The Goodbye to Everything and Everyone He had ever Known

The days after that they searched and searched, but didn't find a thing.

Dumbledore didn't helped anymore, because he had other things to do too, so he told them.

Harry felt more and more desperate and torn by his own feelings.
He wanted to stay, but he also wanted to return to be with his friends again.

If he stayed, he had his parents and Sirius back, only in a smaller version…

If he went, he had Remus… In the big version.

Harry felt so consumed with those feelings, he almost didn't talked to his parents anymore. Nor with Dumbledore. Why should he?

He was just reading books, wasn't he?

After the thirth day, his parents also started to avoid him.

Harry first thought he was being paranoid, but he wasn't.

He knew that for sure, cause every time they had looked at him, Harry had seen their mouths muttering something to the other.

Harry wanted to shout that he was their son, that they shouldn't have secrets for him…
But then… The hard and so real problem hit him right in the face.

His parents were a couple of months older then him.
They had never even thought of him. Not when he hadn't been there.

So it went one that fourth day. Harry started to feel angrier with the second and he didn't did anything else anymore then looking in books.

He even had stopped eating for a day.

Harry felt so hungry, but he wanted it to end. He wanted to get away from all those problems he was going trough and he was going to go trough again and again and again.

He even thought for a split of a second it would have been best for him to die.
But he could never do that to his parents. Not letting them experience the love of a son, was denying them their love and their life.
Harry sighed and grab hold of the last book of that shelf.
He had never thought the Library was that big. Of course…
He was alone to look. His parents and their friends were in class right now.
'Probably laughing their fits out with me.' Harry thought angry.

Harry looked in the book he was holding.
Somehow, he knew it wasn't that, but it was the second one. Behind that dark one, he heard. As if it was calling for him to find it… To look there and be freed.
Harry looked and yelled.

He had found it!

Harry couldn't believe his luck, and yet his unfortunate fait.

Cause, now he would have to go… Now he was never going to speak to his parents nor Sirius again.
And while tears were rolling down his cheeck, Harry felt numb and he fell on the floor, hitting his knees hardly on the wooden floor.

How could it have gone so wrong? Why had Harry been so stubborn to believe his parents had been against him?

Harry knew what he had to do, but couldn't bring up the energy to do that last action.

'Harry!' A female voice called for him.

'I'm here.' Harry said loudly and Lily looked.

She was followed by James and the rest of his gang.

'Why are you on the floor?' Remus asked, who had not seen Harry's tears.

'I found the book.' Harry whispered to his mum.

Lily nodded and took it.

She flipped trough it, but didn't read the whole sentences.

By doing so, she avoided of being taken to the future or the past herself.

'I think it's this page.' She breathed.

Harry took a glimp of it and nodded.

She was right. It was that page Harry had read a couple of days before.

It felt as if they had been years.

'Well…' Lily said, her voice braking.

'Mum, don't cry… You'll see me again… Only…'

James and the others sat down too.

'Only what, Harry?' Sirius asked and Harry yelled…

'Only… You won't remember!'

In that few moments of astonishment Harry drew his wand and made the Erasement-spell Dumbledore had taught him.

He didn't do Lily or his father not yet.

'Quickly!' He said. 'Bring them away. They mustn't see me again!'

And as Sirius and Remus were carried away, Harry cried so hard, he was trembling.

He hadn't been able to say goodbye to Sirius.

He would never had that opportunity again. James got back and he went sitting on his knees.

'Harry?' He said.

Harry looked at his father.

'I think this is our farewell…'

Harry nodded and he hugged his father one last time.

'I'm sorry we didn't knew each other better.' Harry whispered to his father.

James nodded. 'I'm sorry too…'

There was a moment of silence and then…

I'll always be with you, no matter what.' James said.
Harry didn't nodded but he made the Erasement-spell again and Lily carried James away.

She didn't quickly returned as she had done when Sirius and Remus had been brought away, but returned after a couple of ten minutes, carefully looking at her feet.

