Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot and that's it.

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Entry 27
9-25-97

Dear Diary,

Sorry the last entry was so short. Snape began to notice I wasn't taking notes. Lavender is now begging for my forgiveness. Should I give into her? Look at what she did to me!!

Parvati's sister, Padma, is starting to hang out with Ron, Ginny, Harry and me. She's awesome! You'd never guess we had a lot in common! One thing we don't have in common, though, for sure is the fact that Padma's bisexual. Ron thinks that is awesome. Personally, I think Ron's just trying to get both Padma and Parvati in bed.

Ron broke up with Parvati today, though. He found out she'd cheated on him with Seamus. Both Ron and Parvati were really in love, but now Ron's going for Padma. He's probably going to get her. Ron's like my big brother and he's an awesome guy, but he's a player. Major.

Again, I'm so sorry to cut this short, but there's tons of homework to get done!!
-Hermione

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Entry 28
9-28-97

Dear Diary,

I'm never going to trust Lavender again but I'm going to try being her friend. I hope she understands it's never going to be the same again, because by dating Harry like she did, she backstabbed me because she knows how much I love him. I think out main reason we got to be friends again is because to both of our break-ups with Harry, be broke up with us to try and get one person: Cho Chang.

Ron and Padma got together. Parvati feels really betrayed. I can see both points of views, though. It's just like what Lavender did me and I sort of did to Ginny, but Ginny, as far as I know, never dated Harry.

That's all the good news I have for you, though, Diary. The rest is what I'm going to murder Cho for!

She's back for the rest of the school year. I don't know why and I don't plan on asking. She looks like she's putting out, though. Harry is going on about being a 'free bird'!
-Hermione

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Entry 29
10-5-97

Dear Diary,

If someone finds Cho Chang's head floating in the lake, I swear, I'm not the one who did it! Merlin, I only bloody wish!! Can't you tell that she's going out with Harry?!

I got a jealousy problem, don't I?
-Hermione

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Entry 30
10-7-97

Dear Diary,

Everyone said I could never do it! Everyone said I could never say no to Harry! Guess what? HA! I proved them wrong!! Of course, he wanted to take the Red Ragtop, Mum's car, to go fuck Cho... Would Hermione let that happen? Oh hell no!!

Ron was over here at my house, talking to Padma on my cell phone when Harry called here, telling me to let him talk to Ron. So, I let him. They talked for a few minutes, then Ron handed me back the phone, saying Harry needed to talk to me. He started begging me to that the car because Cho was at her muggle grandparents, who know nothing of magic, and everyone around here, is a witch or wizard. Hints: Hermione's car.

Do you know how pissed off I got? Bloody bell, we were throwing CDs at each other, tackling each other, the works for it when it comes to fighting without getting... Uh... Violent. I was about ready to sock him in the face, though, Diary. That's bad! I don't like hitting people, let alone the man I love!

So, yeah, I got really angry. At one point, Ginny came over. Both of them locked Ron and I in my room. I told Ron he either busts the window or I was going to start crying. Luckily, Ron got Harry to open up the door and he went out to talk to him Me, on the other hand, went and slammed the door, put in a heavy metal CD that I'd borrowed from Padma, blasted that in my ear phones, turned out the light, and laid down in bed crying.

A few minutes after that, Harry, Ron, and Ginny came back into the room. Harry took off my headphones as Ginny turned on the light. I started bitching at Harry to give me back the music and for Ginny to shut off the light. That's when Harry whispered, "I'm sorry," and leaned down and kissed me. I guess he asked Ron what the fuck would clam my ass
down, huh?

Well, I got to feeling better. That's when Harry asked me if he could talk to me alone. At first, I was asking for what, and then he just told me to come on, so I got up. As soon as I got up, Dudley came up the stairs, telling Harry to get home because Lupin was wondering where the fuck he was.

Now with everyone gone because my parents got him, I'm stuck in bed trying to figure out what Harry wanted to tell me. I can't wait till Monday to get back to school and tell Luna and Hannah this!!
-Hermione

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Entry 31
10-13-97

Dear Diary,

Yes! I know for sure now that Harry's NOT going out with Cho! Officially, I mean. He's supposedly got three girls like that, and I know Cho's one and I'm one (he said, not me), and I just... Don't know... who the third one is. Anyways, I was happy for at least some of the day. I'm going write down the letters I wrote to Harry and Ginny. These letters are to never see the eyes of anyone, especially not Gin!!

