Story: My Diary
Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)
Rating: R

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Thanks to my reviewers!! Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, Miranda G. Potter, Monkeyfeet180, Lilli, brit, scorpio-1983, and Lunalovegood (chapters 16 & 17). Thanks, ya'll!!

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Entry 55
11-19-97

Dear Diary,

We're in the Great Hall. Harry's not here... He ate breakfast early because he already has classes. There were just a few moments Diary that I swear through the transparent window, Harry was looking at me. Did he think I was Cho? Did he know it was me who watched his steady gaze till he was out of view? I got this part of a song I heard this
morning stuck in my head. It goes, "I was the one who gave you your first kiss. I remember cause I said 'Put your lips like this.'" Harry was the one who gave me my first kiss. He never said, "Put your lips like this". He just showed me how to kiss. Maybe that's why I love it when he kissed me. I need to go. I'll try to write back later if anything worth writing about comes along.
-Hermione

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Entry 56
11-19-97

Dear Diary,

Luna and Mae are stuck on calling me Cho!! Do you know what that tells me? Grr... They find it funny how I get so angry. I mean, in a way, it is funny...

I want to go back to the common room because I feel like I am going to get sick. I only got about two more hours of classes, anyways... I've got to go. Snape's going to check around to see what's going on...
-Hermione

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Entry 57
11-19-97

Dear Diary,

There are not even words to describe how much I miss Harry! I wonder how he is doing in his class at the moment... Shouldn't not really being around him make me grow further away from him? Shouldn't it make me not love him as much as I do? It should, Diary, but it's not.

I hope he doesn't call me Cho now that I somewhat look like her. If he does, oh, I don't!! I don't know. I'll feel horrible! I'll feel like nothing that we've shared meant a thing to him. Not that I don't think that now, but that's beside the point.

I talked to Padma about it. She says she thinks that Harry did say, "I love you" at the dance. Oh Merlin, I ever hope so!! You don't know how happy that'd make me, Diary! Padma is a great friend even after all that's happened with Ron At least she had her friend, Mason, they're to help her out. He comforted her when she was heart broken about Ron. It's not cool that's she's having problems with her mother, either. That reminds me, I need to talk to Parvati.

I think I got a new poem idea!

Holding on to you
Listening to your heart beat soundly
Calling out for help
Right there beside me you stand
Call me crazy I'm gonna say
Just listenin' to the rain
But this, I think, is love...

Sorry. I think I'm going to call that one 'Crazy'. It's short, I know, and it sucks, but I'm sitting in class and all that Flitwick is doing is blah, blah, BLAH! All boring!! Yes! Fifteen more minutes, Diary, and I'm free!! Got to go. Again, I'll write back if there's anything interesting or if I just get bored and want to ramble on about Harry...
-Hermione

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Entry 58
11-19-97

Dear Diary,

I feel like crap. I think tomorrow I'm skipping classes... At least Padmé cares that I'm sick! She's cuddled up next to me watching me write.

That reminds me. Dinner was... Odd. For one minute, Luna thought Harry was hot! LUNA! Luna Michaela Lovegood... Susan told me earlier but I'd up and forgot it till then!

Harry also said something confusing to me. Okay, Ginny was rambling on about how Molly had once dated James Potter (crazy, I know). On accident, she said Harry. Harry and Molly had dated!! She didn't mean to, you know. So... Here's what we all said before Harry left us to go to the boys' dorms...

(Ginny) "Harry, Hermione's saying nasty things about you!"
(Me) "I am not! You're the one who said he dated your mum!"
(Harry) "You know, Ginny, I really don't care."

Then he left!! Can you please explain that to me, Diary? I know you can't, but still! Do you think Harry meant he doesn't care what I say? Do you think he meant he didn't care what Ginny said? What if he doesn't care about me at all, Diary? I've thought it before, I know that it's probably true, but still...

Great. I'm going to go cry myself to sleep. Night.
-Hermione

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Entry 59
11-20-97

Dear Diary,

It's been what, around a month since that happened between Ron and I, right? It's possible that maybe my period could have started right after and I could... You know... Padma thought she was after her and Ron... We didn't use protection... He relied on knowing when he was going to... I CAN'T BE!! I'm not going to write it because if I do, then I would be admitting that I might be... Remember the number 117. That's how much I
should weigh around, okay? If I weigh over 120... One second, all right? Okay. I weigh 118. I should start around five more days or so. I'll say if I don't start within ten days, I'm going to go to Hogsmeade's and buy a you-know-what test!! I can't be...

At least I get to miss school today just because I don't feel well. I mean it sucks that I'm sick, but I get to watch the American show "Full House". Also, I get to miss Flickwick's and Snape's tests!!

Oh, I haven't mentioned this entry, so... I MISS HARRY!
-Hermione

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Entry 60
11-20-97

Dear Diary,

All I really want to say that Mc Gonagall knows about what happened between Ron and me. So does Mum. Neither one of them yelled at me!! They just asked me if I need to go on the pill and I told them no. Now I really hope that I'm not you-know-what!

I think Harry's avoiding me. --Frowns-- Why? For some reason I think Ginny has something to do with it...

I have to go. I do have classes tomorrow. Night!!
-Hermione

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Entry 61
11-21-97

Its four o'clock in the morning and I can't get to sleep!!!!!!!! Sorry.
-Hermione

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Entry 62
11-23-97

Dear Diary,

Christine, Ginny, Ron and I all took the car into muggle London. I bought Lucky perfume and a box of condoms. Christine's got three, Ginny's got two, Ron's got two, and I got four. Don't ask why. I don't even know that. You know them necklaces that say 'Best' and 'Buds'? Ginny and I got a pair for us. They're cute!!

On about Harry did you know Ron told me he broke up with me because he knew I'd give him sex? I'd seriously like to know if he broke up with me because I was WILLING or NOT WILLING!! Merlin's grave!!!! I want to know how to get him back!! --Sighs--

I just... It's like I NEED him!! This entry, by the way, didn't start out sappy!!

I'm at Lupin's with Christine and Ginny. No, Harry's not here. Him, Dudley, and I think Draco is off at training. Don't ask why but I think they are...

I got to go. See ya!!

-Hermione