Disclaimer: I do not own Slamdunk. I know that. This is just for formalities.. hehe.. Libre naman ang mangarap diba?
Calliope Medina Erato: um… no comment… joke… hehe… ilokano… hehe… my friend's parent's are ilokano… they always ask me if I could speak it… hehe… yes a bit more detailed… well here's the rest… well here's like the part where you most wanted to know… I think… 'eto, para 'di ka na mabitin… hehe..
Coffeemaverick: hehehe… I updated now… hehehe… you don't sound insane at all… talk about me wanting to upload this for weeks but I couldn't because it was too early? Hehehe… but anyways, here it is…
Simmic: I forgot to tell you, that about the statement… it was when you said that it was kind of sad that Karin couldn't confess her feelings… she kind of did and didn't….
Do You See Me?
Why isn't Miyagi-san entering the gym? He just stood there, outside. "Miyagi." I initiated the approach. "Did you know about this too?" His eyes: fiery. His gaze: condemning. "You're all the same. You're all ganging up on me." Me included? "You're all making me look like the fool." I never did – something escaped from silence. "Mitsui, what about Miyagi?"
I didn't know if you said anything, if you did, if you didn't. I didn't hear your answer. I couldn't. I wouldn't be able to bear it - if my suspicions became truth.
Miyagi threw the doors open, "What about me?" He ran, raised his fist poised to strike. "Mitsui you traitor!" You pushed Ayako aside, and accepted the blow without defence. You didn't bother to shield yourself. He punched you – you didn't fight back. "Miyagi!" He didn't concede to Ayako's plead. "Shut up!"
It was right. The small thing at the back of my head was right. It was right. That small voice that kept on whispering in my ear was right. It was right. That small needle embedded in my heart was right. They were all right. But I forced myself to be blind.
Everything disappeared. I couldn't see anything though they were right in front of me. I couldn't hear anything though there was sound. I couldn't say anything though there were words. I couldn't feel anything though, what's this? It's raining. Soaking my face. Stinging my eyes. Warm against my cheeks. Ah. It was the tears.
I took a step back, rotating my body in the opposite direction, ready to, "What are you going to do Karin? Run away?" Run? "Yes." I forced my feet to move from where they were rooted, forced them to take me away – anywhere but here.
I needed to stop. I couldn't breathe. It is hard to do two things at the same time. It is hard to cry and run at the same time. It is hard to run and cry at the same time. I had to stop. I had to.
"Karin." What are you doing here? I did not wish to see you. I did not wish for you to see me like this. I did not wish for my heart to fall for you, and yet, it did.
"Don't run away from me, Karin." You drew closer, and closer, while I couldn't go farther. You ruffled my hair, like so many times before. "Lituji." What did you say? "I'm sorry." I'm sorry. "It's – it's – in Czech." Czech. I let out a smile.
He knew. He did. How could he not? When I started to put a gap in between us when we sit, walk, and talk. When my hand loses all its warmth when he holds it because I'm nervous. When I would blush if he ever got too close. When I would get tongue-tied in talking to him at times. How could he not?
I stepped away. "Don't-" A raindrop. "Worry," Another. I tried to force a smile, but the controls weren't working, the tears kept falling, I could no longer pretend, so I cried.
I cried. I cried in front of you because I knew I couldn't love you. Because I was there, standing in front of you, yet you never saw me. Here I am, yet you choose another. And there is nothing I could do except, cry. Cry my thoughts out to you, cry my heart out to you - pour out my feelings for you.
I desired for you to leave, at the same time longed for you to stay. You stayed, so I ran away.
Waa… another one… see mitsui isn't that stupid… he knew… oh… and I listened to Ai no Uta by every little thing while typing this… For every cloud there's a silver lining… so please bear with me…
If you're wondering how mitsui knew that… the power of the internet… he noticed something was wrong with Karin and so looked up the meaning, confirmed his suspicions… blah… a bit discreet, but yeah…
