Disclaimer:I do not own Full Moon Wo Sagashite or any of Ryu's songs(from Winter Ballad) in this/these chapter(s).

A/N:Sorry but I lied.After a while (actually after a few months) I finally got good songs for this fiction so,sorry about the lie about writing the next chapter with a FMWS song.

Chapter 3:You are not real…

I almost fainted from shock just from seeing you,Takuto.I was ready to get a heart attack when you smirked.

"Ha,got you huh,Mitsuki?"

I didn't really understand what he meant until I saw him transform into what I dreaded most for him to be,Izumi Rio.

"….I knew it…he wouldn't be here to see me…….."

I whispered.Even though I knew it wasn't possible,I still had hope it would be him.I felt like crying but not a tear came.Izumi gave a small laugh.I thought he was teasing me but I knew he wasn't.

"I was just joking Mi-ki.Please don't cry.If Takuto was here,he would have been hating me for doing such a thing to you but I couldn't help it.You needed to be tricked by something to get the old Mi-ki back but I guess you've gotten more serious now,huh?"

asked Izumi.I nodded silently without speaking.For 2 years,I stopped becoming the weak but persistent Mitsuki everyone always took care of.I decided to be strong but still persistent without anybody taking over me.I tried my best to do that,without help from the people dearest to me.I tried to act strong without Meroko,Izumi,Jonathan…..Takuto……near me anymore.But,it was hard trying to forget about them,even though it sounded easy.Everyday,I would look out the window and think to myself,"They aren't here anymore.Now I have to be strong and serious".Nobody said anything to me about my characteristics changing until Izumi said I've gotten more serious than before.I was happy but I was also sad at the same time.Half of me wanted to be strong while the other half wanted me to stay as my normal self without changing.I took the changing path but it was hard to go through it.But while going through this path,I started thinking if this is what Takuto wants.If he did see me right now,will he fall for me?If he still had his memories,will he still love me?As I thought,I found a solution but I didn't like it so much.It made me reconsider the path I chose.I started to remember that Takuto loved me when I was myself.He didn't want me to change.He said so himself in the forest….

"Even though you were weak,you never gave up.Thats the part I like about you that makes me want to hold you in my arms"

I cherished those words he said.But now I regretted the path I chose.Now that I made it this far,will I really keep it or will I give it up and go to the other path?I felt like crying now,I wanted to let it out but I didn't want Izumi to see.All I did was smile at him,which made him startled abit.

"Watch my concert that will be in a month and you will see if im really serious or not"

(1 month later…..)

"Mitsuki-chan,are you ready?Its time for the concert!"

cried Ooshige-san.I gave her a reassuring smile to show that I was ready.Ooshige-san looked at me excitedly and pushed me on stage.I was kind of embarrassed seeing everyone getting ready for the concert.I even saw Izumi floating above everyone staring at me like a hawk.I waved at my fans and at Izumi but no one noticed that I was waving at him too.As soon as I was done,a lady came up onto the stage.

"Hello everyone!Welcome to Mitsuki's second concert!Today Mitsuki will be singing a song from her album,'Love Notes'!"

cried the lady.Everyone was roaring which made me giggle abit.Soon,the lights went dark and everyone was all quiet.A tune came up and I was going to sing.

"You will never come back to me and you cant do it,

please stop doing so,you comfort me like this…"

Takuto….even though I hope for you to come back,you will never do.You dont….no,you cant because you don't remember me.All those times we had together,are they really real?Is it okay for you to remember them?Of course,that should be an obvious answer but as you think about it…you might reconsider.Now that you're a human and not a shinigami,you can live the life you've always wanted to.But,if you do that….then you don't need me anymore.I was part of your shinigami life,not your human life.Even though its right for you to love me,even if its been 2 years,you should move on now.

"If I cant see you again,I want to forget

all about you that hold me"

If this is how everything's going to be…I want to forget about everything I did with you.I want to forget I even meant you.I want to forget the times we've spent together.I want to forget everything about you.It would tear my life apart if I cant see you again so the best thing for me to do is to forget.But even if I do forget,it would hurt me not to remember about you.I loved you so much….why must it be so hard?

"Whenever I want to laugh,you make me cry…

You keep me from doing even one thing I want…

Whenever I miss you,you break me down like this

Even though I try to forget,I cannot do it"

I still remember all those times when we talked…you would always make me sad,even though you were right.It would hurt me to know that you were correct but I knew telling the truth is not as bad as lying.When I don't see you,I would be worried.Even now,I still miss you.I would break down like when something stops working.I would wait for your return,even if I knew you might never,since you don't remember.I looked so strong and serious but in the inside,im a weak girl.Even though I try to brush it off,I cannot do it.

"And that everyone,is the song "The Beginning Until Now"!Thank you for coming and I hope you like the concert!"

cried the lady after I was done.Everyone started leaving one by one except Izumi.I started to stare into space until someone tapped me on the back.I turned around,just to see Izumi looking quite amazed.I had a questioning look on my face which made him chuckle.

"Hmph,Mi-ki,you never changed one bit,huh?You still sound like before.Keep it up and maybe you might get a surprise…."

And Izumi disappeared right before my eyes.I started to wonder what he meant by "surprise" but my thoughts were interrupted when Ooshige-san called me.I quickly went to her so she could drive me back to my hotel.


I looked at the ceiling as the sky turned dark.I was already in bed,even though it was only 7 o' clock.I didn't felt like staying up so I decided to sleep early.Things were spinning in my head with ideas and thoughts about Takuto.I tried to empty my mind but it was no use.I sighed in disbelief but in my heart,I knew I was glad to have my mind filled with everything about you,Takuto.But then,I realized something I never thought about this whole time…

"Are you okay without me…?"

End of Chapter 3

A/N:Yay!Im finally updated this story!Sorry it took so long!I needed to find a better song and I finally thought of one!I used this song because it really match of what I was writing.I know,it kind of took me a long time but I'm currently writing another story on paper so I was getting writers block for any other story on this site.I hope you like this chapter since I put my heart into it(especially the first chapter).Next chapter will be about Takuto's life so don't worry!Now,review!