A/N :

Terve lapset!! I hope you are all having good holidays … mine have been a bit random …

I've been doing nothing and writing nothing because all of my resources have run dry in my mind. This is serious writer's block. Worse than ever before … I hate it!!

This is a relatively short chapter [compared to the last one] but is obviously quite vital to the story. I tried to make it sad … but I don't do sad, so it's a bit shitty. I'm really sorry. I'm just not a sad person at the moment. I go hyper at the smallest of things [new Tuomas pics, new NW news, in Waterstones …] and for that I apologise most profusely.

Dedication : Addie's teddy bear and the keyboard shagger. Why?? For being so godddessdamn gorgeous!! Also LizaGirl and VoldemortsVeela, my two new reviewers!!

Anyway, on with the chapter …


Aurora did not know where she was. She had translocated out of that place as quickly as possible, and she had ended up in the middle of a wood. Still feeling sick and now dizzy as well from a bad landing after her translocation, she sent out a weak thought to the only person she thought she could trust : Will. She definitely did not trust Draco now, and she was not entirely sure about her father yet. Will was the nearest to her at the moment as he only lived in London, and he would make sure everyone else who may have been worrying about her, such as her mother, Liv and Amy.

Starting to walk, she found herself unable as her legs were very weak and she kept stumbling, her bare feet catching on her long dress and the leafy, muddy floor, which was now more like mush with the snow and mud. She glanced up at the sky and estimated it to be about three to four o'clock in the morning. Three hours into the day when she would have been in intense mourning for her beloved sister. The sister that Addie had killed right in front of her eyes, then made it so that Aurora had thought that she had blacked out before it had happened. Finally she tripped and fell to the cold floor, hitting her head on a large branch as she fell. She felt that she could go to sleep, just there and then, and never wake up.

"Shit Rors."

Aurora lifted her head to the sound of the familiar voice. Will stood there, long dark hair dishevelled. "What the fuck happened?" he asked, gazing at her intently. There were deep circles under his brilliant green eyes, and his jeans had rips in them, but she did not care. He was there at the moment she needed him, and he was perfect. She put her head back down to the floor and started to cry again, sobs wracking through her already fragile body.

Will came to sit beside her and gently placed one hand on her hair feeling the strands like silk between his fingers. "Want to talk about it?" he asked finally when Aurora had seemed to have calmed down slightly. She slowly started to explain what had happened between sobs, from when they had last seen each other, through all that had happened at Draco's house, up to waking up in her cell and feeling totally alone, to her meeting Voldemort, seeing her father and finally how Addie had killed Eldara.

"You sent a note to my father?" she asked finally.

"Yes."

"How -"

"My Amme told me after she had a vision. Her first for ten years."

"You can congratulate Liv when you next see her."

"I will. And Rors, I'm sorry."

"For what?" she asked.

"Everything since you left me. I've been selfish. You love him, and I get in the way."

"Oh fuck Draco. I don't care about him any more. They can all burn in . . ." She stopped, remembering that she did not believe in Heaven or Hell. "They can all just burn!" she said defiantly. "They can die for I care. Draco betrayed me and sold me to Voldemort as if I were nothing but property . . . bastard. Addie, well other than the fact that she killed my sister, she deserted me. Bitch. Evil cow. Slag." She paused again, this time to think. Then, sitting up, for she had still been lying down on the ground, she said, "But somehow I need them both. And I need you too." She sighed heavily and sank her head onto his shoulder, "What the fuck am I going to do Will?"

"Well, you could come and live with me for a couple of weeks until you get sorted out."

"Are you sure?" she asked incredulously.

"Yeah. I'll sleep on the sofa if I have to."

"Thanks!" She kissed him lightly on the cheek before slipping slowly into sleep, her head still on his shoulder.

Waking up later, she found that it was light, and Will had gone. He ha pulled a blanket over her, and she found a note pinned on the tree next to her head. "Poor tree," she murmured. Aurora had always loved trees, especially willows, as her Tree was a weeping willow.

