Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot.
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Thanks to my reviewers: Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, Miranda G. Potter, BubblyBubbles365, NightDreamer13, and LunaLovegood who reviewed Chapter
11 & 13. To one reviewer unparticular, though, I'd like to ask... Kyme/Kelsey... If this story is too graphic for young readers, why are they reading it? This is rated R for a reason... Thanks, ya'll!!
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(A/n -- Thanks so much for this bunch of reviewers who stuck with me even though what happened between Hermione and Ron!!! Ya'll are the best!!! : D: D: D – Jackie (Do you think I would leave you? I think that this could be counted as a publicity stunt you got more reviewers in! -Erin))
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Entry 40
10-30-97
Dear Diary,
Just a few more days till I'm in my muggle clothing for the dance!! Yeah, Dumbledore told us we could wear muggle clothing for this dance. Padma picked out my attire. My hair is up mostly with a layer of it still staying down. The rest is up in a bun, with occasional strands hanging down. All of my hair is curled; luckily it's not frizzy like normal! The, you know that girlie-stuff called make-up? I'm wearing it. Mostly shades of red or pink, because my dress is a reddish pink colour.
Grace is trying to get Harry not to go with me! Do you know how unfair this is to me? It took Ron, Padma, and I like... Forever to try and make Harry promise that he'd go with me!!
Parvati's being a major bitch, Ron still loves her, though, but not as much as he did. He's wrapped up in Padma...
No, if you're thinking, why is she going on like nothing happened a few days ago? She lost one of the most important things in her LIFE to him!! It's true; I can never look at Ron in the way he used to be in my life. He was my protector, the one who always watched out for me... He still does do that, just... Now it's no the same...
I told Ginny. I know, I wasn't going to tell her, but she found you and turned to the last page. You know what entry it was!! So, after she started crying, saying that I must not count her as one of my best friends... Yeah. I gave in to her and told her.
She was shocked. I mean, I'm like her big sister and then Ron's her big brother... I just hope she keeps her mouth shut. I told her and Luna both if they tell it'll be their heads floating in the lake, not Cho's!!
Before I wrap up this entry, I'm going to write down a poem I just
thought of. It's titled: 'Criss Cross' Criss cross...
Life repeating...
With no more hopes or dreams...
Hiding from the life I've feared...
Cornered in my mind...
The once brother I looked up to...
Is no longer there...
I see how we were...
It's like I don't even care...
With all my heart, I love him dear...
Just not in the ways now shown...
I'm in for another, who's off with his other...
Criss cross...
I see one...
I see the next...
All so restless...
-Hermione
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Entry 41
11-3-97
Dear Diary,
I did get to go to the dance with Harry. We had a blast! Then, I made some friends of Padma named Sara and I think his name was Chase... I saw Parvati throughout the night, too.
Most of the time, Ron and Padma were holding each other, dancing. Harry and I were, too. He was behind me, though, our hands were how they used to be... My head resting on his shoulder... I swear, I even heard him whisper, "I love you," once!! It felt so right!!
On our way back to the common rooms, Ron and Harry wanted to run (we had the dance down in the dungeons). Padma and I told them they could if A.) They carried our shoes and B.) Harry kissed me.
So, Harry and I kissed. When it started, we were sort of far apart, as a kiss would go. By the end of it, we were right next to each other and our arms were around each other.
When we (Padma and I) started walking, Padma told me Sara had said something about how it looked like Harry still really liked me! That'd be awesome if he did... She also commented on how long Harry and I kissed... Oops! --Smiles--
We went to the common to gather our things. Us four were suppose to stay at my house because my parents weren't home... We were all suppose to... Yeah know... The boys had even run through the tunnels, to Hogsmeade's, and got condoms! Anyways... We had to wait, though, because our train left at two. All of us were just sitting around. Padma was sitting on Ron's lap while I was sitting in Harry's, very comfortable, by the way. --Smiles--
We just sat around and talked. Ends up that Harry couldn't stay my house, which sucks!!! It made me really, really sad!!
One thing that Ginny told me, she said Harry said that last night.... Last night I was supposedly the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen!! I don't believe it, though. Who could think I'm the most beautiful thing? What about Cho? What about Lavender? I should be happy, you know, but I don't feel like I am because of that. I mean I had a great time last night!! I just feel like to Harry it means nothing to him. --Sighs--
-Hermione
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(A/n -- The next entry is really long. So, I'll wait for five good reviews on this chapter, and then I'll post the long one... Okay? Thanks ya'll!! : D -- Jackie)
