Title- All I Ask of You

Author- Monica

Spoilers- Finally decided everything up to chapter seven but with a twist no Pete (a No Pete is a Good Pete ;p)

Rating- Definitely PG-13 this time

Disclaimer- Still don't own any part of Stargate SG-1 (rats!)

A/N- Ok this chapter was meant to confuse you. See this chapter was written to show four characters saying goodbye to you-know-who. So you'll see four different scenes. Oh but pay attention to the first line. You'll see it again in this chapter and it is not actually what is written on a gravestone but what she meant to each, get it? If not just review with your questions and I'll try and help you out.

Chapter 3. What She Left Behind

Samantha Carter

Loving friend, officer, daughter, person

Loving Friend

Jacob Carter wasn't available then. Nor was he available the next three times General Hammond tried. According to the doctors Samantha Carter would be moved to a different location if Jacob Carter wasn't contacted within the next 48 hours.

By now it was seven in the morning and Daniel was sitting in the cafeteria staring at a bowl of soggy cereal. Teal'c had joined him for a while before returning to his room to do kelnorene. It wasn't necessary now that he used tretonin, but Daniel guessed it was his way of coping. After the meeting Jack insisted he needed to get some sleep, but Daniel knew for a fact Jack hadn't gotten a wink of sleep nor had he planned to. They had a scheduled debriefing in an hour. He didn't plan on showing up. Nor did anyone else.

Daniel finally stood up and started walking. He didn't know where he was headed until he found himself at the door to the infirmary. Hesitating only slightly he stepped inside. The room was completely empty except two airmen who were left to guard Sam. Daniel ignored them and took a seat next to Sam's bed. He had seen her look better. Actually he wasn't sure if he'd even seen her look worse. The doctors had taken the liberty of cleaning all the blood off of her, but her naturally pale complexion was snow white.

Daniel leaned forward resting his elbows on his knees. " You have everyone worried, Sam," he quietly told her. " Teal'c is off meditating and you know Jack. He's barricaded himself in his room. And me, well I just feel kind of lost. It's like a part of me is missing, ya know? Of course you do. You guys had to go through this with me, remember? But I came back. I did. Just like you have to, okay? Preferably with all your memories intact." He let out a nervous laugh as his eyes threatened to blur.

" The SGC won't be the same without you. SG1 definitely won't. We'll probably get stuck with some new bubbly scientist. Let's hope it's a woman though. I don't think SG1 could handle anymore testosterone. If Teal'c doesn't scare them off I think Jack's bickering and mine would drive them crazy. Did you know Jack and I used to bet when you would finally crack? You never did though. You were too strong, you are too strong." He shifted in his chair picking up her hand and stroking it.

" God, Sam, what are we going to do without you? You're the stargate's expert after all. What is going to happen to us without you out there? You were the first woman to travel through the gate. I was thinking about that earlier. It should go in history books, don't you think? It's not fair. No one is going to know that you sacrificed your life for everyone out there. It's all because this stupid high security thing!" He shouted to the officers at the door but they didn't even flinch. Tears were beginning to stream down his face now.

" How am I supposed to say good bye to you, Sam? You've been my one true friend. When I was younger I was a nerd, surprise right? I wasn't exactly drowning in friends. Even when I was surrounded by archeologists I still didn't fit in. The whole alien thing was too extreme even for them. And then there was Jack. I don't even know what to consider him. Of course there's Teal'c but it's different with him. Not you. You've always been there. You have always understood me too. With my parents dead I haven't have anyone understand me in a very long time. I don't know what I'm going to do without you." He sighed lightly placing Sam's hand back on her lap.

" When you're gone I'll have no one left. You know that right? That's why I can't lose you. Because now I really am alone."

Loving Officer

Daniel stayed with her for the next few hours. Only when Teal'c came by did Daniel decide to leave. Teal'c stood by the foot of the bed staring intently at his friend.

" I do not know what I am supposed to say," Teal'c admitted sheepishly, " On Chulak we honor a warrior with a ceremony. I will be most happy to perform one for you, Major Carter.

" It was an honor working with you. I've learned much from you. I only wish your time on this planet wasn't cut so short. You are a better warrior then most on Chulak. Ishta would enjoy your presence greatly. I would fight along your side for many years to come. I only wish I could have fought by your side during this battle. I am sure you fought with honor.

" On Chulak it is seldom for a man and woman to be equals, but I could have not wish for a better companion in this battle against the goa'uld. I promise you that one day we will defeat the goa'uld. You will not have died in vain."

Loving Daughter

It was well after dark before General Hammond made his way to the infirmary. After the failed attempts with Jacob he had a long conversation with the President. Then he had to send two teams off world and debrief another one. As much as it pained him to say it the SGC would have to go on without Major Carter.

He was reluctant to the infirmary. His mother had been on life support when she finally passed away. He didn't want to think about going through it again. As he walked into the infirmary the two airmen straightened.

" At ease, gentlemen," General Hammond ordered with a small catch to his voice. " If you could just wait outside." The two airmen nodded at the request and stepped outside.

Unable to avoid it any longer his gaze finally fell to Major Carter. He stood just staring at her for a while. Finally he said, " I should have known your death would be the hardest. I mean it's never easier, but normally it is at least a little easier. Death comes with the job, air force 101, right? Good men, good teams just disappear and I'm left to mourn them. I never have to watch them…

" This whole ordeal is making me rethink retirement. In the air force everyone is supposed to be equal but we know better. Certain people just come closer to your heart, risk your judgment. You've been like a daughter to me, Major Carter.

" I don't know what's going to happen when you're gone. I don't think any of us ever thought what would happen if you ever left.

