Time in the Sun


I could never deny her anything.

She pleaded with me to live. I open my eyes and try to focus on her face. Even through the mask I can see the unshed tears threatening to fall.

Always the soldier she would not let her true feelings for me show.

She squeezes my hand and whispered to me not to give up that we had not had our time yet that to please not leave her I was still needed.

I took a breath and found it hard to breath. Her mask had fallen the soldier was gone. Her heart was on her sleeve. She needed me.

She elevated my head onto her lap. The battle was raging around us. We were falling back to the gate retreating before we lost too many people.

The super soldiers were almost upon us and I would not see the end of this day. My body had been battered and I was so tired of living this life. A life without me showing her how I felt. I closed my eyes but she continued to plead with me to live.

She needed to go and leave before it was too late.

I whispered for her to go. She nodded no. I yell at her with the last of my strength to go and leave me and she yelled back no.

"I wont leave you, I can't you're my life and if you …"

I squeeze her hand. I tell her I do not want to be responsible for her death.

She kisses my lips and says if I die she'd have nothing to live for.

My mind screamed not true.

"You have so much to live for your work, your family."

"Not without you. No Jack I'm staying. Don't make me go. Please I can't I wont. I'd live the rest of my life with only1 regret."

She looked at me her face in pain and tears falling. I asked what regret.

"We never had our time in the sun together. We always thought we would survive this war and we would one day be together. But now fate has interfered and wants to take you from me. You want to know my regret Jack that I would not get to experience being Mrs. Jack O'Neill."

Stun could not describe what I was felt. She wanted to be Mrs. Jack O'Neill?

How bittersweet.

I closed my eyes and wished things were different but put those aside. I needed her to go. I needed her to live.

I started to speak, but she pressed her fingers to my lips. I nip one and she pulled it away.

I tried to make her laugh and said marrying me was over rated and to ask Sara when she got back. She would tell her stories that would make her shiver and I was not the prize she had made me out to be.

She nodded her head no and whispered she knew I wasn't perfect but who was.

"I envy her she was lucky enough to marry you and now…"

She broke down. I tried to comfort her when the radio came alive.

"O'Neill it is Teal'c what is your position? I can not locate Major Carter are you injured we have retreated more soldiers are on there way."

Carter responded.

"Teal'c I need your help he's injured and I can't carry him back to the gate I'm 2 clicks south of the stargate are you close by please he's loss a lot of blood and is having trouble breathing. He's talking nonsense about me leaving him behind it must be the lack of oxygen to the brain so if your close."

"I am almost upon you Major Carter and have located Daniel Jackson be prepare to leave immediately the soldiers are almost upon us."

She smiled at me and said, "someone is giving us a second chance. Please Jack hold on. Don't leave me. We still have so much to do".

She helped me to sit up and every muscle in my body ached. I had a reason to live my reason was next to me holding me up and asking me not to give up.

Seeing T and Daniel come through the brush I knew I would do everything in my power to live because as soon as she uttered those words I could never deny her anything.

We hadn't had our time in the sun as she said and I was looking forward to a bright future with her by my side.