
If we breakup, we'll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let's make up and do this for the last time

Make up your mind, and I'll make up mine
Don't worry about me I'll be fine
The last time you yelled at me I swore that I heard you say
I wish I hadn't met you at all. I started thinking
I'll sit back and relax and wait for the morning

We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
If we breakup, we'll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let's make up and do this for the last time

When will we make up, will we break up.
Let's wake up, let's wake up
let's wake up.

Make up your mind and i'll make up mine
Don't worry about me i'll be fine
Those words that you said to me why wasn't I listening
I wish I hadn't met you at all. I started thinking

We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
We'll wake up, we'll make up and do this for the last time
If we breakup, we'll wind up losing both of our minds
So wake up, let's make up and do this for the last time
and do this for the last time, let's wake up, let's make up
and do this for the last time, if we break up we'll wind up losing
both of our minds, let's wake up, let's make up

Arrow Maker: No, it's not over.