" I was on the phone with the President earlier today. I explained everything to him and gave him some options. He says if you become Tokr'a you could no longer live on Earth or work on this base. He feels you'd be a liability. We're running out of choices here, Major Carter. Even if we kept you alive we'll still lose you. It'd all be for nothing.

" At the end of the year I'll be handing in my resignation. I'm not going to lose another member of my family." He kissed her on the forehead patting her hand. And then he left. He didn't know what else to say. In all his years in the air force he had never met a Major quite like Samantha Carter, nor did he think he ever would. And that thought killed him.

Loving Person

As the General left, the guards resumed their positions. No one else came to visit Major Carter. Sure, a captain here or there poked their heads in the windows. Everyone on base knew of Samantha Carter. The " accident" was supposed to be kept quiet but by noon it was all anyone was thinking about. Sergeant Davis watched her for a couple of minutes. He and the Major hadn't been friends, but unlike the Colonel she was always unconditionally nice to him. Lieutenant Haley stopped in for a few seconds before she brushed away watery eyes and dashed out. Colonels she had momentarily served under stopped by the door but refused to enter. Many officers thought of stopping by the infirmary but couldn't. They all planned to attend her funeral but few could bring themselves to look at the lifeless body.

Even fewer noticed Colonel Jack O' Neill standing in a hidden corner outside the infirmary.

He stood there with his hands jammed in his pockets, as he watched a semi-hysterical Daniel, a composed looking Teal'c, a sunken faced General, and many others enter and exit the infirmary. By two in the morning, the airmen were allowed to leave their post. General Hammond had retired to his quarters for some much needed rest. The lights were dimmed to cause an eerie glow. A handful of guards were positioned in various spots on the base. Activity was, well, dead.

Jack winced at the metaphor he had just used.

He had been positioned in the hallway for about ten hours, now he was done. It was time for him to go home. He tucked his leather jacket protectively under his arm as he stared at the door. He had been staring at this door all day. There was a small dent on the door. His best guess was it was from a gurney crashing into the door, or a person for that matter. He had noticed it awhile back while staring at the door. It helped to pass time, to distract him.

Since hardly anyone was left on base Jack had to use his swipe card. The room was pitch black. Jack robotically flipped on the light switch. He and his teammates had spent so much time in the infirmary that he knew it from memory.

He half imagined Janet Frasier bustling around the infirmary. If only she was still alive. O' Neill withdrew a sharp breath. He hadn't thought about Janet in a long time. If she were here things would have been different. Carter might still be-

No it was pointless. Janet wasn't here. Instead they were relying on a bunch of doctors who's best idea was to stick a snakehead in her. Not a chance in hell.

Carter's skin looked a light shade of blue. Bruises, cuts, stitches, it all just seemed so unCarter like. A life support machine beeped annoyingly at O' Neill.

His 2IC, his closest friend, his beep beep beep

Why must it make that aggravating sound? Jack thought angrily.

Her feet were awkwardly poking out from under the covers. Jack lightly tugged the blankets to cover them. She always had cold feet. Hadn't the doctors read her file? Well he highly doubted 'cold feet' was something that went down in someone's file. It was the kind of things her close friends knew. Janet had known. He tossed his leather jacket on the bed next to her and sat down on Daniel's chair. " So, Carter," He half expected her to respond. She didn't.

" There's a lot that needs to be said Carter. Hell, everyone needs to talk to you. It just seems so sudden. We all felt that we had more time. We kept telling ourselves one more day, one more month, what could it hurt? But, man now it hurts.

" I think we took your genius for granted. You could've taught us so much more if we had only listened. I can't wait 'til Siler tries to figure out the stargate without you. I bet his head spins." He grew quiet. What were they going to do without her?

" I probably won't have another chance to say this. It won't mean much now anyways." He took a deep breath before continuing. " I'm sorry, Carter. We should have left sooner. I should have followed my instincts and because we slipped up you had to pay…"

Why was he having such a hard time saying this? He had been thinking about it all day. Besides she couldn't hear him anyway. Uncomfortable silence lasted for what felt like hours.

" I finished the crossword. I believe you owe me twenty bucks now. Okay, so maybe they're not all right but that doesn't matter, right? You know something, Carter? I think this is the first conversation we've ever had where you haven't totally confused me." His smile faded. " Sorry. You know this wise ass sense of humor of mine. Always getting me into trouble.

" SG1 never lost a member of its team before. We've been close, oh God we've been so close. Daniel's left, Daniel's died, Teal'c has betrayed us, you've been possessed, it's just death hasn't stuck to us. Not until now at least. I guess it's kind of ironic, with everything being like this.

" I don't think the realizations hit yet. You don't strike me as the dying type, Carter. That probably sounded really stupid, huh? But it's true. You were too smart. And you've got a mean right hook. Not like the rest of us. Well Daniel, he's too nice for his own good. Thinks that everyone is, well you know how he is. And Teal'c. Badass that he is, he's just got too many enemies. And of course me. I'm just too damn handsome. All those snakeheads just don't have a sense of humor. The point is you just always seemed to be the one who would survive." He jumped out of his chair and walked across the room.

" Damnit, Carter!" He slammed his hand against the wall. He was now yelling but he didn't care. " Why did you go to that god damn planet? Why didn't you get out of this when you could? You shouldn't have gone." His voice dropped and he closed his eyes. " You were the one person who wasn't expendable."

He didn't remember ever using that tone with her before and immediately clamped his mouth shut. He had to get out of there fast before he had another outburst. He grabbed his leather jacket and began to walk out. Turning back, he stared at her while turning out the light.

" Who ever thought you'd be the first solider down?"