Lives and Loves of Ravenclaw Girls

Chapter 05 – Behind Closed Doors

By: Samantha, Julie and Megan

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She looked over at Remus who was back on the bed, a pillow over his head. He didn't care about what the other people were talking about. He felt horrible. It was the full moon tonight and he got no where last night He blew his one shot with her. His body hurt it was part of his pre-moon pain that he always felt. He didn't want to move.

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" he head Julie yell, curiosity overtook him and he peeked out at her. She seemed to be yelling at her friend. Why did she hate him so much? He never would know. He watched her friend try and say something to her before Julie stormed off. He just looked back under. He felt something move on the bed by him. He took the pillow off his head and looked over to see his two best friends sitting beside him.

"Alright, what happened?"

"She yelled, I yelled. She screamed, I screamed. She cried, I held her. She yelled again, I yelled. The only highlight was her admitting she still loved me," he said smiling.

"Good, so why aren't you together?"

"She doesn't WANT to love me."

"Adams, you ok?" James asked.

"See i'm afraid to say i'm not, 'cuz I don't want you to go and beat her in to the hospital wing," sighed Sam, "I didn't think she'd be this mad."

"Look, she'll be better in a few hours."

"Like she was with Remus? Trust me; she's really bad to fight with. Physically or Emotionally."

James said, "Alright, next plan. I was thinking that 8 hours had them almost together what if we lock them in for a whole weekend –"

"No."

"What'd you say Remus?" asked Sirius.

"No more plans. She'll talk to me when she wants, and only then."

Then Remus got up and headed towards his common room. The others lagging along behind him.

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Elsewhere in the castle, Heidi was up in the hospital wing, just waking up.

"Here you go Singe, drink this," said Madam Pomfrey, thrusting a beaker of lime green potion in to her hands before leaving again. Heidi uncorked the bottle, pulling a face. She hated this stuff. She downed it in one gulp, coughing from the after tastes.

Heidi dazed off from boredom. It was way too early for anyone to visit her. Or that's what she thought.

"Hey sweetie," came a voice beside the curtains. Heidi smiled broadly, she knew that voice.

"Will!" she exclaimed. Will came towards her, taking his hand from behind his back, revealing a bouquet of flowers. She took them and put them on the bedside table. Will leaned down and gave her a firm but sweet kiss.

Heidi pulled away afterwards, and smiled up at him. "I believe you owe me something?"

"I'm sorry, you were right and I was wrong."

"And?"

"I'm really, really sorry?"

"And?"

"I love you."

Heidi paused for half a moment. She couldn't believe him. "What did you say?" she asked.

"I love you Heidi, I know it's weird and so soon. But I don't think I have ever been this happy. You're really amazing; I really do think I love you. Look, it's ok for you not to say it back to me; I just thought you should know that I really care about you."

Heidi was completely breathless. She just stared at him, gaping, for a few seconds. Before she finally un-glued her throat.

"I ... I think, I love you too, Will."

He grinned down at her, before settling down beside her for a nice long snog.

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Sam chased Julie through the hall but as Julie knew the halls a lot better than Sam, Sam had her work cut out for her.
Next minute she heard footsteps chasing after her.

"Sam, SAM slow down would you, you could out run a cleansweep at the pace your going." Sam turned around and saw James running towards her.

"Why is it no matter where I go, I always end up running into you?" Sam smiled slightly at James but James didn't notice.

"I thought you might like to use this and considering I still feel like I owe you I thought I might help you look for Julie." James grinned.

"Oh, well, okay, what's that?" Sam said pointing to a grubby piece of parchment in James's hand.

"This, my dear Samantha, is the secret to the Marauders success," James smiled at Sam.

"Well when you feel like you can spill the beans come and find me but right now I need to find Julie Merlin only knows how much she hates me right now," Sam looked at the ground.

"Okay, okay, I get it. Geez, Adams, no patience eh? This is a map, a map of the entire school including school grounds."

"What, how?" Sam stuttered.

"Not very fast on the uptake are ya Sam?" he replied.

"Hey shut up and tell me what your plan is," She replied.

"I solemnly swear that I am up to no good," James said tapping the parchment with his wand.

Sam took a step forward and looked at the map the parchment had little spider webbed lines spiraling out of control all over the place.

"Ah ha!" James said sounding excited.

"Here she is! In the astronomy tower!" James looked confused.

"What is it, what?" Sam said sounding worried.