When Harry finally made her look at him, he saw her eyes were red and puffy.

'You cried?'

Lily nodded.

'I'll miss you.'

She hugged Harry and Harry felt as if he would never stop feeling that hug.

When he opened his eyes again, he saw Lily had laid him on the floor and she sang to him.

'In a world, where nothing makes sense… It's hard to understand how you could be so pride when you're so afraid …'
Harry looked up at the source of that loving voice.

'Life is a journey, it can take you anywhere you do and don't want to go, Harry… You'll find out whatever you'll need to know…

You'll make it trough, I'm sure..
No one can take you, no one can stop you… '

Lily softly whispered, while she was wiping away a bit of hair out of his face.

Harry's eyes started to tear.

'Listen… Young boy, don't cry.. I'll be right here…'

She pointed at his heart and stopped singing for a while.

'I'll Erase myself and Dumbledore. No one'll remember.' She whispered in his ear.

Harry looked in her tearing eyes. He kissed her one last time and…

'…when your world starts to fall…'

… suddenly he fell on the floor, not knowing what happened.
He didn't recalled any moment where he had done something, which could have caused him to fall.. Then, Harry remembered his mother. He looked round.

Why was he only surrounded with books? Hadn't he been in the Library with his mother?

Together with Lily Evans? Where was she?

She had been moments ago right next to him.

Telling him something important…

'Harry!' Someone yelled.

Harry looked up, it was a red-haired boy.

'Here you are!' Ron said happily and walked towards Harry.

Harry nodded and while he was doing that, it all felt so familiar…

'Harry? What's the matter?'

His world started to tumble and he fell in an endless pit to never come out again…

'Harry!'

Harry's mouth was smiling, as if he had never been so happy…

'Harry! What happened?'

Harry looked at Ron, smiling.

'I have found the Answer.' He said.
Ron looked confused. 'What do you mean?'

'I have found my queste… I don't have to go on looking for it…'

Ron stopped. 'What… What do you mean?'

Harry stepped aside and Ron's arm, who had been holding him, loosened.

'Harry!'

Harry felt his knees tremble and he fell on them.

He saw his mother's face in front of him… His father wasn't there, not anymore…

But the last words he had spoken to Harry were reminded to him…

'I'll always be with you, Harry. No matter what!'

Harry fell on the floor and the memory on Lily softly faded away…

Her green eyes tearing…

Harry never opened his own again…

"How can you see in to my eyes…

Like open doors..
Breathing you down in to my core.."

Ron tried to shake Harry awake… Nothing happened…

'Harry!' He screamed and another student came in.

It was Hermione and she looked relieved.

'Here you… A… Are… Harry!'

She screamed and fell on the floor, grabbing hold of Harry.

'No!' She cried and Ron hugged them both together.

'Harry,' Ron whispered.

'I didn't hit her… It was Malfoy…' He softly said in Harry's ear.

It felt important to Ron to tell Harry this…

'We both had our revenge…'

Ron and Hermione looked at each other and they stood up.

Ron started running. He had never ran so fast for anything.

Hermione hugged Harry one last time and she got up as fast as Ron had done and she followed him.

Calling for a teacher they both ran away and both didn't dared to look back.

'Where I've become so numb…

How did I ever wind up like this?

Why wasn't I able…Unclench this fist…

Nothing's wrong.. Just as long as I knew that..

Someday, somehow… I'd made it all right, but not right now…

I know I wanted the real world…

I'm the only one who knew those things…

Nothing's wrong.. Just as long as they know…

Someday, somehow.. I'm going to make it all right, but not right now…

I'm the only who knows that…"

Harry looked from where he was floating to his friends, who were leaving his sight.

He didn't knew what had happened…
A feeling of pure happiness came over him.

Harry felt as if he had never been so lucky in his life…

Harry heard his parents calling for him…

Should he go or should he stay?

'I'll always be there…'

The End.