Taking the note from the tree, she saw it was in Will's handwriting. "Don't know whether you know, you are in the woods near the Manor. There are loads of D.E.'s stalking about looking for someone / something, most likely you so I'd be careful. Have seen your father briefly and he didn't seem to recognise me, so I walked past him and patted him on the shoulder on the way past – he didn't flinch or anything – quite scary. Anyway, I'll meet you out at the front of the Manor at about eight o'clock. And Rors, be careful. Love Will x x x."

Aurora stood up, pulling the blanket around her shoulders, which had been left bare by the dress they had put her in. It had started to snow again, turning colder with every passing moment. She walked out of the wood cautiously, the note in her hand, searching frantically with her eyes all around her the entire time. Wandering slowly through a field, she kicked the long snow-covered grass, half with anger and half with sadness. What was happening to her? One moment she was fine and perfectly happy, the next she was angry and falling apart internally, and it was not a bad case of PMT. She sighed heavily, glanced around once more and translocated to her room.

Ben was sitting on her bed. He was changed into normal muggle clothes now, and he had his feet up on the bed. Aurora waved her hand casually and they were jerked roughly onto the floor.

"Selde," Ben said simply.

"Ada," was her equally short and simple reply.

"You ran away."

"Indeed. I wasn't really that far away though."

"In the woods?"

"Yes."

"Who was the boy?"

Aurora moved through the room tidying the mess of a floor into trunks or translocating it to Will's flat.

"Fine then, don't answer me," her father said to himself. "Where are you going?"

Aurora finished packing her trunk, heaved it upright and translocated that too to Will's. "A friend's," she answered, sitting at the desk and picking up a quill. She wrote two letters quickly, the first to Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy, thanking them for their 'generous hospitality', and the second to Draco. She left no contact address on either of the letters; although she knew that they could find her if they tried hard enough. Then, feeling extremely nice, she found an old sock and left it with a note for the house elf that she knew had cleaned, or tried to clean, her room whilst she had been here. She hoped the elf could read, for the note wished it good luck and happy freedom.

She looked down at herself and with a flick of her hand she changed into a black dress, long indigo coat and pair of high-heeled black boots. Her hair she left nearly natural, adding small pieces of silver ribbon underneath for effect.

"Selde, you really must tell me where you are going," Ben said, standing up and coming to stand in front of her.

Aurora moved around him deftly and picked up her rucksack, the last of her possessions still in the flat. "A friend's."

"Yes, you've already said that, but which friend?"

"If you look hard enough, you can probably find me."

"I don't want to have to find you. I just want you to be safe."

"I will be."

"Are -"

"Yes, I'm sure." She turned to leave, then stopped and turned back. "Oh, and Ada," she added. "Go and find Liv. She's been worried sick about you."

"Does she -"

"Yes, she still loves you, and I believe you still love her too. Go and find her, and be happy."

"Will I-"

"Yes, you'll see me again soon. Right now, I need to go and mourn for my sister."

"Right."

Aurora turned back around, shimmered slightly then disappeared. She ended up standing at the front of the Manor, at the top of the long straight drive. Will was not there, so she started to walk slowly.

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by . . .

Trying hard not to cry, she continued walking, aware that there were people behind her, watching her. She should be happy as she had just found her father, the one person she had most wanted to meet for so long, but she was leaving someone she now knew that she loved dearly. She was throwing away a chance at happiness, but he had betrayed and deceived her.

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last few months were just pretend
And I said . . .

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to . . .

But had she not used him just to get closer to his way of life, to find out about Voldemort? He had not been mad at her then, just a bit annoyed. Was this worse, or the same? Should she leave? And if she should, should it be with Will or someone else? Leaving with Will was bound to only make him more jealous than he seemed to be already of their relationship. So many questions and no time to make up her mind properly.