"No, no, it's okay," he said trying to wipe the map so Sam couldn't see. But Sam was too quick and grabbed the map out of his hand and ran for it before stopping dead.

"I don't believe it, it can't be, she wouldn't do it" Sam said as if saying this would make true.

There sitting on the roof of the Astronomy tower was Julie but she wasn't alone sitting next to her was Severus, Sam's Severus.

"Come with me," James said looking for all the world at Sam as if she would shatter.

"We need to get up there," Sam sounded annoyed.

"Okay quietly, come on," James lead the way and Sam looking slightly sad dragged her feet behind.

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Meanwhile

"You love Sam right?"

"Of course I do," Severus replied.

"Well what does it feel like?" She asked.

"What love?" Sev replied.

"Of course love, what do you feel when you look at Sam," Julie asked getting rather impatient.

"Well, Julie, it's kind of scary to start. I used to look at Sam and feel like something was bursting to get out. I felt like I was going to be sick every time I felt like talking to her. I realised only recently that it wasn't that I was trying to throw up my guts to talk to her it was my heart trying to reach out to her," Severus said this all rather fast as he was never one to show emotion.

"Wow," Julie said.

"I can't believe I am going to say this, but I know how much Lupin loves you, Sam tells me mostly everything," Severus said this quietly as willing to not to get Sam in trouble for gossip.

"I know he does, I love him too, but he hurt me so much,"

"Do you want to tell me what he did? Sam hasn't got that far," Severus said.

"He, he, he got really, really drunk and kissed my best friend," She stifled a cry

"What? He kissed Sam?" Severus sounded angry.

"Oh what? No, no, not Sam gods no, we were getting drunk at the time this happened but we saw it all. Well I did Sam was being held up by Megan and Heidi, I think," Julie was looking at the ground it was bad when guys saw you cry even when it was a guy you didn't like much and he had mutual feelings for you.

"Sam was getting drunk," Severus tried hard not to laugh.

"He kissed Sh-Sh-Sh," She couldn't bring herself to say the name.
The name Remus had spoken while she kissed him. The name of the girl he thought was her the girl who he broke her heart with.
One of her best friends.

"Shannon," Severus said.

"Yea," Julie nodded.

"I have heard about her from Sam. They aren't the best of friends are they," Severus said watching Julie closely.

"No not really Sam and Shannon seem to clash alot."

"I don't want to fight with Sam, but I feel like she is plotting behind my back," Julie mumbled.

Severus thought to himself as he saw Julie drown herself in a new fit of tears.

"If I want to keep Sam, I have to be nice to her friends too, she believes I can do it, so I will do it," Severus thought to himself.
He reached out to touch her shoulder and when Julie didn't object He pulled her into a hug letting Julie let it all out.

Sam and James stood in a quiet alcove off to the side watching the scene play in front of her Severus was being nice actually being nice to HER FRIENDS.

"Yay, he understands," She whispered to James. James just smiled.

"Maybe Snivellus isn't as bad as we thought maybe he just needed someone like you to bring him out."

"So," Severus said lifting Julie off his shoulder.

"Yea," Julie mumbled yet again.

"Please tell me indulge my imagination for a few minutes what did you and Sam get drunk over what did she do?" He asked with a grin

"Eh? Well we were kinda mad at you and Remus and I don't remember quite what we did. I do remember jumping up on the table and Megan chasing me, and then I pretended to be a frog ..." at this Snape snorted. "... I know we were so stupid. Getting drunk does not have good after effects."

"Not at all," Snape said smiling a little tiny smile.

"Did you just smile?" Julie gaped at him.

"No!" Snape said smiling again.

"Yes you did, and there you go again!" Julie burst out laughing and Sam in the shadows with James smiled too.

Sam turned to James and was about to tell him something when Julie stood up and walked away bumping right into Sam and James.

"What? You guys spying on me? Don't you trust me with your boyfriend, Sam?" Julie snapped out shoving past them.

"Julie, wait. Julie?" Sam went after Julie and Julie whipped back around.

"You betrayed me, Sam. I thought you were my friend and then you pull this ... this crap on me and you expect me to be okay with it. Like I'm supposed to thank you for frustrating me about my life more. I told you, Sam, I told you ... I don't want to talk to him. I wasn't ready yet. And you locked me up with him for hours. You betrayed my trust, Sam, and I don't know if you can ever be my friend again."

