Thanks for the feedback. I know this isn't your normal conventional Pretender story and I'm sorry if it's a bit rubbish but it's my first Pretender fic so you'll have to forgive me.
crzywhtgrl - I'll try and make them longer
Ami4 – Yes, shudder because it's Lyle but is he that bad after all?
Then and Now Chapter 4
I stand there for what seems like hours but yet only mere seconds. I look at the cabin and wonder if the man inside really holds my future. My forever. My mother would be so disappointed in me if she could see me now. A cold hard woman married to a cold hard killer of a man but maybe that's all I deserve. I love Lyle. I know it's love. I truly love him. Yet I'm still scared to show him the softer side of me. The Jarod side of me. The side of me that Jarod saw in those sub-levels so many years ago. Maybe that's it. Why it's not working with Lyle because I haven't shown him the real me. I've never cried in front of him, I've never mothered Debbie when he was around. Maybe that's my clue. To make this marriage work. I look at the cabin with determination. With a couple of strides, I reach the backdoor and I push it open. I walk into the living room and I see Lyle sat on the couch near the fireplace.
"Lyle?" I question
He just looks up at me. I see sadness in his eyes.
"Baby, talk to me please" I try again
"Talk about what? There's nothing to talk about. You love Jarod. Go to him. Make him happy. I won't stop you," he says in defeated tone
"Lyle, don't be stupid. I love you"
"Oh I'm stupid now? Well, maybe Pretenders can be stupid too. Hell, Ratboy is stupid for ever letting you go!" he spits out
"Oh fucking get over yourself. What do I have to do to make you realise that I don't love him? God, I wouldn't married you if I hadn't loved you, you idiot" I don't know why but him acting like this has made me use the same tone and language that I use when I talk to Broots.
He just looks at me dumbfounded. Sure at the Centre, I insult him like mad but never when we are on our own. We have fights but I've never acted like this with him before. I walk over to where he's sat and I straddle his legs and sit in his lap. I smile at him and say "Look, Baby, I love you but maybe you're not hearing that so I'm going to show you just how much I love you" and I kiss him softly on the lips before deepening the kiss. He pulls away "Mel, I love you. I'm sorry" and he goes to kiss me again.
"Well, well, look what we have here" a voice says from the doorway
Is it Jarod? Or is it someone else?
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