Story: My Diary

Author: J.E.A.R.K.Potter (Jackie)

Rating: R

Disclaimer: I'm still making the big one…

Thanks to my reviewers!! Lilli, Erin from J.E.A.R.K.Potter, Miranda G. Potter, BubblyBubbles365, Kari, and missradcliffe!! Thanks, ya'll!!

Entry 84

12-14-97

Dear Diary,

I had a blast!! I'm feeling so much better!! Well, I used all of Mum's dish soap to have a huge bubble bath!! The bubbles almost filled over the VERY top of the tube!!!

Oh my Merlin… I just got off the phone with Harry. You know what he wants? He wants me to go over there… He wants to "talk" and probably do more than that!! Why does Mum have to be awake?! I wish she were asleep! He's calling back at midnight…

That little prat!! He bloody fell asleep!!! WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!

-Hermione

Entry 85

12-15-97

Dear Diary,

I cleaned my part of the dorm room. It's really actually clean!! Hannah's scared because she's never seen it actually clean!! LoL!

--sighs-- We have to sing to the school later on today. It's "Christmas" songs. Why did I join the choir? Oh, because Luna, Ginny, Hannah, Susan, and Lavender wanted me to? Yeah…

I'm in stupid Charms. I'm sooooooo BORED!! Listen to the poem that I got a poem I wrote, but I don't have it with me, so I'll try to write it up later. If I don't, I'm sorry…

The concert went fabulous! Susan's solo was excellently done! She got whistles and many claps. Fred was there. He thinks Susan's hot!! I find it hilarious because this is what Fred asked me, "Mate, Hermione! Do you know the girl in the white robes? She's HOT!" LoL!

It is so odd how I was so happy, yet now… I'm just in such a depressed mood. Wonder how badly this will hurt… The thrill of this! I think I'll do now HA! HA isn't enough anymore! HAR!! Not enough… Not enough pain!! HARRY P!!!!!!!

Damn it, Ginny! The blood is so precious to me… I love it so much. The stinging where glass has gotten into my skin… So joyful… So very, very real… WHY DID SHE TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME?!?!

Good goblets… Luna and Grace know about my leg. Grace plans on hurting herself for each letter I have cut into myself. Each letter on my leg means a slash on her arm. Damn…

Before I sign out in this, I'm going to say something I'm not suppose to really say… Ron's got a P on his leg. We might be getting them made into tattoos by Bill!! Ha ha! Pain…

-Hermione

Entry 86

12-16-97

Dear Diary,

I'm so depressed! I really wish I could just be… Normal! You know what I mean? Ginny knows everything. Everything about how I have half bipolar disorder… Why I yell at her (closeness)… I feel like I have a shield that goes up around me to keep myself somewhat hidden form other people… So, now Ginny knows…

Oh dear Merlin… Today is the bake-sale. I bet you anything since I have to make PH Margaritas it's going to be so crazy!

Stupid Christmas… Sorry. They're forcing me to sing Christmas carols such as "Joy to the World" and "O Christmas Tree". I HATE CHRISTMAS!

Okay. I just got back from the bake-sale. Oh, Merlin! Just as I said it would, it was nuts! We were EVERYWHERE! PH Margaritas were very high in demand. We (Parvati and I) should put them on market… Get some money out of them… LoL… We raised 100 galleons, 58 sinckles ((A/N – I forgot how to bloody spell them!! –Jackie)), and 60 knuts. It's all going to a little boy in Haiti…

Lavender's moving, Diary!! She's not going to be going to Hogwarts any more! I've actually become her friend again, and… Yeah!! Now I'm dreading late January or early February…

They have officially changed my medication. This new one is making me feel very odd. I'm… Well, since I began taking it (about 2 hours ago) I've been going from hyper, depressed, then back again. It's so… Weird! It's suppose to make me not so depressed but not so hyper… For some reason, I don't think it's going to work. LoL!!!

Mc Gonagall knows something is up with my leg. I told her that I just damaged it up and she believes me! Yay!

Oh my Merlin! Harry said this to Ron, "What was Hermione wearing?" Yeah… Ron had to go pick Harry up because Harry got stranded and needed picked up. Maybe he still likes me…?

Hey. It's around midnight. I'm at home, now. We just got back from trying to get Harry. Draco was out, talking to his girlfriend, on a bulldozer. It was funny. We almost got Harry to go with us in Dad's blazer, but he was scared that Lupin would hurt him… Again. The last time we tried any of this, he got his ass chewed out by Lupin. Well, I'm going to go. Toodles!!

((A/N – It'll finally go together!! I have caught up with the dates! From now on, the dates will be the same that I write it! Woohoo!! –Jackie))