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Julie stormed off and went straight back to the common room. She saw Megan lying on the couch with her head in Tag's lap. Tag was playing with Megan's hair while Megan attempted to finish an essay for Bin's class. "Hey Julie, what was so important about the Goblin war in 1373? Was it ..." But Megan stopped dead when she saw Julie's tear streaked face. "Julie, what's wrong? What did Lupin do now?" Megan sat up and untangled Tag's fingers from her hair. "Go to bed, sweetie." Tag did as he was told and Julie took his vacated seat.

"It's not him," she said. "It's Sam, I told you guys I didn't want to talk to Remus 'cause I wasn't ready but she locked me in a room with him for hours. And thought that I'd just be ecstatic about it."

"She did what?" Megan exclaimed in complete and utter shock. "Why would she do that?"

"Because she's a bitch, and wanted to see HIM happy," Julie said

"Oh come on, Julie. I'm sure she didn't mean it that way," Megan said some what soothingly.

"NOW YOU'RE TAKING HER SIDE?" Julie screamed at her. Megan flinched but didn't back down.

"I'm not taking sides, Jules. Now calm down and be reasonable," Megan tried to grab her hand but Julie jerked it away and stood up.

"Reasonable! REASONABLE!!! Megan, I'm fighting with the guy I love and my best friend just betrayed me! How am I supposed to be reasonable about that!"

"Julie! I don't want to fight with you!" Megan yelled back tears coming to her eyes. "I don't want to fight with you, okay?" Megan whispered, "I'm sick of everyone fighting all the time. I'm sick of the drama."

"Oh so now your sick of me?" Julie accused.

"No, god damn, Julie. You're twisting everything I say."

"I am not. That's what you said," Julie said a bit quieter.

"Then you are not listening correctly, because I did not say I was sick of you. I said I was sick of everyone fighting all the time. I don't want everyone fighting. You and Remus, Sam and Snape, you and Shannon, me and you," Megan said the last part so quietly that Julie had to strain her ears to hear her.

"Look, can we talk tomorrow, Megan. I'm really tired and extremely irritable."

"Yeah, sure," Megan said dejectedly, "tomorrow." Julie went up the stairs dragging her feet. Megan went back to the couch and collapsed on it. "My life sucks."

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A few minutes later Sam stumbled into the common room and plopped herself down on the spare armchair facing the fire.

"Oh, hey, Sam, what's up?" Megan said looking at her.

"Meandjuliefought," she whispered.

"Yeah, I know, you okay?" She got up from her essay and went over to Sam.

"No, what did she come in here saying all this stuff about how much she hates me and how much of a BITCH I am?" Megan noticed the tears threatening to fall.

"Yea, something like that," Megan said "Then she yelled at me and stormed off." she added.

"I'm going to bed hopefully she's asleep and I can just forget this whole thing ever happened," Sam said sounding a little too hopeful.

She got to the top of the girls dormitory and opened the door and there was Julie sitting wide awake on her own bed looking at photos and crying AGAIN.

"Uh, hi Julie," Sam said sounding hopeful

"What do you want?" Julie said looking up and straight at Sam but not actually seeing her.

"I need you to hear me out Julie this is important."

"What's there to hear you locked me in a room with a fricken werewolf ARE YOU INSANE?!" She screamed.

"Have you failed to notice that I wasn't the only one?" She replied.

"YOU PLOTTED THIS BEHIND MY BACK?! I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS!"

"WE ARE FRIENDS, JULIE, IF YOU DARN WELL LISTENED TO ME YOU'D KNOW THAT!" Sam screamed back.

"FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT TO EACH OTHER!" Julie yelled.

"YOU LOVE HIM, I KNOW YOU DO, JULIE, YOU NEED TO ADMIT THAT YOU STILL LOVE HIM!" Sam screamed.

"OF COURSE I STILL LOVE HIM, YOU IDIOT, BUT WHAT PART OF NOT WANTING TO TALK TO HIM DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?!"

"I understand the you love him and you are hurt Merlin knows I have been hurt many times before I know just how you feel," Sam said willing to keep her voice down as to calm Julie down too.

Julie didn't know what made her do it but she walked straight up to Sam and slapped her. Sam staggered with shock and clutched her face tears streaming down her face.

Julie stood there saying nothing.

"I hope that was worth it, Julie, I really do hopefully your Ravenclaw mind will help you eventually see sense and realise that he loves you, and me and James were only trying to help you see this".

