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Run for cover

When Grissom parked his car in front of his house a man who was knocking furiously against his door caught his attention. Panic immediately rose up in him, why didn't Sara open the door? Was something wrong with her? She was supposed to be at home! He almost jumped out of his car and ran over to his entrance.

Why can't he leave? Why the hell is he here anyways? Haven't I told him to leave it alone? Haven't I told him that I don't want to see that woman ever again! Why is he doing that to me? He never understood why I couldn't forgive her! Why is he doing this to me!

She hoped he'd leave, she hoped Grissom would come home and help her, she wanted him to be already here with her, she needed him, NOW.

"What's wrong?", he asked out of breath.

The man turned to him. "Who are you?"

"Gil Grissom…that's my house….why are you…"

"…does a Sara Sidle live here?"

"Yes…why are you…"

"…good I was almost scared this is the wrong house."

Grissom was still out of breath. "Why are you knocking on the door so furiously?"

"She's not opening."

Grissom swallowed hard, he opened the door with his keys, his hands were shaking. "Wait here…I'll search for her.", he said with shaking voice.

He entered the house and closed the door behind him. He felt his heart beating faster and faster, fear rising up in him quicker and quicker. He entered his living room, finding a crying Sara sitting on the couch, her knees pressed against her chest, her head resting on her knees.

He walked over to her and sat down on the couch next to her. He put his arms around her and dragged her close to him. She buried her face in his shirt and pressed herself against his chest. She was shaking. Grissom held her close to him. "Honey…what's wrong?….Darling, what's wrong?", he realized that he was shaking too. "Has this something to do with that guy out there?"

She nodded softly, she pulled away from him, his arms were still around her, she lay her hands on his upper arms. She faced him, her eyes were red, she must have cried for a long time. She took a deep breath. "Would you…please….send him away?"

Grissom nodded. "I will…just…just tell me who this is….and…why…why you are so…"

"Please send him away.", she cried out.

Grissom kissed her softly on her forehead and stood up. His hands slipping down from her shoulders over her arms to her wrists. "I will send him away angel."

"Thanks.", she whispered softly.

Finally he's here! Finally he is here…he will send him away…he will send him away and tell him he can go to hell…and he will take care of me…I wont have to talk to him…no way I will talk to him ever again…he tried to force me to come with him to see her…I don't care if she dies…she deserved the death penalty years ago…no way I will go to her and pretend I could forgive her for destroying my life! No way! NO damned WAY!

Grissom walked over to the door and opened it. Before the man could jump inside he stepped out. "She wants me to send you away."

"Is she alright?"

"No…not really…she…but she will be okay, …I hope she will be okay."

The man swallowed hard. "Would you please give her this.", he handed Grissom and envelope. "Tell her if she changes her mind she should call me…I'd pick her up from the airport…tell her that…that it's really important for …she should come…she…we need her.", the man said and left without saying anything else.

Grissom entered the house again. Sara stood near him, leaning against the wall.

"He gave me this for you.", he handed her the envelope. "And he said that…"

"…they need me."

"Yes.", Grissom wanted to know who this guy was, but he knew she had to tell him on her own…she wouldn't tell him if she wasn't ready to do so and he wouldn't force her into something she didn't want to do.

"You have that look…"

"What look?"

"He's my brother."

Grissom stepped closer to her and laid his arms around her waist.

"He…he called me about hundred times in the last weeks…I never answered his calls."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I…I don't know…I didn't want to think about why he was calling…I just tried to pretend he just didn't try to call me at all.", she cried even more.

"Sara….you don't have to tell me if you don't want to...take your time."

"No…it's okay…I don't know how he found out that I am here…he wants me to come home to…it's about my mother…she…she will die…and she wants to see me…we haven't seen each other since I left home for Harvard…I just can't…see her…it's not good for me."

"What if I'd go there with you?…Sara don't get me wrong, I can hardly understand how you might feel because what you have been through is more than only horrible, and I have never been through something comparable, but…I really think you should take a last chance to talk with your mother about that…this could help to…refresh your memory about things you might have understood wrong because you were a child."

"I can't talk to that woman!"

Grissom dragged her closer to him and pressed her softly against his chest. His hands caressing her back. "I would come with you…Sara I really think you should do that…and if you can't do it alone I will be there with you….I know you said you wanted to go through this all alone…but…Sara I will help you if you need me…you can always count on me."

"You already took so much time off when I was in the hospital…I don't want you to get in danger to loose your job."

