Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot (I'd better own it) but not the characters.

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Thanks to my reviewers!!! BubblyBubbles365 (Who actually reviewed Chapter 11, too), brit, Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Who actually reviewed Chapter 11, too), Miranda G. Potter, missradcliffe, and another new reviewer, drxd!! Thanks ya'll!!! :D

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Entry 35
10-21-97

Dear Diary,

I'm such a tease! Okay, as you know by now, Harry's become a sex freak. He was trying his best to get me to give him a blowjob. His very, very best! I was still refusing, though. We were laying down in my dorm (Mc Gonagall wasn't there. She was at a meeting. So, no one to watch the commons.) And it was all just too funny!! He was playing with me, trying to get my pants undone, just anything his mind could think of, Diary, he was begging like no other! Like I said, it was funny.

One bad thing, though, Ginny walked in on us! I mean, I feel sorry for her and many times did Harry have to convince me not to worry about her, but she called me a slut. I mean... Sure. I don't care when others call me it. I call myself it!! This is my best friend, though...

Okay, anyways. Finally he got my pants undone and I figured that was a hard thing to do, so I gave him head till he was halfway there. Then, I made us switch positions because I had been on the bottom. Now, I was on top when Ron came in, but as soon as I saw Ron, I made us switch back positions.

Harry freaked out on Ron. All the while, I was laughing. Ron seemed to want a laugh because he told Harry to rip my tang top right down the middle, like he had done to Padma's just yesterday. I told him not to, but Harry did it anyways, so Ron and him got a good view of my breasts!

Ron left, so I went back to teasing Harry. Then I brought up Cho!! Burn!!!... Sorry, I've been watching too many of my cousin James's American cartoons... Harry didn't like that idea. Truth be told, neither did I, but yeah. I made him beg even more, just remember, he was halfway there! Finally, he found the one thing I wanted, which was just a bloody kiss! I almost finished off my job, but right before he came, I got up and left the room. Sound mean? Harry didn't think I had it in me to be mean to him like that!

All in all, that was a lot of fun. Now, I have to kill Ron because I had to put on my cover-up before I could leave the room since Harry bloody ripped by shirt down the middle! There's only one real reason why I want to kill Ron. He never ripped Padma's shirt!!
-Hermione

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Entry 36
10-24-97

Dear Diary,

Ginny bloody cut her wrist! I've stopped, yet she's started! She fucking did that and is going to try to starve herself all because of what happened between Harry and me! I feel bad for her but I don't know how to get her to stop without making myself feel pain, too.

I'm starting to wonder on Harry's friendship, too. I mean, we talk and all that, but tonight when he left for bed, he said bye to everyone but me! When we do talk, it's sparse talk. I still want to be his friend, just not his friend with benefits... There's also a late-Halloween dance coming up soon. The 2nd, I think. Padma really wants us to go and so does Parvati. I know for sure Ron is going with Padma and that I'm going. We're all trying to talk Harry into it. To going with me, I mean. I really hope he can get out of training because
the dance is on a weekend that he has to go with Lupin for his training...

There's one thing, though. I... I've been bad. Nothing that could kill me!! Unless Padma is going to... I kissed, well... Ron kissed me, too! Yeah... Twice, okay? I love Harry but I'm sort of starting to like Ron, I guess. Eh, see, that crush is gone already. Fast, huh?
-Hermione

(1,2,3,4...sorry trying to see how many people kill you for that-Erin)

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Entry 37
10-25-97

Dear Diary,

Mate... Draco Malfoy slapped my arse! He is sort of cute... We were all outside and Draco came over and al with some alcohol. Good stuff; just don't know what the hell you call it! Harry was gone, though. Ravenclaw vs. Hufflepuff match, which we (Ron, Ginny, Padma, and I) didn't attend, so, Harry went with Cho...

I'll get back to Harry when I tell you what else Draco did to me. He sort of did the slapping my arse when no one was watching. At one point, when I swear he was staring at my arse, he told me to go over to him. I didn't though, because I had been looking for my lost cell phone.

Okay, Mae, Luna, Hannah, and Susan did go to the fame however. Hannah doesn't talk to Harry, really none of my friends out of Gryffindor (other than Lavender --rolls eyes-- and Grace) talk to Harry. Anyways... Hannah saw Harry with Cho and although Luna and Mae told her to stay away from him, Hannah went up and told him I wanted him back! If
Cho doesn't kill her first, I'm going to. How much trouble do you think I'd get into if I killed her?
-Hermione

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Entry 38
10-27-97

Dear Diary,

Nothing major has happened. I'm just lying outside at home in my PJ's, watching the moon. Padma, Ginny, Ron, and yet another Patil (little sister, though) named Mandi are inside of my house. Mum and Dad are out, still. I'm actually just out here because A.) It's the only quiet place and B.) Harry's suppose to be over soon. Good goblets... Earlier Ron told Harry I deserved one good day, right? Yeah, I might deserve that, but... Well, they got it planned to where Harry's 'pose to snog me. It really does sound like fun, but Diary, I don't know...

My little 'crush' on Draco is over. How fast them crushes do die out!

I miss Harry.

You knew that was coming, didn't you? You could only figure...

The moon, I swear, is killing me. I love Harry so much! Yet I know I can never again be with him. How I wish I could, though. Oh! I saw the most adorable little girl today. She had Harry's hair yet my eyes!! I badly want a child now...

This sucks!! Love, I mean, sucks!
-Hermione

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(A/n -- This next entry is where I'm going to lose a lot of you reviewers, I know I am. This entry is where things get totally messed up and I'm sorry. Really, really sorry... --Jackie)

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Entry 39
10-28-97

Dear Diary,

He remembered...

That should sum it up right there, shouldn't it? I stayed up all night helping Ron finish a late project in... I think it was Magical History. We were supposed to gather information on one certain time era's witch hunters. Rather boring if you ask me. Ron had Ginny cover up a board for him and since I had the best handwriting I wrote everything
out for him. Hey, I didn't want to see a crying Padma because if Ron didn't get this done, he'd get a detention, which would be scheduled for the night of the dance.

Ginny, Ron, Colin Creevy (who I have no clue why he was there), and I planned to sleep in the common room. It was getting really late, you know, and I was about to pass out if I didn't lie down! Ron moved Colin off of where I was supposed to lay. So, I thanked him, then laid down on the couch. Pretty soon, about when I was almost asleep, Ron laid down
next to me. The couch could easily fit two people, so I didn't really care. Then, he leaned over and put his arm around me. Oh, big bro, who cares. I'm warm! Then we kissed. Major mistake! One kiss led to another, and...

Diary, that was nothing how I wanted my first time to be. I wanted it to be with Harry. I wanted it to be more romantic! In a way, I could have said no, but I didn't. I just let it happen.

At first you know, because I was a virgin, it hurt really badly. Ron's probably got scratch marks on his back from me being in so much pain! So, that was round one for the night. Two came after I felt better. Really, I'm surprised. The second time felt kind of... Different. I mean it's not better than kissing, though. Kissing Harry I mean. Nothing is better than that! At least I could...

Who am I trying to fool? I knew it was Ron, I couldn't pretend it was Harry though I tried my best to. No one, Diary, is going to know this besides you, me, Ron, and Luna (I tell her everything, you know!). If Harry or Ginny ask, even though they're my best friends, or Padma/Parvati... To all of them, I'm a virgin till Harry or someone 'takes' it away from me... Again. It isn't rape, though, you know, just because, of course, I let it take part. I have to go.
-Hermione

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(A/n -- I'm stopping this chapter here, though I know it's not much. There's just a lot of shock, I think... --Jackie)