"Remus needs all he can right now his friends that CARE about him," and with that she ran out of the room and out the portrait

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Today was the day. Will was getting so nervous it was the day Heidi was to come out of the hospital wing. Will was going to ask her to go to Hogsmeade weekend with him tomorrow.

As he made his way to the hospital wing he started to sweat.

"I hope she says yes," He thought to himself.

Just as he got to the Hospital doors Sirius Black walked out.

"I'll come check on you later, Heidi, and again, I'm sorry," he yelled back.

Sirius caught Will's eyes and they stared at each other for a bit.

"Hiya Will," Sirius said.

"Hi," Will said begrudging sp?

"What are you doing up here?" Sirius asked him.

"I'm here to see my girlfriend actually, Black, what may I ask are you doing?" He bit back.

"I'm here seeing Heidi, I felt bad for knocking her off her broom the other day in the Quidditch match, I thought I would bring her some flowers to cheer her up and brighten her corner of the room," He replied.

"So you decided to bring my girlfriend flowers," Will said

"Your OH-- Sorry mate, I didn't realise she was with you," Sirius replied.

"Excuse me," Will said, pushing past Sirius into the hospital wing.

"SHIT! I always manage to put my foot in it, damn, damn, DAMN," he said out loud.

"You do have a knack for it don't you, Black?"

Sirius spun around and heading straight towards him was his own gorgeous girl, his Kassie Philips.

"I was wondering where you were," Kassie said speeding up and planting a kiss on his lips.

"MMMmmmmmmm, that I have missed," kissing Kassie back with more passion then was controllable.

"Come on lets go back to the common room I want quality time with my man," Kassie replied dragging him off.

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Meanwhile back in the hospital wing.

"Hey, baby," Heidi said as she saw Will walk towards her.

"Hi," Will said glumly

"What's wrong?" Heidi asked sounding worried.

"Nothing," Will said looking at the floor. "I just saw Sirius Black leave he said he had brought you flowers and stuff."

"Oh," Heidi said. "OH!" She understood now.

"No, no, no, sweetie, Will, you misunderstood Sirius is not like that he's taken and i'm not interested in him."

"Oh, okay," Will said sounding embarrassed.
"I love you, Will Roberts," Heidi said making Will look up
"You're not going to lose me that quick unless you get rid of me yourself," Heidi smiled making Will smile too.

"I love you too, Heidi, and I won't be getting rid of you at all," Will replied with a grin.

"I was actually coming up here to see you and get you ready to leave," Will looked at Heidi with a hopeful smile.

"Yup, a couple more potions and a few more minutes I should be right as rain," Heidi giggled.

"Would you like to come to Hogsmeade with me tomorrow Heidi," He asked rather fast.

"I would love to Will that sounds great," she grinned.

"Well I have to go professor McGonagall about something I'll come back later to pick you up okay,"

"Okay, Will, thank you," as Will waved goodbye Heidi flopped back onto her bed.

"I love him, I actually love him, WOW!" Heidi Squealed.

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Julie never went very far; as classes were due to be starting soon enough and she still had classes to attend. I hate Tuesdays she thought angrily. Julie trudged around the lake, willing to calm herself before DADA with Professor Malfoy. Why does the world hate me? Why do i have to fight with everyone? I'm so evil! Damn you Lupin, you have screwed up my life! She thought angrily. She heard the warning bell in the distance and grudgingly left towards class. At least i have history today, and then I can sleep she thought desperately.

Julie walked to the class room slowly; she didn't want to face what was inside. She had class with the Gryffindor's and her fellow Ravenclaws, which meant everyone she had fought with was going to be packed together in one room again. She just hoped one of the Gryffindor girls or Ravenclaw guys (excluding Tag) would let her sit with them. She opened the door slowly, after checking her watch and seeing their was one minute left until the bell. Julie quietly slipped through the doors.

Indeed everything she feared was in front of her. Sitting all in the back corner were her dorm mates, Kassie and Lily, and the marauders. Sam was turned in her desk, talking to James, while Lily and Kassie were chatting to each other. Sirius was talking to someone, Remus, who was sitting with his head down on the desk. Peter was talking to Tag, as Shannon and Megan were in another conversation. Julie slipped by them quietly, not attracting any attention to herself and walked up to a table as far away as table. After asking, Julie sat down between Chris Pocket, and Mike Gold, fellow Ravenclaws.