Yeah... These letters kind of deal with what happened last night. We sort of had a sleep out in the common room, but Padma joined us (with Ron's choice). Just so you know, we all ended up on the couch! All FIVE of us...

Ginny,

You know I read the goddamn fucking poem (I'll write it n a minute) of yours! You meant for me to, didn't you? I know that you did! I want to know what you and Harry do (they mess around like Harry and I do. Do you think she's the other woman?). I want to know ALL that Harry does with other girls! Yeah, I know, I'm going to get pissed. You
fucking get pissed at me for doing anything with him. You say I'm a bad fucking friend; at least I care for your feelings! Who was the one grabbing him when we were both laying on him? Oh, I know! YOU were! Not ME! You should know if you're any fucking friend of mine that I'm a people pleaser. I say things to others and usually never mean them, at all. Joke the whole whore things? People pleaser there Bitch! II do think you're a whore, but I'm never going to admit it to you. Why do you think I tell/told you and Lavender to go for Harry? Because I know that you both want to. Back when I first started going out with Harry, yes, I fucking did care what you were thinking. Harry is the one who told me not to worry about it, though. Now the whole Dean thing, I didn't know
when he asked me out that you were dating him, okay? I didn't say yes at first, though. I was still; well, still am, in love with Harry. It had only been about a month since he broke up with me. Then I decided that I could use Dean to get over Harry and make everyone think I was done with him. I'm good at fooling people, (uhh Jackie keep telling yourself that because I think that me and Janelle can see though most you disguises! -(Erin) you know that? When I really want to... That's why Mum says I'd make a good actress. None of you knew when I said I went outside to 'think' I was really fucking throwing up; you
didn't know I had your poem... I've gotten really good at hiding things from every fucking body. I wrote this to calm down, but it's not working, god damn it! Anyways, I'm pissed, at whom? At everybody these fucking days!! FUCK YOU!!
-Hermione

See how pissed I was? Mostly all because I read this crappy, well, actually, it isn't, but still... little poem that the bitch wrote. It's titled 'Part time': (she's got horrible spelling, so I'm just going to write it down with correct spelling) You cuddle with her but yet you say
you like me When I'm with you I feel like a queen Some people say your (grammar error!) playing me but I don't seem to mind I'm just glad to have you even if it is part time You mean the world to me I don't know where I'd be if you where ever with me when you were driving in the car with me that me and the world to me I wonder if we could ever be

That's Ginny's poem. She even told me it was talking about Harry!! I'm a jealous person, I have no problem saying it, but you tell me what if you found one of your best friends writing that... Anyway, here's Harry's letter. It's more... Calm.

Harry-

You'll never get this, so I'm just going to write whatever. I'm sorry for not putting out 'good', I really am. Having you made me feel so safe. Corny, I know, but truer than hell. Not many these days can really make me smile, know that? I don't mean the forced smiles I use
during school but real smiles, same with my laughing. Any one who can make me laugh is good in my book, but someone who can make me laugh like you is different. The only reason why I don't want you, Ginny, and Ron to take the Red ragtop is because I don't want Mum to ground me, and then drag me out of Hogwarts and everything. Mostly, I just want to see you because there's something about having you near that makes everything
better to me. Like when I was bawling about my Mum when she got into an accident and hard to go to the hospital. No one could calm me down but just a simple hug and "It'll be alright, I promise. Love you," from you. We weren't even going out that time when you told me you loved me! When I lay on your stomach last night, I could hear your heart beating. All I could think about is wanting to be able to hear that for the rest of my life. I'm sorry for inflicting pain upon myself when I'm angry. I've tried to stop, I wanted you to know that. When Lavender and you started going out, though... I was pissed. Harry, you weren't the same! I never saw you! That's probably why I started cutting and all... Sorry, started crying there. It's... No one gets this, okay? I love you so much it hurts insides and there's just not enough room to hurt this much. I feel l need to move the inside pain out, so I'll get you off my mind. When I was away in the USA, you know I wanted to go home. It just wasn't home. Did you think that I wanted to just get back and snog you more than anything? I like doing all the 'sexual' things with you; in fact, I've wanted to fuck you almost since I first started loving you. I just like snogging a lot more. With occasionally --more-- than just that... I feel so bad for loving you, but I can't stop. There I've written down most of my feelings, I think. Now to hide this in my little box of notes that no one ever finds... I love you.

Love Always and Forever,
-Hermione

There is a big change in the two of them, isn't there?
-Hermione