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Chapter 5
That sobered Scott right up. He came out of his trance the moment those words left Jean's mouth. He had hurt her deeply without realizing it, and now… He didn't know what to think. He followed Jean out to the stage. The other couple was rejected and he and Jean were through to the end. After that he didn't see her again until the end of the show when the top five were announced. He may not have been with her but it was obvious she had been crying, a lot, probably in the girl's bathroom. She had done a sufficient job cleaning up her face and reapplying her makeup, but Scott could still see the hurt and pain on her face. They didn't win first place, but they made the top five. They agreed that they had had fun. Jean got a ride back with Ororo; she most likely needed to talk to another female. Scott couldn't act like he knew what Jean was feeling, but he had a pretty good idea.
He rode back alone and locked himself in his room until the next morning. He headed for the kitchen first thingthe next morning when he came out again. He walked down to the kitchen and ate by himself; secretly wishing that Jean was there with him. He needed her, he loved her, and now he had screwed up all chances of ever being with her. He wondered if she would even forgive him. After sitting there for fifteen minutes playing with his food he picked up the muffin and orange and walked to the library. That's where he found her, tucked away in the corner by the fireplace with a book in her lap.
"Good morning." He called out quietly. Jean looked up from her book with a look of surprise; she hadn't heard him come in. She took a bite from her apple, chewed, and swallowed.
"Hi." She responded. Scott walked over to her and asked if he could sit in the chair beside her. She said it was fine, and he did. The library was one of the largest rooms in the mansion, easy to shut yourself in for hours at a time, if that's what you wanted to do. Apparently that had been Jean's intent. He could tell by her posture and her attitude toward him that she didn't want him around.
"Jean." He said breaking the silence.
"Hm." She didn't look at him.
"We need to talk."
"There's nothing to discuss. You made everything quite clear last night, Scott."
"Look, I'm sorry." He said getting up and walking toward her. "I didn't mean what I said, I was just… scared of what I was feeling, and what it might be."
"You are intolerable!" Jean yelled as she slammed her book shut. She stood and stormed from the library slamming the door behind her. Scott caught it and followed her down the hall to the elevator.
"Jean, wait, wait!" Jean punched the button for the elevator and got in. Scott caught the door and slipped in behind her. She hit the down arrow and then he hit the emergency stop button. "We need to talk." He said.
Jean hit the down arrow again. "What about?"
Scott hit the emergency stop. "Us." He said.
"Stop it! I need to get down to the lab, I have to help Hank." She hit the down arrow. Scott hit the emergency stop. "Damn it, Scott!" she hit the arrow again and breathed. "What about us?" Scott hit the emergency stop and smirked when Jean stifled a vulgar swear.
"I thought you never say those sorts of things."
"I lied."
"I know what I said was wrong, and hurtful, but you have to believe me. I was scared."
"I am so tired of your excuses, Scott! And what us, there is no us!"
"The us, I'm referring to…" Scott got close to her, nearly pinning her to the elevator wall, and took her hand, "…is this us." Jean turned her head to the side as she felt his stare rest on her. She focused her eyes on the button panel, staring at the down arrow. She felt her heart begin to pound faster, her stomach fill with butterflies, and her body heat up. He was so close to her. "Jean?"
She breathed for a minute then turned her face to him. "Scott, you messed up. What do you expect me to say?"
"Will you answer me?" she reached out and hit the down arrow. He knew they had about another seven minutes on the elevator; the lab was on the second sub-level.
"Scott, I don't…I don't know about this." She turned her face to him again and was captured in a kiss. Scott was surprised when she didn't fight back and her arms slipped around his neck. He let his snake around what little waistline she had and pull her even closer to him and deepen the kiss. When they parted, he stared into her eyes and she into his (best she could). "Scott…"
"Do you really have to go down to the lab?" he asked squeezing her hand.
"No, I lied."
"Again?"
Jean smiled. "What do you want?"
"I love you, Jean. I messed up, you're right, and I'm sorry. But you have to believe me. I was scared; I've never felt this way about anyone. Not even Taryn. I really, truly love you."
Jean bit her lip as she pondered his words and thought of her own to say in return. She turned away from him once more and then back to him. "I love you, too." She responded softly. Scott smiled and leaned in to kiss her then reached over and pushed the up arrow. "What are we doing?"
"Going for a walk."
A/N: Short, sry. I've had HSPAs, and I'm totally brain fried. Well, review please and I'll update as soon as I can, I have SATs this Sat. so I can't really promise anything before then.
