Dislaimer: I don't own anything from The OC, Josh Schwartz does. And I don't own any of the songs, Maroon 5 does. And I'm happy because of it… hehehe
Chapter 4 – Must Get Out
Captain Oats was laying in Seth's hands listening to him, like always.
"I don't know, I can't understand why is it so hard for her. It's just... It hurts. It's like she's ashamed of me. But I can't let go, cause I've been waiting forever to be here. I just don't know if that's enough anymore." Seth was talking looking at Captain Oats.
"Hey." Ryan came into the room. "Oooh, sorry, I didn't know it's another Seth/Captain Oats moment."
Seth gave him a look and smiled putting Captain Oats down.
"What's up?" he asked.
"You tell me. Have you talked to Summer?"
Seth shook his head and after a couple of seconds started to talk.
"I don't need a relationship like that. She's... ashamed of me."
"You don't believe that, do you?"
Seth shook his head and looked down.
"I don't know... I don't want to believe that. But if that's not true then why is it so difficult for her to say it?" he paused and looked at Ryan, who didn't know what to say. "I love her."
Ryan raised his eyebrows.
"You love her?" he asked surprised.
Seth nodded.
"How do you know?" Ryan asked again.
"I know." Seth replied firmly. "I feel amazing around her. It's just so strong, that feeling... I didn't know something like that is even possible. And I feel awful, because she doesn't feel the same way."
"Wow... I had no idea... I mean, I knew you liked her basically your whole life, but love..." Ryan trailed off. "You don't know what she feels Seth. I think it's hard for her too."
"Yeah... So, what now?"
"Talk. You talked to Captain Oats and me, she talked to Princess Sparkle and Marissa, but you have to talk to each other."
I've been the needle and the thread
Weaving figure eights and circles round your head
I try to laugh but cry instead
Patiently wait to hear the words you've never said
"Seth?" she said into the phone, surprised to hear him.
"Ummm... yeah, we need to talk." He answered.
"I'm listening."
"Wait. Are you mad at me?"
"No, Cohen, why would I be mad?"
"Good. Cause you don't have a reason. I do." Ok, idiot, what are you doing? You're supposed to make up with her, listen to her, try to understand...
"Are we starting that conversation again?" she asked getting angry.
"I guess we do. I don't want you to be ashamed of me."
"I'm not Seth. You don't understand."
"I understand, you're not ashamed of me, you simply can't call me your boyfriend. Well, then you just don't care about me enough."
"How can you say something like that? You don't know what I feel." She said. She was hurt.
"Summer, I can't know if you don't tell me."
"I don't wanna talk about this over the phone." She said hanging up.
When I was
Fumbling through your dresser drawer forgot what I was looking for
Try to guide me in the right direction
Making use of all this time
Keeping everything inside
Close my eyes and listen to you cry
Summer walked into Seth's house and went to his room. He was sitting on his bed reading some comic book. Or trying to read. He looked up and saw her coming closer to him until she was on top of him, kissing him. After a couple of seconds he broke the kiss and looked at her.
"What was that?"
"You wanted to know how I feel." She said smiling.
He smiled for a second, but then went serious again.
"That doesn't change anything." He said.
"But I want it to change. I want you."
"Then do something about it."
"It's hard."
"Stop Summer. Just... stop. I love you, don't you get it?" he said angrily pushing her away from him. They stared at each other for some time.
There I said it... I love you more then anything and I want everyone to know that. Why don't you say something Sum?
He loves me? He loves me! I... think I love him too. He's just... perfect...
"You love me?" she finally said.
"More then anything." He answered and looked away.
"I..." she started. "I... don't know what to say." Why is it so hard to say? What is wrong with me?
"You don't have to say anything. Just go. We don't need this." He said standing up and not looking at her. He felt like crying.
"Are you... breaking up with me?" she managed to say looking at him. He nodded and she ran out of his room and his house before her tears found their way down.
This is not goodbye she said
It is just time for me to rest my head
She does not walk she runs instead
Down these jagged streets and into my bed
Summer was staring at Princess Sparkle.
"He loves me..." she kept saying smiling a little bit. She knew what she had to do.
There's only so much I can do for you
After all of the things you put me through
Ryan and Marissa were listening to Seth. They were in school, having lunch.
"We broke up." He said quietly. "I told her I loved her. And she just... didn't do anything. We're done."
"Seth, I don't know what to say." Marissa said.
He laughed sadly.
"That's what she said."
"You surprised her." Ryan said and Marissa nodded. "That was just her first reaction."
"Well, I don't know and I don't care. I can't think about it anymore. She could say something, anything..." Seth answered. "Can we just stop talking about it?"
And then he saw Summer coming towards them. She was looking at him and he looked away.
"Hey!" she said unenthusiastically looking at Marissa, Ryan and back to Seth. He avoided her look.
"I have to go. See ya later." He said and stood up. He practically ran away from them.
"Seth!" she yelled after him, but he didn't turn around. She climbed on the table and yelled once again, this time louder, as loud as she could. "Seth Cohen!"
He turned around and looked at her raising his eyebrows. Ryan and Marissa were shocked. Seth came back to her wanting to hear what she had to say to him. The whole school was watching them now. Summer looked around uncomfortably, but started to talk looking back at Seth.
"Everybody, I have something to say. You all know Seth Cohen, emo dork and comic books fanatic? Well, I'm in love with him. Yeah, I, Summer Roberts love Seth Cohen. I finally have courage to admit it. I'm not ashamed of it, cause he's the most amazing guy I've ever met. I'm just so lucky to be his girlfriend. At least I hope he still wants me to be his girlfriend." She said and looked at him again. "I'm sorry. I love you." She said to him and watched him climbing up on that table and standing next to her.
"I love you too." He whispered and kissed her.
I'm lifting you up
I'm letting you down
I'm dancing til dawn
I'm fooling around
I'm not giving up
I'm making your love
This city's made us crazy and we must get out
A/N – Hey guys! It took me a lot to update and I'm really sorry, but I hope you liked it. Reviews are awesome! Thanks a lot. Keep reading and keep reviewing.
