Guess who's back…back again…Smurf is back… tell a friend…. . well.. Sorry I haven't updated! Its just that Ive been busy! I graduated! W00t! with an award too! Now on to high school –sigh- Well Heres the next chappie!

Chapter 6: unwanted thoughts

With the exception of her 5th year Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff class, Jessica's classes went well. It was now Dinnertime; her plate contained her favorite meal, blood sausage and pork sausage with pork chops and mashed potatoes. She hadn't noticed Severus walk in and set next to her; her mind was on the thought of how life would have been like if the incident didn't happened.

" So, how was your first day? Take any points?" Severus sneered.

" huh? " Jessica said as she looked up. " Oh yes I did actually. From Slytherin. Total of 30 points during the whole day."

" 30?"

" Yes, 30. Is there something wrong? I did what I was supposed to do so I don't see what's the matter."

Severus glared at her and stood up, stalking off to his dungeons. Jessica smirked and shook her head. " guess I'll have to fallow him…" Jessica stood up and walked out of the great hall toward the dungeons. She arrived at the door to his office and knocked.

Severus was downing a glass of Brandy. He was on his forth one. That woman was so damn annoying, she didn't have the right to be taking points away from his house. She didn't have the right to be so damn beautiful, her beauty was not going to help her, her whole life. Beautiful? Wait…where did that come from? He had heard whoever was at the door knock and was waiting for whoever was there to leave but they didn't. He finally gave up and walked to the door holding his 7th glass of brandy. Her…

" Hello Severus, took you long enough…" Jessica commented.

" yes well I could just slam the door in your face, in fact I think I will…" and he was about to too but her foot stopped him. Jessica let herself in, her nose being penetrated by the smell of brandy.

" You've been drinking haven't you?"

" Yes, so? What do you care?"

" Oh god Severus." Jessica Pushed him in and closed the door behind. The entire place smelled of brandy. The bottle was on the ground, the liquid pouring out. She picked it up and looked at it with disgust. " Why did you drink? There wasn't a good reason!"

" YES THERE BLOODY IS!" Severus screamed at her.

" THEN WHAT THE HELL IS IT HUH? DID I TAKE TOO MANY POINTS FROM SLYTHERIN?"

" ITS JUST YOU! YOU BEING HERE! HERE I THOUGHT I GOT RID OF YOU AFTER I GRADUATED BUT NO! HERE YOU ARE! TAKING EVERYTHING FROM ME!"

" WHAT HAVE I TAKEN FROM YOU? THE DEFENCE AGAINST THE DARK ARTS JOB? HUH?"

" NO! YOU'VE BLOODY WELL TAKEN MY THOUGHT AND FUCKED THEM UP! YOU'VE TAKEN MY SCHOOL FROM ME! YOU'VE RUINED MY BLOODY LIFE!" Severus grabbed her wrists and squeezed them, making Jessica wince in pain, slamming her onto the door.

" Stop it! You're hurting me!" Jessica shrunk in pain trying to get away from him. " Let go of me!" tears started streaming from her eyes, hurt full in them. Severus looked at her and reacted. What had he done? He had hurt her, watching her cry reminded him of that day on the train. He let her wrists go letting her fall to the ground. Severus looked at his hands, those hands. All he did was hurt, hurt those he cared for. But did he care for her? He didn't need to think of this now; all he knew was that he hurt her.

Jessica looked up at him scared. He had never acted this way before, and those things he had said; they hurt her. Had she really ruined his life? Was she so stupid to not see that? She tried to stand up but she was weak, the crying has subsided but the pain was still there.

Severus inched towards her, Jessica tried to move away from him still scared. " D-don't…" was all she could muster.

Severus was hurt, but he had hurt her and he deserved it. " I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." He crouched down next to her and placed a hand on her shoulder. She flinched and it hurt him. He wrapped his arms around her body, repeating these words. " I'm sorry, I shouldn't have. Please forgive me." ( A/N: I know I know not Sev like he would never do this but hey, I can dream huh! XD plus this is MY fan fic and in MY fan fic Sevvie is caring, at least he will be.)

Jessica trembled still in fear but her arms clutched his and she sobbed into his chest.

So I had writers block! XD well not anymore! Hope you like this chappie! And thanks to all who reviewed! NOT TRINA! O.O Hehe

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