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" What do you mean that it is my choice if he lives or dies?" Angel said as he glanced worryingly between the two people.

" What they mean to say Angel, is that you have a choice to make now." Angel looked into the third person that was standing before him, and it was Jesse.

" Jesse, why do I have to make the choice?"

" Well the PTB decided to grant you one wish. That wish will decide everything." Jesse glanced over at Xander with a sad smile.

" Can one of you please tell me what I need to decide before the next century!" Angel growled.

" all right all right, don't need to go all growly on us." Doyle said.

" Angel, the PTB knew that when your son was taken from you, that you would not be totally focused as their champion. They decided to give you a choice." Jenny said.

" What choice is that?" Angel said with hope that he might get Connor back now.

" You can either have Connor back, or Xander." Doyle said with a sad expression on his face.

" You mean that I have to make a choice either to keep Connor or Xander?" Angel said in disbelief.

" Yes Angel, one of the two must die to keep the natural order of things. They are both connected to you in one way or another. Now it is up to you to decide who lives and who comes with us." Jenny said with tears in her eyes.

" How can you do this? How can you make me decide between my son, my own blood, and Xander?"

" I know this is hard for you Angel, but this is the way it has to be. They have known since day one that Xander would play a big role in your life, and Connor, but the day would come when you would have to decide on who to keep." Doyle said.

" How can I do that? How can I condemn either of them to death? Neither of them deserve this!"

" You will have till midnight tomorrow to decide Angel." Jenny told him.

" Follow your heart Angel." Jesse smiled down at Angel. Jesse and Xander had always known Angel had been protecting them. Jesse knew that it meant a lot to Xander to have someone looking out for him, being a father to him from a distance. He knew this would be hard on Angel but either way he would be granted a son.

Angel looked on as the figures disappeared. Angel stared at the clock. It was midnight, he had twenty-four hours to decide the fate of these two boys. Angel touched Xander's face softly and walked out towards the waiting room, where he knew everyone would be. As soon as he exited the doors he was bombarded with a load of questions.

" How is he?"

" Will he make it?"

" Is he awake?"

" What can we do to help?"

" Is there any other damage?"
" How many times has he tried that before?"

" ENOUGH! Xander is still unconscious and very weak. He has done this before, mainly two times. The first was after Jesse died and the second was after he sent me to Hell." Angel whispered the last part.

" What do you mean he sent you to hell? I had to do that. I know he told me that Willow said to kick your ass but-?"

" I never told him to tell you to kick his ass. I had told him to tell you to stall. I was trying to perform the soul restoration again." Willow said.

" WHAT?!?! You mean he lied to me! When he gets up he will know what real pain feels like!" Buffy said as she paced the room.

" Luv calm down." Spike said to try and calm Buffy down.

" Calm down! Calm down! He lied to me so I would kill Angel. He was so in love with me that he couldn't see anything else, so he made me kill Angel to get rid of him. That bastard, I'm going to kill him!" Buffy never saw the hand coming till she was on the ground looking up at Dawn.

" How dare you Buffy! How dare you threaten to kill him, when all he has done was be there for us? Don't you think it hurt him too, to have to send Angel to Hell? Gosh sis, when did you become so selfish. Angel is back and you have Spike now, be happy. Xander just lost his parents, he's had to kill his best friend because he was a vampire, and he had to help send his friend's boyfriend to hell. Didn't you listen to Angel at all? Xander tried to off himself the most after he did that. Buffy, Xander wanted to die because of what he did. He didn't want to send Angel to hell, but he knew what had to be done. I've heard all the stories about that, and all you ever wanted was Angel back. Angel was the only thing you cared about, and your friends paid the price. I love you sis, but you need to grow up." Dawn turned away into Tara's arms and sobbed.

All Buffy could do then was cry. She was being selfish and she was happy with Spike, but it just hurt. Spike helped Buffy up and just help her while she wept.

" There is something else your not telling us poof." Spike said. He had noticed Angel going into one of his famous brooding moods and knew something else had happened.

" What's wrong Angel?" Cordy asked.

" I have a choice to make. A choice that could bring Connor back to me."

" Oh my word! That is wonderful Angel. You can get Connor back and we can be one big happy family again." Cordy hugged Angel and noticed he wasn't hugging back. " Angel what's wrong? You're going to get Connor back, you should be more happy."

" What's the choice you have to make Angel, and who is Connor?" Willow asked.

" Connor is my son."

" Bloody hell, you have really lost it peaches. How can you have a son?" Spike asked.

" The PTB granted me a son through Darla. She came back from the dead by W&H. We found out she was dying and I tried to help save her but I couldn't, so I promised to be with her till the end. Then Dru came and killed her and sired her."

