Story: My Diary

Author: Jackie (J.E.A.R.K.Potter)

Rating: R

Entry 87
12-17-97

Dear Diary,

People are crazy. Literally nuts! I don't want to go to bloody classes because in Advance Charms, we're married. I'm married to the almost the most annoying, almost the fattest, definitely the ugliest, person in the class!! Goyle... Why does Flitwick torture us like this? I really wish he wouldn't, but then again, I guess it's a good learning experience that all young people need to know. But why pair ME with GOYLE? I guess I'm going to HAVE to learn to deal with him...

There's nothing to do!! Since I'm so damn bored, I think I'll count up the pages that I have left in you... Okay. I have enough to probably get me through the rest of the school year. Which is only... The rest of December through the end of June... Yeah, that's only about six and a half months, not including Christmas break (which starts next... Thursday?). Then it goes till January third, I think. It's also not counting Spring Break, either. I hope Harry gets to stay with Lupin for these, instead of having to go to his training.

Anyways, I'll sign out now and try to write later. Toodles!
-Hermione
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Entry 88
12-19-97

Dear Diary,

Sorry that I didn't write yesterday. I stayed at Christine's house. Before I go on about what all happened last night, let me say this: Harry looked really hot in the hoodie that he was wearing! Anyways...

Ron, Ginny, H.T.B, and I stayed with Christine, Harry, and Draco. Ron, Draco, Dudley, and Harry left so Draco could go see his girlfriend, Heather. I actually know her from primary school! Christine and I were messing around with her cell phone when I realized who Heather was.

When they all got home, they played a hide-n-seek game while Ginny, Christine and I stayed in Christine's room. H.T.B. had fallen asleep on Christine's bed. Oh, just to let you know, Lupin wasn't home (full moon).

I was slowly getting angry at Ginny. Each time it seemed that Harry or I wanted to be alone with each other Ginny was ALWAYS THERE!

Oh, Ron's got a hickey from Christine.

So, that was yesterday. Today, I just got back from Parvati's. I learned a lot of things, in which now, I am very pissed off at Ginny for. Did you know that "Harry wants to fuck Ginny" or "Ginny gave Harry head last night"? Yeah... It's BULLSHIT! Listen to the letter Parvati and I wrote her...

Gin-

Hi!! What the hell? Why are you and Christine talking behind my back? SO WHAT! You're both pissed about Dean and I? OH WELL! He told me he loved me! Sissy figured out what you said. We're not breaking up and we're NOT going to any time soon (sorry, Ron, I still love you) but WHAT THE HELL? Gin, oh tell Christine that she needs to get her story straight because she was the first person who I told and she was like oh yeah that's great! So whatever! Padma says STAY AWAY from Harry or she's breaking her house arrest and kicking your arse. Hermione's going to write now and she's PISSED!
-Parvati

What the FUCK? You know each fucking god damn mother fucking time that you want Dean (MINE! love Parvati), I let it be! You yourself wanted me together with Harry, and then you give him head? Oh hell no! I never once tried to take Dean (MINE! love Parvati) from you! Did I? NO! You know I want Harry I let you be happy! Now, what, do I mean nothing to you? I'm just someone who's there to be there? You say I'm your best friend, I've been forgiven by all of you for how last year I went with Dean (MINE! love Parvati) (so don't bring it up!), and you know what? You bitched me out for it, so now I'm bitching you out! If you love me Gin, you'd know how fucking much I like (LOVE! love Parvati) him! Now, wait... LOVE him!!!!
-A Pissed Off Hermione!!!

TOLD you she was pissed!! I love Dean!! Love Parvati

I don't know yet if I'm going to give it to her, but I probably will because I'm so fucking pissed at her! I hope my back and hip doesn't hurt from me cutting it...
-Hermione
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Entry 89
12-20-97

Dear Diary,

All I have to say is I'm worthless. There is nothing that seems to make me happy any more. Ginny can have Harry. I don't care. I mean nothing...
-No One At All Worth Caring For
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Entry 90
12-20-97

Dear Diary,

Though I'm not feeling much better, I just have to say that I guess Ginny doesn't want Harry and she still cares for me (I'll believe that in a few million years...) and so does Harry (does he ever show it…). Actually, Harry did sort of show it and so did Ginny... But I don't care... I really, really don't... I just wish I could kill myself and get over with this life... I hate myself... I can't have Harry because fucking Fred told him how I want to have sex with Harry, how I love Harry, and how I want to be with Harry... It doesn't matter... He'll be gone in Chicago for Christmas, any way. I get to spend Christmas
alone... Just how it should be spent... Two more days, Diary, and it's the eight or ninth year anniversary of Papa's death... I won't have Harry to make me happy... Mum and Dad got work... I just get to spend Christmas alone... Just how it should be...
-No One At All Worth Caring For
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(A/N- If ya'll can't tell, I'm depressed... -No One At All Worth Caring For)