Chapter 1 - What's Missing

Hello! This was my first Gundam Seed fan fic so don't be cruel. My name is Jessica for those of you who don't know. I often review to fan fics anonymously under the name Jessica, don't suspect that every review named that is me though!

I wrote this story before Nicol died, after Lacus had gotten off the Archangel, you know the time I'm talking about right? This is based on my impression of them at that point. Ok, on with the story. P.S. This IS the first one I began, not the first I finished, nor the first I posted.

Hi to all my Angel Charms reviewers that might be reading this story! Sorry if this one isn't as great as Angel Charms but I wrote the first 8 chapters a while ago and then kinda...forgot about it. But I still think it's good, and funny.

This is the summary I wanted to put, but it made my story sound crazy and it was too long. -clears throat-

"Yzak is stuck on the fact that Athrun is conspiring against them, Captain Ramius and Mu La Flaga are unusually kind and believing, Dearka's bored, Nicol wants to play piano, Flay is evil, Kira's friends are insignificant after a minute, Kira defends Athrun, and this all started because of a single phone call."


Athrun Zala was in his home, taking some much needed off time from work. Of course he was ready to leave at any moment, and he would only be called if absolutely necessary. At the moment he was in the shower, just standing there letting the water rush over him.

Athrun had been feeling different lately. He didn't know what, but something was different. It was as if something was...missing. But what could be missing? Athrun had a fiancee who was beautiful, good at singing, and kinder than anyone he knew here in the Plants. He had a good position in the army and everything seemed to be going fine.

Athrun turned off the water and got out of the shower. He dried off and got dressed. Then he walked out into the main room were there was a mirror. He looked into it at his reflection, slightly wet. His face showed no emotion, but Athrun wasn't looking there. He was staring into the eyes of the man reflected there, into his own eyes. There...that's where the emotion was sealed away. Sadness was in his eyes. But why?

No...it wasn't fine. The fact that Athrun was active in this war was the reason for some of his problems. But still, that wasn't it either. He punched the wall next to the mirror and stared at the floor. What was it?

The fact that there was something missing, mixed with the fact that he didn't know what it was, it frustrated him. The pictures on the desk near him shook when he hit the wall, but he didn't look at them. If he had, Athrun would have come face to face with a picture of himself and Kira.

He put on some shoes and his coat, thenwalked outside. Maybe I just need some air... he thought.

He walked, and walked. Athrun just let his feet carry him. His mind was blank for the most part, in his mind all there was was a thick fog. Everything was concealed. He couldn't think, he couldn't find any reason for there to be so much sadness in his eyes, why there should seem to be anything missing.

When Athrun's feet stopped and he looked up, he saw that he had been led to a park. The park? Confused as he was to the reason he was here, Athrun walked inside none the less. The park was a beautiful place, it reminded him of Lacus's home gardens. He took a deep breath of air as he reached the tallest hill.

Athrun looked around. The park was beautiful, but beyond that. All he saw were roads, buildings, and other metal stuff that was kept in tip-top condition and was cleaned every morning and night, when traffic was slower. He glared involuntarily at the city.

Why? Why is there so much gray and white in my life? It's almost as it I'm devoid of color. His glare remained on his face as he watched everyone driving somewhere on business or break. What's missing? he yelled in his mind.

A picture flashed momentarily in his head. His glare turned immediately into wide, unbelieving eyes. He was no longer in a world of gray and white metal with bits of color in certain places. He was no longer in that park, on that plant. Instead, Athrun stood on a sidewalk. All around him were trees in bloom with blossoms blowing softly off their branches and onto the ground. There was green grass around him, and a small, none populated road near him.

He didn't understand. How did I get here? I haven't been in a place like this since- his sentence was cut off when he heard voices. Athrun turned his head and now realized that there were two boys standing a few feet away. So close, yet they and their voices seemed so far away. Everything here seemed to be in the lightest of mists now.

"Do you have to leave?" Came the voice of one of the boys. Athrun's eyes widened just slightly as he recognized the voice.

"Don't worry. You'll be joining us soon, won't you?" The other boy said. Athrun couldn't move. This...was all familiar. It's just a memory...

"But what if there's a war? You'll be caught in the middle of it." The first boy said, his brown hair blowing slightly in the wind.

"Don't worry Kira, there isn't going to be a war." Athrun heard the younger form of himself say. But the comment had come from his mouth too, without trying. The words seemed so familiar, but at the same time they were words that it seemed he had never spoken.

"When will I see you again?" Kira asked.

"I'm not sure. But until we meet again in the Plants, take this." Little Athrun handed a green and yellow mechanical bird to Kira. Kira took it, and Athrun saw the same sadness that had appeared in his eyes, in Kira's. He didn't remember seeing that sadness before. "His name is Birdie." Little Athrun said before a voice called, from even further away, and Athrun turned to leave.

"But..." Kira stuttered.

"Don't worry Kira. I never want to get involved in any war. It won't happen, so stop worrying." Younger Athrun reassured his friend. Kira nodded and Athrun took off.

Athrun stood there, still unable to move, as Kira watched the other Athrun walk away. He too, seemed unable to move. Athrun tried, and succeeded in moving. He took a step forward, and extended his hand, as if to lay it on Kira's and comfort him. But before he could, Athrun saw the city again.

He saw the city he called his home. He was still standing on that hill, gazing out over the city. But now Athrun knew something he hadn't before. That hole, the thing that was missing...was his best friend. What Athrun lacked...

...was Kira.


Ok! First chapter is done. Sorry if the conversation is wrong. Two things! #1 I haven't seen the entire series. #2 I made that conversation up. Because I either never heard it, or don't remember what they say. Most likely it's the ladder of the two. Ok, Please Review.

The-not-author- Hi. I think she got the conversation right. Don't you -stoic-glare-to-electrocute-all-non-believers-

Note From Author : Sometimes it may seem so, but this is NOT Yaoi. And Reb, don't scare my potential reviewers, please?