" Dru sired Darla? Bloody hell, bet I missed the great family reunion." Spike said, still shocked by the fact Angel had a son.
" Yes and I went psycho in trying to make them pay. Well one night I was with Darla and she tried to make me lose my soul, but it didn't work. Nine months later she comes back pregnant. She killed herself so Connor would live. In the mean time W&H and Hotlz were after us."

" Wasn't Hotlz a demon hunter over 200 years ago? He chased you and Darla everywhere till he disappeared." Giles commented

" Yes he had contact with another demon and was frozen in time till he came out and came after Darla and I. He saw me with Connor and he just let us go. I knew he'd be back, but not when. We found a prophecy about Connor and Wesley tried to translate it."

" Is this why Wesley isn't with you?" Willow asked.

" Yes he translated the prophecy into ' The father will kill the son.' Wes tried to disprove it but he couldn't. He tried to take Connor away and hide him, but one of Holtz people got to him and slit his throat. He was left to die and I cornered Holtz, but W&H had us cornered too. The demon that brought Holtz to our time opened up a portal to a hell dimension. Holtz ran in with Connor and they were gone."

" I'm so sorry Angel." Dawn said as she wrapped her arms around Angel. Angel held her close until she stopped crying.

" So you have a choice to make that could bring Connor back?" Buffy asked.

" Yes."

" Well what is it?" Gunn asked.

" I have to decide who will live. I have to decide if I get Connor back or if Xander lives. One has to die and it's my choice."

Everyone stared at Angel and started to talk at one time. Some saying that Connor is just a baby and he needs to live, some saying that Xander needs to live, and some not saying anything at all. Dawn, Fred, Tara and Spike weren't saying anything. They just looked at him with sympathetic eyes. Even Spike felt sorry for him. He knew how much Angel and Angelus cared for Xander, and he also knew that it would be hard for him to lose his son.

" Bloody hell people, leave him alone. Don't you think that it is hard enough for him to make this decision with out you guys telling him which way to go? It is his choice, let him make it." Spike looked at Angel and smiled. " Follow that bloody heart of yours poof. Whatever you decide I'll back you up on it." Dawn, Fred and Tara all agreed.

Angel sat down on a near by chair and just sighed. He had a lot of things to think about, and not a lot of time to do it in. He glanced around the room and decided to get out of there. " I've got to go think about this. I will meet you all here around nine tonight, and tell you my answer." Angel left before anyone could protest. The gang there just started to argue about whom to save again.

Dawn, Fred, Tara and Spike all slipped outside into the early hours. They all looked at each other outside the hospital and just sank down to the ground. " How could the powers make Angel choose? It is just wrong in so many ways." Fred commented while Spike lit up a smoke.

" It is just not right. I don't remember much about Angel, but it's just not right." Dawn huddled in Spike's arms and just cried.

" You think we should go find him?" Tara questioned.

" Yea Glinda, I think we should. I am going to go tell the troops we are heading out. That we will see them later." Spike disappeared inside and was out in a minute's time. " They all said ok. They are taking turns looking in on Xander. Red said for you to call her later Glinda, and you are suppose to call Buffy, Dawn." They all agreed and set out to find Angel.

It didn't take them long to find him. He was up at the mansion sitting in front of the fireplace. " What are you guys doing here. I thought I said I wanted to be alone."

" No you just said you'd meet us at nine poof. We are not here to tell you who to choose, either." Spike glanced down at his sire, knowing that this was really hard on him. This was almost like when he left Dru and him. Spike knew it tore Angel apart, but he had to do it.

" We're here for you Angel." Fred smiled as she sat down by Angel. The rest followed suit and sat down by Angel.

" Umm I'm sorry, but I don't really know your name." Angel said looking over at Tara.

" I'm Tara. I'm Willow's girlfriend."

" Or you can just call her Glinda. Spike seems to have come up with nicknames for all of us." Dawn smiled as she put a arm around Spike.

" Yep let's see Dawn is Nibblet. Tara is Glinda. Willow is Red. Giles is just watcher. Buffy use to be slutty. Then Xander is the whelp." Spike noticed that Angel was growling at him. " Hey now poof, Xan and I are friends. We call each other names, go patrolling with each other, it's a beautiful relationship." Everyone started to laugh and Spike did his pouting lip. " Well we do ya know."

" Spike, you look so adorable with the pouting lip." Dawn said.

" Do not nibblet; I am the Big Bad. See Grrrr." Angel smiled at Dawn and Spike. They seemed to have a good relationship with each other, and with Tara. Fred seemed to be fitting right in with them. As the hours past and dawn was approaching, everyone started to fall asleep. Angel looked around at this family. A family that had come to him freely, and shared their love with him. Now if only he could decide which boy to bring into this new family.


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