Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)
Rating: R
Disclaimer: I own the plot.

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Thanks to my reviewers!! I'm sorry that I've got to wait for my life to keep going on to write with this story, you know... Anyways, here are the reviewers who are sticking' with me!! NightDreamer13, BubblyBubbles365, Monkeyfeet180, Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, Lilli, missradcliffe, Miranda G. Potter, Scorpio-1983, and a new reviewer, who also happens to be Padma in my story, Kari!! Thanks, ya'll!!!

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Entry 50
11-17-97

Dear Diary,

I'm getting fed up with Ginny! She's annoying me like no other! I can't say one thing about Harry without her getting pissed! Yet she expects me to not get angry when she says something about Harry. Then she rambles on about Draco! Yet I can't say a thing about Harry...

She tried to take Harry's shirt that he gave me. You know how fucking protective I am over that! So, I yelled at her, right? Then she said she needed to talk to Harry. Go figure she probably wanted to get him to drift even further away from me!

I miss Harry. It seems like I can't talk to any one any more about my feelings. Ginny gets pissed if I do, I don't want to upset Parvati and Padma, even though I do talk with both of them about Harry. I do talk to Luna but she's never really been in my situation before. It's
good to talk to her. I just hope that I'm not over-burdening her with all my problems (or Padma and Parvati in that matter), too, you know. Well, I've got to go. Tomorrow we've got school and I still have to finish up homework for Charms.
-Hermione

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(These next entries are short because they fill up one day... That's why ya'll are getting them now instead...)

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Entry 51
11-18-97

Dear Diary,

I'm sitting in Flitwick's class, so if I cut off, I'm sorry. Mae went to the Quidditch game. Guess who was there? Harry and Cho. You guessed it! Here's the wrap, though, Cho wasn't with Harry most of the night. She was with a guy named Terry Boot or something like that... Terry evidentially tried to beat Harry up before Harry left for Lupin's back in Devon. No wonder why Harry said he was sad when he called me wanting alcohol! He got the shit beat out of him! Mae and Grace also said that he pushed Lavender down a hill. I swear one of them said that he was snogging her and I wonder if the hill thing was just a cover up...

Ginny is angry with me for two reasons. A) Dean Thomas B) Harry. She's the one who called me a fucking slut in her poems!! In all of my one hundred thirty-four poems, not once have I called her a goddamn slut!! Do you know how pissed that got me? The entire train ride back to Hogwarts was us screaming at each other. Poor Luna had to sit through it...

I don't know what is becoming of my friendship with her. I mean, she's like my little sister, but I can't stand her more! All we do is fight fight fight!! On rare occasions to we get along now, Diary.

This is awesome. Flitwick's rambling on about this homework we had and he hasn't noticed that I'm not really paying attention to him... Don't you find that funny? Sorry, I do. I love the fact that I already know all of this stuff!!

Remind me not to think of Harry, please. Besides in my own mind! I can't let Hannah know I'm thinking of him! Now I do have to go. I have to act like I'm taking noted I might write back later if anything interesting happens today.
-Hermione

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Entry 52
11-18-97

Dear Diary,

I'm still in classes explaining a tribe of witches who... Well, were found out way back centuries ago and they were executed for it. Yeah, I'm in Magical History... somewhat enjoy this class just as long as Binns isn't teaching. His student teacher... Got to go. I'll finish this thought later.
-Hermione

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Entry 53
11-18-97

Dear Diary,

Sorry I got interrupted during that other entry. Miss Ferra, Binns's student teacher, made us watch a filmstrip and I didn't want to get into trouble.

Good goblets, is it ever cold! I just got in from being outside with Ginny. We had a blast playing out in the rain. That's why I'm getting ready to take a nice hot shower. I'll write more when I get out. Hope Harry doesn't come in. --smiles-- Hey, a girl can wish, can't she?
-Hermione

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Entry 54
11-18-97

Dear Diary,

Mum sent me a package. Normal parents send goodies. My mum sent me glasses. I need them, though. What's weird now is the fact that when I wear them, I can almost see a resemblance between Cho and me. Minus a few things, though: A) She's got less boobs B) She's skinny and C) I'm shorter. Well, there's more that I could write down, but that's what sticks out to me on appearance. Oh and our hair is now about the same color. So yeah...

What if that's the only reason why Harry dated me, because I looked like Cho? That can't be true, though. We didn't look alike any of them times...

On the other hand, what if he's dating her because... Wait. Sorry. They're not dating. Okay. So what if he's got this huge impulse to fuck her... Oh never mind. That sounds so stupid. Stupid to even thing that Harry would like her because she looks like me. Face it. I'm ugly. Just plain old ugly Hermione Granger who happens to be in love with the world's biggest asshole!! God damn it... I'm going to go. I've got to talk to Padma...
-Hermione