"Sara….all I care about is you…damn that job…I have the right to take my vacation times whenever I want…I still have about 6 or 7 weeks on the books…so don't worry about that…if you want to go there and if you want me to go there with you…I will be there for you."

She looked deep into his eyes, her brown eyes still filled with tears. "You don't know how much this means to me.", she said softly and kissed his lips, she looked into his eyes again, feeling her heart literally melting away. "You don't know how much I love you for this."

Grissom wiped the tears away from her cheeks with his thumbs. "Are these tickets?", he asked and pointed on the envelope.

"I think so." He wants me to go there! I can't go there! I can't!

"Sara…you should really do this…not for her…for you…you don't have to forgive her…going there doesn't mean that you have to forgive her…it means that you are strong enough to face her…take that last chance to tell her into her face for what you blame her…let out all your anger…show her how much she hurt you…and then listen to her when she tells you the story from her point of view…afterwards you can decide what you want to do…"

"…I can't go and see her.", she shook her head.

He held her head in his hands, making her facing him again. "Sara…", his voice was serious. "You have to see her and you have to talk to her…that's the only way how you can at least forgive yourself!"

She tried to look away from him, but she couldn't, not because he held her, but because she knew he was right. She hated it when she had to admit that someone else was right, especially when it came to things that were about her feelings or state of mind. She sighed softly.

A light smile flashed over Grissom's lips. He knew she had realized that he was right. He kissed her softly and gently stroke through her hair with his hands.

"Will you go there with me, please?", she asked with a soft and shaking voice.

"I will…you wont have to do this alone."

She looked at him, she looked straight into his eyes, she had never felt something like this for someone before, this wasn't just love… "Grissom…I…God I…I love you so much…it's not love anymore, it's something so incredible…something so…strong…I …don't know how to describe it."

"I know what you mean…words can describe how much I love you…Sara I would be so totally lost without you…I know I'd love you for the rest of my life when I first saw you…and I hate myself for never allowing these feelings to me…we lost so much time!"

"We still have all the time in the world…", God we really have all the time in the world…I would never be that stupid again and I will never ever feel the urge to end my life as long as I am with you. "…I will be here as long as you want me to be with you."

Grissom felt his heart literally jumping, butterflies in his stomach almost let his feet leave the ground. "I will never let you go…I let you leave once…I turned down chances too often…I wont ever…never ever…let you go…I want you to be with me, forever…I know it's maybe idiotic to say this because we're…we're in a relationship for not more than two months now…but…I mean my feelings for you have always been there…and I know that they will never change…Sara I will always love you and I will be there for you in good and bad times…and if you want me to swear this to God I will do…right now, if you want me to buy a band for you right now, I would do it, if you would want me to be the father of your children I would…I would buy a cradle right now…I…" God, I can't believe I can suddenly open myself that much for her! I can't believe I told her that…, he sighed softly. I have never loved someone as much as I love her…I would die without her…I need her to be with me forever…and I don't want her just to say this…I want her to want this too.

Sara laughed softly. "…Grissom…I was so totally wrong about you."

"How do you mean this?", he asked confused.

"I…I mean I…I always though you couldn't be opened…I…"

"…I changed."

"You did…we both did I think….thank God we did.", she kissed him softly. Did he really say this? Did he really say he wants to be the father of my children? Did he say he wants to marry me? And did he say that he doesn't want to do this just 'one day', did he really say he would do this just right now?

He cleared his throat. "I meant what I said Sara…just…I mean I want you to know that I am serious about that."

"I know that you are…and I feel the same for you..."

"…but?"

"…but…I don't think I am ready for…for such a step right now." I wish I hadn't said this! Now I hurt him! GREAT SARA! You hurt the man you love! You are so stupid!

He stroke a strand of hair out of her face. "I know.", he swallowed hard. He really knew that she wasn't ready for this, he maybe wasn't too…

"I'm so sorry, Grissom I…"

"…Angel it's okay…I know that it's way too early for this…I know that.", he said softly and kissed her.

"I think I have to call my brother now.", she said softly.


Thanks to everybody that reviewed. Reviews make my day…even the bad ones, because I am really a fan of constructive criticism. I know this chapter was really…blahblahblah….but I needed a chapter that shows that Grissom really stands behind Sara 1000ly and she needed to know that too.

For the angst fans…It will be enough angst in the next chapters…so don't worry, this story will not turn into a totally blahblah story…I just thought both (Grissom and Sara) need a little safety when it comes to their relationship. At least I managed to introduce her brother : )

I hope you liked this chap anyways, reviews would be really great : )