The bell rang just as Professor Malfoy swept in to the room. "This is going to be a study session, work with the people at your table to fill out this assignment. When you are finished I will collect them."

"Can we choose partners, if we are not sitting beside them?" asked Sirius. Julie was puzzled by his question, all four of them were at the same table, and could easily work with the people around them, but when Sirius' eye fell on her it dawned on her. She looked away hastily, not noticing Malfoy saying no. Mike was forced to hand out the sheets, so when he returned they began. They worked quickly, as Ravenclaw standard, and were the first to finish. Julie couldn't help but laugh along with their jokes. She could feel pairs of eyes on her.

Class ended quickly enough, everyone being excused just before the bell rang. That meant she had to go to history.

"You have Binns next?" asked Chris.

"Yup, i usually sit far away from you though," Chris put on a fake-hurt look,

"I feel so outraged."

"Aww, Wittle Chrissie mad?" she cooed jokingly.

"Nah, come on. You want to sit with me today?" he asked.

"Hmm, but of course!" she said happily. Chris threw his arm over her shoulder, and started walking with her in step. "No one can ever say no!" he laughed.

"Hardy, har-har. Somehow I doubt that." she said laughing. He would have kept talking but there was a small explosion behind them. They both whipped around to see the marauders down the hall, having set off fireworks. Sirius was glaring at her, but she had no idea why. Instead she just laughed and kept going on to History, Chris walking beside her.

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"You won't find me entertaining in here you know, I plan on sleeping," she told him a little while later, as they sat in the classroom. They took this class with the Hufflepuffs, so Julie was at ease, away from the marauders. Still, when Mike slid in beside her she jumped a little.

"So, you can't stay away from us eh?" he said jokingly.

"No Mike, never can say no to you," she replied dryly. He laughed and hit her on the back, so she turned around and hit him back in the shoulder. He hit her again in the shoulder, so they began playing shot for shot. Julie was surprised when they finally stopped that she was smiling and laughing again. Maybe she just needed to be around other people for a bit. Embrace a change. Julie rubbed her arm, before rolling up her sleeve and looking at the bruise. She laughed out loud as she saw the purple appearing on her arm, compared to the darker one on Mikes. She chanced a look over at the others; they were all looking glum and uncheerful. She felt really bad looking at them. She was about to go over and say something, but Professor Binns appeared before she could make it. Chris grabbed her arm and made her sit down.

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after 24 games, varied between Hangman, tic tac toe and SOS, Julie had finally given up and fell asleep. A little while later she got nudged awake by Chris. Angrily she glared at him,

"What?" she hissed.

"I didn't know you were dating Lupin," he said looking at her.

"We were dating, but now we aren't, bec – wait, how did you know?" she asked.

Chris' face turned red, as he handed her a note, "Your friends sent this a while ago ... I got a bit curious."

"You little jerk!" she hissed, grabbing the note. Chris just shrugged and went back to sleep.

Good call Jules, sitting with two guys! You should have SEEN the look on Remus' face he-- Megan

you have to talk to me sometime you know! -Sam

Julie laughed and rolled her eyes. Remus was jealous over Chris and Mike? That was odd. Julie put the note in her binder and fell back asleep.

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Sam, Shannon, and Megan entered the classroom with an extra five minutes. Shannon had been filled in on what had happened that morning. Sam groaned to herself, why pull that on a Monday night? She had to wake up early too, for her to be there when they opened the door. Now she was tired as heck, oh, and Julie was pissed at her. That always helps.

Sam was drawn out of her thoughts as she heard people sitting down behind her. She suppressed her smile, she knew Julie would stop being mad at her, but when she turned around she was greeted by another sight. The Marauders had taken up spot behind them and were currently talking quietly to each other. She chanced a look at Remus and cringed. He looked worse than ever, he had become pale and there were circles under his eyes. Looks like i'm not the only one who lost sleep. She thought warily.

Megan flipped her pen over and over in her hands. Tuesdays were always cruddy before, but today seemed to be the worst. She leaned in on to Tag's shoulder. He looked down at her, pushing the hair out of her face.

"What's wrong sweets?" asked Tag, looking down at Megan.

"Life sucks," she said plainly. Tag pulled her in to a hug,

"Everything will turn out ok, Megan. No worries, you guys can't fight forever, i mean look at second year! Remember when the five of you had that crush on the Hufflepuff 5th year? You guys fought for a week about it! Let's not forget all the wars you have over who is the most evil, they blow over quickly! Just sit it out and things will work out."