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes you case my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to . . .

Tears were now freely running down her cheeks. Tears for all that she had lost. Tears for what she was about to lose. Tears for Eldara. Tears for her mother, who was grieving too. Tears for Will, who was caught between doing what he should do and what he wanted to do. Tears for her father, so new into her life and now losing her again after finding out he only had one daughter left. Tears for herself, trapped between two people, one she had thought she loved and one who loved her.

It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time . . .

Should she give in to her feelings and turn around to apologise about everything that had happened? Should she beg for his forgiveness? It was true that he would be at the Final Battle, as she and so may others had Seen in visions, but it had never said why he was there. Was he there to support her, or betray her? Will was there too, and it had also never said why he was there, and which one she was with, if either of them.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to



Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake because
You are my shooting star . . .

The song had been turning over and over in her head, a constant reminder of what was happening. She could not stop what she had already started could she? She could not go and apologise now. She would not go and apologise now. She must keep walking, and not turn back . . .

And yet the temptation to turn back was too great, so she gave in and turned to look at the Manor. There were many people standing on balconies, watching her. With one quick flick of her wrist, she made most of them forget what they meant to be looking at, and they turned and went back inside. The few that she did want to see her leave, she left looking at her. Her father stood on what had been her balcony, surveying the view as well as watching her. He was joined on her balcony by Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy, who were intently watching her walk away, as was Bellatrix Lestrange. They were not bothering her too much. It was someone else that concerned her.

On the balcony next to her own, a lone figure stood. Even though she was so far away, she could see the tears on his cheeks, mirroring those on hers. She tried hard not to listen to the thoughts in his mind, but he was searching for hers, and she had to listen. Eventually she blocked out his mind to hers, turned and continued walking. His mind practically screamed to hers, and she sobbed once, biting her lip to try and stop her tears, but they would not stop pouring. She could not wait for Will anymore, she needed to go now, and so she shimmered and disappeared.

Dry your eyes mate
I know it's hard to take
But her mind has been made up
There's plenty more fish in the sea . . .

Dry your eyes mate
I know you want to make her see
How much this pain hurts
But you've got to walk away now
It's over . . .


A/N:

Aw!! Oh no!! Whatever will happen??

The first song is Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch and the second one is Dry Your Eyes by The Streets.

People :

Addie Le Folle : Well, you're back from France now … Hello!! A backstage pass, a roll of toilet paper, he must be … [hee hee!] Draco is sweet, leave him alone … Actually, I've gone off TAF now … buuuuuuuugger …

Katie Bloom : Hello chicken!! Glad you liked the last chapter!! We converted you!! Whoo!! Go you and your liking of Jukka-ness!! I've made your CD – it's pretty good if I do say so myself … As to whether he's under the imperius curse or not … you'll have to wait and see …

Clairie : Busted are shite. Complete and utter shite. I'm updating this one … not the other one … do you still hate me for giving Katie the photo??

DLSnapeKurama18 : I want a bass!! Damn Addie and her wanting-ness of bass … I'm getting a keyboard instead … where do you live again?? #checks# Nightwish are going to near where you live … I think … they're going to the Phantasy Theater in Cleveland on the 23rd… do you live there?? You should go and see them!! They are amazing!! It depends what sort of music you like, I suppose … what do you like?? If you like rock [metal-ish] you'll like them … actually they are open to anybody … even Busted fans #smiles at Katie#

VoldemortsVeela : Hello!! I've updated!!

Arwen-Georgie-Skye : When are you going to update mate?? I'm missing your story so much … Is your name Elizabeth?? Of course Will and Aurora kissed – they were together for five years … Dammit I wanted him to go to a Nightwish concert … I think he'd get freaked out … I've upped the rating to a PG-13 … I think …

LizaGirl: Hello!! I put all of the songs in the last chapter at the end – I don't know if you saw that … Please keep reading and reviewing!!


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