Diclaimer:I own none of these characters, but i wish i did
A/N: I'd love to give you a time line for this story but it doesn't really follow the natural timeline. You'll get what i mean when you read it.


Family: 1. A fundamental social group in society typically consists of one or two parents and their children. 2. Two or more people who share goals and values, have long-term commitments to one another, and reside usually in the same dwelling place.

Xander put down the dictionary he was looking at. He thought about the two definitions that he had just read for the word "family". Sure the second one applied to him and the scoobies. They all shared the same goal: fighting the big evils and saving the world. They made a commitment to be in this with each other till the very end, so there was the commitment part. Then they usually met in one place, so you could say that they dwell there, so you could say they were a family in that sense. Then there was the first definition: A fundamental social group in society that typically consists of one or two parents and their children. Sure he had a mother and father, but something was always missing; love. Ever since Xander could remember his parents never truly loved him. Sure they put a roof over his head and he had stuff to eat sometimes, but they never really ever said "I love you" to him. They never offered loving words to him when he was feeling down, or comforting ones when he was sick. He loved his parents no matter what, but Xander often wondered what it would be like to have a parent who truly cared about him. A parent who wanted to be involved in their child's life. A parent who wanted to know how their child was doing and what they were feeling.

" Xander are you ok?" Willow questioned her friend when she noticed he was somewhere else.

" Oh yea Wills I'm fine." Xander smiled up at her with his goofy grin.

" All right if you say so. Tara and I are going to be heading home soon.You want to come with, maybe watch a movie?" Xander wanted to say yes, but he could tell that Willow wanted to spend some alone time with Tara. Willow's parents didn't pay much attention to her either, but she had Tara now. Tara seemed to act like bot a mother and a lover to Willow. Xander was happy that his friend had someone like that.

" Nah Wills, you go ahead with your beautiful girlfriend and enjoy yourselves." Willow smiled and said her good byes to everyone and left with Tara. That left just Buffy, Giles, Spike, Anya and himself in the magic box. Xander looked around and saw the way Spike and Buffy were looking at each other and the way Anya and Giles were passing glances at one another.

Xander smiled and gathered his things together so he could get out of there and let the happy couples be well happy couples. " Well ladies and gentlemen, I will be leaving you now, so go do the smooching thing I know you all do. I will take my leave and bid you all farewell."

" Nice speech mate, you been practicing that all night haven't ya?" Spike smirked at Xander in a joking manner.

" Yea I have bleach boy. I got a good ejimication, and it taught this old dog a new trick."

" I hate to even ask, but what were you taught Xander?" Buffy questioned, waiting for the answer.

" It taught me to leave when I know that the people around me want to shag like bunnies in heat and they won't do it in front of me." Xander smirked at the jaw dropped expressions on Buffy and Giles faces.
Giles took his glasses off and started to polish them. " Um.. Well.. Umm." Giles stammered out as the boy left the building.

" I'll be right back pet. I need to go talk to Xander." Spike said as he got up and left. Ever since he had gotten his soul, Spike had an even softer side for the scoobies, especially Xander. He knew the boy craved the love and attention that no one would give him. He wished he could help him some way. " Hey Xan wait up." Xander stopped and waited for Spike to catch up to him.

" Watcha need blondie?"

" You didn't have to leave, you could have stayed."

" And watch all of you look at the other with that lust hunger in your eyes??? Umm let me think about that for a minute umm.. NO!" Xander said sarcastically.

" Well Xan I could blow off tonight with Buffy and you and I could play poker with Clem or something?" Xander smiled at Spike

" Nah you go ahead and have your fun Spike." Spike watched as the emotions played on Xander's face. He knew the boy wanted to be with them and feel loved but he thought he'd be in the way of the love they had for each other. He wished he could help Xander out but he didn't know how. He knew Xander was hurting, withdrawing himself from everyone. He thought it couldn't get much worse than this. Little did Spike know it was about to get a whole lot worse?

Meanwhile in LA
Angel stood in the room that use to belong to him and his son. So much had gone on in the past few weeks it was unreal. Darla came back pregnant and staked herself to save their son's life. Every demon, plus W&H were after them. They wanted the miracle baby known as his son. Then to top it all off an old enemy comes to town and takes his son from him by manipulating one of his best friends into thinking that He was going to hurt Connor. Now Wesley was in the hospital with a gash on the side of his neck that he almost died from. Plus to top it all off he had tried to kill Wesley.

Angel knew his son was never coming back. He was taken to a hell dimension with no way out. Sure he could try to free him but he knew that he would only hurt more people in the process. His family was torn apart and he couldn't do anything to repair it. Angel sat down near the crib and hoped and prayed that no one he knew would go through the pain he was going through right now.

IN SUNNYDALE

Xander walked the final stretch towards his house. He knew his mom and dad were probably sitting in front of the T.V. and he would have to cook supper again tonight. Xander shook his head and looked up towards his house. What Xander saw froze him, right where he stood? There, in his yard, were his mother and father hanging from a tree while vampires fed on their blood. Xander snapped out of his shock and took out his stake and charged the vampires. He dusted them, one right after the other. Xander then looked up at the beaten pale forms that were his parents. " Mommy, Daddy?" Xander reached up and released their cold forms from the strangling bonds that held them up. " Mommy, Daddy, please wake up." Xander held the bodies close to him as he began to sob. What family he had left was gone. They might have not cared one bit about Xander but he loved them. They were his parents and now they were dead.

" I love you both very much." Xander said as he kissed the tops of their heads, and carried them inside the broken house. Everything inside was a mess. He knew his parents put up a fight as he saw a couple piles of ash sitting around. He smiled a sad smile knowing that his parents tried to stay alive. Xander placed the bodies on the floor and looked at himself in the mirror. He was covered in blood, their blood. Xander smiled at himself then at his parents as he walked up the stairs an into the bathroom…

"NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Cordy screamed as a vision hit her. Fred, Gunn, Lorne, and Angel all ran into the lobby to see what was wrong.

" Cordy what's wrong, what did you see?" Angel said as he saw the look of shear terror on Cordy's face.

" Xander." She whispered.

" Who the hell is Xander?" Gunn said.

" A guy from Sunnydale, he is one of the scoobies." Angel said. " Cordy what's wrong? Is it Buffy? Did Xander hurt her?"

" No Angel it's just Xander. He came home to find his parents hanging from the tree in the front yard and vampires were feeding from them. Xander got them down and told them he loved them and asked them to wake up. He took them inside and looked in the mirror and smiled at himself and then at them. He went upstairs and into the bathroom and after that I felt darkness and pain. Oh God Angel, he is going to kill himself." Cordy looked up at Angel with tear filled eyes.

" Get the car Gunn. We are going to Sunnydale to get my boy." Gunn ran out the door to get the car with the rest grabbing first aid things and following close behind. A look of determination was set on Angel's face as he left the Hyperion to go after Xander.

" He called him his boy. I think that Xander would make a fine addition to Angel's family." The man said to the woman.

" Yes if only he gets there in time, and that Xander accepts him." The woman said.

" We can only hope that he does. They need each other now more than ever."

" Yes they do. If they only open up their eyes and hearts, they can help each other."

" They will. Angel is a good man and he is exactly what Xander needs and vise versa."

" I onlyhope he gets there in time to save him Doyle."

" Me too, Jenny, me too."

Well tell me what you think. i know it is a little vague but i can't reveal too much can i?
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