Megan started to crack up in response; they had all agreed that Josh Townsend, the fifth year, was not worth it, and not as attractive on second thought. They had laughed themselves silly afterwards, in response to realising how stupid they were. Megan smiled despite herself.

Megan turned to Shannon, talking about things like cookies and cakes. Tag got into a conversation with Peter, who was sitting behind him, as he played with Megan's hair. Sam felt a poke in her back as she turned around.

"Your plan sucked Adams, it got us no where. What's our plan B?" asked James.

"Plan B? James, I think I should be friends with Julie again before we start another dumb plan.

"There's the thing, we WON'T have another 'dumb' plan. We will make a fool proof plan this time," he said grinning.

"I don't know James; she's way too mad this time round!"

"Come on Sam! You're a wild child, your dating SNAPE for heavens sakes! Take a chance will you?" James said, egging her on.

Sam looked over at Remus, who had his head in his arms, lying on the desk. Sirius was speaking quietly to him,

"Look Moony, it will all be over tonight for another month, you will be better tomorrow, you know that. Unless you're upset about Walsh, then –"

Remus said a muffled response that Sam hadn't heard. Apparently Sirius had, as he fell quiet again. Just then the bell rang and Professor Malfoy entered. Behind her, Sam heard Sirius ask James the same question she was thinking,

"Where's Walsh?" James and Sirius scanned the room and spotted her sitting on the other side of the room. James whispered back, "second table, on the right."

Everyone turned to look at Julie, who sat between two other boys. They couldn't tell who they were from behind but Shannon could already guess who it was. They couldn't wonder for very long as Professor Malfoy started to speak.

"This is going to be a study session, work with the people at your table to fill out this assignment. When you are finished I will collect them."

Sirius thought that Julie couldn't get away that easily; he raised his hand and waited for Malfoy to call on him.

"Can we choose partners, if we are not sitting beside them?" he asked. He dropped his gaze down on to Julie who blushed and looked away. Professor Malfoy berated him, ending in a no, before asking someone to hand out the sheets. She handed the papers to someone from Julie's table, so he watched as the guy stood up. Sirius poked Shannon in the back. "Who's that?"

"Mike Gold, he's a fellow fifth year in Ravenclaw," she said all knowingly. She whispered before receiving a glare from professor Malfoy. She turned back around and began her work.

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A little while later the Marauders had finished their assignment and were planning their next big scheme. Remus was back lying on the table, willing himself to sleep if need be. A sound drew him out of his sleep-filled hopes. He heard a familiar sound that made him look up. Someone was laughing, in fact Julie was laughing. He looked over to her table and watched her laughing with the two guys beside her. He missed hearing her laugh properly.

The last time he heard that was last week, when they had been together one night. The difference was it wasn't Remus who was making her laugh this time. It was another guy. Remus didn't bother hiding his depressed look as the others turned to see his reaction. He sighed heavily, dropping his head back down on the table.

'Life Sucks,' he thought bitterly.

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The Marauders stood outside the classroom, waiting for Peter, who was staying behind a second, getting his review project.

Sirius and James were staring down the hall behind Remus. When he went to turn around and look James stopped him, "Don't look back" he warned Remus. This only made Remus want to turn around even more. He turned to see Julie standing and laughing with the same guy she had sat with before. Just then the guy slung his arm over her and they began walking away.

All of a sudden Sirius was moving quickly, digging in his backpack. He drew out some of the fireworks they had bought a few weeks back. "I'll stop this," he said grinning. He lit off the firework, setting off an explosion. Remus saw Julie and the other guy turn to look back, along with other people. She began laughing slightly as the two turned around and kept walking... this time a reasonable distance away. Sirius slapped him on the back as they walked the other way, towards Potions.

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Sam sat in the back of History, glaring down at Julie. She noticed Megan scribbling down something beside her.

"You're actually doing work?" she asked.

"Nope. Note,"

"To whom?"

"Julie."

"Gimme that," she said pulling the note towards her. She scribbled her own Owl before sending it out to Julie. A little while later she was a little miffed when she saw the guy opening it instead. He nudged Julie and tossed her the note. She sat back angrily when Julie just shoved the note into her backpack.

