Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot, J.K. Rowling owns most of the characters, minus a few I needed to add. Them, I don't even own. They own
themselves.

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Summary: Hermione's Journal. Rated R for sexual doings, drugs, alcohol, and attempted suicide. All non-graphic.

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Thanks to my reviewers!! Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, Miranda G. Potter,

missradcliffe, scorpio-1983, and NightDreamer13!!

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Entry 4
8-10-96

Dear Diary,

Eyes go wide you're not going to believe it. I don't believe it! There was so much stuff I didn't know about Harry and Ron when I was a 'good' girl. Didn't ever figure they all were into a muggle drug called weed, pot, or marijuana whichever you prefer. They use it to get high. I didn't even know that Mr. Weasley beat Ron and Ginny sometimes for no reason at all. He's always came across to me as a nice, loving, and
caring father.

Yesterday was the day that Harry, Ron, Ginny, Christine and I all got high. My first time, of course. I never really even knew about the
drug till them. I've never felt so, well, happy!! Seriously!! I can't believe I fucking tried weed. I'm not going to make it a habit. Maybe
just every once in a while. I'm not completely stupid. I just can't believe I tried the shit. In a way, it's scary as hell to think me, the well-grounded girl, tried pot!!

Mum said we're moving when school starts. I actually forgot mostly about school! This is my 6th year, yet I really don't want it to start.
Sure, I want to see my friends like Luna, Lavender, Hannah, Susan, and a few others that I've managed to get close to. Who knows, though? I just know I'm going to miss Harry. He has to stay with Lupin for training and all this year. It really sucks!! Christine doesn't even have to go back to her school this year; she gets to stay with Lupin. She attends a muggle school, though.

Diary, I told Harry that I love him ((A/n– Sorry missradcliffe! –Jackie)). I think I actually mean it, too. It's a little odd when you think about it. This is a short entry, but really all that's happened to me is I tried weed. I'm going to go. Mum is calling me down for supper, anyways. For some reason, though, that doesn't seem very appealing to me any more...
–Hermione

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((A/n– Since that was such a short entry, and all of my reviewers have reviewed almost or every entry, I'm giving them all two entries in one
chapter!! Aren't I just the sweetest little thing you ever seen? LoL. Only I could wish, right? :D –Jackie))

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Entry 5
8-15-96

Dear Diary

I was sober and not high, remember that this entry, okay? Oh my Merlin... Why did they have to interrupt us? Seriously...

You see, the Weasley, Lupin, Harry, and Christine all helped us move into the new house. I guess we moved a little sooner than plan,
huh? Luckily we had magic to help us pack and everything. I think that's what made it so much easier to move. Now we live right in between where the Weasley's and Lupin/Harry/Christine live. Anyways...

Lupin is still 'babysitting' Dudley. Harry and I were in my room, which was all decorated and very well organized if I do say so, myself, and things were getting pretty intense. Everyone was trying to bust into the room. I'm just lucky that Mum and Dad were gone for work! I know
that I'm going to hear from Luna and Hannah, asking what Harry and I did over the summer, so, I guess this will be the main highlight, won't it?

Okay. We were snogging, and with everything happening, like grabbing each other, kissing down the necks, which I think I got a hickey from, both shirts sliding off the bed, my bra somehow rolls eyes getting off of me with Harry's wonderful unhooking skills, and his
pants... I never knew Harry rarely ever wore boxers. Sorry, a bit off track there. Like I said, things were getting pretty intense. He asked
in a soft voice, "Are you sure, Mione?" (Hmm I seem to remember something like this being told to me-Lu... um Erin)

Now, Diary, if you can tell me ONE person who can resist Harry's hands intertwined with yours and those emerald eyes gazing down into
yours so loving, with everything just seeming... Perfect! Tell me one person and I'll give them one million galleons. Of course, all I could
do was nod as he began to undo the buttons on my pants.

You'd think everything would just go peachy creamy after I said yes, don't you? But NO! Dudley, the plow truck, budges down the door;
eyes go wide at the position Harry and I were in, or else just my boobs (I don't think someone like him could ever get a girl. Sorry, I don't mean to be rude, but it's the truth! He's mean, arrogant, and just... I don't go by looks or anything, but he's got nothing good going for him!), I still have yet to figure that out, then of all the bloody
things he could tell Harry, he tells him he has to go! Merlin! To think, Ginny wonders why I took up smoking cigarettes...

Later on that night, I slept the night with Christine and Ginny at Lupin's. As soon as the two fell asleep, I snuck into Harry's room. Luckily, Lupin's house has more bedrooms and Dudley has his own room so he wouldn't know I was giving Harry head...

Okay, yeah... Then we snogged for a while longer. That seems to be my favorite thing to do with him. I don't know why. Sorry, again off
track, aren't I? Finally I got tired and I just lay there in Harry's arms as we gazed out his window at the full moon that we could see above
the shed. We talked about out past. Our past before we'd met each other. Before I had to get back to Christine's room because you know, Lupin would kill us both if he found Harry and me in bed together, Harry took me in his arms and held me tight. He laced our hands together and told me I was the best girlfriend he had ever had. Then he released me, kissed me, said, "I love you, Mione," and I went out the door after
returning the "I love you". Last night, needless to say, I cried myself to sleep a few rooms away from him.

I have never felt so alone, Diary. Here I was just a few rooms away from him! I know that we haven't dated a long time, and
compared to my parents, we've barely even known each other, but... I'm in love. I really love him. I don't know what I'd do if he broke up with
me. I can't imagine life without him, now.

Remember how I said Ron and Christine were dating back a few entries ago? I forgot to mention the ass broke up with her. Don't tell,
Diary, well, it's not like you CAN tell, but Ron's been cheating on her with Lavender Brown. I love them all like they're my family, but do you
know how bloody hard it is to keep quiet about all this personal stuff that I know??!!

I need to go. Mum's coming up the stairs. Probably to check and see why my light is still on and it's after midnight. Oops. Bye!!
–Hermione

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((A/n– So, what do you think of these two entries? I personally like Entry 5. Out of all the entries that I've written for this yet, that one
is my favorite. Besides Entry 12, which hopefully, you'll get to read sooner or later!! :D Remember to review if you want to see Entry 6!!
–Jackie))