Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot but not the characters.

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Thanks to my reviewers!! NightDreamer13, helloppl, sugas love, Miranda G. Potter, Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, and another new reviewer, brit!! Thanks ya'll!!

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Entry 32
10-15-97

Dear Diary,

They did it. Well, we all did it. Ron was driving, Padma in the front sear with him, Ginny, Harry, and I were in the backseat. My poor, poor Red Ragtop...

Ron even fucking made us go into a ditch. TWICE! One time it was on purpose, the other? It wasn't!! The time it was on purpose, though, was because we went through it to ramp over a hill... We also did backwards donuts. I'm lucky I had Harry there to hold on to, because I was freaking out... Yeah...

I know now Harry does care for my protection even in the stupidest pranks we all pull off. Padma had the radio blaring with heavy rock music and my head was already killing me. Harry covered my ears, holding my hands in the process like we always use to do when we were in an awkward position.

We got so lucky that this weekend people were stealing gas. When we left the house we had 1/2 tank of gas. We got home? It's less than 1/4 of the way full!!

I need to go. Have to go back to school tomorrow and that sucks!!
-Hermione

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Entry 33
10-17-97

Dear Diary,

Lupin! The Lupin all of us love... Or loved, now, is an ass! I mean, I'd be pissed to if Harry had missed a day of school then came home wasted off his ass, but still!!!

Lupin slammed Harry's head against the door, Diary!! I fucking heard that and started bawling. I know it happens to Ginny and Ron, I guess I've adapted to the thought of it, but Lupin?

I feel horrible. Look at what I've been doing to myself, Harry's trying to get me to stop, then he goes off with Cho and ends up getting hurt when he got home? Bullshit...
-Hermione

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Entry 34
10-18-97

Dear Diary,

I'm totally disgusted with myself. Never, ever again are Ginny and I going to play Quidditch against Harry and Ron. I refuse! I'm technically already fucking letting Ron have sex with me because I didn't want to give him head! (Oh Jackie that is so much better, give head or keep virginity OH WAIT YOU CAN'T DECIDE ANYMORE! -Erin)

Ginny and I lost against them at Quidditch. Go figure, I'm on the team, but yeah... It all started out with Harry 'wanting' some out of Ginny or me. Ron somehow got added into the game and it turned out to be either Ginny had to 'eat me' out (she's bi) or Harry had to suck Ron (he won at Exploding Snaps). So, us girls lost.

You don't know how badly I didn't want that do happen between Ginny and me. I was fucking flipping out trying to find ways out of it! The two minds of Harry and Ron came out with this: Ginny had to suck Harry and I had to do the same to Ron.

Again, I didn't want to do that. I only do that to guys I actually like that, which only happens to be Harry. Sure, if you would have told me to do that now with my thoughts back of Ron back in like... 1st or 2nd year, things might be different. But now, NO! So, I had to tell him something sexual and something he would like. I hate having a mouth
that now talks for itself without issuing my brain first. It blurted out, "You can do whatever you want to me instead." That's exactly what it was.

I'm glad I can block out most of the things happening to me. I just move in response to whatever happens. I just remember having to kiss him a few times.

There's one thing he could do, though, and that was have sex with me as he planned. Diary, it's messed up!! He's got Padma, you know!! Merlin... He still wants to, though, and now he's got black mail on me because I didn't do it. What the bloody hell should I do?

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(A/n -- I'm going to leave you guys at this for now, turning point for Hermione? I'd think so... Just remember: She feels really, really bad for all of this. You guys can go ahead and call her a slut; I guess she technically IS one, isn't she? Well... Review, please!! --Jackie)

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