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When the bell rang again. Megan gathered up her stuff looked back at Julie, who was currently laughing with Mike, and headed back towards her. She was stopped when someone grabbed her arm.

"What do you think your doing?" Hissed Sam.

"Putting a stop to her crazy antics to make everyone in her life jealous." Megan jerked her arm out of Sam's grip and stormed down the row to where Julie was gathering her stuff. "Julie we need to talk in private." Megan glared at Mike and Chris.

"No, we don't," Julie said turning around and attempting to leave. She wouldn't get away that easy. Megan grabbed her arm and whipped her around.

"Yes we do!" She growled out. "I gave you chance to talk to me in private, now we're talking right now. You have got to get over this, Julie. It's not the worse thing that has ever happened to you. Remus loves you, why can't you see that? He would do any thing for you, Julie, anything. So he made one mistake, one honest mistake, Jules. He was drunk, he saw you, he kissed you. When he pulled back it wasn't you, it was your friend. An honest mistake."

"He moaned her name!" Julie yelled pointing at Shannon. "He was kissing me and he moaned her name."

"I can't help that he did that!" Shannon yelled back at Julie. "Why are you mad at us when all we've done is tried to do is help you out?"

"Maybe I don't want help!" A single tear fell down Julie's face. "I don't need it. I'm doing fine on my own now."

"You are so blinded, mate. You hate everyone around you. And none of us hate you back. We could, you know. We could join sides with the Marauders and make your life a living hell, because that's what you've been doing with us. But we aren't going to. You wanna know why? We love you, Julie. We all love you while you sit there and hate us," Megan's voice cracked and tears were struggling to get out. Julie looked up at Megan's face, hurt and tear stained. She couldn't remember the last time Megan had cried. It must have been years. She then looked at each of her other friends in turn. They were all distraught with worry and pain. She could see it etched on their faces as if it were written there.

"I don't want to fight with you guys," She finally whispered.

"So don't." Sam said glaring at Julie. "Get off your high horse and look at where you are! This is life, girl and it's not going away."

"If you keep doing this to everyone you love then you won't have anyone left." Shannon said also glaring at Julie. Just then the door opened and in walked the Marauders.

"Here's your chance to fix things with everyone, Julie." Megan said voice hoarse from yelling. "It's your last chance. You fix things now and we can go back to how things were. You don't, you have a whole lot of people mad at you, Jules. You don't have to like him again, you don't have to see him or talk to him ever again if you just forgive him now."

Julie looked up to see everyone in the room looking at her. The Marauders, her friends, Mike and Chris, some other people from the class. She looked back to see Remus looking somewhat hopeful. She sighed tears streaming down her face. She wiped vigorously at them but they stayed put. She looked at the floor then at Megan then at the floor again.

"Thing's can't ever be how they were, Megan. It doesn't work that way. I've been trying to see what you guys have been seeing all weekend. And all I get is that you guys do care about me," The tears wouldn't stop now, they just kept coming. This was the hardest thing she would ever have to do. "And all I can think about is how I don't deserve it. I don't deserve any of you. You are all too good for me. That's why I'm going to go home."

Everyone stood in shock, not moving. Finally Remus spoke up. "You don't have to do that Julie," Julie looked at him sighed and said

"Yes, I do."

"I'll leave you alone. Everyone will leave you alone, Julie. You don't have to leave the school," Remus said. "We'll leave you alone if you promise to stay."

Julie bit her lip looking from heartbroken face to heartbroken face.

"I'll stay," She said then turned on her heel and left the class, the tears wouldn't stop now. She kept whipping at them, mad that they had betrayed her. She didn't know where she was going till she got there. She found herself in the Astronomy Tower overlooking the castle grounds. She didn't know what she would of done if she had to leave this beautiful place and found herself wondering what she was going to do when she went back to her dorm that night. "I don't have to go back." she said to herself. "I'll just stay here all night."

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Megan watched Julie take off through the halls. "A tad harsh, Docura," sighed Peter. Megan rounded on him. "Screw you, Pettigrew." Before whipping around.

"What's going on Shannon?" asked Mike.

"None of your business, so back off," snapped James.

"Bugger off, Potter," retorted Chris, "He didn't ask you."

"Whatever, come on lets go to lunch," said James.

"But ... Jul –" started Sirius.

"Doesn't want to talk to anyone in this room. Come on, we can't help her if she wont let us." James turned around and left the classroom. The others followed behind.

-- End Chapter 05